lilac

who needs therapy right?? T-T

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/5p7PxyfUy6wdJ9ifc3zieu?si=13e1ec407de247f9

hiii u guysss last song of the year whatt?? its been a rough one but as yall can tell by this song maybe im delusional enough to get by 

lyrics:
i cant with this indecision i had to get closure 
bypassing my intuition might be fcking me over
miles way from the pit i miss the dried leaves of ur clover
high speed will increase the friction i said it i told ya 
it might be too hard to handle but i knew that 
when the thread i hold starta loosen
u keep ur hands close way to prove that 
when i helped u most u just used that
had to bottle it up 
weed smoke in my lungs
tried to keep u afloat
while i was under the raft 
so down on my luck 
double checked all my cards 
u said i was gold 
but that just wasnt enough 

dont u think that its fcked?
i knew it couldnt be right 
to be so high on a pedestal that my flaws couldnt show signs 
i tried to be who u needed but who u needed couldnt be kind 
told me to cut ya out of my life 
at that point id rather have died 
not now idc
i cant be harmed if im not there 
im not even me no more i cant feel at all 
im redeemed if im unaware
so i just block out whats inside 
and forget outside when im high 
i just dont see what for i should be ignored 
but be seated right by this shitty door like goddamn 

i cant with this indecision i had to get closure 
bypassing my intuition might be fcking me over
miles way from the pit i miss the dried leaves of ur clover
high speed will increase the friction i said it i told ya 
it might be too hard to handle but i knew that 
when the thread i hold starta loosen
u keep ur hands close way to prove that 
when i helped u most u just used that
had to bottle it up 
weed smoke in my lungs
tried to keep u afloat
while i was under the raft 
so down on my luck 
double checked all my cards 
u said i was gold 
but that just wasnt enough

defense mechanism | prod. uguwap

The Curse Of Glaslough Ft Flesh (tiedforsilver)

i was sad now i’m up i was paid right
started messing w the right ones now i’m alright
got to paving my own way 
went from darkness to the light
went from staying up late
to sleeping at night 

had my heart strings to having them break
fuck that
is it too late?
i think i need a break
so i got one today
i’m on my way
got my money up
so i say what i say 
had people hate on me for anything
for being me but i still sing
i stopped caring bout what u think
i’m doing me fuck what you think 

i’m better than your average chart singer
got bored of holding in the truth so i had to switch up
the whole scene is gonna take over
we out casts to the normies
but that makes us better than you all
we gotta stand tall
making hits in my bedroom
while your in the studio
do this by myself making my own beats
using some producers 
showing love to the scene

alrightalright (bended)

lead synth @veilsonme
prod by me

i tried to keep it inside
looked at you in your eyes
knew you were holding back your tears
i held on so tight
why oh why
did it have to end like this

couldnt see how far i would lie
is this how u love?
oh how did i survive
i didnt wanna see ya
dont wanna fall inlove again with you oh
dont wanna through the pain you put me thru

(interlude)
couldnt see how far i would lie
is this how u love?

i tried to keep it inside
looked at you in your eyes
knew you were holding back your tears
i held on so tight
why oh why
did it have to end like this

oh couldnt even tell me you're wrong
couldnt even hold on
i tried to stay strong
strong
i knew all along
that this wouldnt last long
that this wouldnt last long
(outro)

is this how you love?

Lyrics:

Bitches wanna be me or be with me it's confusing
Swear that you don't like me but you stalk and its amusing
All my lyrics got you invested 
You wonder what i do next and

Hold my breath let me feel like i am falling
Heart beat racing, got me dropping to the floor and
I dont wanna talk about my problems, please just stop, its
Giving me a rush to be this fucked, forget resolving
Tell me it's too late to change but im already on it
Getting what i want without a thought without involving
People who dont fuck with me they sit back steady watching
Hoping that i fuck up once or twice without evolving
Bitches wanna be me or be with me it's confusing
Swear that you don't like me but you stalk and its amusing
All my lyrics got you invested 
You wonder what i do next and 
These lyrics stuck in your head they
Could say that you were infected 

Call my phone up once or twice
I dont wanna talk, i don't want your advice
Make me feel all special, tell me that i do it right
Then yell up in my face about how i'm too uptight

Jealous of my accomplishments until the very end
I'll keep on accomplishing this until i lose my head
Writing shit, liking it but really not releasing things
Releasing this, curious of all the shit that this one brings


Hold my breath let me feel like i am falling
Heart beat racing, got me dropping to the floor and
I dont wanna talk about my problems, please just stop, its
Giving me a rush to be this fucked, forget resolving
Tell me it's too late to change but im already on it
Getting what i want without a thought without involving
People who dont fuck with me they sit back steady watching
Hoping that i fuck up once or twice without evolving

<3

Hold my Breath (p. TREETIME)

@whiispr
@scor_pio 
@
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This isnt gonna work 
I can see you're hurt 
Did I do something 
To make it worse 
Did you really mean it 
When you said those words? 

Break me down 
I feel it now I 
Hate that I want you around I
Fckked it up 
Admit that im a cunt 
Honestly just say what you want 

But i just wish that I meant more to you
I wish you would have followed through 
But nothing I did 
Was ever really good enough for you

I heard what you said about me 
And it was painful 
I'm doing better now 
I don't feel so unstable
Is this even worth it?
Nothing is working
And I really don't deserve it

[eli born Bay Bay:]
I don’t know if you really deserve this
But maybe one day we can be perfect 
Maybe one day I could buy you that birkin 
Maybe get a Benz that we can swerve in 
I want some real love
Don’t need you to get shirtless
On the road 
I’mma annoy  you on purpose
Tryna do shows 
Bigger than mirvish 
But imma leave you
In those pillows toss and turning

Please don’t drown up in the bottle
Please don’t hurt yourself tomorrow 
We won’t work this out so sorrow
Plenty of people in Toronto


[whiisp:] 
i dont think that i deserve this 
maybe baby its bout time to close the curtains
this is perfect
why you always gotta treat me like i'm worthless

cause maybe i could try to be better
your scent still clings to my sweater
harsh thoughts came off your tongue light as a feather
was i ever what you wanted guessin never

thought that we moved past all this the last time
every convo we have lately filled with landmines
try to tell me that i needa see the brightside
but when you're talking to your friends i'm just the bad guy


[scorpio:]
its not like how it was in the beginning
every time i get mad feels like the room is spinning
baby can you wait? i just need a minute
im highly tempermental idk when ill be finished

idk if this will work
i keep making you hurt, hurt
tell me im the worst
its okay im used to those words, words

ive heard it so much
im practically numb
(but i promise you im doing just fine)
i only need to hear it once
im a loaded gun
(i heard what you said about me through the grapevine)

unstable (ft. Eli Born BAY BAY, whiisp & scorpio) [faby]

🤟🏻🫶🏻REACH - VAIL X ETAI X CLOWN🫶🏻🤟🏻

hear me out
reach out to me now


(Vails)
Reach out for my hand 
Come on baby won’t ya 
(X4)

Reach out further why you holding back
You need saving from yourself,
This a heart attack
See pain consuming, this battle is losing
If you have fight left baby reach my hand 

(Etai s0)
reach out to me
but wouldn't care if i was lost at sea
talk down to me
when you're mad but im your everything
said that you would be there with me through it all
when it get bad i know you're the only one to call
but nowadays i know we both no longer feel the same
anyway i know i im the only one to blame


(Vails)
Reach out for my hand 
Come on baby won’t ya 
(X4)

Reach out further why you holding back
You need saving from yourself,
This a heart attack
See pain consuming, this battle is losing
If you have fight left baby reach my hand 

Cus I’m losing this war 
And it’s making my eyes sore
Seeing you fading away
Into pale skin ur grey
I’m afraid of this truth
That I’m losing you soon
It’s been harder and harder for me to pull through
come on reach my hand, I’ll show you the way
I’ll take those demons away from your brain 
As long as u promise me you’ll stay

(Etai s0)
Reach out for my hand 
Come on baby won’t ya 
(X8)

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Reach w/ etai s0 (prod. The Sound Clown)

production by @vito2300

lyrics:Tell me how it all went bad again
Tell me how you wish I hadn't left
Tell me everything I missed
I fell asleep watching our movie
Tell me what you see when I'm away
Tell me I'm the only one who stayed
Tell me I'm the only one
Who keeps this house from burning down

(Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)

Make me ugly, make me weak
I spent this summer washing sheets
And still, the blood remains
What's left of me will slowly fade at least
Keep me underneath your bed
So afraid of what comes next
I'm slowly shattering
A mirror for the ones who left you here

shattering

came a long way, thank u all for being here <3

lyrics

whats wrong baby
well you dont seem to love my lies
well i’d love to 
i'd love to just take your side

blind spot, she hit the blind spot
coulnt, couldnt dodge couldnt watch out
i been covering my room in sage
remiscing all these days

when you’d make my heart stop baby
now just heavy heart drops
its ok, its ok baby

drugs learn ya lessons
but they aren’t always tied to things that aren’t right
yeah we like to live, always friction
but im not tryna burn the forest every night

if she dont see the love, we wont be friends
baby, taking off the top like this is the end
but thats just not the point yeah thats just the thing
maybe its the sum, maybe its the sun 
maybe we just run

can you see the doves can you see them flying away
i’ve seen past this dark i’m not tryna hide away
not today, im just tryna find a way
but i hope u 
i hope u can too

i really want you but i cant say the same
i care about u but its not the fucking same
baby i know its been lonely at night
baby i know its lonely at night

thru my eyes

open up ur eyes girl
we cant stay the same our whole life
but i don't wanna lie girl
i can't always be by your side

wish upon forever 
forevers to vast
i cant look at life the same after all my past
i mean we could live forever 
but it probably won't last
use too much
use too much logic ima pass

plenty signs 
do i really need to give u a timeline
i'm heading out to sea 
coz i've been rejected and dissected 
but i don't mind, i don't mind
ima find a way

jetlag 
i got a jet lagged mind 
its just another setback 
could u just see thru my eyes 
just sometimes

thru my eyes

thru my eyes (ivn)

i been feelin' like killing myself...
after way too long here stuck in this hell
and i dont remember what its like
to want something more out of life...

i been feelin' like i dont really belong here
askin for help but that shit just fall on deaf ears
and i dont really know where tf i should go from here
like goddamn i been feeling this way for years...

thats why i abuse the pills now
how many more till im under the ground?
and im so fucking tired of all this shit
i wanna make like my wrists and fucking split...

i wanna...
fall off this fucking earth
cuz where im going i wont need a hearse
i wanna blow my brains over the stars
you can read my obituary on fuckin mars

if i take my mind off this shit
ill just go through it again in the morning...
i cant restart my life
nothings ever gonna be okay 
thats just a lie
now im giving up
yeah, its time to spill this blood......

unstable (ft. Eli Born BAY BAY, whiisp & scorpio) [faby]

neverless

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