SoundCloud 3

I still miss u but I dont want u back anymore

stop the play

3 / 10
prod me n my bestie https://soundcloud.com/mijaru :^)

strangers

UNDERGROWTH ALBUM OUT NOW
https://polarculture.ffm.to/undergrowth

LET GO

LIL DUSTY G - LET GO

lyrics:

Bottles of crystale 
He was a goblin but he a fan now
Oh he want a handout
Ion got hands now ion got hands now
She told me I stand out
Unlike her boyfriend he gotta sit down 
Oh She a geek now
Off of this ket in the corner like she in a timeout
She wouldn’t look at me when I was down now i post a story she flick up and text
Just like u did me girl I’m finna do you I play with the bitches like nes
If u aint catchin this wave u been sleepy i show u again like a double text
If I told my story u wouldn’t believe so I think im better off saving breath

Salmon piss
I rolling Stinky breath 
I hold Sour mix in my triple shot
could u Bring a friend
Wait Better yet
Just Bring ‘em all 
We can run it then
I’m on ten
Yea I’m on go
She tryna film the shit like hbo
But My tattoos too noticeable 
Wait I thought boy was on grabbing phones
Yea I’m shtyll making these plays out here this bitter wind
March inside of my city feel like summer down way deep in Iceland
My mentor taught my to live right but my friends all taught me just how to sin
Chopping shit like karate kid but I’m Daniel son of that dark shit
I told her we need a break
Cause I’m fond of two types of cake
I love how that booty shake
But I’m chasing that bougie wage
I’m Sipping this cup all day
It’s Giving me deadly tummy aches
Got purple inside of my stool
Got bogie inside my shake

Bottles of crystale 
He was a goblin but he a fan now
Oh he want a handout
Ion got hands now ion got hands now
She told me I stand out
Unlike her boyfriend he gotta sit down 
Oh She a geek now
Off of this ket in the corner like she in a timeout
She wouldn’t look at me when I was down now i post a story she flick up and text
Just like u did me girl I’m finna do you I play with the bitches like nes
If u aint catchin this wave u been sleepy i show u again like a double text
If I told my story u wouldn’t believe so I think im better off saving breath
She wouldn’t look at me when I was down now i post a story she flick up and text
Just like u did me girl I’m finna do you I play with the bitches like nes
If u aint catchin this wave u been sleepy i show u again like a double text
If I told my story u wouldn’t believe so I think im better off saving breath

styll (jabarionthebeat x ammar junedi x beatspicasso x elzon)

prod hiraeth
just trying things, sorry if not best

is this as bad as before?
laid out on the floor
how can you claim you wanna know
with all my messages ignored

i don’t think you really understand
i told you alr we wont last
told me where i cut it’s getting bad
but i don’t care,
you wish i never had

fucked up got my head in my hands
i won’t love, you get it all on-demand
no thoughts, running dry like the sand
don’t leave ur all i have

step away from the door i won’t let you in
i don’t wanna tell you what is happening
leave me outside in the cold again
nothing to say
we’re at the start of the end

leave me alone
i don’t wanna try but ur arguing
i have anxiety
they’re watching me
I’m tryna quit
you don’t really know me
feel like im nothing but misery
I’m tryna find a way to block out what you did to me
you can call me useless
least i had a fucking ounce of trust
let go of everyone
I’m struggling to give you up
you don’t really want me
i had everything and fucked it up
is this a sign that i should stop pretending how to love

step away from the door i won’t let you in
i don’t wanna tell you what is happening
leave me outside in the cold again
nothing to say
we’re at the start of the end

start of the end

prod @faithmonaco

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5QtiXQMpK1x9JjtHS1Tk6p?si=9bb98c5f93884358

new crush (faith)

tbh just putting this out bc sewer bodied \

hope ya'll like

red eyes w/ sewerperson

lyrics:


Waking up at night I hear the waves lap on white lake
I just poured me up don Julio to hydrate
Watch just how I dictate I got em in a tyrade
My bitch so pretty she gon show up in a deep fake

ohmygod This bud too jack it got me thinking bout the deep state
Im cooking up this shit in the living room im like a hot plate
If we pull up in this bitch u gotta vacate
Masks up on all doggies shit look like a mandate
Beer gut foods right Im looking like a made weight 
Sticky in my blunt I swear im smoking on some Duct tape
Suit and tie when called upon I treat this like a court date
The cross is upside down how they refer to me in bad faith 
Pills inside my pocket u would think I think my breath stank
The  ice inside my bitch drank ud think shed make a ship sank
Im fucking off this Percocet im going till I shoot blanks
U jokes but I aint cut up boy u playing with a dull shank

Pistol on his hip he got his jock strapped
Boy u bragging bout sloppy seconds she done been tapped
Im on go not slowing down its like the road flat 
3 deep somewhere in the 6 I feel like baphomet
Spliffed up im burning that
Wearing some u aint heard of that
I went from the coke and jack straight to 
Pink and soda cans
I done got this fashion sense on me like I aint born a man
T’d up like they sold me crack
Come downs like a bitch slap
I can barely stomach yak But I can put this vodka back
addyd up in studio im a volunteer insomniac
My bitch dont do rnb but I could make sing and that 
She bust out the cognac 
And Ride me like a Pontiac firebird

Waking up at night I hear the waves lap on white lake
I just poured me up some Julio to hydrate
Watch just how I dictate I got em in a tyrade
My bitch so pretty she gon show up in a deep fake

whitestonelake (jabarionthebeat)

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

how could i be worse then i was before
i keep writting songs
and you all want more
every word i say is just getting ignored
but youre wanting more
but youre wanting more

i dont know how i can keep going like this
ive got nothing left ive got nothing to give
can anyone hear me 
are you listening 
does no one relate to the words that i sing

i feel like no ones even trying to help me
not helping

cut my hair dow
worked on myself
why do i still feel like no one

savour my loss
hope youre drowning 
you wont let me out of this hell

cut my arms down to the flesh
ive been alone for
so many years

all these people
want my best
but i cant seem to deliver it

drag me to the top of the bridge
tell me to jump
i wont even hesitate, overthink 
i want it to stop
cause baby youre all that i have
all that ive got
and im dealing with it so bad
im fucking it up
im not unique 
im so replaceable 
and for the last few weeks 
ive been unbearable
i better sort my shit
before you break it off
and though i try so bad
im never safe at all

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

perfect

lyrics -
hard to think there's no way, incredible
you had him take my place
then one of you
tried to drag my name so i wanna know
what part u had to play cos' i'm sick of u

and it's funny cos' i think you've gone and lost it
got your hand on the button saying 'watch this'
and my hand's under the table as i hear you
staring as i came into the room but i don't see you

why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?
why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?

S.O.S i caved
but i'm still alive barely
tried to beat the struggle but got lost along the way
went too far alone, no rest 
and took it on myself to prove the dark would coat the day
hard to show love most days
no compassion from my friends
but i love that i pulled through
never know for certain
but i'm glad that i'll be home soon

scared to death of life i'll
battle through the pain and kick it off so
don't you ever worry i'm okay, love
cos' i don't really care no not at all though
stick a sword straight through me, watch me bleed out
i won't say a word i'll make you feel that
this moment that we're in will never end
a new life for us will grow
begin

freeze baby, put your hands to your head
'this is love?' she said
i don't get this or the conversation
i ain't good with stress
i can't clean the mess you left
great now it's complicated
just put the gun away, love
there's no time to fight me, we'll figure you out
take my hand and slowly we'll figure this out

i could steal my heart right back
give me fuckin credit cos' i'm loving all that
trauma that you're giving when you're thinking too fast
take another pill i'm sure it'll slow u down

~ fear

Produced by @leftquiet and me :) 
Out on Spotify :P

who are we 
to some degree
everything I touch Will break 

These things I think 
I shouldn't blink 
Death might be the only way 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain

CRAWL

@decayinganyways 
prod @tnvr555 

we fall in love in the backseat 
lean in closer and you’ll kiss me 
pretty smile for the taxi 
hold ur gun and say you’ll kill me 

it’s something acidic, something so pretty now I’m just burning down
hear me out yelling out 
baby girl never just calming down 
i been going up 
waiting for the crash
nothing ever lasts when the bullets turn to ash

got a ringing in my skull 
screeching loud until I fall
raise the speakers fucking loud 
tell me something that i’ll know 

50 rounds into my chest and i swear that it’s your best 
got your scope into my heart 
let it spark, let it spark 
and i want, for you to see what you’ve done to me 
what you’ve done me 
so hold your gun, hold it tight 
mmm if you kill me we'll just do it right 
“so right”

bullets that i know
are hitting so shallow 
i’m feeling so hollow 
i’m stuck in the gallows 
it’s ohhhh
i’ve fallen right down 
oh i’ve fallen right down 
oh i’ve fallen right down

hold ur gun

spotify

hold ur gun w/ decayinganyways [tnvr]

self prod
guitar by hiraeth
<3


in ur own ways
tell me where u stand
no. its not 2 faced
dont understand? :)
is all that you take
left the way u found it? 
now this i cant shake
not this, i doubt it

Maybe on a different day
You’d have been nice to me
Maybe in some different ways
U formed apologies
If the weather was a different type 
Would u still be with me?
Cloudy, with seafret in sight 
Does that mean anything?
its the way that you are
i thought you loved that i hated myself, not to mention
my critiques are poor
theres nothing left in this hollow, ashen and hes tarnished
to
no ones support
i probably could do more
baby watch me fumble, every chance i get in love
im
cutting down my line
is that what you planned for my life ?
its clearly out of spite, youve done it 3 or 4 more times

shake w/ hiraeth

prod. me (dawsin)
written by dawsin & lycora

lyrics :
I got a letter, the name on the envelope said Mary.
my wife's name
It's ridiculous
couldn't possibly be true
Mary died of that damned disease three years ago
so then why am i looking for her?

@dawsin
say i hate myself but i know that I'm always bluffin'
why am i always talking big when i know that I'm nothin'?
when i go to war i swear it'll be me that I'm shootin'
maybe this is the end for me but I'm just so clueless.

she's so persistent she gon' end up figuring out why
why i drank a gallon of bleach and sum peroxide
this is not suicide, I'm doing it for her sacrifice
cause i know I'm better off dead then being half alive

listen to me speak, can't see or breathe
"I'll be here for you"
.. but i don't see her anywhere
why the hell you gone?
need a minute to spare
im running from her and she acts
like she knows my despair

t-tired of l-living a lie
d-don't you dare c-cry
i-i-i n-need you in my a-arms
t-tonight
turn o-off t-the l-lights

@lycoraaa
Middle of the crowd i feel things i felt for her
i know that its wrong
think about her till shes gone
I've been tainted and ruined by one girl
cant get the taste out my mouth (mouth)

You continue to haunt me
and ruin my days
i said i would i wait for you
LOOK AT YOUR MISTAKE
i know now youll realize
you lost me, but wait
its permanent yeah ive locked you away

@dawsin
too many times i needa let go
of this grudge can't carry this weight home
it's a real shame, tryna waste my name
risk your life tryna fight all the false pain

NOT WORTH THE TIME
NOT WORTH THE EFFORT
BEEN LOOKIN MORE DEFINED
AFTER YOU GOT "PLEASURED"
BARELY GIVE A SHIT
LET THE 'RETTA BURST BITCH
THREE ROUNDS TO YOUR EYELIDS
WATCH THE BLOOD MEND

PLAY MY HEART STRINGS LIKE A VIOLIN
NEED TO BE DIALED IN
CAUSE IF I'M NOT
SHE GON' THINK SHE'S THE HEROINE
AND BABE I'VE BEEN DOIN THIS FOR THE HELL OF IT
BEEN COLD EVER SINCE YOU'VE BEEN NEGLIGENT

peroxide w/ lycora

hope u enjoy
prod me:)

stream: https://open.spotify.com/track/4d5T99Alz4yjtsK4rXZQMG?si=0ac39b124ca245e9

lyrics:

follow me out of my mind
if something so simple as passage of time
could rescind the blunders i've made in denial
i'd wait here forever to make things alright
i'm sure that you've noticed erosion in me to my core
how the hell am i sposed to be happy ignored?
guess i'm hoping that most weeks i'll end up at yours
poke my head in the door some more

because it's you that i bleed for
i like to think it means more
i never like to keep score
so tell me if you need more

because it's you that i scream for
it's you i feel diseased for
it's you i threw the key towards
got just what i wanted
yeah i got just what i wanted but
it's you that i scream for

hollowing inside and out
i guess nothing good is meant to stick around
i read what you said now i'm down
can't tell if i'm dead or my head's in the ground
knowing you can see me now is all that really keeps me honest
i've been retreating from the me i think you always wanted
i've been defeated and i think i need a recourse
i could be your resource

because it's you that i bleed for
i like to think it means more
i never like to keep score
so tell me if you need more

because it's you that i scream for
it's you i feel diseased for
it's you i threw the key towards
got just what i wanted
yeah i got just what i wanted but
it's you that i scream for

scream

prod @downfvll x @tnvr555

// downfvll
I can’t escape, the ghost still wears your face
Same place, same pain, some things time won’t erase
Drowning in doubt, my heart’s a vengeful one
Can’t bring me down, my pride is what’s kept me alive

// i’m geist
so go on love just keep talking
but the crowd is cheering
they’re shouting
won’t fail them now
i’ve been plotting
oh can’t you see it in my eyes?
cold, red and full of fight
look now you’re hypnotized
so speak of all your lies
how rotten you’re inside

the seasons change
and mine’s coming
so take a seat
or start running
you’ll feel the knots in your stomach
so take my name out of your mouth

i’ve got my peace of mind right now
you’re just a sheep inside my crowd

// downfvll
i got my peace of mind, so now you not invited
and I was left in pieces, let me rest in peace and quiet
it’s bound to be lost in time, it’s all meant to be forgotten
i will make it, I will, at least I’ll die trying

the trauma, the memories, the pain, the past
if my heart would, stop beating, I’d be free from those at last
and momma, im sorry, Im driving, to crash
i withstood, the beating, but now,

// downfvll x geist
I can’t escape, the ghost still wears your face
Same place, same pain, some things time won’t erase
Drowning in doubt, my heart’s a vengeful one
Can’t bring me down, my pride is what’s kept me alive

a face i can't forget

the face i can't forget w/ downfvll

DON’T BELONG? (demo) @lostangel @Jaysset

New Music - https://open.spotify.com/album/4URFvKg197cRSUdGTJyI61
sample - DIR EN GREY - 予感 (Acoustic Version)

miss u / hate u

I could die looking into her eyes

beowulf - please don't go

*This is version 1.
Click hear if you wanna hear version 2. 
Which is a collab with Young Taylor: 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UX48MkFT2uM

WATCH THE VIDEO TO THIS SONG:
 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zMEkVg6Th0&t=9s 
(EDITED BY: @HERTBREAKCLUB (ON INSTAGRAM)

beowulf - please don't go

S P O T I F Y

It's not a faze, mum ;-0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yy-E2AdSfkI&t=0s&index=18&list=PLT2loeLfZd3pW937sgKvIO6IhbQeTUh6Q

why didn't you call me?

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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