(prod. emmett)

oh my god this is it
dressing up for this bitch
im alone
but im in love

she just wanna go home
she dont want no one
she just be alone
but shes always on her phone

she dont make it make sense
she just wanna dip

sorry to say this
ima make up lies just to play this
thats what you thouigh last week when i made this
said ill take you somewhere nice i dont deserve this
but i got it cause im worthless

weighing out the pros and the cons im kinda used to it
fucked up every little thing on my conscious
in my mind you were everything that i wanted
but in reality you showed me that you are - nothin

whys there silence
im just getting by it
whys it getting quiet
i just met you why you violent

cannot a trust a soul its really tiring
writing in my diary
age a little fast im looking scary whys there sirens
and my heart bleeds out the pain
i saw you on hinge today


oh my god this is it
dressing up for this bitch
im alone
but im in love

she just wanna go home
she dont want no one
she just be alone
but shes always on her phone

she dont make it make sense
she just wanna dip

she dont make it make sense

produced by nate2timez & Late Night Tones

-lyrics-
Touch my skin and dont let go
Where does my heart stay if it doesnt have a home?
Reach into my chest and feel my soul
I'm falling apart to the pieces you hold

I feel it all tonight
Soak in the fireflies
They dance in your eyes
I'm so hypnotized

Darling, I must say
I don't deserve it this way
I'm messing up all the time
But still you say you'll stay

Touch my skin and dont let go
Where does my heart stay if it doesnt have a home?
Reach into my chest and feel my soul
I'm falling apart to the pieces you hold

And if you wanted to run away
I'd take your hand, find a brand new place
my love
(ooh)
And if wanted to call me yours
I'd build you a home with a big front porch
It's done
(ooh)

When our hearts collide
I see them light up the sky
The Northern Lights
Dance where we reside
All of our memories I hold to my chest
Come inside quickly 
Girl, I know you need rest

So touch my skin and dont let go
Where does my heart stay if it doesnt have a home?
Reach into my chest and feel my soul
I'm falling apart to the pieces you hold

Skin

i hear cracks from the mirrors inside
glitter n light in front of my eyes
with it coming too close into sight
scared of what might be coming alive
i left notes about taking my life
and the scenes that unfold in my mind
give me reasons for why i should hide
now that i’ve seen their hollow disguise

my sudden demise
they’d cope
but i can’t lie
they’d know
that i had died with hope
lost

i feel my heart turn cold
pick up a moss clad stone
sneaking along cold floors
now

then i see it
turn of the corner
i hear heavy breathing
running for cover
the terror is seething
at this point there’s no god to believe in

oxygen low, bone dry
sucking out all my life
clenching my fists, ready to fight
checking again if i’m dead or alive

the daylight vanished before i could catch it (dash)

i think it's sad you never cared
you said you did
or maybe i'm just wrong
i tend to split
they say its borderline
a dark abyss
and i say its really hard
but lets call it what it is
i'm so scared of getting close if you hurt me ima dip
i'm so paranoid you lying, i ain't seeing what i did
i just threw it all away, its only way that i'm equipped
you can call me Bojack i'm a Stupid Piece of Shit
i betray myself like every single thing i do
now you know my secrets when i spill them in the booth
i think i'm way too old to still be here to tell the truth
i think i'm way too old to still be smoking on this-
i'm still getting paid, still my money stack
still it doesn't change all the weight that's on my back
i could say i'm fine but i know that's cap
why the fuck i'm such a bitch, i ain't even got my back
i don't know how i should be
i thought i'd know by now at least
self-deprecation brings me peace
if you can't relate i know you can't see
i wish all the hate were to die to me
i wish all the pain weren't inside of me
my torn up lungs cannot lie for me
my secret's safe, it's gonna die with me




SPOS Freestyle

produced by @prodcxrter x threemvsk
featuring @decksmusic x @flesh

https://open.spotify.com/track/7IaPndHHSCwBx3zEFHtFAY?si=CL8_mcGpSG2pvXp4xVEwlQ&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A3nvvOZ7UptPO8PoFNhNMn6

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
every breath i take is just a waste when
you don't share the air that i breathe in
but i'll try my best to stay patient
it's just when i'm with you it's like i'm dreaming

i don't wanna overwhelm you with my thoughts
i'll keep my head down and my hopes high
i'm just tryna get my point across
i hope this works out for a long time
[x2]

[@decksmusic]
whats the point in going back on my word?
i’ve felt it once or twice before i’d never raise up the dirt
you saw the mirror break connection at first
cuz that reflections never perfect, our relations are earned
i need like eight hours 
to break sour
you see me in the waves, cower,
all that power will go to your head
paste valor
your flush malar
i wonder what’ll make matters worse
could it last you a lifetime?

i don’t wanna overwhelm you with my pain
i put the pen down, call it a night
in the presence of the same i’d be a lifeline
tell me right now, is that alright?

[@lottaheart]
i don't wanna overwhelm you with my thoughts
i'll keep my head down and my hopes high
i'm just tryna get my point across
i hope this works out for a long time
[x2]

[@flesh]
hold my hand
let's walk around
i'll always have the memory
it finally start to hit me
way back then it was something else
we were snowed in
but you kept me warm
for years i've been frozen
opponent of myself i know that
i'm just glad that's not the me that you knew
i put up one hell of a show
remember how callie would hide all the time
i guess that's what i feel like
that shit makes me wanna cry

hopes high w/ decks & flesh [cxrter x threemvsk]

prod yunnygoldz

lyrics ⬇️ 
lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat
just look at my characteristics 
i swear i got nothin to show
a lot less than most
not what you expected not even close
when i look in your eyes mine dont wanna close
if i love you then everyone knows
that i wont make it there without a new dose

yea i swear you look beautiful in every single pose
not an angle to imagine that i think uou could blow
but everything explodes when your over 
and nothing ignites as we planned
i can tell how tonights gonna be in advance 

ive lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat

whys it so hard just to look ahead in my life for a minute 
everyones upset i dont know why theyre livid
can you tell me when it’s finished 
oh they think im trippin out on the barstreet
but really im just chillin with grayson
so when you tell me that you love me
it only seems like its partly

hardly ever wanna step foot inside house now days
and i dont wanna look up
yea
cuz i would rather hide my face
and its hard not to tear up
when i think about everything i fail in my life in your eyes
but its okay
and i cant even flinch when they hit me with those words in my face cuz i know that theyre coming
doesnt matter what i think cuz im a still a disgrace according to their wording
but im hurting, tell em everyday and only thing they say is sure thing

tell me when it’s finished

cover of brecken's "sorry company"
it's been stuck in my head for like a month now

stay up lately wait until we grow
changing pages saving where you show
please don't leave me here out in the cold
last i heard you hadn't let me go   

wish i could cover my eyes
spent 5 months wondering why
i let you into my life
and now i gotta redesign
told me we don't have much time
let me look back in your eyes
always had thought you loved me
now i'm just sorry company

wait til i come out from hiding
ill find the brightest star shining
beautiful eyes in any lighting
nothing to find, but tired of fighting

but it made sense when you left me the first time
even on the third time
but that wasn't the worst time 
no that wasn't the worst time

left me on the roadside
never heard from you ever since
wish i never lost my mind
that's really all that i did

sorry company (cover)

Flesh

hope u enjoy
prod me:)

stream: https://open.spotify.com/track/4d5T99Alz4yjtsK4rXZQMG?si=0ac39b124ca245e9

lyrics:

follow me out of my mind
if something so simple as passage of time
could rescind the blunders i've made in denial
i'd wait here forever to make things alright
i'm sure that you've noticed erosion in me to my core
how the hell am i sposed to be happy ignored?
guess i'm hoping that most weeks i'll end up at yours
poke my head in the door some more

because it's you that i bleed for
i like to think it means more
i never like to keep score
so tell me if you need more

because it's you that i scream for
it's you i feel diseased for
it's you i threw the key towards
got just what i wanted
yeah i got just what i wanted but
it's you that i scream for

hollowing inside and out
i guess nothing good is meant to stick around
i read what you said now i'm down
can't tell if i'm dead or my head's in the ground
knowing you can see me now is all that really keeps me honest
i've been retreating from the me i think you always wanted
i've been defeated and i think i need a recourse
i could be your resource

because it's you that i bleed for
i like to think it means more
i never like to keep score
so tell me if you need more

because it's you that i scream for
it's you i feel diseased for
it's you i threw the key towards
got just what i wanted
yeah i got just what i wanted but
it's you that i scream for

scream

Shiny Blade (prod. kenzee)

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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