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heylog - 7:30 (feat. boyblue)

lyrics 
im sweating thru my clothes
do u feel me
u dont know shit about the real me
wake up just to vomit
could u heal me
wake up check my phone and then its back to sleep

ion do this for u
bitch i do it for me
can i skip this cutscene
already know this story
oh it gets disgusting 
my dreams way too gorey
dont know why they care cuz im just way too boring 

hold onto me dear
itll be alright 
im at peace with it
im along for the ride
ive been losing sleep
but still i feel just fine
such an awful sight 
oh it could make me cry

oh my hair is curling like it did before
im gritting thru my teeth i feel like im at war
salt forms on my body from this ocean shore
and if i could rewrite it i dont think i would

im sweating thru my clothes
do u feel me
u dont know shit about the real me
wake up just to vomit
could u heal me
wake up check my phone and then its back to sleep
ion do this for u
bitch i do it for me
can i skip this cutscene
already know this story
oh it gets disgusting 
my dreams way too gorey
dont know why they care cuz im just way too boring

at war (wraith x ne'erdowell)

w/ @breckenford
produced by cxrter & chrismarek
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(brecken)
street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em proud
what i been workin for if i can't ever feel like its allowed
i been fighting just to sleep
got me foldin’ all my sheets
i swear i don't feel like me
why’d they wonder why i leave
i tell them this everyday, but they still seem like its a scheme
i don't wanna feel like this 
i swear that's up in my dreams

(will i get there?)

please god, tell me that it's gon be over soon
everyday i get home, and i don't wanna move
every bone in my body feels like it’s been bruised
and i can't take this no more, but lowkey it's been a mood
that i been stuck up in so long that i can’t attempt to prove
no more lies about the the way that i hope i'll be feeling soon
i promise that i’mma change every single thing overdue
nevermind the fact that i can't even speak on what i do

i’m tryna get to sleep without waking up spinning in my room
i know you hate it when i tell you what i did, but it’s all true
i can't go outside to take a walk without thinking of you
yea maybe that's just what i’ll do
i can't tell you that love life is like everything i knew
if i gotta act like everythings okay, then it's not cool
i just wanna be myself when i'm around somebody new
(yea talkin about you)
it’s not cool when you act like that
and if i had the chance again i would never go back
I know it's hard to believe from what i did in my past
but lemme open up the curtains tell you everything i lack
it's a lot
sit back relax
lemme tell you how i feel about my past

street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em (proud)
street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em proud
i can't even choose my own outfit, it’s navy blue
take off neon colored t shirts every night before i snooze
and that's what i been used to 
how i take off my shoes
it must be time to let loose
of what i do

everything i do (cxrter x chrismarek)

Prod. michael harrison
go support me homie breck!
https://soundcloud.com/breckenford

Lyrics -

(Swamp)
I’ve seen him bare his fangs but it was all to much to take 
As he leached to everyone and everything that he could drain
Just a shell of one who once had all to give and never break 
I watch him cower at the slightest inconvenience every day 
Oh what a shame 
The man inside the mirrors who I speak of here today 
A monster in disguise who’s only purpose is to
Rob you of your o’ so precious life and dispose of anyone along the way
With us it’s never safe 

(Brecken)

they say i cannot behave i i push em out the way
theyre so used to yelling my name
when they don’t understand my pain
shame ,they can see it in my face
(why do i do this to myself ;( 
i know all i do been vague
just know its all for your sake

yea please dont mind my cane when im 75 yrs lame
look in the mirror and still feel the same
part of me happy but somehow im drained
yea wish i had strength not to feel like this 
(exhale, inhale)
take a deep breath and i still feel sick

(Swamp)

I’ve seen him bare his fangs but it was all to much to take 
As he leached to everyone and everything that he could drain
Just a shell of one who once had all to give and never break 
I watch him cower at the slightest inconvenience every day

(Brecken)

Everyday 
i look to the sky when ima pray
its okay
ima wait for better days
 theyre on their way
so they say

but i been feelin like this way since may, 2022 i knew that i had too much pain
but i stayed
cuz i knew that id make it out this stupid hole
ill drown myself in alcohol when i feel like i did wrong

see a crane in the swamp
Let the drain fill the rain when it fall
(let it fall)
its unlikely that ill make it out of this spot that i been in for way too long but i can hope that this this worth the while
It’d be horrible if i drowned out in the pond
in my socks 
in the swamp

(Swamp) 

Yuh 
Who would’ve thought 
You’d be the one to come in and try and to start playing a god 
I think not 
If I die it’s by my own hand quit trying to tempt me and all of my flaws 
I feel like crashing out, baring fang then returning to my calm 
Burn it all been the time that I’m on 
I’ll relapse and give Brecken a call 

What the fuck is wrong with me 
Like bro it’s good just feed me all this honestly 
And I won’t fight back
Just keep it real if it’s like that 
Am I the iissue like real talk 
I’m so stressed out I scratch at my flesh and pull at my skin till it peels off 
Does isolation really heal all?

(Swamp & Brecken)

Cause I’ve seen him bare his fangs but it was all to much to take 
As he leached to everyone and everything that he could drain
Just a shell of one who once had all to give and never break 
I watch him cower at the slightest inconvenience every day

I imagined worse

lyrics

stuck in a station 
5 minutes late but i told u i made it
deep in the mix, deep in the swamp
drink on the job, yeah i'm lit while i'm painting

i think it's getting too easy for u 
i'll go on airplane (mode) just to conform with the norm (toxic)
i can't connect all the dots in the moshpit
but baby i love it

u say i'm off
baby i'm just in that transition phase where you move through the mountains
i'm hopping i'm bouncing
i'm on this beat like a wave
i'm surrounded, by this darkness

replenish my soul, close my eyes and i spark it 
i'm feeling lifted but really i'm grounded
where's the fountain?
bags under eyes like i'm down in the dumps

really it's hard just to rid all these bumps
aged twice as fast now with what i've become

i think you're missing the point
i've got my lips wrapped around this ol' joint
walking around with these old joints
flicking my fingers with old coins

maybe you're missing the point exactly
all of my truth is foggy and ashy
show my beliefs in the worst way
i've got an-

i've got an ear for the darkest guitar
i see the words when i poke at my heart
i need to ask more questions, make less statements
i know it's sounding bizarre

figure i should do it then say it 
i've gotta make this less complicated for u
leave u on seen for a day then i call u
picking the pieces like a machine

let me come clean to you baby
i've got these doubts all stuck in my head
i was a teen slow dripping to death
so is what i'm doing a myth

missing, i'm missing (you)
the distance is killing (me)
but i'll be ok i'm a man on a mission
this pains on my hit list

maybe it won't go, maybe it won't go
but ion need to wish it 
baby the systems in place like a prison
i keep the bad thoughts away from the vision

what for?

what for? (secre x caves)

i'll scream
your name
so loud
it echos away

i can't breathe
oh ur not right here with me
oh such a shame
shame

i've got your blood
all on my hands
oh what a mess
that i have made
i froze im stuck
tell me what the next step is
cause i don't know
how to control
myself

i want this
im watching
like tell me
how do you want love?
im nauseuos
i lost it
right before us
cant help it
im obsessed
with the way you touch
i need you
i cant help 
but feel im not enough


its all okay
maybe that was a lie
you wont ever know
i wont see your face
i do this for nothing
i wake up 
just to find out
its all the same

i've got your blood
all on my hands
oh what a mess
that i have made
i froze im stuck
tell me what the next step is
cause i don't know
how to control
myself

oh what a mess that i have made [muzcean]

had this one in the vault for a while and am really happy to finally show it to u guys, hope u enjoy:)

Produced, Mixed and Mastered by Tnvr

Stream here! : 
https://share.amuse.io/cV4oHhs2Q-a1

lyrics:

well i hate
that i needed you this much
didn't know til it was too late
now you're out there falling in love
guess i didn't say enough
now you're burning up our polaroids
you're sick of seeing us
i'll pick up the pieces til i finally have them all
could you keep me like a secret, will you answer when i call you?

you should know that it was all for you
that it was all for you
that it was all for you

is it me? is it him?
is it someone else entirely?
i love you in entirety
i haven't cut you off but i should
if i could
if i could but you know that i never ever would
try to breathe, take it slow
know you said you'd never lie to me
hang me like a tire swing
i'll leave you in my memory for good
as i should
as i should
i don't think that i ever really could

guess that you can call me when you want
yeah you make me feel like
i'm the only one
stepping on landmines
i never told you how i love you every damn time
write another sad line, maybe you'll hear it
is it me that you need, or did you find a different tune?
did you find a better rhyme, or did you find something to lose?
well

you should know that it was all for you
that it was all for you
that it was all for you

is it me? is it him?
is it someone else entirely?
i love you in entirety
i haven't cut you off but i should
if i could
if i could but you know that i never ever would
try to breathe, take it slow
know you said you'd never lie to me
hang me like a tire swing
i'll leave you in my memory for good
as i should
as i should
i don't think that i ever really could

Tire Swing (tnvr)

lyrics 


i know too much
i know too much 
oh ive grown so tired
girl im throwing up
i know too much 
we know too much
theyre all watching
i think theyre after us
i suffer here
alone again
and i cant stop these thoughts
in my head 
its over now
let me go
cuz im under earth
n ur under oath

its too much
after all
and i knew that
but you let me fall
and im too weak 
after all
do you need me
like at all

in this forest mist
i return to dust
and im over it
except im really not
and in this village shack
it whispers in the dark
am i coming back
before im dead and gone
hold me tight before im gone
before i lose myself again
im losing faith in myself
i cant talk to any friends 
i cant talk with anyone
youre better off leaving me numb
just in the corner and im slumped
in the bathroom throwing up

its too much
after all
and i knew that
but you let me fall
and im too weak 
after all
do you need me
like at all

under_earth (yunnygoldz)

your shadow crawls from my ceiling
i cant sleep, i just might miss it
hoping i wake myself up
claws unsheathed drag me through mud
permanently all i want
so unhealthy, that i know
claws unsheated rip me to bones
drowning you drown out my soul

hiding myself between pillows and walls
you dont want nothing, no nothing at all
i could have given you all that you want
spending some time with me really that rough ?
hiding my thoughts while my feelings collide
ruin myself, all ambitions will lay
here on the floor next to nothing at all
broken, misused and mistaken for soil

what if i never picked up the phone
what if he never even called at all
i dont know, but i dont care
theres a reason why im still here
what if the tide wasnt so far in
winds a little calmer, so i could swim
or have i sinned ?
what if i never went away with my friends
and i spent the last minutes on a call with him
and i got to say goodbye, and that this is the end
at least id have some fucking closure on this life that i live
and what if he never accpeted any help from the meds
cause his children needed longer and they offered him that
just to leave him no time at all
i know its hard to accept but im falling flat

your shadow crawls from my ceiling
i cant sleep, i just might miss it
hoping i wake myself up
claws unsheathed drag me through mud
permanently all i want
so unhealthy, that i know
claws unsheated rip me to bones
drowning you drown out my soul

hiding myself between pillows and walls
you dont want nothing, no nothing at all
i could have given you all that you want
spending some time with me really that rough ?
hiding my thoughts while my feelings collide
ruin myself, all ambitions will lay
here on the floor next to nothing at all
broken, misused and mistaken for soil

claws

lyrics ⬇️

im not one to stop and look both ways
no chance ill be out there when the road way
blocked
stop and stare until urhead shakes 
wont wake up unless i turn all the lights off
what a way to live my life i wanna stand tall
i need the rays from the sunshine but the rain falls
i cant explain the way i change when both my fists are folded
all the anger up in me starts to hone in

know this every time you spot me ill be hoping
closest memories you hold to me are broken 
potent every single line and every notion

wake me up when its over
ill be there when ur sober
only
i dont like it when you slur your words
cheap liquor only makes it worse

i know you know it that i dont like these emotions much
when you throw it ima hold it til you make me budge
yea thats all that i know
everything goes wrong 
but anything that works

i knew it what was up before its over
i shoulda spoke up but i was scared id be a loner
i think its a bright idea if i dont poke the ogre 

something in my noggin said that it’d hurt like an ulcer
so i didnt choose it by myself
it was all up in my brain got no feeling that you felt
u been ignoring all my phone calls made my own lil personal hell

and you a poser you aint worried bout my health
youd rather watch me in my cell
i hate the steel bars that you put across my face but say oh well

not a thing id rather see more but i wish that you could tell
how i mean to sound i dont wanna scream i swear i hate to yell
but you give me no choice you folded over the second you felt ur frail

disassociating ever time im worried ima fall
its been tauntng me when someome walk by with a simialr smell
i think it’s obvious im worried til im sick and ima spill

you been rockin out at parties without me im feelin ill
if you saw me id say sorry seconds later i would dip
i been so sloppy i wish that you understood and it made sense
it been awful since you lead me on and made me feel like this
 like its coffee you were hot u til ur cold before I flinched 

i been lonely but in your eyes you think I deserve it
not a trophy but at one point you made me feel amazing
whh dint u show me what you really meam liek really say it
ill be here until it’s right and u aint rlly playin

senseless (under the maple tree)

https://soundcloud.com/idontlikecigarettes 
(one two, FUCK YOU)
burn it down in kerosene
 you're nothing but a memory 
im grinding on my teeth 
 just , thinking what you said to me 
id wanna say you're dead to me 
but you wont ever get to be 
 il go on without you crawling on like ima centipede 
you wont recognize me anymore
 - oh thats fine i wish you well 
 wish we couldve said goodbye but
 - i know il see you in HELL

u drink up my tears
ur a demon from HELL i cant trust u
its all gone
its my body i dont wanna hand it over
u can try ur magic one me theres no guarantee that ur gonna succeed
ur all in my thoughts and i want u out

(one two, FUCK YOU)
burn it down in kerosene
 you're nothing but a memory 
im grinding on my teeth 
 just , thinking what you said to me 
id wanna say you're dead to me 
but you wont ever get to be 
 il go on without you crawling on like ima centipede 
you wont recognize me anymore
 - oh thats fine i wish you well 
 wish we couldve said goodbye but
 - i know il see you in HELL

HELL (ft. all the things u wanted to say)

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

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Tire Swing (tnvr)

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