u got the coldest heart? thats what u think, u not seen mine

haunted house [ushanka boy]

prod, me & @leftquiet

- lyrics -
things have gone off
you saw it breaking in two 
theres something more you knew
you kept it secret
now im glad that i never told
what it wrote

my vision's 20/20 i can see through the line
darling 2020 was the worst of my life
bleeding through my iris what a wonderful time
breaking through the window tried to keep a disguise

so what you're hiding
i can't let go
i know a sighting
when you done
just wanna hold your hand
but i know you find me bland

so im holding by a threat
thats thiner than a web
countin days seekin for help on meds
drowning in the liquor by my bed
blowing up inside my head with led

so look to left and right 
you see the toxins linger all around your room
is he your perfect type
cause all you want are things you crave when your confused
don't trust you feel corrupt
cause what he said or did jsut never was enough
so bleed straight from your core
its something you wish that you never adored

so let it take away my breath
evning come and i turn into a mess
i wanna wait but i to be the bad guy
simulate my time and then im gone
whats the point of living when nobody's home
you wanna cry but you stuck inside your dome
jsut like you i wanna cry when im alone
fuck i hate when im stuck inside alone
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flower petals ✾

vision

prod by jacob vallen and me

@notaheroo <33

glass i was given, it all turns to shards
why look to me when it all feels so hard?
but ill cherish ur faith in me
when they lean on ur walls and they weaken,  ill make sure its guarded

i resist temptations plaguing my head
and guard you from monsters that’s under your bed
i can’t go outside
feels like tryna kill this demon would be suicide
feel like you pulled me out from hell when our souls intertwined
swear this drink gon be the death of me but it give me life
and now she rolling brown eyes, pouring red wine up
there’s no one that i like in here girl can we go away
i’m too drunk baby i’m just tryna leave this place right now
right now im lost but ill love you when im found
im notahero but id love to stick around
it’s all just fucking up
maybe we were wrong and neither one of us was right
i need motivation just to get by
i blow out smoke into this amethyst sky

guarded w/ notahero

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

it keeps me holding on
take the photo to remember you my memory ain’t great
all the time you wasted cuz i always show up late
police right behind me every time i switch the lane
i know you doubt me you think everything is fake
said im in love but you can’t see it on my face

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

fire in my lungs // holding on (mew2)

petrified at the sight of what is nigh,
though, it might be nice to rectify the white of lies
so, find him tied, unrecognizably contrived
be it like of day or night, they'll always deem to be insightful

the dog is bled of it's effort spent
yet the culprit fed it's influence
through a wooden fence it would lean against
tearing at it's skin, but it's only his

scrap these words i hold in place 
if thou uncertain, bestow thee grace
but how's he hurting, i don't see pain?
it's only made certain once one's decayed

flawless, though it seemed to you i wasn't honest
a heart shift, i could tell that you must've been starving
cautious, replicate the struggle and i'll fall in
august kept him held within it's empty margins

drained, split amid reality and that of what is made
the cowardice of hounding prove susceptible to flame
regardless of the sender, the recipient's enraged 
courtesy of riddance claims regression is to blame

though he's zoned, although unknown, he won't corrode, 
beknown of crows and open roads, the omen flows, but will it show or come to slow?
we'll never know (8x)

the dog is bled of it's effort spent
yet the culprit fed it's influence
through a wooden fence it would lean against
tearing at it's skin, but it's only his

terrestrial acrimony (sorrow bringer x luffysome)

made it p. Zivo

calamity p. wraithontheporch

#imagine

lyrics

all my guys in different cities but im local
she rolled up the blunt but then we smoked two
she swear im a king but baby im a fool
yea i know i act a fool im scared i broke you
she tried breaking down my walls but she forgot about the moat
damn i came a long way since "white coat"
i dont have a purpose baby tell me what im here for
i put on my burberry glasses and i see more
im tryna make a song like im seymour

and they don’t know bout seymour
i feel trapped inside my room i wanna leave more
i’m drunk inside this bed im sinking to the sea floor
and every time i try i blow it like a c4
all or nothing just give me something 
to hold on to cuz i’ve got nothing else
and i got nobody else
those times i told u how i felt
all or nothing just give me something 
to hold on to cuz i’ve got nothing else
and i got nobody else
those times i told u how i felt

all my guys in different cities but im local
she rolled up the blunt but then we smoked two
she swear im a king but baby im a fool
yea i know i act a fool im scared i broke you
she tried breaking down my walls but she forgot about the moat
damn i came a long way since "white coat"
i dont have a purpose baby tell me what im here for
i put on my burberry glasses and i see more
im tryna make a song like im seymour

haunted house [ushanka boy]

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