prod jolst

prod. cxrter

my favs

Lil Skele

Vibes XIX

YOLO WRLD

Sadboi Trap 2

tot la terreur

he said it, i'm too damaged

w/ @scapexgoat


i'm trying my best 
i swear i am 
tryna show you i need you 
i wanna hold your hand 
i've been hurt so fucking badly i forget who i am 
this was never part of the plan 
so can you promise you won't run from me 
cause i'm so scared i'm fucking shaking
it gets hard to breathe
n i'm not used to someone wanting me 
god, it feels so fucking comforting

so pour me a drink
and i'll sing you to sleep 
n he said it
i'm too damaged 
bleed through the bandages
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him
n just to go sleep
have to be off fucking sedatives
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him

[scapegoat] 
i was in the backseat 
looking at my phone
why you never text me
i feel so alone
i just wanted you to stay 
tell me when the fuck you're coming back
i know i'm so bad
hate to see you like that
tell me why the fuck it hurts so bad
i wish i could save you but i know i can't
how the fuck can i help you,
i can't help myself

bleed through the bandages (w/ scapegoat)

BLACK KRAY AKA SICKBOYRARI -  ALL RED  (PROD TAYLOR MORGAN X JOLST)

Bear1boss ~ Out Of Codeine (p. Jolst + Ghoul + Firemane)

surprise surprise;)
---
don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
---
lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

prod. @jolst

lyrics
--------
what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible 

you took advantage and left me alone in the dark
i spent every second exchanging that pain into art
you waited for silence and sought to tear me apart 
i hate what you've done to me running free in my heart
my sense of direction is severed in seventy parts
this compass is broken and you knew that shit from the start
your lack of compassion was passively stored in compartments
i wreak havoc while you hide in your apartment

what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible

once upon a time this shit was right
but right now i'll not feelin all too nice
my heart is heavy frozen under ice
the warmth of whiskey cloaks my fucking spine
you stare at me with fingers intertwined
while we just sit in silence acting fine
i hate how everything just took a dive
we're hanging on just trying to survive

what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible

you took my light
you took my shine

follow jolst

impossible (prod. jolst)

Old Me (prod. Cxrter x Stafford Beats)

share this song, i hope you enjoy :) 
feature: lil softie // beat maker: cxrter // mix: xsus

why did you leave me? (ft. lil softie) prod. cxrter & xsus

3. CHOPPAH CITY LONE (PROD REMGHOST X JOLST)

Blessed Boys - Lil Yachty Ft. Juice WRLD Full Unreleased EP (Updated 2023)

huge thanks to evergarden for being on this!
produced by michael harrison
**lyrics**
(me)
I still go back to that Autumn night
I lost my judgement in your eyes
You said I need you right here
Now I know it wasn't genuine, I'm masking up my fears

Not gon' lie I thought you were my only friend :/
Am I supposed to sit and watch it all go to waste?
You got a little rent free spot in my head
Chalk mark memories weathered in my brain...

(evergarden)
Withering beside the willow
Watch you lay to waste
I'm so hollow
How can I say in simple terms?
Hard to put this feeling into words...

(me)
It's okay to say goodbye
Maybe you can find your peace
I'll just let this feeling die
I don't know what I need

need w/ evergarden (michael harrison)

cedar street w/ evergarden

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

petrified! w/ brecken & kiddamo (p. nevrfall)

prod. jkei

lyrics:

u push me back and that's okay
u wake up every morning just to shit on my whole day
said, uh, i'm tryna change could u let me?
(i empty the pockets of my heart until it's empty)

i can see ur tears freeze it's like twenty four below
i feel icicles like glaciers forming quick from out my nose
i hate to watch u bleeding out like grenadine in snow
it's too late to say i'm sorry baby, that's just how it goes

when u coming home?
i caught u breaking in the cabin after close
i seen like fifty people calling baby please put down the phone
i don't know quite where to go i'm not cut out to be alone

drag me thru the woods by my feet
she’ll complain about the cutting if the line work isn't clean
i got bugs inside my stomach they are stuck inside of me
i feel warm beneath this snow bc my denim's lined with fleece 

she said
"u will get what u deserve, i've watched u regress"
she pushed me down into the water i feel seasick
i'm so seasoned with this suffering i need it
need u to tell me that u hate me while i'm bleeding

(oh wait, it's all in your head)

i can see ur tears freeze it's like twenty four below
i feel icicles like glaciers forming quick from out my nose
i hate to watch u bleeding out like grenadine in snow
it's too late to say i'm sorry baby, that's just how it goes

when u coming home?
i caught u breaking in the cabin after close
i seen like fifty people calling baby please put down the phone
i don't know quite where to go i'm not cut out to be alone

24below

24below (jkei)

unreleased 9tails
i never make the cut anymore

9TAILS - the cut (prod. mydepression)

Vails & The sound clown “immune to success” 
Hope you enjoy!:)

Said I don’t wanna die but I can feel it coming closer
cocaine in my nose, blow it out and keep composure
I’m walking down a path and I don’t know where it will go
Life’s so fast paced but I prefer it when it’s slow 
breathe out clouds of smoke, this toking really gets me faded
The devils on my shoulder, and my eyes are glassy jaded 
I don’t wanna die, but what’s the point of living wasted
I’ve tried to get my mind right 
To see how winning tasted 

get my mind right, leave behind my bad mind 
Fucked up when im sober 
So whyd i get myself high?
july to ocotber, im sinking down corona 
I need to isolate myself 
Pandemic isnt over 
In my head, gotta get these things of my chest
i got a sudden wish for success
So fuck it ima try my best 
putting my will to the test, got these blood stains on my vest, on my vest 

And i tried to wash away,but it always seemed to stay, 
How come everytime i better myself nothing seems to change 
I been leading back to alchocol, its calls for me when im alone 
Starry nights and mirror fights, isnside my home 

Said I don’t wanna die but I can feel it coming closer
cocaine in my nose, blow it out and keep composure
I’m walking down a path and I don’t know where it will go
Life’s so fast paced but I prefer it when it’s slow 
breathe out clouds of smoke, this toking really gets me faded
The devils on my shoulder, and my eyes are glassy jaded 
I don’t wanna die, but what’s the point of living wasted
I’ve tried to get my mind right 
To see how winning tasted

#emotrap #vails #soundcloud #thesoundclown #singer #songwriter #rap #alternative #music

Immune to Success

Lyrics: 

(hero)

she said
"if you gave me time, i could listen"
"i can't read your mind, you've been distant"
i been steady pouring drink in the kitchen
i know we just talk, but i don't really like you kissed him
couldn't find it in the text that you sent me
maybe i could find it wadded in the bedsheets
you said 
"we could work it out"
"you won't let me"
you just worked it out when you decided you could drop me

(ekeon)

I don't wanna tell em what you did then
You think its funny when you splurge my name
You dissin
You call me addict 
Call me fake 
Call me villain
But I know it 
When you all alone
You listen

If you leave me what am I now
I could find my way but really 
I don't know how
I could love you more but really that's a false vow
Is that how you really feel 
I don't know now

It's getting hard to stay focused 
You know that I'm trying you're my antidote its
Something that I can notice
These words to the lost
Are all from a lotus

Hold my arm
I promise 
You'll be strong
Don't take it close to heart 
I will not fall apart

(hero)

(BUT IM LYING)

huh
she said
"if you gave me time, i could listen"
"i can't read your mind, you've been distant"
i been steady pouring drink in the kitchen
i know we just talk, but i don't really like you kissed him
couldn't find it in the text that you sent me
maybe i could find it wadded in the bedsheets
you said 
"we could work it out"
"you won't let me"
you just worked it out when you decided you could drop me

Hold my arm
I promise 
You'll be strong
Don't take it close to heart 
I will not fall apart
but I'm lying

Chicken Gordita

Chicken Gordita w/ Hero (uforia)

Branches for arms
Leave a mark on my body
I keep a charm in my pocket when it's foggy
Skin made of bark same color of some coffee
Leaves fall in the winter, lake iced over playing hockey

I change with the seasons, I don't need a rhyme or reason
Roots in the ground stand strong, soon to weaken
In this world you eating or you'll be the one that's eaten
You can't cut me down, I'm the tallest in the region
That's that
When I'm feeling down I get high off tree sap
I got sticks as bones, leaves on my kneecap
Boy I'll smoke you in a wrap
Don't get high off of the traps
I've been working every night tryna make it on the map

Branches for arms
Leave a mark on my body
I keep a charm in my pocket when it's foggy
Skin made of bark same color of some coffee
Leaves fall in the winter, lake iced over playing hockey

Now we're all snowed and I'm all alone
Frozen wind, Skin grew icicles
My leaves died and I cried But I ain't turn to ash yet
Hope when summer hits I'll burndown hope to break the magick
I'm suffocating, not myself but still I'm conscious
This oxygen I'm breathing hurts my lungs like it's noxious
All the evil in the world just make me think its godless
All these stories on my skin are my only solace

Branches for arms
Leave a mark on my body
I keep a charm in my pocket when it's foggy
Skin made of bark same color of some coffee
Leaves fall in the winter, lake iced over playing hockey

Seasons [prod. yunny goldz]

i know it feels good when you hate my guts

https://soundcloud.com/vito2300
prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter  https://soundcloud.com/yunnygoldz

i can't feel my skin
and it's numbing 
god you make me sick 
when you touch me
blood drip down my lip 
like you're wanting 
tear drop down my chin
baby i can't run 
baby i still would 
do i make you blush?
god i know it feels good 
when you hate my guts
baby i still could 
even now, just us
god you know that you should 
till you've had enough

off this bottle 
got me swerving, i'm sedated my,
heartbeat so slow i can't pace it i,
gave up, crush crush till it make me right
i'm the only one you keep awake at night
faster, hands over my body going faster
laughter, he don't feel attached like an actor
backwards, every fucking night i'm moving backwards
everything i ever felt it didn't matter

i don't wanna go like this 
but it's coming
the bruise still stains my wrist from the cuffing
i can't feel my skin 
god you make me sick,
you made me 

(vito:)
Do you want me
I can’t even tell anymore
Your words haunting
Mellowing the pain i endure
A closed chapter
I keep looking backwards
My body’s tattered
Forever and after

But you wanted this so bad
That I don’t think you thought about it
Lay down through the pain
Say what’s good about it
You could love me in ways
I can’t live without it

you make me sick

prod by jacob vallen and me

@notaheroo <33

glass i was given, it all turns to shards
why look to me when it all feels so hard?
but ill cherish ur faith in me
when they lean on ur walls and they weaken,  ill make sure its guarded

i resist temptations plaguing my head
and guard you from monsters that’s under your bed
i can’t go outside
feels like tryna kill this demon would be suicide
feel like you pulled me out from hell when our souls intertwined
swear this drink gon be the death of me but it give me life
and now she rolling brown eyes, pouring red wine up
there’s no one that i like in here girl can we go away
i’m too drunk baby i’m just tryna leave this place right now
right now im lost but ill love you when im found
im notahero but id love to stick around
it’s all just fucking up
maybe we were wrong and neither one of us was right
i need motivation just to get by
i blow out smoke into this amethyst sky

guarded w/ notahero

BunnyEars (prod.Limbowithnell)

Sing (prod. Nova Chance)

Baby if you’re desperate, Don’t lie to me 🎶

DESPERATE

prod @s0ftskelet0ns

LYRICS
Shifting gears down twisting roads
Life status critical
Without love i'm miserable
Envy me and my life honestly im still pitiful
Even if i take it to the top, will i make it home

Clutch in, shift gear, gas out
Get home, smoke up, pass out
Face a mighty foe wont back down
Baby do you want this all, do you really want this all?
Pedal to the floor blast down that hall, clutch in clutch out i still stall
Clutch in, shift gear, hear me call

Brake up, neutral revvin at the light
Nova scotia winter turbo sliding ice
6k in my pocket name that price
Baby this is how i wanna live my life

Clutch in, shift gear, gas out
Get home, smoke up, pass out

Saving up money from work, buy an srt all while having tuition to spend on
Life aint great but it could be worse, i might hold a key but am i the one to depend on
I might be me, but im just background for a ten thousand piece puzzle
So dont you see? We might build up, but for all that work were still ground floor ruble


clutch in [prod. s0ftskelet0ns]

the odds are good that no one would notice i was gone...
no... one... would... care...
in fact, some - if they noticed my absence - might feel an odd, indefinable, sense of relief...

she show me her wrist, yeah, princess is slit </3
yeah, she show me her tongue, so i drop her a hit
yeah, i drop her a strip, she the prettiest bitch (:
yeah, princess, she gliss, and i'm buying her rick
she don't love me foreal, she just use me for dope
but, i'm a sucker for love, so i let that shit go...
yeah, she let that shit go... now she fucking for coke...
baby-girl is a hoe... in the dark, i'm alone... /:

knife in the club, i'm ice-man on the drugs
she dipping the bag til' her face, it go numb
she tell me she hate me, but she wanna fuck me
shawty like a slut, on the drugs, she's so dumb...
knife in the club, i'm ice-man on the drugs
she dipping the bag til' her face, it go numb
she tell me she hate me, but she wanna fuck me
shawty like a slut, on the drugs, she's so dumb...

she show me her wrist, yeah, princess is slit </3
yeah, she show me her tongue, so i drop her a hit
yeah, i drop her a strip, she the prettiest bitch (:
yeah, princess, she gliss, and i'm buying her rick
she don't love me foreal, she just use me for dope
but, i'm a sucker for love, so i let that shit go...
yeah, she let that shit go... now she fucking for coke...
baby-girl is a hoe... in the dark, i'm alone... /:

written and edited by lightning logan
prod by culmanii
sample from american psycho by bret easton ellis

slit wrist prince$$

mental - angel number (jolst)

closure w/ ezra [prod. dercept x jkei]

sing remix p. novachance.wav

Showman (prod. s0ftskelet0ns & Ryan Kelly)

“I’m tryna get to that bag but I’m steady fumbling over a check 💰”

Fumbling Over A Check Ft. Vails (Prod. Eskimos)

prod me man

i'm way to passive to get over u 
u know exactly what i'm goin thru
so baby tell me what u gonna do
cant tell which way you runnin to

baby you ain't gotta
do nun 
or wear nun
or say nun too crazy
or do much
or say much 
or wear much

you got me lookin stupid 
and foolish
i'm losin it lately 

pass me on the right 
no headlights 
in the freeway
midnight
doing 80 on i5 
never said that you was my type
you was on another timeline
in my head it was a drive by
in my head i had to pass it to the side like
 
you ain't gonna run
i ain't gonna run
this how it's sposed to be
if you approachin me
i ain't the one for u
you ain't the one for me
i been goin dumb

round 2 
she asked for sumn to bounce to
been pushin this boulder up mountains
i told her im lucky i found you

she bust it down 

round 3 
she told me she lucky she found me 
i told her i work in the evenings 
she said lemme take off my earrings 

clocking in

feeling is mutual 
locked it in
i can't drop the roof 
but she hoppin in
cat got your tongue 
but you talk to friends
we in the back seat
without a tint
flipping the script when i
dropped again
foot on the gas i won't
stop again
won't stop again
but

sit back roll up imma get me high,
why u chattin all that shit, wastin all my time,
20 years up in this life n I don’t feel alive, 

shitty take, what y say, ik ur joking right,
we gon pull up with them toys, we staying up all night, 
yea u better watch ur back they're lurking with the knife, 
you will see the light, 
the fire will ignite,

eating all these shots, when will I just let go, 
I won’t work w u, a snake since the get go,  
I’ve been feeling blue, I deserve a halo 

sit back roll up imma get me high,
why u chattin all that shit, wastin all my time,
20 years up in this life n I don’t feel alive,

im a bad guy, put them bodies in a freezer, 
telling lies in my head, I don’t need her,
But they know I do all this just to please her

and I know that I’m fucked up crazy,
2 blades on my hip cuz they hate me ,
and I promise I won’t change as of lately,
2 pills in my cup it’s amazing x2

sit back roll up imma get me high,
why u chattin all that shit, wastin all my time,
20 years up in this life n I don’t feel alive,

get me high [tiresss]

my boys first song.. we did this from scratch so all technical shit went out the window we just had a good fuckin time

POLLUTED xx MattMing

First song created and snippet played by iann dior x Internet Money during the “leave me where you found me” era. It was not released on the album and now will still never see the light of day as iann is no longer apart of Internet Money/10k Projects.

LYRICS:
Pretty face, but you're pretty messed up
It's been a lil' while, I've been meanin’ to check up
And your ex ain't shit, know you were fed up
Said you was down, can't keep your head up
And you said enough bout' me
You wanna know how I've been (How I've been)
Been outside on .10, my drugs just kicked in

I've been floating, floating, floating

Ten deep with an entourage, yeah, but I still feel alone
Conversation with a nice girl, and a nice guy on hold
Lot of FaceTime with the family, but the road life ain’t home
I know there be [downs that I own, now it’s Chrome Hearts and Rick Owens (Rick Owens)
In the Lamborghini, hop on the scene, yeah
You know, might drive away, I got a feeling
And my diamonds blinging, my phone keep ringing
But I won’t pick up, I know it’s my demon

I’ve been closed in, closed in, closed in (Closed in, closed in)
Last woman broke my heart, I couldn’t keep it open, open

Pretty face, but you're pretty messed up
It's been a lil' while, I've been meaning to check up (Check up)
And your ex ain't shit, know you were fed up (Fed up)
Said you was down, can't keep your head up
And you said enough bout' me
You wanna know how I've been (How I've been)
Been outside on .10, my drugs just kicked in

I’ve been floating, floating, floating
I swear I've been floating, floating, floating
(I’ve been floating, floating, floating)

iann dior - Floating (Unreleased Official Audio)

Thank you for listening ❤️


-Taylor 
Taylor you’re a bixch cause you watched her walk away and you say shxt

face it , I had to let her go and now I hate it 

cause now I’m bending, and I’m breaking, 

And I can’t dodge another feeling fuxk the matrix 

I’m so alone when I’m alone I feel evasive , erase it , every memory I gotta save it 

chains all on my wrist that girl kept putting me in cages , she’s the reason I get drunk asf and they tell me to face it 

 why do I keep  questioning myself I know I wasn’t wrong , why can’t I let go of you I talk about you every song

 it’s cause depression, gets mixed with a passive aggressive message

 i still smell your sweater it won’t move from where u left it

 why, idk why , I keep running back when I’m the only one that tried , and girl I woulda died for you, you shoulda kept me up in your mind , but I gotta get over it

Hook


-skele 
i can’t face it 
baby i can’t take this 
i don’t wanna be alone 
i fucking hate it
turn me up 
i pop this x and feel amazing 
u didn’t try to hold me down 
when i was breaking 
Oooh screaming out 
i really loved you
i just had to write it down 
like it’s a haiku
even though you never cared 
i had to try to
even though you’re never there 
i had to try to

oh i tried 
i tried to let go 
i just thought id write it down and let you know 🖤💔

Face it w/ skele (P. Cxrter, jolst)

@prodreaper

i fell asleep outside
to keep the pain inside
thats why i got so high
u see it in my eyes
i know that u love me
but i cant feel a thing
leave me to die
ill b alright

dont even try
im not worth ur time
dont wanna lie
but ill do what i have to
i still think about u
yeah, i know u hate me
lemme make it up
i know i could if u let me
but ill fuck it up even quicker than it came to
yeah its been a year, but i think that i still love u

baby, ur the one who said it
this shits gettin to my head
its causing me to lose focus
all i see is red
and ive been thinkin bout that led
and how much blood that i had bled
to keep a hopeless dream alive
baby, leave me here to die
yeah, i fell in love with a vice
bouta flat line in this ice
off of 2 grams, and yo bitch say im nice :^)

love comes with a fucking price tag, girl
cpt. sad, i can change ur fucking life, girl

i fell asleep outside
to keep the pain inside
thats why i got so high
u see it in my eyes
i know that u love me
but i cant feel a thing
leave me to die
ill b alright

Follow me <3

route 22 (prod. reaper)

standing at your doormat pt. 3 (w/ yung axstn)(prod. yunny goldz)

mixed, mastered & produced by @scapegoat
mixed by @lilskeleskrrt


i struggle with goodbyes 
my heads sinking down in your lies but
i'll make it out alive

why do i act like this 
i'll feel bad for myself for a bit
i know i won't be missed

skele:

i'll make it out alive 
i still think about when u told me goodbye
it hurt so bad thought i might die 
i'll dream about you tonight 

i remember when u were telling me forever 
then we fell apart i miss ur touch
i swore i'd give u whatever u wanted

i'm still here 
all alone 
wish u were the one blowing up my phone 
but it's cool
i miss u 

i struggle with goodbyes 
my heads sinking down in your lies but
i'll make it out alive

why do i act like this 
i'll feel bad for myself for a bit
i know i won't be missed

if you need a friend pt. 2 w/ skele

mixed, mastered & produced by @scapexgoat
mixed by @lilskeleskrrt & @kinshii

scapegoat: 

laying down inside my coffin 
i used to never cry so often 
breaking down my body’s rotting 
watch me break down into nothing 

oh i’ve been down just not like this 
this is everything that you have missed 
i won’t be coming back cuz you’re a bitch 
i hope he makes you happy like i did 

skele:

i’m sick of the hiding tears 
on my good days 
tired of bad nights 
giving me heart ache 

i’m sick of the thoughts of you 
and my headspace 
remember the last time 
we kissed in my driveway 

i wish that i could just go away 
my mind is stuck on a better place 
so i guess i’ll hold on for better days 

oh i’ve been down just not like this 
wish that i could make you happy just for a bit 
(just for a bit) x2 
so here’s all the things you missed 

kinshii: 

i’ve watched these walls cave in fall 
blend with the ash from my menthols 
in a little city, almost as pretty 
as the girl who pushed me in this hole 

and as i stare up at this hill 
broke my crown and lost my jill
and maybe this time i could change your mind 
before the test begins to spill 

away 
i’ll be gone by the morning 
i won’t stay forever 
so good luck hope you enjoy your mistake 

scapegoat: 

oh i’ve been down just not like this 
this is everything that you have missed 
i won’t be coming back cuz your a bitch 
i hope he makes you happy like i did 

outro: 

i’ll be gone by the morning 
i won’t stay forever 
so good luck hope you enjoy your mistake

ghoul w/ skele & kinshii

thank you for listening 
<3
@jolst


 i just wish you were here 
holding me 
cause my thoughts hurt less 
when you lay next to me 
but u don’t care at all
blame it on the alcohol
is there something there that i can’t see 
how the fuck am i supposed to breathe 
like oh
it’s okay if you wanna let go 
i know you probably need a little more 
i just miss when you were close
i know how this shit go
fall apart when it gets cold 
n i start to get feel real low 
know you’ll leave me when it snows 

when it snows 
iced out had to put on a coat 
neck cold but my hearts on froze 
fucked up i can’t do this alone 
baby why u gotta do me like that 
n still ask why my songs so sad 
everyday gotta put on a mask 
happy eyes with a knife in my back 

i say i love you 
“i love you too” 
most days i can’t get enough of u
when you leave i feel it 
it’s hard to deal with 
the crushing weight of this lonely feeling
rain it trickles 
cry a little 
nothings real 
it’s so artificial 
“you’re too brittle”
how i am supposed to feel when you speak in riddles 

i know i’m cold sometimes 
but i could never lie to you
i always say i’m fine 
i really don’t know what to do
i need you a little too much 
i’m scared that i’m never enough 
when you get distant it feels like i probably fucked up
get a little too scared i don’t mean much

snow (prod. jolst)

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