end of an era... stay tuned

produced by sai
cover art edited by ilxrrr

//lyrics

What you thinking
What you think bout me what you thinking aw
What you think bout me what you think
What you think
Only you would try to ruin my life
So obsessed its like you’re still mine
Im so stressed what you did to my mind wasnt right
You come into my life just to terrorize
When i go gold spreading lies
You think you’re so fucking noble
I dont buy it
Begged you for forgiveness like half the time
Then you turn around and spin it
No i dont think i like you
Or anyone thats around
All your groupchat validation putting me down
I just assume that you wanna see me dead in the ground
Or somewhere i wont be found
Well too bad cus soon youll see me everywhere
The regrets thatll follow you everywhere
Dont pretend this wont follow you everywhere
I hope it follows you everywhere, everywhere
I hope this follows you everywhere

What you thinking
What you think bout me what you thinking aw
What you think bout me what you think
Whatchu think
Treated you the best i could but you cant admit now cause how bad youd look
Give me back the rest you took when you’re laying at night think about what you should’ve done
What it was, was something manifested from the one you loved
Just act like yall cant trust me like it wasnt sum
Just Deep inside your mind that you bottled up
Please wake up
Always some shit you made up
Started to feel like fake love
If you got an issue with me say sum
Say something, just say
What you think

whatchu think [p. sai]

//lyrics
the minute i pull up, got your lips on lock
you meant it when i stopped and you called me love
my mind sayin "dont get involved"
oh shit you let me know
that you give me your all
and you never do me wrong just like my last one did
oh shit i brought my past into it
and now you dont think id give you up
you dont think id show you off
when i see you in my arms
everything else turns off

but its too easy, too easy babe
i start to aleviate
its my fault you dont see me lately
one call just to hear you maybe
i need you baby
they all think im faded
go ahead, call them crazy
i made it but i think you could tell that i need you by me
i know you too well not to treat you like we
havent grown out of our shells i cant see you siding
with no one else
with no one else because
the minute i pull up, got your lips on lock
you meant it when i stopped and you called me love
my mind sayin "dont get involved"
oh shit you let me know
that you give me your all
and you never do me wrong just like my last one did
oh shit i brought my past into it
and now you dont think id give you up
you dont think id show you off
when i see you in my arms
everything else turns off
i want you to see me, just see me babe
want you to see me babe
want you to see me babe
want you to see me
just see me
just see me babe
i want you to see me babe

minute [p sai]

everything produced and engineered by me
live guitar recorded by yours truly
im really goated yessssssirrrrrrrr

my brotha taught me how to ball
i got this new notion i could prolly rule em all
no its not if or when i dont decide when i fall
always tripping over shit so how exactly do i ball?
still the 4peat start just to show my respect
oh this my favorite part, new patek on my shit ahhhh

you get the sediment and we can make a settlement
i say it's vetements, im fresher than what the reverends in
i paid the settlement pardoned for all the debt im in
new rich embezzlement seeing life just for what it is
she got me stuttering speaking with speech impediments
just passing judgement will never make you benevolent
im smoking good weed im knowing this shit is prevalent
i keep on questioning character for my betterment

my brotha taught me how to ball
i got this new notion i could prolly rule em all
no its not if or when i dont decide when i fall
always tripping over shit so how exactly do i ball?
oh this my favorite part, i been sayin we the best
brand new whip push start, margiela on my chest

my ass is spent, smoked a whole gram that's .0022
im at the peak of my emotions don't know what to do
im swallowed up by the envy i need to change my view
god what the fck is wrong with me im only 22
i think i had my midlife crisis i was 19
my life's a battle with my ego i'm still fighting
and the music is my therapy
feel like before the music wasnt meaning anything

my brotha taught me how to ball
i got this new notion i could prolly rule em all
no its not if or when i dont decide when i fall
always tripping over shit so how exactly do i ball ball ball

my FavoritePart (1sloan)

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by plantcham
outro by aftrr
additional production by me

I packed all my bags and left my home town
And when I come I want to be something
Make my dad proud
Oh isn’t it obvious love?
That I miss you so dearly
Can you hear me?
Oh I’ll make it easy

Pulled your knife but I’m already dead
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Wore up your shoes kicking dirt in my face
It’s how it’s supposed to be love
God strike me down from above
Just tell me what you really want
What you really want

At a rest stop in a car with some people I don’t know
Maybe if we didn’t live far then our eyes would both be glowing gold
Dream girl don’t love me no more (don’t throw it away)
Threw my morals out like a whore (you threw it away)
You don’t gotta save me darling
I spent the last month getting high
Wishing I wasn’t alive and steady crying
I told myself don’t die yet
That’d be so violent

I’ve been up all night for you
Ruin my mind for you
Giving all this time for you
Peeling back my eyes for you
Oh baby can’t you see? (that my head is on the floor, bae head is on the floor)
Oh baby can’t you see? (do you love me anymore bae, love me anymore?)
Love me anymore

Pulled your knife but I’m already dead
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be? (go!)
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?

home

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by plantcham

They tell me that I’m dumb
Shit, I agree with them
Yea, I was out tryna find solace
Picked up the j and couldn’t put it down
Couldn’t tell you who I am now
Left home to make my dad proud but I done lost my whole mind wow
I still, I still love you dearly
I don’t, I don’t want no one near me
And don’t dare offer me a cig yea that shit fucking disgusting

I’ll be gone
So so damn far
I was wrong
To lend you my heart
Are you better than?
You are heaven sent
5150
Now I’m hell bent
And I did it once
I’ll do it again
Get me out the city
Need a soul cleanse

Told the teller I’ve been so exhausted
He laughed and told me “go and shut your noggin”
I give more than I take like way too often
I built and lay down in my own coffin
Miss the days where I would watch the train go by
Don’t care if it’s fake, want to be yours tonight
Tell me what you want or where your heart resides
Tell me what you-
Tell me what it feels like
Tell me what it-

We’re young baby have pride in it
Spent the last five months thinking I’d die before I turn nineteen baby
Turn around, put your fists up
Wish I didn’t fucking miss ya
Turn around, put your fists up
I’ll be there cause I need ya
Tell another lie
Maybe in another life
Don’t think twice
I’ll show you I’m able this time

Told the teller I’ve been so exhausted
He laughed and told me “go and shut your noggin”
I give more than I take like way too often
I built and lay down in my own coffin
Miss the days where I would watch the train go by
Don’t care if it’s fake, want to be yours tonight
Tell me what you want or where your heart resides
Tell me what you-
Tell me what it feels like
Tell me what it-

5150

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by neverforever
additional production by me

They say, “give it time”
Suppose it’s only right
I wore a smile until the days had turn to night
I watched my knees give out as soon as I saw the text
I laid my conscience down to rest
I watched my options fade to grey
Till there was nothing left
I don’t wanna feel this way
I don’t wanna deal with it no more
The things I love about you
Are things I wish I could change

Are things I wish I could change
Are things I wish I could change
Wish I could change
You tore a hole in my brain
Pick up a piece of my remains
And leave the rest up to fate (are things I wish I could change)
Cause babe I feel like a slave
And I can’t deal with the pain
Don’t tell me it was all in vein
Oh these are things I wish I could change

change

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by kire

Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me this shit is not real
Tell me it’s all a damn lie
I won’t give up this time
I won’t give up this-

Spent a month baby fuck- a lifetime
How do I say this so it come out right
Felt god let my hand out
Let it freeze up cause it felt nice
Pray I’ll see you again
Pray to god the phone rings and we’ll make amends
Pray to god my life don’t end
Pray to god won’t bloody up my arms and cry my eyes out again
Pray to god you’ll be fine if I’m on tomorrow’s paper
Love I hate to be a hater
But my eyes have grown so vacant
Know you love it when I say it
Like some shit about my music
Wrote my songs about you, won’t you take a listen?

Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me this shit is not real
Tell me it’s all a damn lie
I won’t give up this time
I won’t give up this-

forswear

NINETEEN w imnotvrycreative + zxtr (prod. TYRAZ + cat fight)

thank you again, be ready for a lot to hear this year.

empty

get back up put your shoes on
the job ain't finished make a new song
and watch like everyone around you get a move on
so get a move on
i smoke another bowl
i wanna be alone
i've seen like everyone surpass me
oh god i miss my family
i'll make it where you can be
just throw me a lifeline or something i can hold
and it's only september how'd it get so cold
do you remember the winter on the phone
it's getting close to december so you know where to go

don't go yet i love you my darling
i feel it rush through my skin and my bones
is it that hard to tell that i've lost it
don't go

vent song

I breathe in static, taste the light,
My reflection’s not aligned tonight.
You said “forever,” like it meant no end,
But forever broke where we began.

⸻

[Verse 1]
Blue screen glow on your ghost reply,
I talk to pixels just to feel alive.
Every message feels like glass,
Shattered sound in the voice I pass.

My pulse syncs with the bass again,
Synthetic tears in oxygen.
I keep falling through the sound,
Where your echo drags me down.

⸻

[Chorus]
We’re glass hearts, breaking in silence,
Too fragile to love, too numb for violence.
You fade like smoke through my veins,
Sweet decay, electric pain.

Glass hearts, shatter and stay,
Pieces of us in disarray.
You said it’s real, I said okay—
Now we glitch in the same delay.

⸻

[Verse 2]
Moonlight leaks through silver blinds,
Another dream rewinds my mind.
You exist where signals die,
Half alive in a lullaby.

I see your face in laser bloom,
Dripping colors fill the room.
I whisper your name through static snow,
Hoping maybe you’ll reload.

⸻

[Bridge]
Delete the file, it still remains,
Inside the code, inside my brain.
No escape, no offline peace,
Just the loop that never ceased.

⸻

[Final Chorus]
We’re glass hearts, breaking in silence,
Too fragile to love, too numb for violence.
You fade like smoke through my veins,
Sweet decay, electric pain.

Glass hearts, echo and fray,
Lost in loops we can’t replay.
You said “forever,” I said “stay,”
Now forever’s just a soundwave.

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