ONE THING'S CERTAIN W/ SHIKI XO [+love, matt x pekarot]

[Non-Profit]
Mixed/Mastered By Me
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nciku
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(Lyrics)
perfect for me 
I'm always crying in the cold nights
this is something we gotta talk about 
but some days just get harder 
i don't wanna do this no more
i want you , you want me 
we're such a perfect match 
i know we won't collapse 
don't get bored of me 
i know that I'm too much 
i'm trying to be perfect

it's always silent in the cold night 
the weather is so cold without you 
and i love you 
don't want this to end 
I'll hold you till the end
just notice that i care 
i trust you with my heart
i just wanna be there 
i just love you way too much

i love you (nciku)

lil skele - popstar (prod. 8ROKEBOY)

alone. [ft. floret][+irby]

@navyxower
@strivemusicau
@northshoremusic
@torvamia
@shizukesaaa

h3art_3at3r w/ NAVYXOWER, strivesad, The North Shore, torva & shizukesa. [+ sogimura]

i guess i could write it off as just me being obsessed or something,
but i dont really think it is.
i mean..
i know its fucking stupid to just.. wait for someones reponse every single day of your life,
i know its fucking stupid to just-
get sad when they dont respond,
and get sad when they talk about somebody else,
or- what they have, or whatever, and get envious or jealous of them, but..
whatever.
or maybe its not stupid at all, and im just fucking.. brainwashed.
by everything that i see online, cause I'm just convinced that everything that I feel's invalid and I will never be the fucking same as him.
i just fucking hate this.

ive been fucked up like every single day recently
im stumbling thru my halls sleepily
can you even see what i see?
i see my end in my dreams
ive been feeling like two people at the same time
and i know damn well i cant help either im a landmine
boy just talk youre a damn mime ..
im envious as shit and i really hope you get nowhere
ive killed myself forever to have what you have
or a fraction of it.
oh my god that bitch is dumb 
i filled my stomach with nails and tums
cause im really sick and i cant grow up

hi, um..
i just got off the phone with him, and-
i dont know, he's- 
he just seems really sad, and i dont know what to do anymore, and i..
i just wish i could help him but i dont know how.

brainwashed (domesticsoul)

ft @emptychest and prod by @droozy <3

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just leave me alone 
i already know how this goes 
you tell me you love me 
but i know you dont 
you tell me you care 
but i know that you dont
can you tell me the truth? 
i know that you won't

don't go 
cause you've been gone for a while 
time slowed 
got lost in your perfect smile 
and i know its hard to believe 
but im trying my best to be what you need  
and it's killing me 
 
late at night 
swerving through the signs 
hit the wall at 95 
you make me feel like i wanna die 
i just hope i'll be okay this time 

take a tab 
see the lights
yeah im floating now 
up so high i never wanna come down 
im sorry for everything ive put you through 
i just thought that i meant more to you 

[emptychest:] 

i thought i meant more than that to you
but i guess nothing you said was true
i thought i was more than a fuck to you
but i guess nothing was enough for you
well thats fine cus im ripping up my notebook 
filled with memories and inside jokes we had 
took a year to get you off my mind 
itll take two more to sleep alright
i wanna talk about you
to my friends and make em doubt you
what kinda girl do you think i am?
one at all or a fucked up man?

swerving through signs [ft.emptychest] (prod.droozy)

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

Prod. Siem Spark
Mix & Mastered by Swiiif

Ur Knife My Back (prod. Siem Spark)

Stream on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/77dGSrpvXOW2Rxd6LnMuDs?si=6421724a8a364c52
track 2 "lonely nights" ep (mix, master, art by me)
lyrics:
yeah im kind of a fuckin loner
theres not many days where i am sober...
pop another one so i dont feel shit
occupy my brain wit music so i dont think about
the repercussion of it 
yeah i am the type to fuck up my life
just for the thrill of it
so u better think twice
before u try to make nice with me...

maybe u could explain to me
 in a way ill understand?
cuz lately it just feels like
everything is out of my hands..
ppl just wanna stick around
until its no longer convenient for them 
are u plannin on letting me down, down, down? 
i bet you think youd be better off without me around
thats okay ill leave without makin' a sound
cuz im oh so used to this now (used to it)
cuz so many ppl let me down, down, down
(so many ppl let me down)

and i dont rlly care cuz no ones ever there
i find comfort when i exhale all this air
being lonely is better than hurting 
and the fact that i got used to this
is kinda concerning...
oooo what should i dooo? 
with all that love thats inside? 

yeah im kind of a fuckin loner....
theres not many days where i am sober...
pop another one so i dont feel shit
occupy my brain wit music so i dont think about
the repercussion of it 
yeah i am the type to fuck up my life
just for the thrill of it
so u better think twice
before u try to make nice with me...

leaveb4Udo [+tykun]

with @greenwood2000 <3

(greenwood)
used to call you on the way home just before dark
now its pitch black like way, way, way before that
used to know you like i know me so its too bad
thought i could say that i
counted steps on the way home
dream of you in the dayglow
do whatever you say so
fell asleep in the same clothes
from the first night, what you do to me
everything, just partially
i could stay but i could leave yeah
i could change and i could be
something you want but like shit it was never that easy yeah
i’m only starting to drop and you’re thinking of leaving yeah
its cool ok its fine but i just need it yeah
and i don’t even have the words man you just gotta feel it
sick of being me here in secret
sick of saying things i don’t feel yet
stake it all and i reject yeah
take a lot til i see less
the textures so faded, like lotus i’m dead weight
quit smoking cause i hate it
just the last year i’ve been chasing
beautiful is it painless?
all the feelings i’ve wasted
only thing that feels safe is cold feet i’ve been wa

only thing that feels safe is cold feet i’ve been waiting
literal, i got metal inside of my bones now
keep me inside of my home now
i don’t think that you know how
used to call you on the way home just before dark
now its pitch black like way, way, way before that
used to know you like i know me so its too bad
thought i could say that i
counted steps on the way home
dream of you in the dayglow
do whatever you say so
fell asleep in the same clothes
from the first night, what you do to me
everything, just partially
i could stay but i could leave yeah
i could change and i could be

(speedlmt)
i thought it would get easier
let her lie and now i cant even bare seeing her
but now im leaving you
cause i aint tryna get hurt again
ik your lying cause i asked your friends

so what do you see in me
burn holes in your black tee
burn holes in my white tee
thought you were just like me, yeah
you said its my fault you're jaded
now im sitting in my room getting faded

(speedlmt and greenwood)
used to call you on the way home just before dark
now its pitch black like way, way, way before that
used to know you like i know me so its too bad
thought i could say that

swerving through signs [ft.emptychest] (prod.droozy)

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