stop the play

prod secre 2025

headphone music

Keeping Me High

its 6pm and im smoking a joint watching cars drive by.

vocals by me and rouri 
art by phixel


wut do u want frm me?
i been silently waiting 4 u to leave
its a problem with u & not a problem w me
i been stuck in place, not moving constantly
u think ur safe w/ ur back trned
dnt feel surprised when this blade makes ur neck hurt
jus close ur eyes & wish 4 things to get bettter
acid lies always burning thru my sweatshirt

YOUTUBE

problem with u ft. rouri404 (yungspoiler)

i need this ft skele

heather

burbank house

stream "pluck"
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lyrics:

[intro]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment

[verse 1]
Try not to think about it
Just breathe, they'll all see, no way around it
Yeah
There ain't a need to doubt it
Don't give her the chance to wonder where you found it
Oh (I fucking hate you now)
Don't wanna mess this up (nothing you say could help me escape this hell and)
You never gave enough (you play the game so well)
You kinda fucking suck (trying to figure how not to break and tell you)
So

[pre-chrous]
I throw my phone against the wall
Yeah I hate it when she calls 'cause
She asks me what do we do
(um)

[chorus]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment

[verse 2]
Babe leave
Or I will
Guess you don't want me enough to care how I feel
I know you got places to go don't fucking lie to me
I saw the hearts on your phone so fuck your honesty
Honestly
Yeah maybe I should have listened
Maybe it was my fault there's some shit I've been missing
I guess you moved on but my hearts been conditioned
I'm sorry but baby I think I've made my decision
So I

[pre-chrous]
I throw my phone against the wall
Yeah I hate it when she calls 'cause
She asks me what do we do
(um)

[chorus]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment
She said I don't care I guess you fucking hate me now
I don't know how
But you lost me in your dreams
I wish I knew how it started
I'll go back to my apartment

pluck

prod hiraeth
just trying things, sorry if not best

is this as bad as before?
laid out on the floor
how can you claim you wanna know
with all my messages ignored

i don’t think you really understand
i told you alr we wont last
told me where i cut it’s getting bad
but i don’t care,
you wish i never had

fucked up got my head in my hands
i won’t love, you get it all on-demand
no thoughts, running dry like the sand
don’t leave ur all i have

step away from the door i won’t let you in
i don’t wanna tell you what is happening
leave me outside in the cold again
nothing to say
we’re at the start of the end

leave me alone
i don’t wanna try but ur arguing
i have anxiety
they’re watching me
I’m tryna quit
you don’t really know me
feel like im nothing but misery
I’m tryna find a way to block out what you did to me
you can call me useless
least i had a fucking ounce of trust
let go of everyone
I’m struggling to give you up
you don’t really want me
i had everything and fucked it up
is this a sign that i should stop pretending how to love

step away from the door i won’t let you in
i don’t wanna tell you what is happening
leave me outside in the cold again
nothing to say
we’re at the start of the end

start of the end

prod slicky

@oldcollin

luv u niz

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picture taken by @luckiwitch on instagram

instigate (p slicky)

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

how could i be worse then i was before
i keep writting songs
and you all want more
every word i say is just getting ignored
but youre wanting more
but youre wanting more

i dont know how i can keep going like this
ive got nothing left ive got nothing to give
can anyone hear me 
are you listening 
does no one relate to the words that i sing

i feel like no ones even trying to help me
not helping

cut my hair dow
worked on myself
why do i still feel like no one

savour my loss
hope youre drowning 
you wont let me out of this hell

cut my arms down to the flesh
ive been alone for
so many years

all these people
want my best
but i cant seem to deliver it

drag me to the top of the bridge
tell me to jump
i wont even hesitate, overthink 
i want it to stop
cause baby youre all that i have
all that ive got
and im dealing with it so bad
im fucking it up
im not unique 
im so replaceable 
and for the last few weeks 
ive been unbearable
i better sort my shit
before you break it off
and though i try so bad
im never safe at all

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

perfect

lyrics -
hard to think there's no way, incredible
you had him take my place
then one of you
tried to drag my name so i wanna know
what part u had to play cos' i'm sick of u

and it's funny cos' i think you've gone and lost it
got your hand on the button saying 'watch this'
and my hand's under the table as i hear you
staring as i came into the room but i don't see you

why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?
why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?

S.O.S i caved
but i'm still alive barely
tried to beat the struggle but got lost along the way
went too far alone, no rest 
and took it on myself to prove the dark would coat the day
hard to show love most days
no compassion from my friends
but i love that i pulled through
never know for certain
but i'm glad that i'll be home soon

scared to death of life i'll
battle through the pain and kick it off so
don't you ever worry i'm okay, love
cos' i don't really care no not at all though
stick a sword straight through me, watch me bleed out
i won't say a word i'll make you feel that
this moment that we're in will never end
a new life for us will grow
begin

freeze baby, put your hands to your head
'this is love?' she said
i don't get this or the conversation
i ain't good with stress
i can't clean the mess you left
great now it's complicated
just put the gun away, love
there's no time to fight me, we'll figure you out
take my hand and slowly we'll figure this out

i could steal my heart right back
give me fuckin credit cos' i'm loving all that
trauma that you're giving when you're thinking too fast
take another pill i'm sure it'll slow u down

~ fear

Produced by @leftquiet and me :) 
Out on Spotify :P

who are we 
to some degree
everything I touch Will break 

These things I think 
I shouldn't blink 
Death might be the only way 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain

CRAWL

self prod
guitar by hiraeth
<3


in ur own ways
tell me where u stand
no. its not 2 faced
dont understand
is all that you take
left the way u found it? 
now this i cant shake
not this, i doubt it

Maybe on a different day
You’d have been nice to me
Maybe in some different ways
U formed apologies
If the weather was a different type 
Would u still be with me?
Cloudy, with seafret in sight 
Does that mean anything?
its the way that you are
i thought you loved that i hated myself, not to mention
my critiques are poor
theres nothing left in this hollow, ashen and hes tarnished
to
no ones support
i probably could do more
baby watch me fumble, every chance i get in love
im
cutting down my line
is that what you planned for my life ?
its clearly out of spite, youve done it 3 or 4 more times

shake w/ hiraeth

lyrics

[maesk]
in the forest theres an eye
and without a question i would risk my life
fast forward the time
and now its just u and i
i'll be swaying like the leaves when u hang me out to dry

it's like a wishing well u throw me in and then u question why
why the worlds so cruel while tears fall from the sky
settled in my head
i'm settled in my mind
'coz the scenes move quickly
i'm already climbing out

wish u well
wish u well
go back to ur defences 
u know the system runs this town

brain moves fast where ur blood it starts to rise
u got a chain reaction like theres dust in ur eyes
i don't wanna lie
it's hard to change u in this mind
getting closer to the exit
but there were things i couldn't wield

i couldn't seal
ur broken heart was never real
plenty times it would detonate 
but u were there to fully heal

u healed my heart and i'm thankful for that
but i see scars on my mental torment
was it that bad?
was it that bad?
i can't tell what is real
'coz i'm on both si- both sides when I feel

[notahero]

shadows of the dominion

shadows of the dominion ft notahero (secre)

(prod. secre & sorrow bringer)

bathe in the blood of my past i’m numb 
vitamin d i don’t need it, no sun 
yeah, half of time i don’t think that i’m worth it 
so i think i’m finished, i think that i’m done 
writing these scriptures 
sometimes i paint your pictures 
other times i kill my liver 
i dunno what to do i suffer
honestly i’m just to pussy to do it 
suicidal but i know what i’m doing 
funny i take all these drugs that don’t help me 
act like they do, yeah that i’m stupid 
turn the auto tune up, yeah i hate my voice 
keep on making all this music, i don’t have a choice
get no plays acting like i do not get annoyed
then i cry alone, use it as background noise
yeah, yeah, yeah, fuck 
i don’t see the point anymore i fucking hate it
this scene got me feeling some ways and i’m jaded
at this point i’m not sure what i’m saying

what am i even saying

your hair still covers my bed

Thank you for listening:)

Produced by secre https://soundcloud.com/prodsecre

Stream: https://share.amuse.io/JsGMDyYoQwft

Lyrics:

from a place called home
i have lost my attatchment
long way to go
it's a longer way back
and i
don't really seem to mind
have i changed for the worse?
i don't think i'm getting back to
the person you deserve
i'm afraid i've lost track 
of time
that i have spent blind

i don't think i'm doing okay
but i don't have the time or energy in me to face that
instead i tend to run away
find comfort in your face and in your words
and i hate that i
can't seem to go one day
without getting in my own way
i know that i'm the only one to blame
but it's hard to not be able to say that i'm

from a place called home
i have lost my attatchment
long way to go
it's a longer way back
and i
don't really seem to mind
have i changed for the worse?
i don't think i'm getting back to
the person you deserve
i'm afraid i've lost track 
of time
that i have spent blind

i just need a little more
i think i just need a little more time
but i think i've told you that before
think you've heard that lie
i just need a little more
i think i just need a little more time
but i think i've told you that before
think you've heard that lie

from a place called home
i have lost my attatchment
long way to go
it's a longer way back
and i
don't really seem to mind
have i changed for the worse?
i don't think i'm getting back to
the person you deserve
i'm afraid i've lost track 
of time
that i have spent blind

a place called home (secre)

prod. by me https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor
featuring https://soundcloud.com/hoeplessboy

[nvr nvmbr]
my wrist like a freezer
i’m drinkin’ tequila 
this ain’t Aquafina

i’ll bleed, i’m anemic
she said that she needs it
i’m watchin’ her fiendin’, ohhh

i flow like i’m chosen
the city, it’s frozen
she said that i’m goated, ohhh

she’s givin’ me throat
then i’m sendin’ her home
can’t let her get me out my zone

i’m fillin’ my chalice with blood
‘cause i don’t give a fuck
EQ out the mud
now she suckin’ my nuts

i’m with Zane in the truck
you know that we’re drunk
your bitch in the cut
& she’s tryna get fucked

i’ll blow out my brain tonight
i think that i’m goin’ insane tonight
she’s grabbin’ on both of my chains tonight
i thought i never could change, i might

sick to my stomach
fall; feel it plummet
i’m reachin’ towards something
but receivin’ nothing

save time by dyin’ 
‘cause i’m dead inside
you’ll be alright
when i leave you behind

i swear that i’m tryin’ 
& i need you tonight
just come & say hi
can’t get you off my mind..

you know i’ma demon
i’m tweakin’ & geekin’
she’s eatin’ my semen

i ain’t got a reason
you know that i’m leavin’
‘cause you left me bleedin’, ohh

i told you i need it
you changed like a season
i’m way off the deep end

i’m scarin’ my friends & my family
losin’ my sanity
i know that i’ll die in the snow

my wrist like a freezer 
i’m drinkin’ tequila
this ain’t Aquafina

i’ll bleed, i’m anemic
she said that she needs it
i’m watchin’ her fiendin’, ohhh

she’s actin’ so trife 
so i’m grabbin’ my knife
then i’m takin’ that bitch for a ride

[hoepless]
takin’ that bitch for a ride
smokin’ all night but i’m never alright
forgot about her but you stay on my mind
never on his but your always on mine

i’m at home, i’m poppin’ these benzos 
crash this whip it’s a rental 
need her heart but i took her life
that ain’t what i meant tho

you wanna say that you miss me
i wanna say that i miss you
you’re alright when i took your heart
i ain’t know it was ice cold

right time but the wrong hoe
i don’t know what I’m gon’ do
you don’t know that I’m upset
you don’t even know I let you go

you don’t know what I meant
you don’t know how I go
you don’t know how I am
you don’t know how I roll

you don’t know how I am
you don’t know how I go
you don’t know how I am
you don’t know how I go..

tequila

iTunes

nonprofit soundcloud exclusive 

lyrics:
There’s Still some pain inside 
the chest 
I keep my diamonds in 
I’m so obsessed 
with all the thoughts I’m having 
Inside my head 
All these melodies drive me crazy I wish that I could get them Outside my head 
your energy was so damn contagious but now it’s poisoning me 
I wish that this was a dream 
cause at least then I could awake
Awake
From the pain 
The pain

outsidemyhead (prod. secre x wraith)

i have 76+ hours on the oblivion remake already... talos save me

Praying To The Nines (prod. Ushanka Boy)

freestyle dont feel like writing lyrics yet sorry

SOMEWHERE SAFE (PROD. SECRE + XELFIY)

lyrics ⬇️

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me
i hate the ridicule i feel like this is hide and seek
switch perspectives for a second maybe you would see
its not really all that perfect in this deep blue sea
i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 
nevermind the thoughts i had of what it coudlnt be
cuz i dont think too much or at all when i fall asleep
and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep
ur the only thing in my thoughts I miss all the dreams
it was nice that I escaped my sick reality
but now i gotta go right back to find my inner peace 

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me

i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 

and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep

now that I can’t fall asleep (secre)

AFTERLIFE (FT. STAGGY) [PROD. CMAK]

Sudden Moves *prod. ilynedia*

PROD: JOLST + SECRE
MASTER & MIX: KAIS & DIAMOON
PROJECT MANAGEMENT: BITEKI
COVER ART: BITEKI

SPOTIFY

VICTXRW, LIL SKELE, SEWERPERSON, RESIDENTIAL & FRVR - PLEASE SAY YOU LOVE ME

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//ごめんなさい//

@tothegood

lacuna

follow tothegood

blue (prod. tothegood)

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//私は私の心を失った//

i recently purchased a new ukulele after i gave mine away back in november, so i thought it'd only make sense to whip up a fresh uke track for you guys. i hope you enjoy it. 

i love you <3

lyrics
--------
this song brings on the weather
tear drops upon my sweater
i cry in bed whenever
i see you guys together
fuck love it's all a lie
i can't sleep i rather die
than see that look in your eye
it sucks that i'm not your guy

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

i packed my bags last week
sunrise and i'm on my feet
let's skip town and chase our dreams
cause this place ain't what it seems
come home let's synchronize
my soft lips caress your thighs
you get me so fucking high
the voices in my head collide 

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

keep your voice down
she don't care no
i can't breathe i've got no air 
no sympathy for my despair
i cut my wrists and grow my hair 
i'm outta my mind

i think you're really cool

Lyrics:

everything changed in the blink of an eye now im lost in the crowd
wish it was quiet but thoughts are the loudest when no ones around
no im not proud of the way that i handled myself
wish things were different and i could start over
and wake up a new place be somebody else x2
cause
you told me that from the start, said that we cant get attached
said it would tear us apart, said that it would never last
now laying there in my bed
cant get you out of my head and im dreading the day that you decide to throw me away, o what a shame
maybe i should save myself, some inevitable pain

I need to know where your heads at cause lately i dont know
if i can keep up this act pretend that i dont care at all
weve been talking everyday but still i feel like somethings wrong
would you pls pick up yer phone i dont wanna be alone again (aye)
you could let me love you till the night ends~
then wake up in the morning say were just friends~
and if thats what you want ill make it happen~
i guess that it'd be better than nothing~
need to know where your heads at cause lately i dont know
if i can keep up this act pretend that i dont care at all
weve been talking everyday but still i feel like somethings wrong
would you pls pick up yer phone i dont wanna be alone again

you would let me love you till the night ends
wake up in the morning say were just friends
guess that it'd be better than nothing
it would be better than nothing

better than nothing ~ [p. discent]

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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a place called home (secre)

Yokai Dreams