Kev’s 10/10’s

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Winter ‘22-‘23

Chill

Hyper Light Drifter via Baths

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead

lyrics
(cyzun)
You tell me that you love me but I really don’t see it
I’ve been lying on the floor eyes glued to the ceiling
I really wanna die but you gave me a reason
Heart so fucking cold you must be a heathen
Why you gotta act like this
You fucking up my life n shit
Sparked a blunt n took a hit
I’ve been waiting for the end of it
Feel like Gucci I’m so sick of this
Grab the gun I’m gonna end this quick
Like the ocean my head will split
I’m talkin bout that Moses shit

(autumndropsdead)
let the ocean split, i could make a list
for every time i fucking lied
 it would've made you pissed
i'm sorry about that again
how long ago did it get to your head?
i know you aren't proud
yeah you hate me now
cause i turned out fine
let me lay it out
every night i'd cry
but would never shout
holding on for life
till the truth comes out
i'd take my spine, and tear it out
i can't bare it all
i got too much weight
and it really stings
so i contemplate 
i'll let my body hang
and they just say to let it roll over
they say i'm extraordinary..
and i'll admit it's kinda scary

(cyzun)
You tell me that you love me but I really don’t see it
I’ve been lying on the floor eyes glued to the ceiling
I really wanna die but you gave me a reason
Heart so fucking cold you must be a heathen

heathen w/ autumndropsdead (ahnboi)

// chorus
such a cost to pay
watch it all go in flames
if i could explain
would it all end the same?
but I can’t convey,
simple thoughts in my brain
well I guess, checkmate
yeah I lost, what a shame

// verse (envy)
everything will fall apart if you just give it time, oh no
and I'm not fine and you're not far
my pieces too misaligned, oh yea
and im not trying to waste your time
so there's no need to put on a show
and i might call you once or twice
cause i have a hard time letting go

the queen always corners the king
her shadows lingering
i feel my heart skip a beat as she sings
this is the end for me

// verse (geist)
this is the end for me
you’re getting close, i start to freeze
i’ll hold on to the memories
of times when we both had a dream

and i’ve been sick of overthinking
make your move i’ve lost my patience
there’s no way that I can make it
I’ll take the loss but,

// chorus
such a cost to pay
watch it all go in flames
and if i could explain
would it all end the same?
but I can’t convey,
simple thoughts in my brain
well I guess, checkmate
yeah I lost, what a shame

Spotify

checkmate w/ notenvy

Lyrics:

I just need to break down
dont make me do it out here
yea i cry ugly i swear
its not for ur eye i rip and tear
i used to follow certain morals
and never asked why first
does she give u mercy
when u beg her that it hurts

do no harm yea she preaches 
while she looks me in the eyes
and her pupils dialate 
as we read eachothers minds
memories flood back thru an air filled brain
she's the only one aware when she dish out pain
she wants to
bash me with a pipe wrench
wreak out fucking havoc
and i promise she would if we weren't at this party

yet the kiss comes easily
and the clothes follow and she's feeling me
yet the kiss comes easily
and the clothes follow and she's feeling me
she could never concentrate thru her rolled back eyes
physicalities distract us from our lust to die

i told her xpect the worst n u cant get hurt
but she’s an optimist and only heeds signs from the earth
u shouldve listened and detached urself as i do 
i'm not an oracle but i know how to survive here
on this foreign planet
and if i'm left here unattended i might cause some damage
they shoulda known i wasn't human when their virus didn't phase me
shoulda seen how i don't click with human beings as of lately

I just need to break down
dont make me do it out here
yea i cry ugly i swear
its not for ur eye i rip and tear
i used to follow certain morals
and never asked why first
does she give u mercy
when u beg her that it hurts

I just need to break down
dont make me do it out here
yea i cry ugly i swear
its not for ur eye i rip and tear
i used to follow certain morals
and never asked why first
does she give u mercy
when u beg her that it hurts

parking lot breakdown (branwen)

im sorry if i seem distracted
im really tryna live but im distracted
i know i said it twice atleast im aware
i always say things twice cause i know im not there
i know im not there
i know im not there
i know im not
ay my ghost has seen these trees all the time
and it'll see em baby, one more time
ay i cannot heal from this
oh
god 
no
its like a family that had planned out
but it never worked out 
i would try a thousand years
i would cry a thousand tears
its like a girl that gave you her heart
but you tore it apart
my life has never been in my hands 
and now i gotta pay the price
and fucking change it right
before i fuckin die
i wanna live
i wanna see what the world has to give
to me 
i gotta have hope
and i gotta be me 
i gotta see the brighter side
sweep me off my feet :(
am i gone today?
will i be okay?
i dont got no one asking me if ill be okay
aye aye
im tryna find the one for me
maybe lookin's not good for me
but i know if ion try imma never be alright
damn.

ay my ghost has seen these trees all the time
and it'll see em baby, one more time
ay i cannot heal from this
oh 
god 
no
its like a family that had planned out
but it never worked out 
i would try a thousand years
i would cry a thousand tears
its like a girl that gave you her heart
but you tore it apart.

i would try a thousand times..
i would stay a thousand nights..
you were gone but i was here..
i would never disappear.. 

im gone but aint disappear <3

sweep me off my feet (wisssery x jolst)

nothing is enough

Silent Hill

@sorrow x @juli - close to you (prod. sarcastic sounds)

:)

prod by this actual goober https://soundcloud.com/not-a-fucking-hero

https://twitter.com/DreamsYokai

stream: https://open.spotify.com/album/4SO6le1LMvrTajvgMq4eDY?si=7J4D5kgbSfiFLWqVohv-Ew

lyrics:

where do we go from here?
i don't really know
no, i don't really know much
got a lot on my conscience
bear the weight
only cuz you tell me that it's nonsense
try to stay calm
but my mind is a moshpit
and it's growing obnoxious

spend another late night
driving back from your place
didn't wanna stay there
i can't get to bed if i don't feel like i'm alone
cuz otherwise i think too much
they tell me live a real life
i am not familiar with what that would even feel like
i cannot relate to the feelings that you know
but you don't understand that much

i'll write you letters and letters and hope that you read them and call
don't think you read them at all

i'll write you letters and letters and hope that you read them and call
don't think you read them at all

apophenia (hero)

Smile

fantasyworld

don't mind me

tire smoke flies for some time to be vacant
while we smoke another blunt on the cracks of the pavement
seems I hurt every soul with a dart and a statement 
so I cover my face on the couch of this basement
swear I fuck up my life for my own entertainment

tire smoke flies for some time to be vacant
while we smoke another blunt on the cracks of the pavement
seems I hurt every soul with a dart and a statement 
swear I fuck up my life for my own entertainment

codeine bottles spilling on the road
got pissed off and threw my fucking phone
told me I should really let it go
haven't slept in weeks and now it shows

train is moving walking on the tracks 
storms are rolling, winters coming back
fucked around and made a couple stacks
I'll be home when the whips are black

should of got my shit together on my own
we were kids a couple weeks and now we grown
I can feel the fractured fragments in my bone
now I'm revving engines up until they blown

tire smoke flies for some time to be vacant
while we smoke another blunt on the cracks of the pavement
seems I hurt every soul with a dart and a statement 
so I cover my face on the couch of this basement

vacant (caves)

prod hira :)

in the end its only u and i
dont shed tears on a pillow if it isnt mine
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
u say theres something about me 
u dont have to lie
turning to nothing 
ur watching me die
fuck face he a parrasite
ill stab that bitch in the neck if he wanna fight
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
turning to nothing
ur watching me die

i heard u talking shit
so baby come a lil closer
tell it to my face so i can use it for some closure
god shes so embarrassing 
pretend i didnt know her
stabbing thru my chest 
i cant believe she said it wont hurt

that boy gonna piss from his eyes
u told me there's comfort inside
but ur presences still hunting me down
even my shit wanna drown

gimme some time 
i just need some patience
bodys on the floor 
i make em seem weightless
if he wanna die 
then we can arrange it
wasting all my time gambling my wages

gimme some space
i just need a minute
i left my soul on a bridge hoping that youd save it
you told me jump
so i did
and i hit the pavement
ive got nothing to give 
i dont think youre safe yet

in the end its only u and i
dont shed tears on a pillow if it isnt mine
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
u say theres something about me 
u dont have to lie
turning to nothing 
ur watching me die
fuck face he a parrasite
ill stab that bitch in the neck if he wanna fight
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
turning to nothing
ur watching me die

Stlwrnce nv2 (scottysplash X Eric Godlow)

96.2's 'The Flower Hour' hosted by Guardin

The Flower Hour (Nov. 23, 2022)

Written by Senzu ¥ and Giovanni 
Produced by Giovanni
Engineered by Giovanni 
Cover art made by Backyard beetle 
============================

Roads w/ Giovanni

turning cold (prod. slxxshy)

@vito2300
@tnvr555

I would cut my lifeline to see you shine
I can’t fill the gap left from you and I
Left home been outside for quite some time
I can’t bare to go back got too much pride
It’s unlike you
It’s unlike you
Everything in motion
Never follow through
You made it feel hopeless
Nothing more to lose
Oh

Set in stone
Everything I’ve known
Had to let it go
Someday when I’ve grown
I’ll be running back to
Moments when I had you

I hate to say I know you’re right
Games we play just wasting time
I vowed to keep you safe inside
But everything just escapes me sometimes

Everything just escapes me sometimes
And I won’t waste my breath on a goodbye

Oh love, I wish that you were right
But you just turn your head and lie
So tell me what is honesty to you?
Cause honestly I only want the truth
Why is that so hard to do?

I’m scared of the limelight
But I’m still chasing the fame to cope
And I’d give you my lifeline
Cause I only need two years at most
And I’m over wasting my time
On people who once left my side
Cause I’ve got too much fucking pride
To stay where I’ve been left behind

I would cut my lifeline to see you shine
I can’t fill the gap left from you and I
Left home been outside for quite some time
I can’t bare to go back got too much pride
It’s unlike you
It’s unlike you
Everything in motion
Never follow through
You made it feel hopeless
Nothing more to lose
Oh

Set in stone
Everything I’ve known
Had to let it go
Someday when I’ve grown
I’ll be running back to
Moments when I had you

I hate to say I know you’re right
Games we play just wasting time
I vowed to keep you safe inside
But everything just escapes me sometimes

Lifeline w/ VITO [TNVR]

Forget Forgive is the most personal track I’ve written so far. It’s a really intimate lyric about battling some pretty nasty demons and, in overcoming them, figuring out the kind of person you want to be. I wrote and recorded it all in one night (between the hours of 11PM and 4AM) in my home studio in Amsterdam. Just bass guitar, vocals and a sneaky little mellotron and kick towards the end. Some songs take ages to fine-tune and hone, but this one felt like I was just solidifying a strain of thought that had been flowing around inside my head for ages. Playing the song to other people actually always feels a bit icky, like reading an excerpt from my diary out in public. It’s super naked.

Forget Forgive

STAGES OF LOVE & HEARTBREAK

LOVE SUX

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

dm or email me for fts, mixes, whatever :)

Email: yokaidreams30@gmail.com

apophenia (hero)

Yokai Dreams