clock out just to be unsatisfied
i hate how they act when their not around me
i think that they care but its synthesized
now all i can trust is this synthesizer

so what do you expect from me
i can only do so much
having trouble keeping it all going
itll never be the same as it was

take it all theres nothing left
take it all theres nothing
their hands they pull me off my bed
its fine i guess, their not a threat

digesting all the things you said x2 
ill hate their guts until im dead
thats what i get, gave you my best

and its not even like im over anything
maybe can we resume
come back in, ill freak out, my actions
breed catastrophe
don't care anymore im done, dont care anymore i won
dont care anymore, dont care like before i was

so upset, with myself, i regret everything, everything, everything
that ive done
tried my best every time, im depressed every night, every night, every night

threat

produced by sai
some guitar done by me
cover art edited by ilxrrr (the goat)

//Lyrics
stars just aligned, bae
why you wont call in the night, I
couldnt fall in your light
but you're leaving no one by my side
see you crystal clear
throw away your fears
just make another story up
then give me some euphoria
your just too worried
i just cant focus (give me something in the night)
with your worries
my only hope is (i can get something right)
oh my god
oh my god
im so sorry
dont get me-

these stone walls just wont break down
only artist in my town, oh please
move on, move on, bae
move on, move on or i'll
walk off, anyways
wont fall, for anything, I
move hearts with a pen and page
i've thought through every maze
baby when you're around me it hurts
but when you're not its much worse
coast to coast love just wont work
now thinking bout what I
learned about honesty, you
said your done calling me but
we'll just see how we end up
only in intervals

oh, my, god
you just cant wake this up
you just cant wait for sum
you just done waiting in line
feel it around me i lost when you thought to doubt me it hurts
if you allow me ill erase everything about me from your head girl
wait not that part
what we said girl
wow we went that far
maybe my visions off but im not ready to let go
you gave us up, like wait one second we were so close
stars just aligned, bae
why you wont call in the night, I
couldnt fall in your light
but you're leaving no one by my side
see you crystal clear
throw away your fears
just make another story up
then give me some euphoria
your just too worried
i just cant focus (give me something in the night)
with your worries
my only hope is (i can get something right)
oh my god
oh my god
im so sorry
dont get me-

you're in a hurry
i just dont know yet (i just need a little time)
you allure me
i wonder whats next

crystal clear [p. sai]

end of an era... stay tuned

produced by sai
cover art edited by ilxrrr

//lyrics

What you thinking
What you think bout me what you thinking aw
What you think bout me what you think
What you think
Only you would try to ruin my life
So obsessed its like you’re still mine
Im so stressed what you did to my mind wasnt right
You come into my life just to terrorize
When i go gold spreading lies
You think you’re so fucking noble
I dont buy it
Begged you for forgiveness like half the time
Then you turn around and spin it
No i dont think i like you
Or anyone thats around
All your groupchat validation putting me down
I just assume that you wanna see me dead in the ground
Or somewhere i wont be found
Well too bad cus soon youll see me everywhere
The regrets thatll follow you everywhere
Dont pretend this wont follow you everywhere
I hope it follows you everywhere, everywhere
I hope this follows you everywhere

What you thinking
What you think bout me what you thinking aw
What you think bout me what you think
Whatchu think
Treated you the best i could but you cant admit now cause how bad youd look
Give me back the rest you took when you’re laying at night think about what you should’ve done
What it was, was something manifested from the one you loved
Just act like yall cant trust me like it wasnt sum
Just Deep inside your mind that you bottled up
Please wake up
Always some shit you made up
Started to feel like fake love
If you got an issue with me say sum
Say something, just say
What you think

whatchu think [p. sai]

everything by me

im done explaining 
lets skip to the part where its all my fault
you untied my laces
expect me not to trip and fall
and honest to god
i wish i didnt care at all
the pieces of us
too much to pick up so move along 

what u thinking of
cuz i cant sleep at all
i want u to call my phone
what u thinking of
cuz i cant sleep at all
i want u to call my own

you must think im stupid or just dumb enough to turn off my mind
think i cant tell between the ugly truth and ur beautiful lies
but i know the signs
dont wanna taste my medicine
now i’m switchin sides
u never saw me how i am

what u thinking of
cuz i cant sleep at all
i want u to call my phone
what u thinking of
cuz i cant sleep at all
i want u to call my own

thinking of

prod me

it's 30 degrees and
her shirt is see-through
her skirt's red from bleeding
her eyelids are blue
she burnt on your sneakers
her dirtiest secrets
reverted her features 
to try to be new

but is it what she wants
or is it all she's got
it isn't what she wants
that makes her body rot

linoleum floors kiss cold on your thighs
youll sit there and hold her close
wondering why oh why
is it so hard closing your eyes
youll wash them with soap but it wont turn time
dont try

they heard all her screaming
alerted the news
they'll turn all her sequens
convert it to views
dont care if shes real they
just care shes appealing
theyll swear it's convenient
she wont get to choose

linoleum floors kiss cold on your thighs
youll sit there and hold her close
wondering why oh why
is it so hard closing your eyes
youll wash them with soap but it wont turn time
dont try

linoleum floors

prod me and Another Autumn

Lyrics 

Picture perfect, girl love your body

Think I like you don’t tell nobody else, I just wanna keep you to myself (a-all to me)

Can’t believe a girl like you wants me, pick the petals off of my flowers, she wants me love

And I made my mind up, I’m just thinkin’ maybe we should put it all behind us

And I know a spot where they won’t find us

Moss and grass and weeds where the flowers bloom

Tell my why the birds whistle around you, baby there’s just something about you

Maybe I could walk around the forest, clear my mind and talk to the lily pads and tell them what we have

forest

project file breakdown: https://youtu.be/eSwd2ZLMSHA?si=h1SbVUIdfoZ3i4B9

produced/mixed by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson
written by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson

samples used:
https://youtu.be/b-Ruwu4OaZA?si=kM9hNiNo_EGjb79n
https://youtu.be/xJjIZmHHLyU?si=vKqJmXFQ3mn7UgHD
https://youtu.be/13-Wn02ESDo?si=ogytjyfWVMSo_Ro0

lyrics:
[@daywxtch]
you stay in the backseat with your partners
don't know how to respond, this shits all new to me
pose with different faces like an actor
pretty as a bitch, but you're not her
thought it, journaled it, wrote it
in the shower, thought i knew you
rough draft, threw it
what the fuck is new to you?

is it bad that i still get scared with the lights out?
shrink and hide under my pillow until it's bright out
i escape to places that i've never been
sybau (bruh), badge up on my chest
i'm a veteran
better know that i keep it with me
dumb tricks that i keep up my sleeve
why does no one else say "please" but me?
put me behind
it's driving me insane, got no one else to blame
i stay the same, i stay the same

(gay sing moan)

i wish i could lay right next to you
you're not around and in all honesty that really sucks
look past, forget and feel numb
i wish i could be just like you
i'm on my own and in all honesty that really sucks
look past, forget, and feel numb

[@siahhenderson]
heard you wanna leave me in the past tense isnt what i want but i expected it
every shot you take it missed a veteran
lonesome hours in my skin

idk whats happenin brain got clipped
soft lips my coma screw it oh
ik my orders

yeah now you dont care bout what you say to me threw me to the side threw me to the fire she said baby can you prove to me
that im in the right
please dont keep it inside

why am i pleading
head screwed off
traumatic sequence man without a soul
fires burnin all i own

(VETERAN REFRAIN)

[@daywxtch]
i wish i could breathe life into you
i can't communicate, it really sucks
i people please and hope it sums to love
i wish i could meet in the middle with you
you don't respond and in all honesty that really sucks
i look past, forget, and feel numb!

YOU'RE NOT HER.

DIVE OFF.
IF YOU THINK WHAT I HOLD FOR YOU IS WRONG.
I'LL DRIVE OFF, YOU DON'T WANNA SEE ME ANYMORE.

patience, i love more than anyone
(i know that we don't talk)
ain't no erasing, you know more than anyone
(i know that we don't talk)
is it bad that i still get scared with the lights off?!
we're in the center and we don't talk!?
don't take initiative, so it's my fault

repeat repetition, but THERE'S NO DRAW!!!!

i wanna go to places i've never been
displaying wins on my chest like i'm a veteran
i'm saying i want to make them proud.  
_______________________________________________________
ꀤꌗꍏꀤꍏꃅ 41:10 (NIV), "꓄ꃅꂦꀎ ꀸꂦ ꈤꂦ꓄ ꎇꍟꍏꋪ, ꎇꂦꋪ ꀤ ꍏꂵ ꅏꀤ꓄ꃅ ꌩꂦꀎ; ꌃꍟ ꈤꂦ꓄ ꀸꀤꌗꂵꍏꌩꍟꀸ, ꎇꂦꋪ ꀤ ꍏꂵ ꌩꂦꀎꋪ ꁅꂦꀸ;
 ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꌗ꓄ꋪꍟꈤꁅ꓄ꃅꍟꈤ ꌩꂦꀎ, ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꃅꍟ꒒ꉣ ꌩꂦꀎ, ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꀎꉣꃅꂦ꒒ꀸ ꌩꂦꀎ ꅏꀤ꓄ꃅ ꂵꌩ ꋪꀤꁅꃅ꓄ꍟꂦꀎꌗ ꋪꀤꁅꃅ꓄ ꃅꍏꈤꀸ."

veteran

prod. aftrr

https://open.spotify.com/track/02BBd8UXRmVG97yhTZJtiL?si=e500a6382d31475f

uneed

produced by nvrmindreid
everything else by me
love ya

lyrics:

i've barely broke in my boots
the ones i got when you were aloof
have you took a look at the news?
i've hardly kept it together
hide both my arms in my sweater
i told my brothers i wan do something new
but i just end up doing shit like before
i broke my hands off just to build a new roof
and for a moment i thought i saw shore

i place my cards down face up
scour my room for a quick buck
spend all that dollars that i had
on something that gon make me feel sum
say you're bothered by the past
so won't you go ahead and do something
say you're bothered by the past
so won't you go ahead and do some-
i wrap my arms round my waist
how many days will it take
i look at you in the face
and tell a lie what a waste
i feel the weight of my body
i'm too ashamed to look up
exhale the smoke in my lungs
and forget where i came from

have you took a look at the news baby
you're even prettier now baby
spinning in my head all around baby
and i can't seem to get you out baby

i've barely broke in my boots
the ones i got when you were aloof
have you took a look at the news?
i've hardly kept it together
hide both my arms in my sweater
i told my brothers i wan do something new
but i just end up doing shit like before
i broke my hands off just to build a new roof
and for a moment i thought i saw shore

breaking in

MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/Kv38QbSm8sQ?si=ncNCp8uMao_JC9cS

produced by aftrr

Got your life tied in a knot
Show your worst side, what you got?
Let it go, going for the top
On the road, I can never stop

Head-rush  
Sun-kissed
Change the topic
Our lips
Your touch
Tongue tied
Think I love it
Out my mind

Head-rush
Sun-kissed
Change the topic
Our lips
Live it up
Tongue tied
(Risk is drowning but I'm gonna take it)

(Isn't it fun)
Think I met you in my past life
It's the right time
I can't let it pass by
(In my head)
Living a lie
Losing myself in the moment
Look myself in the mirror
I know I need you right here

Let it all fall down
I can't feel my own
Your name, I call out
You're all-, all alone
Let it all fall down
I can't feel my own
To you, I call out

breaking in

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