this took a while
huge shoutout to dirkle aka @deadman

prod. me
live instruments recorded by me also

available on all platforms!

lyrics:

(chriad)
you know your words cut deep
everything you said to me
you make it hard just to come back home
you know i'm struggling
'cause i'm never sure what you mean
when you change your mind and i never know

but i know the
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason
i don't understand your feelings
and you never step out to calm down a bit
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason [for the rest of my life]
put all the blame onto me
you give me no choice but to leave

(deadman)
i‘ll take the blame for it all
despite the fact i tried
you just put up a wall
and filled my head with lies
and i know you won't change, love
you fucked up the way i think, love
and i don't know what i'm doing here
with someone who'd take my life
(deadman + chriad)
if they could now

(chriad)
if they could now
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
truth hurts you don't want to hear it

truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
truth hurts you don't want to hear it truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

Spotify

truth hurts (ft. deadman 死人)

i'll try my hardest.
______
stab me in the back, i ain't talking acupuncture
really hate this headache imma punch me in my frontal lobe
i don't know why i was scared of you we grew up from the same roots and
i guess it's just been a long time

how long i gotta wait for you to realize the time ain't nigh?
do it now or you won't survive!

i don't know why i run away from you
i guess i'm scared of you getting critical
everyday i really try to improve myself, but it doesn't help
no, i keep falling back
and i'm fighting battles that don't need to be fought
but they distract me from thoughts
that only appear in the silence
they remind me of who i am
everyday i really try to improve myself 
but it doesn't help

i guess it's just been a long time!!

how long i gotta wait for you to realize the time ain't nigh?
do it now or you won't survive!

I stare at the knife
bear the ridges down on flesh
catharsis through the red
drown the voices of my dread

I've been waking up late again
It's pathetic, I've regretted how I've waited for months
to act on this hunch, hell, might be years if i overthought it this much
the singes on my skin, they worsen up the longer i stay pissing me off
i will not learn unless something is off
i'm getting tired of hating my phone, i'm getting tired of going on ghost
what if resigning and hanging my coat
could be the thing that stops the boat from tipping
all the times I've broken hearts
sometimes i think i'm just playing my part
sometimes i think i just gotta give it-

(time)
(everything i give...)
(everything i give is time)
(i guess it's just been a long time, since I've seen you)

(thanks @ilysh1ne for the vocal samples :)

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zippermouth

Damn I fucked it up again
Damn I fucked it up again
I cant get you out my head 
I’d kill my self to be something
Yeah just to be something
Yeah just to be something 
I’d kill my self to be something
 I fucked somehow I fucked it 
Yeah im fading to nothin
Im fading to nothin 
You won’t remember me someday
 I fuckin hate that im loving
 I fuckin hate that im lo-
 I fuckin hate that im lo-
 I fuckin hate that im lo- 
I fuckin hate that im loving 
Kill me now kill me slow
 And Ill be dead on the floor
 Take my life, take it all 
Tonight I’m not coming home

seventeen

seventeen @mtsss

prod me and Another Autumn

Lyrics 

Picture perfect, girl love your body

Think I like you don’t tell nobody else, I just wanna keep you to myself (a-all to me)

Can’t believe a girl like you wants me, pick the petals off of my flowers, she wants me love

And I made my mind up, I’m just thinkin’ maybe we should put it all behind us

And I know a spot where they won’t find us

Moss and grass and weeds where the flowers bloom

Tell my why the birds whistle around you, baby there’s just something about you

Maybe I could walk around the forest, clear my mind and talk to the lily pads and tell them what we have

forest

ascending (self prod)

@owtiss
prod @yashio20k, @moz-103259352, @owtiss 

yo!
>the song is up on spotify now!

i take it ur fine?
u havent said a thing
im living my life
its never kind to me ;-;
but its alright
its nothing new to me!
wish i had more time
wish u would talk to me..

left it out of mind
i think im starting to believe
every time i try
im better off if i leave
its way too easy to lie!
how hard could it rly be-
to say whats on ur mind?
is that what ur rly like..?

cuz i honestly dont know
i see it all the time!
could i do it on my own?
i dont rly wna try...
while ur blowing up my phone
i just cant enjoy my time ;-;
why r u always so cold?
im just tryna live my life

live my life (yashio, moz, me)

blah blah blah lyrics down
@eyes333
@prodkxhai
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@daikore
bitch i rock my own design cant show me up
fuck i look like wearing gucci cant afford to blow the bucks
everybody taking shit and fucking up
i dont care how down i am im never turning to the cup
walking in that bitch i had to let the fidget spin
put it all on 0 and i still gon catch that win
know my stick mechanical got lead stacked in my shit
I get 1.9x what i want like @2muchnotenough

why the fuck you running
tryna claim you're innocent
tell me why you push on me
you might look like an idiot
keep a raygun on me outta luck so i recharged the bitch
see you out here claiming this and that like why you claiming shit

walk em down
set em up
knock em out
fuck around
he finding out
make it loud
bitch im proud
say it with my chest
you cant keep me down
everybody talking shit on me cant even start to size me up
need a recharge had to wire in
i been stuck its time to re:wire
crop him out the frame, he aint got time to spin
ion do that beef shit im not tryna win nun

i cant fall now
why he wanna talk down
strung up on some shit i didnt do
i just need a small crowd
i cannot be famous
i got too much that i want now 

@eyes333
tell me bitch why would i fuck with you, huh?
i just dropped a fucking band then i get a new one
if this shit was a game then i shit on you, hah
if you act like them i dont fuck with you, huh

ok like damn
im just walking in that building i dont got no fucking plan
i dont needa fuck around, im just cutting off his hands
i dont care who you are, i dont care bout where you stand
and im too up, i dont think im ever gonna land

and i mean it
bitch im undefeated
said you do it better than we do but i dont see it
i just walked in, got a rack then im leaving
i say a lot of shit that doesnt have any meaning

bands on his head
bands on his neck
i just got that shit, i just ran with a tec
i can not predict, i dont know whats coming next
they know who i am, i do not need to flex

fuckilooklike @prodkxhai

lyrics:

ill leave in the meantime
its fine you need me time
give u some time for urself
grieve in the moonlight
repent for the old fights
go thru my own sense of hell
needed the distance
think i did too
dont rly miss us thats what ill say too
this isnt brand new
feels like this happened b4
this happened b4 my eyes
i sulk in the dark did i do this right
its hard to imagine a better life than one i have lived before
i have all the time for remorse
cast spells
cant tell
what u rly want if u rly wanted me
well i fell flat on my face with no signs of grace around
so i dont want anyone ever again when u lie to my face and show little repent
i dont want u
if all of these signs hold true
im sick of all of it
im not quite as tolerant
id rather be wrong than admit that u were right

wizard (tmywtsis)

Heatwave

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i love all you guys @ZephyrCove

i like moss, plants belong everywhere

forest

yoku