shotgun carousel

prod by me <3
on spotify this friday

lyrics -
keep on talking what's your name
no ones looking whos to blame

you cant understand
why no one cares

maybe your one of many
who dares

but your one to mix pain and pleasure
maybe nothing wont come ever

do you see how much you changed 
after you lost

no ones there for you
yet you beg n choose
why do you believe that anybody's following you
your reflection speaks
nothing there but creeks
the only thing you see are rodents who just wanna eat
daddy's money come in handy when you needa eat
that Loui bag wont do you nothing if you wanna sleep
it feels like time is going slow with what you wanna see
cause nobody's around yeah
you just wanna follow the creek
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

creek

All Platforms - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/vil13/existentialist-feat-heylog-2
Featuring @heylog
Produced + Mastered by @noraevelyne
Written, recorded, and mixed by @vilsynth @heylog

(Lyrics)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

I know what you know, oh-oh
I know what you know, I know what you know
I know what you know, oh-oh

I feel the blood pouring out my side
I need your touch, hold me till I die
Drain the IV from my eye
They're tryna poke more needles in my skin, I don't wanna cry

Coat my skin entirely
Fold my ends, and tie me
Hold my hand and cry to sleep
It only ends when Im deceased
It's not the other way
I could get you out my life, and see some better days
But I don't want that on my record (x2)

(@heylog)
I don't think you know how much you really meant
I take in account and confess my sins
Put a bullet on my name and on a list
Cause I know, know you can't get a grip
You were made to have a role but you don't play your part
You'll start to realize it don't work when dealing different cards
And it brought me to the fact we live in different hearts
I'm tryna see the best in you but this is hard
If there's a light inside my room please turn it on
And if I see you on tv i'll turn it off
How can I speak without having to cough
And I had to get it off my chest because

(@vilsynth and @heylog)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

Spotify + Apple Music

Existentialist (ft. heylog)

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i know i'll find another way
to feel like a whole person
i need a thousand extra days
to conjure some encouragement
size me up for now
i think i'm fiending for some sentiment
could you show me how
to make good impressions so no one forgets?

you don't wanna see me when i can't get the words out
i push away the people that i care the most about
i don't even mean the shit that comes out of my mouth
i can't help but feel like everyone is out to get me
wreck me
people love to test me
acting like i'm not worth the dog shit that they stepped in
i really hate all the people who never listen
the ones that talk a lot of shit then just act like a victim
you think i'm flirting, i'm not
i got a head full of thoughts
i'm sweating bullets and i'm starting to develop a cough
i waste away in my room
bite at my skin 'cause of you
i'm better now, but honestly, that shit was just fucking rude
how could you leave it like that?
no care for who you attract
you oughta thank your false god that these teeth can retract
i'll sink them into your knee
destroy support underneath
because i'm going for the jugular, i'm never at ease

i'm never at ease...

stop
wait 'til i'm gone
i know you're aching for something you've lost
preaching to some
get through to none
what is the point of explaining myself
when everyone listens to somebody else?
wasting my breath on the anger you held
it's all my fault and i reap what i sow
you fooled me once now that's twice in a row

knee

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i just hide upstairs 
acting like i care
when you send me a message 
my feelings are not there 
find me in the woods 
know where i have stood 
thunderstorms passing over 
oh man i'm feeling good 
i just disappeared 
no i do not care 
if you send me a text message 
i'll just leave it there 
scout me in the sticks 
somewhere in the twigs 
oh somehow all the pain stops 
am i a new person 

i just found out all i need to know 
write it down and jot it in my notes 
i cannot trust anyone, no soul 
no we're not close 
ur not my bro 
said you were but anything to get aim 
oh and all this talk is startin to rot my brain 
and honestly i'm startin to lose my patience 
i'm tired of waiting 
i'm up

woods

produced by xona
guitar by @prod-oc

-lyrics-
you got me alone locked in without sun
breathe in if it’s not home… a new place is to be found

yeah, yeah
I can never get enough of you..
I swear this shit be going on for way too long now
so i second guess myself and ignore my guilts down
i swear it goes down, i swear…
no, I swear it all goes down
the way it goes for me now
where it goes for me now, now

it all gets worse from here, I couldn’t mention my fear
captive, I’m nothing to cheer for; I live not to hurt others near

(hurting the ones that are near…
hurting the ones that are-)

~

yeah I’m by myself now, im by myself yeah
Im tryna make sense of it
yeah it’s nothing about it, I need new outlets
I don’t vent to forget
I know your motives you think you know it
the way it’s coated
no.
you make it all worse
sometimes it does hurt but I don’t seem to learn
-
where i could go on my own, she'd bind my hands down this road
hide at my home when odds are opposed, i could die here and no one would know.

home II

spotify

prod by me (dawsin)

lyrics:

@dawsin :
don't care abt what u say
ill take it to my grave
i never thought that you would ever do the same
and i would never let you go

i will try to find,
a piece of myself to finally realize
what you have done
hopefully you get what you deserve

maybe if we broke up
maybe i would stay up
but i could careless
cause i know that we're gonna make up
every single little thing that u ever
did
so ill just leave it here and take my chances to dip

@1m1x :
you thought you could just leave me
left me in the dust now you are my enemy
yea, i could tell you never were a fan of me
all of that for what, cause you wanted to pity me?
𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑-
i- ill break you to your core what fate has in store for you there will be no more
this the end of you, not the end of me
i come back better and im stronger then ill ever be

@dawsin :
i lost my pride,
i've followed death's footsteps
why
why must i suffer
from someone of the likes of you

break me, will you stay for me?
once alone again
stay with me, till the end of times
my friend

pride w/ mix≬

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite 

It’s so late 
And it’s so dark out 
Are you home yet ? 
It’s not safe out now
Are you home yet ? 
Can you not let me know?
Did you find somebody else who’s gonna fill my role 

You should lay here beneath me
In a forest, near the wood
And try to imagine 
All the things that we could 
Should

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite

one listen, before you sleep

produced by mix :<
https://open.spotify.com/track/3vsUEARbBYl2sVUUxj8BzJ?si=a8223fb7c4324dd3

enjoy <3

lyrics:

(𝔪𝔦𝔵)

boy, take a step back
before you get clapped
went and started all this shit
just to get on the

𝖒𝖆𝖕

ohhhh

just to get on the map-

shes a little bitch to be
following with all of that
you're looking through the scraps
and gnawing at the trash, you

𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

just a fucking gnat-

oh it's over, not the slightest
chance, not a four-leaf clover
but you keep going getting on closer
oh closer no, no closer

you know where im at
if you ever wanna

𝚏𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝

ill turn him to dust
so dont make me say it

𝚝𝚠𝚒𝚌𝚎

we're going blow for blow
finna make him see

𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚝𝚎

now he's bleeding from
the neck down, lost his

𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝

(@pneuma)

left a blood trail from the scene, i vanish in the night
passing every single goal bitch, i do that outta spite
said ur bro was down to slide but we put him in the sky
kill my enemies just to watch them slowly die

(@dawsin)

i dont give a fuck, so go fuck on ur man,
i saw him outside the outskirts of japan,
remember the past when i passed you with a sigh,
now i cut the head of the snake with a scythe

your a cheating bitch that's someone i cant stand,
your acting more like a whore im not a fan.
PUT A CROSS ON MY HEART AND HOPE HE DIES
NOW SHES PESTERING ME, ANNOYING LIKE A FLY

𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚘𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊 𝚏𝚕𝚢-

(𝔪𝔦𝔵)

boy, take a step back
before you get clapped
went and started all this shit
just to get on the

𝖒𝖆𝖕

ohhhh

just to get on the map-

shes a little bitch to be
following with all of that
you're looking through the scraps
and gnawing at the trash, you

𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

just a fucking gnat-

𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑

𝗌𝗁𝖾𝗌 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 𝖻𝗂𝗍𝖼𝗁 𝗍𝗈 𝖻𝖾
𝖿𝗈𝗅𝗅𝗈𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍
𝗒𝗈𝗎'𝗋𝖾 𝗅𝗈𝗈𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝗋𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝖼𝗋𝖺𝗉𝗌
𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗀𝗇𝖺𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗍𝗋𝖺𝗌𝗁, 𝗒𝗈𝗎
𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝖺 𝖿𝗎𝖼𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗀𝗇𝖺𝗍-

𝚜𝚑𝚑, 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚐𝚘
𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚐𝚘
𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚔𝚊𝚢, 𝚜𝚑𝚑 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚔𝚊𝚢

gnat w/ pneuma & dawsin

Sway to the electronic beats
A sip of refreshing soda
Oh, I feel so alive

What we all desire
Is eternal youth
Follow me, let's dance
You'll feel so alive

Come to me, lady
Let's dance together, baby
Don't worry, just enjoy
I wanna dance with you

Oh yes, just like that
Move your body like me
Come closer, join me
I wanna dance with you

In this moment, carefree like a child
Just as I am now
Oh, I wanna stay young

Going back to childhood
Moving freely
Oh, I wanna stay young

Come to me, lady
Let's dance together, baby
Don't worry, just enjoy
I wanna dance with you

Oh yes, just like that
Ride the rhythm with me
Come closer, join me
I wanna dance with you

Oh, I wanna stay young
Oh, I wanna stay young
Preserve my youth forever

Eternal Youth

I forgot to listen, should I pretend u love me 
There’s something in the air, it’s something I should never breathe 
Clouds are looking morbid at the top I’m at the peak 
Tryna get em out, my words get stuck and I can’t speak
Holding on this mountain girl this gravity’s calling me 
Maybe if it’s fair it would let go but keep hold of me 
Cause I have this obsession and I keep rushing into things 
Maybe it’d better if I wasn’t so annoying 
I’m boring 
This isn’t what I wanted 
Wanted 
It’s too much to hear u calling
Calling
I just want u to be honest
Honest
I’m so replaceable 
I’m not really made for anybody else
But your eyes 
And your eyes only 
I’m so pathetic I can’t believe that I tell you how I really felt
But ur eyes and ur eyes only

wish you would have met me at a different time 
Maybe somewhere far we beneath the plane we realign 
Coincide
Nlm, there’s nobody here that I like
Push me away while I’m burning inside 

Feel like an animal I’m trapped inside a cage for you
I’m far beneath the plane
I wonder if you hate me too
Take my pulse don’t let me breathe until my eyes are blue 
Buried conciously my bones are breaking out in 2 

I’ll keep swinging til he’s dead
Dropped down on the floor
And If I miss I’ll pierce a lung heart kidney and all
If only he would listen 
Dickhead keep ur mouth shut
U told me it was fine
And it was not love
But I don’t really care
I never have done
U think he’ll keep u safe
He’s never backed no one
I could take him by the ear and hold him ransom 
Now he’s not even ur friend he’ll never have none 

Take a lil time out my day
I feel it’s all a disgrace 
My body’s rotting, decaying
I’ll throw it all to waste 
When I see myself in the mirror
I put my hands to my face 
So I can’t see what I’ve done 
Don’t wanna see anymore 
Don’t ask me if I’m fine 
My knife isn’t  even towards
Any skin, it’s passed that line
Least I’m not hitting the floor
Even if I was I’d lie
Let the ground coat  me in mold 
Sorry for wasting ur time
I been meaning to let you go

gnat w/ pneuma & dawsin

mix≬

Recent comments

Breaking Down

earth2athena

Joe

「 orrionn 」

Related tracks