Осень/Well,i despise you.

a fat ass vibe mfs

Calm Sad Playlist

ty for listening <3
prod. i'm geist x deadfish x hiraeth
mixed/mastered by deadfish

@imgeist
@hiraethsry
@imnotenvy
@yokaidreams
@sleepywater
@deadfishpoland

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2MEwCgdk51OeRKs5vdbJZJ 
also up on itunes and apple music!

// lyrics
// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt
i gave up everything just to be the one left out
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// hiraeth
put your hands all on my body now i'm leaving
i don’t wanna hurt you bitch, i'm falling for a reason
give another reason, leave without a meaning
tell me that you love me, tell me that you miss him

i could run away and still nobody wanna know now
funny i meant everything until he wanna come round
leave it at the door and get your shit just on the way out
text him that you want him cause he knows you're on the way now

// notenvy
and i cant even look at myself dont feel the same i'm
trapped inside my own little hell you pin the blame you
took my heart it snapped and i fell you'll never say why
i've been steady feeling unwell what has this come to?
and i've been dying tryna get you outta my head
and i keep fucking crying over things you said
dont tell me that we'll ever have a chance again
cause i can't deal with trauma take my life instead

// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now !!!!!!!!

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now???!
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt???!
i gave up everything just to be the one left out???!
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// yokai dreams
you always jumped at a chance to slice up my ego
power your libido
take your time, suck the life out of everywhere that we go
emotional mosquito
she's undead never had a care
for the affairs of the living
take your heart and she grinning
as the clock strikes 10
honest men will head to bed
but she just started causing pain by the minute

// sleepwater
torment anxiety
what is inside of me
i'm broken, i'm destined to die
a loner, a puppet in disguise
soil is dirty, i'm drowning reserve me
i need you don't burn me, i'm liquid lurking

// deadfish
and i've tried to move on
yea i’ve tried to forget
but you just
seem to never wanna leave my head
so
i can never fucking see you again
you know that
i really need it to feel again

stop fucking calling and wasting my time
said that you’ll fix that, we know thats a lie
now that i’m gone you regret what you've done
when you are crying i’ll hide in my home

could you stop fucking up my entire life
telling everyone that i was just another guy
never said what you did, i’d never tell a soul
cause i'm better than this and i'm better than u

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out for blood! w/ hiraeth, notenvy, yokai dreams, sleepwater, deadfish

age tape 1

horror story

prod. @siemspark x @jkeibeats

lyrics
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go
she said baby take your time
have fun out on the road
life is but a dream but it depends on where you go
i’ve been meeting people that i hardly fucking know
hardly fucking know
so now i’m singing woah
this is all i ever dreamed about and god it shows
swimming through this liquor tryna rid of all my woes
something in my head is telling me to take it slow
please just take it slow

please just take it slow
i’ve been tryna pace it
by erasing who i know
lifting up my spirit
in a pirouette with ghosts
dancing with the devil
every time i fucking smoke
but they would never know
panic sits before me
in a newly painted coat
i just drank too much so baby
please don’t rock the boat
fully automatic i go manic in these notes
this is what i wrote
this is what i wrote

she can tell from my eyes that i’m jetlagged
i’m not talking enough i regret that
my coding is fucked but i cracked that
i put my whole life in this backpack
and i’m hoping that i never backtrack

i hope this is forever
my life put together
a mere apparition
of me doing better
i’m sick of this weather
debating on whether
i’m writing this letter
for me or for everyone

jetlag (prod. siem spark x jkei)

prod me 

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pls enjoy :)

lyrics:

so maybe we could
get a little bit closer
some closure would be nice right now
i didn't wanna fall in love in the first place
watched as the worst case played right out
i been chasing stars
living like the dreams say
you've been driving cars,
i've been driving myself insane
so maybe we could
get a little bit closer
some closure would be nice right now

hey
hello
there's something you should know
i've been burning up internally
and you provide the coal
wait
don't go
when i need you the most
out the door and slammed it,
didn't even leave a note

wonder where you are
i'm a damn mess
leaving me in pieces
broken thru my heart
but i love the feeling way too much

so maybe we could
get a little bit closer
some closure would be nice right now
i didn't wanna fall in love in the first place
watched as the worst case played right out
i been chasing stars
living like the dreams say
you've been driving cars,
i've been driving myself insane
so maybe we could
get a little bit closer
some closure would be nice right now

fall back in line
we were loved in the past tense
u read my last text, did not reply
give me a break
when will i grow from damage
u are the sparks flying round in my mind

dunno how to feel when u feeling like that
but the weight u placed started killing my back
i'm a ways from the make that's built for this case
but i'll do my best i can guarantee that
be it rain or shine, be it day or night
imma stay right here while you walk right by
imma wait for the day when u look at me the way i look at u

so maybe we could
get a little bit closer
some closure would be nice right now
i didn't wanna fall in love in the first place
watched as the worst case played right out
i been chasing stars
living like the dreams say
you've been driving cars,
i've been driving myself insane
so maybe we could
get a little bit closer
some closure would be nice right now

Closer

mr. sunshine

Prod. FIVECRZY + CD



Happy ever after happy ever after

I miss when you hold me
Your touch made everything alright
But now I feel so lonely
I wish you coulda stayed in my life

You said, in time
It'll all get better it all gets better
It's not, you lied
I got a bad vendetta, I wrote this letter
It says, goodbye
You're like cinderella if she was from hell
And that's sad, to find
That there was not a happy ever after all
A happy ever after all
A happy ever after all
A happy ever after all

I guess
Everything I did just didn't mean nothin
I gave my love away just for you to give up
And lately I don't know what I did wrong
Clearly everything was all my fault
I just think it's funny how you live in my thoughts
Your love is like a maze I don't wanna get lost
I say I'm better but I know that I'm not
Cause I never moved on

You said, in time
It'll all get better it all gets better
It's not, you lied
I got a bad vendetta, I wrote this letter
It says, goodbye
You're like cinderella if she was from hell
And that's sad, to find
That there was not a happy ever after all
A happy ever after all
A happy ever after all
A happy ever after all

Happy ever after happy ever after

HAPPY EVER AFTER

Ｉ＇ＬＬ　ＲＵＮ　ＳＯ　ＦＡＲ　ＦＲＯＭ　
ＴＨＥＳＥ　ＳＨＡＤＯＷＳ

//私の心の断片//

lyrics
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i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i think i found the antidote
i think i found another road
i think i found some fucking hope
nope
i think i'm tryna find a way
to rid of all these darker days
but my minds trapped inside a maze 

so i'll run so far from these shadows
makeshift but my hearts still fragile
i'd drown but the waters too shallow
my heads still caught in the gallows
your kiss is my remedy
i fall to the ground so desperately
baby i know that you're mad at me
filling all the voids like cavities 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i guess this feeling lasts forever
i guess we'll never be together
you're colder than i can remember
but the ice is melting quickly 
i'm still wishing that you'd miss me

but you're gone and i never could replace you
mistraced new face but it ain't you
rebuilding the forts that i made you
no love but my hearts tryna break thru
my chest cause its caving in
i dwell in a cell in a realm of sin
six shots to the face of rum & gin
i'm dead in the head so i guess you win 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you

solitary

ＴＨＥ　ＶＯＩＣＥＳ　ＩＮ　ＭＹ　ＨＥＡＤ　ＣＯＬＬＩＤＥ

//私は私の心を失った//

i recently purchased a new ukulele after i gave mine away back in november, so i thought it'd only make sense to whip up a fresh uke track for you guys. i hope you enjoy it. 

i love you <3

lyrics
--------
this song brings on the weather
tear drops upon my sweater
i cry in bed whenever
i see you guys together
fuck love it's all a lie
i can't sleep i rather die
than see that look in your eye
it sucks that i'm not your guy

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

i packed my bags last week
sunrise and i'm on my feet
let's skip town and chase our dreams
cause this place ain't what it seems
come home let's synchronize
my soft lips caress your thighs
you get me so fucking high
the voices in my head collide 

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

keep your voice down
she don't care no
i can't breathe i've got no air 
no sympathy for my despair
i cut my wrists and grow my hair 
i'm outta my mind

i think you're really cool

Produced by SickDrumz

Copyright 2019 COR/TAN Records / Experts Only

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LONER

EXOTIGAZ

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twitter: @xandersux
Produced by Keynine9
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Lyric Sample / Inspo:
Lil Peep - Gym Class

LYRICS
Fucking up, fucking up my life
Girl you know that you aint that nice
Rolling up herb i’ve been smoking on spice
Same mistakes only make it twice
Fucking up, fucking up my life
Girl you know that you aint that nice
Want that low then i got that price
Cold as fuck still drippin in ice

Still drippin in ice
Weed and the drugs got me feeling alright
Up all night tryna figure shit out
Blowing on loud just wanna hold it down
New Mercedes i’ve been going crazy
All these new motherfuckers shady
Lately i’ve been out my element, skateboard
Still making moves like a game board
Yeah i’m fucking bad my bitch going to hell
MBA class you still on that show and tell
Your girl got a thirst man get that bitch a swell
For a dude who secure the fucking catch like odell
Flexing like a push up,
Drinking free hennesy in the same club as pusha
I’ve been working like a dog, shit is wrong
And im killing every motherfucking blog that didn’t respond

I’ve ben down as fuck and you know
Up to be around wherever you go
Weed by the pound if you ever feel low
Getting out of town once i get this dough
Whip it like a racehorse 
Tryna make the time pass
Fucking in her dads porche
Tryna make the night last
Now you on the west coast
Dont know what youre looking for
Ive been in the lab writing raps ive been cooking more
Havent been sober
Since we’ve been over
Same old ways just a new range rover
Ive been dropping green like a cold october
Give you what you need like a broker
You’ve been fucking up my life
Just one step at a time
I dont think your wrong
But i never thought it was right

Nice (prod. Keynine9)

day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
it all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

And all I ever really wanted was you in it
Maybe I'm meant to spend forever as a masochist

all I have left is in my head
a blank space with your name in it
wish you would have stayed but I understand
went too deep and drowned again
I think the pain made me love instead
pulled out the oages inside my head
felt what it means to see everything and
every being for what it is
I still miss you so much
but everythings hopeless and its not so bad
add another slash and run it back screaming

Day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

Day 38

day 38 (prod. shon lindauer)

This is me and my story.

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/5woOYYBRLt8DwYafJ6MPYI?si=aNHcXMSWQ4mQtmMbtmorlg

S/o to my friends, for being on this project!

@funeralll
@adamstorm

Social Anxiety

prod. Morin x Miracle

Lyrics:
[hook]
Got a gun to my head
Keep my eyes close
Take a breath
Last time they will see me alive
People crying at your funeral but just because
Everybody care about you just the day you die 
x2

[verse]
Till the day you die
You will be alone
With the hug of the drugs
Making you feel loved
Making you feel something
But you know that's nothing
Cause those feelings have no meaning
Bottle up the screams in a heartache
Nobody helps they only care about their own sake
You're a prey in a world of vultures
Feeling hopeless and seeing no future

[hook]
Got a gun to my head
Keep my eyes close
Take a breath
Last time they will see me alive
People crying at your funeral but just because
Everybody care about you just the day you die 
x2

MUSIC VIDEO

Last Day [prod. Morin x Miracle]

MERCH AVAILABLE SOON
Lyrics:

[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse1]
fuckin' hell
Im not well
Trusted you
And then I fell

So afraid
I'm awake
Friends' like who?
Cause ya'll so fake

I might break
Then remake
Save my heart
From all the ache

Got my blade
I might fade
3 more lines
I wish you stayed


I'm so fed, no longer full
On every lie that you pull
Strings from above I'm their fool
Mastermind drowned in the pool 


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse2]
You hate the way I numb my pain
I've hung myself inside your brain
An ornament for severing
The insecurities I'll bring

Bestow upon me gifts in vein
I'd follow you into the rain
But now you've gone and I'm insane
And you're the reason I'm to blame

It's suffocating not knowing where you lie
Awake I'm waiting for all to be made right
It's hard to believe me when I say that I'm alright
I live every day but I don't feel like I'm alive


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

Health Issues (prod. Bartes)

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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Closer

Yokai Dreams