clock out just to be unsatisfied
i hate how they act when their not around me
i think that they care but its synthesized
now all i can trust is this synthesizer

so what do you expect from me
i can only do so much
having trouble keeping it all going
itll never be the same as it was

take it all theres nothing left
take it all theres nothing
their hands they pull me off my bed
its fine i guess, their not a threat

digesting all the things you said x2 
ill hate their guts until im dead
thats what i get, gave you my best

and its not even like im over anything
maybe can we resume
come back in, ill freak out, my actions
breed catastrophe
don't care anymore im done, dont care anymore i won
dont care anymore, dont care like before i was

so upset, with myself, i regret everything, everything, everything
that ive done
tried my best every time, im depressed every night, every night, every night

threat

produced by sai
some guitar done by me
cover art edited by ilxrrr (the goat)

//Lyrics
stars just aligned, bae
why you wont call in the night, I
couldnt fall in your light
but you're leaving no one by my side
see you crystal clear
throw away your fears
just make another story up
then give me some euphoria
your just too worried
i just cant focus (give me something in the night)
with your worries
my only hope is (i can get something right)
oh my god
oh my god
im so sorry
dont get me-

these stone walls just wont break down
only artist in my town, oh please
move on, move on, bae
move on, move on or i'll
walk off, anyways
wont fall, for anything, I
move hearts with a pen and page
i've thought through every maze
baby when you're around me it hurts
but when you're not its much worse
coast to coast love just wont work
now thinking bout what I
learned about honesty, you
said your done calling me but
we'll just see how we end up
only in intervals

oh, my, god
you just cant wake this up
you just cant wait for sum
you just done waiting in line
feel it around me i lost when you thought to doubt me it hurts
if you allow me ill erase everything about me from your head girl
wait not that part
what we said girl
wow we went that far
maybe my visions off but im not ready to let go
you gave us up, like wait one second we were so close
stars just aligned, bae
why you wont call in the night, I
couldnt fall in your light
but you're leaving no one by my side
see you crystal clear
throw away your fears
just make another story up
then give me some euphoria
your just too worried
i just cant focus (give me something in the night)
with your worries
my only hope is (i can get something right)
oh my god
oh my god
im so sorry
dont get me-

you're in a hurry
i just dont know yet (i just need a little time)
you allure me
i wonder whats next

crystal clear [p. sai]

end of an era... stay tuned

produced by sai
cover art edited by ilxrrr

//lyrics

What you thinking
What you think bout me what you thinking aw
What you think bout me what you think
What you think
Only you would try to ruin my life
So obsessed its like you’re still mine
Im so stressed what you did to my mind wasnt right
You come into my life just to terrorize
When i go gold spreading lies
You think you’re so fucking noble
I dont buy it
Begged you for forgiveness like half the time
Then you turn around and spin it
No i dont think i like you
Or anyone thats around
All your groupchat validation putting me down
I just assume that you wanna see me dead in the ground
Or somewhere i wont be found
Well too bad cus soon youll see me everywhere
The regrets thatll follow you everywhere
Dont pretend this wont follow you everywhere
I hope it follows you everywhere, everywhere
I hope this follows you everywhere

What you thinking
What you think bout me what you thinking aw
What you think bout me what you think
Whatchu think
Treated you the best i could but you cant admit now cause how bad youd look
Give me back the rest you took when you’re laying at night think about what you should’ve done
What it was, was something manifested from the one you loved
Just act like yall cant trust me like it wasnt sum
Just Deep inside your mind that you bottled up
Please wake up
Always some shit you made up
Started to feel like fake love
If you got an issue with me say sum
Say something, just say
What you think

whatchu think [p. sai]

cover art: @alexksmh
i know i already made a mochji remix but this the mochji remix competition yeah this guy made me make a remix in 3 days i cant make music that quickly bro 💔
im gonna start making my own songs soon enough remixing
and im really hungry

update: im not hungry anymore and this won me 3rd place in the competition yippee

mochji (remix competition) - not2sober {stein flip}

prod me

it's 30 degrees and
her shirt is see-through
her skirt's red from bleeding
her eyelids are blue
she burnt on your sneakers
her dirtiest secrets
reverted her features 
to try to be new

but is it what she wants
or is it all she's got
it isn't what she wants
that makes her body rot

linoleum floors kiss cold on your thighs
youll sit there and hold her close
wondering why oh why
is it so hard closing your eyes
youll wash them with soap but it wont turn time
dont try

they heard all her screaming
alerted the news
they'll turn all her sequens
convert it to views
dont care if shes real they
just care shes appealing
theyll swear it's convenient
she wont get to choose

linoleum floors kiss cold on your thighs
youll sit there and hold her close
wondering why oh why
is it so hard closing your eyes
youll wash them with soap but it wont turn time
dont try

linoleum floors

had to start this year off with something different than usual, im hoping to drop every month :] i love you thank you for pressing play

crazy

thank you again, be ready for a lot to hear this year.

empty

produced by nvrmindreid
everything else by me
love ya

lyrics:

i've barely broke in my boots
the ones i got when you were aloof
have you took a look at the news?
i've hardly kept it together
hide both my arms in my sweater
i told my brothers i wan do something new
but i just end up doing shit like before
i broke my hands off just to build a new roof
and for a moment i thought i saw shore

i place my cards down face up
scour my room for a quick buck
spend all that dollars that i had
on something that gon make me feel sum
say you're bothered by the past
so won't you go ahead and do something
say you're bothered by the past
so won't you go ahead and do some-
i wrap my arms round my waist
how many days will it take
i look at you in the face
and tell a lie what a waste
i feel the weight of my body
i'm too ashamed to look up
exhale the smoke in my lungs
and forget where i came from

have you took a look at the news baby
you're even prettier now baby
spinning in my head all around baby
and i can't seem to get you out baby

i've barely broke in my boots
the ones i got when you were aloof
have you took a look at the news?
i've hardly kept it together
hide both my arms in my sweater
i told my brothers i wan do something new
but i just end up doing shit like before
i broke my hands off just to build a new roof
and for a moment i thought i saw shore

breaking in

#lifeline
discord.gg/S57DG9sPGn

^ join

u keep a photo of me inside of ur wallet
baby if it got stolen would u look around for it
dont think about what she said ill see u on the weekend
oh yeah

im worried bout what he said
when am i done peaking
these arent the normal things u do on the weekend
crank it up lets forget about yesterday
i would never stop cuz of someone in my way
crank it up lets forget about yesterday
i would never stop cuz of someone in my way

you can't shut this party down
what we have goin on
i need it i need u to keep it a secret
won't find out where im at
its a different kind of place you dont know bout it

prologue - 00

Invite only - prod rans0m

you call me impulsive 
Baby don’t i know 
I been here before with you
So please don’t leave me lone 
I call it a blessing
But I don’t really know if that’s for sure
And nobody's perfect 
Baby don’t I know 
I’ll let down my guard for you so
Please don’t treat me wrong 
It’s so ineffective 
You know u do whatever u want 

But you know what it’s like when you love someone 
god forgive me, why I act so dumb 
Now you treating me like i’m no one 
Pardon me, I’m so mistaken 
Now you tell me that I’m all yours
Uncommitted so I close that door 
Move apart of me a little more 
Kill me while my heart is breaking 

A drop in the ocean 
I need some peace of mind
Needing to take some time 
This feelings driving me mental 
It’s easier to love no one 
45 spinning on the track so dumb
I wish I never called you up
I wish I never got shit wrong 
And baby I know that nothing for sure 
But, I wish I didn’t take so long 
Pardon me for feeling resentful 
it’s just not that simple

god bless her, even when it hurts me (prod.KBL)

get back up put your shoes on
the job ain't finished make a new song
and watch like everyone around you get a move on
so get a move on
i smoke another bowl
i wanna be alone
i've seen like everyone surpass me
oh god i miss my family
i'll make it where you can be
just throw me a lifeline or something i can hold
and it's only september how'd it get so cold
do you remember the winter on the phone
it's getting close to december so you know where to go

don't go yet i love you my darling
i feel it rush through my skin and my bones
is it that hard to tell that i've lost it
don't go

breaking in

spoder