quiet nights, no end in sight
memories playing in my mind
i’m lost inside, no wrong or right
just shadows that you left behind

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

you keep holdin’ on
to the man i used to be
like i’m trapped in your memory
but i’m changin’, can’t you see?
you cross your arms
like you’re guarding what’s left of me
but i’m tryin’ to break free
from the ghost you wanna keep

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

walked into the garden
everything’s dead now
isn’t it crazy what a call does
i just keep my head down 
just gotta keep crawling, all in 
hit rock bottom
and my friends dont answer
so why would i call em?

walked into the garden 
everything’s on fire
you told me that you “loved me”
what a fucking liar 
my arms are fully burnt out
from treading all this water
i guess i never learnt
how to fix this flat tire 

it says you got a new man now
my friends saw you both in town 
could’ve at least waited 
till i finally got the 
courage to end it
but im cold product
so i jumped in and drowned
these waves wont let me down 
and in a few years when 
you find me on facebook 
and see i fucking did it
i’d love to see your face love

garden w/ sendflowrs (jolst, irby)

i’m glad your cheeks are red, my eyes have turned grey
and i look like a million but i feel like loose change
someone told me ill always get in my way
well if there’s two of me, ill make sure i include him everytime i pray

and with this circumstance, hope you think we should stay together
cause these dreams hurt so much
i miss you so much
and that’s my bad for thinking that i would be better after the mountain trip
i miss myself so much
and then you call my phone
i’m off the medicine
and i’ll sell my songs
so you’ll have a place to live
cause my heart is full
and my brain turned mush
hope you know when i’m gone
that i did all i could

let’s get it started then, while im here i might as well turn up
i’m drinking right off the block at this block party im bouta fuck it up
i’m gliding through this shit i really might just blow up like “Just Cause”
i know i “pour for four” but bae i really think that you’re the one
and i’ll slide
but im scared that it’s the last time
but you stay by my side
and i don’t know why you do that
but i’m glad you’re here tonight

and given the circumstance i hope that we can stick together
cause these dreams hurt so much, i miss you so much
and i guess that’s my bad for thinking that we would be better after the mountain trip
girl i miss us so much
hate being on my phone
i love the medicine
and i’ll sell my songs
so you’ll have a place to live baby
my heart is full
and my brain turned mush
hope you know when i’m gone
that i did all i could

i used to think that people like this were so reckless
now when my friends call me doing drugs i get jealous
my armors chinked with arrows sent here by the marksmen
they blocked out the sun and used my back like its a target
stop it
i been dodging shit like i did back when i fought margit
stars lit
baby come outside and we can stargaze
im out smoking on the balcony come and join me
i wont jump fr

and with this circumstance, hope you think we should stay together
cause these dreams hurt so much
i miss you so much
and that’s my bad for thinking that i would be better after the mountain trip
i miss myself so much
and then you call my phone
i’m off the medicine
and i’ll sell my songs
so you’ll have a place to live
cause my heart is full
and my brain turned mush
hope you know when i’m gone
that i did all i could

loose change (p. under the maple tree)

Thank you for listening ❤️


-Taylor 
Taylor you’re a bixch cause you watched her walk away and you say shxt

face it , I had to let her go and now I hate it 

cause now I’m bending, and I’m breaking, 

And I can’t dodge another feeling fuxk the matrix 

I’m so alone when I’m alone I feel evasive , erase it , every memory I gotta save it 

chains all on my wrist that girl kept putting me in cages , she’s the reason I get drunk asf and they tell me to face it 

 why do I keep  questioning myself I know I wasn’t wrong , why can’t I let go of you I talk about you every song

 it’s cause depression, gets mixed with a passive aggressive message

 i still smell your sweater it won’t move from where u left it

 why, idk why , I keep running back when I’m the only one that tried , and girl I woulda died for you, you shoulda kept me up in your mind , but I gotta get over it

Hook


-skele 
i can’t face it 
baby i can’t take this 
i don’t wanna be alone 
i fucking hate it
turn me up 
i pop this x and feel amazing 
u didn’t try to hold me down 
when i was breaking 
Oooh screaming out 
i really loved you
i just had to write it down 
like it’s a haiku
even though you never cared 
i had to try to
even though you’re never there 
i had to try to

oh i tried 
i tried to let go 
i just thought id write it down and let you know 🖤💔

Face it w/ skele (P. Cxrter, jolst)

deadwood collective

Lyrics
-=-=-=-
I don’t even wanna go outside
I just wanna stay right here in my room
A thousand chemicals
Consuming everything I do
I try to show it’s all for you
But these intentions never prove
I have my back up to the wall
And I can feel it falling through

Into the quick sand
Feel it like a sixth sense
I’ve been feeling sick since
You said that you miss me
Plucking the six string
I’m feeling misery
Tryna find a melody
To show you what you did to me
Anxiousness a tendency
That tends to get the best of me
I bite this fucking tongue until it splits upon my bloodied teeth

I don’t even wanna go outside

Nah I’ma keep that shit right here
Stabbing my back u don’t fight fair
No time shared
Like why care
Flippin the script and I’m taking a rip from
I don’t know
I don’t care
You don’t even care when I’m right here
Like right here
I’m right here
Girl can’t you hear me I’m right here

I'll die in this room (wraithontheporch)

Prod. Johnnyfriend
go support my homie breck!
https://soundcloud.com/breckenford

Lyrics -

(Swamp)

Yeah it’s painfully obvious that I’m not in control 
Feel like a vessel for the negatives that I find in my lows
It’s eerie you see me then say it’s like you’re seeing a ghost 
But how long has it been since I’ve been this cold 

(Brecken)

this shi getting old
feels like you stompin on my face
i lose all control
one lil push gon make me fold fold fold
i dont wanna do this no more
its the soul soul purpose why i hit the floor

and what i thought was all wrong
ate dirt when i thought that id been strong all along
lost worth when you saw me layed out heart stopped on the lawn
i put you first even though i shoulda put my health on top
and it still hurts when i think of you grippin on your purse

(Swamp)

Yeah but you know me best, there’s no need to hide
You’ve seen through the cracks of my faulty disguise 
What do you see when you look in my eyes do you look past the dead inside 
I’m 20 something that’s barley alive 
But I’m wastein away for the rest of my life 
Haven’t gained only lost time 
Just a ghost in a shell that is not mine 
Like what do I do when I run out of vices 
Walk in that room finding me laying lifeless 
wake up and don’t do this to me 
But I’m caught in the cycle and can’t hear a thing 
I’ll Shake it off, this must be a dream 
The sensation of me finally free 
I’ll sober up and be back in a week 
But just as bad or prolly worse than you think 

(Brecken)


swear i had the worst week
ill fix it up with sum tape
it aint as good as it seems
nothing im needing is outta the cage
thought you were on my team
everything seem to fade
cold cries telling everybody how i feel
whole time i aint even realize this was real

sideways car im whippin a beetle
think u a star u is not one them people
export the product get it for retail
im makin bank it make feel well

(Swamp)

Yeah it’s painfully obvious that I’m not in control 
Feel like a vessel for the negatives that I find in my lows
It’s eerie you see me then say it’s like you’re seeing a ghost 
But how long has it been since I’ve been this cold 

(Brecken)

this shi getting old
feels like you stompin on my face
i lose all control
one lil push gon make me fold fold fold
i dont wanna do this no more
its the soul soul purpose why i hit the floor

and what i thought was all wrong
ate dirt when i thought that id been strong all along
lost worth when you saw me layed out heart stopped on the lawn
i put you first even though i shoulda put my health on top
and it still hurts when i think of you grippin on your purse

Painfully Obvious

dont go tweaking
i know that
these things tend to fix themselves
im bleeding on your porch
and we both know
you shouldve asked for my help
watch me break through as im burning up loud
and i wont fill my hand if you just gonna bite down
its a bummer and its way too much to talk about
now im flicking ash off everytime you turn to pompeii

i dont know how im still freezing
blunt came with the pharoahs curse
breathe it take the edge off
im so drunk right now cant even close my mouth
3.5 inside of this blunt im fried
shit might take me out
and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like
oh my God
i know that you said that just to turn me on
my heart shedding layers later ill be gone
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying
im slowing down
i can feel the hold inside my chest grow to fit the shape of your sweet smile
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying

and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like

dont go tweaking
i know that
these things tend to fix themselves
im bleeding on your porch
and we both know
you shouldve asked for my help
watch me break through as im burning up loud
and i wont fill my hand if you just gonna bite down
its a bummer and its way too much to talk about
now im flicking ash off everytime you turn to pompeii

you hate the lyrics but girl i know you love the sound
a tragicomedy it feels like i been stepping on a rake
this broken heart's another foot inside the ground
you took the cast off and didn't even find a heart to break, like how
ironic how the marijuana breaks me down
it hurts my lungs like ow, like ow, like how
if i keep on going down this road then you won't follow, right
baby did i get that right
visions blurry but i think i see the city lights
you said you really want this for my life, right
now amiro in the party like

oh my God
i know that you said that just to turn me on
my heart shedding layers later ill be gone
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying
im slowing down
i can feel the hold inside my chest grow to fit the shape of your sweet smile
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying

and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like

feed u w/ kiddamo (p. under the maple tree)

w/ @lilbooj
produced by cxrter & mackk
📸: lil booj

lyrics:
(lil booj)
yeah it’s covered by a vast sea 
low brush and it’s all that surrounds me 
the color scheme grows fainter 
as we arrive now, i notice what remains here 
stumbled on the willow grown beggin for the time
but it’s normal, it’s orville
i’m guessing on the signs 
and it’s moving, irritate like sulfate 
and they’re not what they seem 
take a look like it’s outta line 

it’s why some might paint one sum 
i can, but the pressures all gone 
this old shift is continual, it’s over 
impression is plain, but it’s moving along

it’s our time, but I’m second guessing 
it’s those branches, cover up the satellite 
it’s alright, but it’s flipped on the other side 
i hope you understand it’s only meddling 

and it’s happy to send me on 
all the control that you have fought 
just don’t get too fond now 
it’s gonna get ripped away
when you least expect it 
i had to be there for the sabotage 
these semantics, i don’t think it’s worth dying for 
wrong method when we used up all the current ones
new measure, guess it’s permanent like promises 

face up, but the floor is gon’ obliterate
when night falls, take the maime
serve it on a new plate 
but the time in the frond is like its own life 
it reached in flood by the burning green in late july 
the same mode as when the sky is red and full of sunrise 
it swiftly made it through and forth unscathed 
we leave it for a couple days 
meet at the circle moat 
press the flowers, leave it in a grass note


time in the frond (cxrter x mackk)

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

take me out this season
this sunlight never seep thru
my window, and rarely see it
same here, i'm barely bleeding
baby i really wanna leave to jus stay alone
cause if we take it slow i know my brain might make u home

sitting back in my room 
all I do is wrong
big bowl high asf
imma get me gone
I forget all the things
all the time that we lost
is it bad i dont care
I don't want this at all

ive been on the bench
I cannot play
I sit this out
my lifes been such a mess
I try my hardest to figure it out

part ways time to time
like we're old clothes
started off a secret
like nobody knew
frown on my face
when was this world so cold?

it was always cold
situation I froze
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
I feel like a burden I cant help this tho

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

what_abt_it w/ yungcray (flyfx)

525- Action (prod. Flawless)

Tap in tap in I got you on the back end💯

Rosa

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