00317

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/16aPg17al8DKBm8LyMn4eE?si=9f8e74ca0f344527
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/cd-feat-ry-2

guitar by othello
additional production by me and ryan
written and performed by me and ryan
with @rywrrd (show him love please)

i lied i'm sorry next one will be a summer tune <3
thank you for listening always :)

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a toast,
play your cd
the music brings you peace
alone
so don't mind me
I had a stupid dream again

you thought you had from the start
I don't want have to break your heart
but it broke
and now that cd drowns in static
a sour note
I highly doubt it

your favourite song
your radio I turn it on
we fell in love in your shitty car
with static on your heart
screaming out our favourite part

I made a stupid decision
in my mind, clouded dumb inference
I gave it all that I had
but all I had was indifferent
I'd break my arms off to help you
if it meant that you would listen
I stare and talk to the wall
scratched disc had tarnished the image
I thought I loved you

cd w/ ry

couldnt do nymore to thhis,,  an extended vers of an older trackk

weak

if you ever feel like you are not enough
dial 988 (USA)
dial 116 123 (UK)

-

i wish you'd tell me that its over
i'd run right back and win her over
i hate you but dont hate yourself
i'd help you but cant help myself

you keep talking to your friends
about the person that i am
or the person that i was those years ago
think that love is just a scam
wish i was another man 
and build my name up off the ground like heroes
(oh)

look at you
look at you
look at you now
those scars on your hands meant i let you down
look at you
look at you
look at you
and it all comes back here

trying my best but im down on my own
closing my door cause you'll never come home
crying alone cause i know its my fault
please dont let go
dont go

ive been trying hard to move on
always got a point to prove on
what happens if i say how i feel? (say it)
pushed me to the side its not real
all that i said was a joke
cant get the words out ill choke (what are you sorry for?)

why would you assume that?
i grew up
you knew that

i wish you'd tell me that its over
i'd run right back and win her over
i hate you but dont hate yourself
i'd help you but cant help myself

you keep talking to your friends
bout the person that i am
or the person that i was those years ago
think that love is just a scam
wish i was another man 
and build my name up off the ground like heroes
(oh)

look at you
look at you
look at you now
those scars on your hands meant i let you down
look at you
look at you
look at you
and it all comes back here (faces in 2D)

trying my best but im down on my own (on that plastic screen )
closing my door cause you'll never come home (and inverted dreams)
crying alone cause i know its my fault
i grew up
you knew that

heroes

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4I9bp9alDC4m9MT4GNLtOY?si=b589387c7a0a444c
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/able

produced by jonah bru
mixed written performed by me
cover art by yinon

valentines day song
hope you enjoy, more stuff soon :)
thank you for listening as always

///
show me how
show me how you love
tell me how
tell me how you feel
stop it love I'm exhausted
don't give it up, I thought you were someone that I-

don't tell me the time that I spent was no use
will I be more than (be more than)
problems to you?
oh I'll carry all my baggage to show you I'm able
you stutter your speech cause it's true

tread fine lines
when I'm with you it feels like there's no wrong or right
sworn by you, we'd grow older
my feelings attached
now I sit like a loner
oooh
I'll make sure that I'll
dooo
everything that you want me to
dumb ear had me in loop
what's there for me to do
don't give it up, I thought you were someone that I loved

don't tell me the time that I spent was no use
will I be more than (be more than)
problems to you?
oh I'll carry all my baggage to show you I'm able
you stutter your speech cause it's true

able

what is there left to do

i swear

#aftrrLife
prod me and dsi

whenever im wrong i just end up mistaken
i cant do no wrong if its up i cant make it
feed off my energy buddy just face it
u do what i do but the swag aint for taking
find a new method ur pockets outdated
im close to the bread i could almost just taste it
ttd had to take a step back
made em boys proud know i got they back
feel like b miller i gotta spin back
for my brother my woadie its simple as that
flex ona net everybody just cap
and they hating each other no love where im at
nothing to lose ima take what i can
and i know that much true ima push the advance
pushing thru all of this pain fr
i cannot fw no snake fr
look at the world i live in its covered in lies
this shit it aint a surprise
righting my wrongs but im losing my pride 
and they come and they go but i stay on my side
tearing my heart with the music apart with the money inside
im playing my part i would die for this shit
if u took what i felt would u still be alive

remember them days i used to cry bout it
talk down ill die bout it
fake love they lie bout it
head high my mind crowded
headshot the scope mounted
drum rounded
drop dead he dumbfounded
me vs the world im surrounded
keep up the score im counting
my brother told me that ima prevail
i gotta keep going ill never give out
almost let up i done been thru a lot
for the ppl i lost im making it count
spending my money making it back
do it again til my pockets fall out
wash everybody ima put em in a drought
see em all talk im eyeing em out
im getting higher n higher
run me a lap not tired tired
telling my truth no liar liar
im getting higher n higher
run me a lap not tired tired
chasing my trail u desperate dire
turn up the city i broke off the locks
hop in that mazi i skrt off the lot
stick to myself cant fw no thot
follow the plan im the shot caller 
hold me a band u dont know nada


(verse)
im just so sick and tired
of the same bullshit
everytime i do something
it just goes unnoticed
like how you gonna say you my friend
you dont even know me
stop tryna talk to my face
were not homies
like all the time i spent all by myself
said i would kill myself but no one helped

its like everything that i do
everybody becomes so fucking blind to
and then its just like
everything that they do
everybody keeps on turning their eyes to
but baby i did all this by myself
i dont need nobody else

(chorus)
ill gouge my eyes
ill cut my wrist
to see you frown
still dont need nobody
ill dye my hair
ill cut it all off
to see you frown
still dont need nobody
i bite my tongue
pretend im not there
to see you smile
still dont need nobody
ill be your pet
the one that you can use
to see you smile
i dont need nobody

(verse)
dont need nobody id rather be lonely
rather be by myself then have someone hurt me
because all these bitches keep lying to me
cant stand when they do it
keep lying right to me
im so sick
to my stomach
i feel so nauseous
do you want me?
im so exhausted
cant you see
the person that i wannabe

(chorus)
ill gouge my eyes
ill cut my wrist
to see you frown
still dont need nobody
ill dye my hair
ill cut it all off
to see you frown
still dont need nobody
i bite my tongue
pretend im not there
to see you smile
still dont need nobody
ill be your pet
the one that you can use
to see you smile
i dont need nobody

i dont need nobody else

p. peril

"i still love you though, have a great day and a great life"