Peak Vibes

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5lTeS2AOY3NyTELjl5sIHr?si=506ffc3f1c874be7

p. joshwa (@prodbyjoshwa)
inspired by @starfall
mix n master by me
trying somethin different
this song means a lot
i hope you enjoy listening

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oh ive been wrapped up in this hurt
for way too long
everything that i do man i do it for u
and youve taken advantage
what did i do? i just don't understand it
the mental strain is way too much for me
i ask you to stop and i plead on my knees
the dip in my confidence, what i achieve
everything that you are doing to me

or do you want me taking the drugs like the rest?
fail all my classes and blame it on meds
cause deep in my gut i dont think that you care
look in the mirror and pull out my hair

oh youve been hurting me bad
i want me back
i got all this damn blood on my hands
skip town with a quick money advance
cause you stole me away from me
and i hold on desperately
but my grip is not strong
oh youre in the wrong
ran out of options i have to stay strong

cause i try so hard
do what i can but i can't make it far
no i can't make it far
do what i can and i'm trying so hard

oh youve been hurting me bad
i want me back
i got all this damn blood on my hands
skip town with a quick money advance
cause you stole me away from me
and i hold on desperately
but my grip is not strong
oh youre in the wrong
ran out of options i have to stay strong

tired

what’s that you said
not gon’ shut up
feelings i can’t keep up
i don’t want 
i don’t need you
i don’t love you
i just needed stability 
i’m so broke down and fidgety 
but
but i was hoping that
we could go back to that time where i hold you baby
i don’t need shit but a macc for my safety 
double 03 put a hole in ur baby 
i’m outside getting high on the daily

autumn - one way (remix)

other side (prod. sorrow bringer)

exclusive! (prod. jean parker x daks9k)

eternal guard ?

inspo @1kaido

with @maxrrss

main @oroahh

adore w/ maxrrss

i don't wanna hurt you
oh do you
do you think i've hurt you
or should i lie on the ground like i'm supposed to
no i never wanna hurt you
take a breath white lies fill up your lungs
i'd rather give it up this time
you lied
throw it like a dud
i don't remember much
you said a couple words
my face thrown in the dirt
i thought it wouldn't hurt

dirt

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/16aPg17al8DKBm8LyMn4eE?si=9f8e74ca0f344527
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guitar by othello
additional production by me and ryan
written and performed by me and ryan
with @rywrrd (show him love please)

i lied i'm sorry next one will be a summer tune <3
thank you for listening always :)

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a toast,
play your cd
the music brings you peace
alone
so don't mind me
I had a stupid dream again

you thought you had from the start
I don't want have to break your heart
but it broke
and now that cd drowns in static
a sour note
I highly doubt it

your favourite song
your radio I turn it on
we fell in love in your shitty car
with static on your heart
screaming out our favourite part

I made a stupid decision
in my mind, clouded dumb inference
I gave it all that I had
but all I had was indifferent
I'd break my arms off to help you
if it meant that you would listen
I stare and talk to the wall
scratched disc had tarnished the image
I thought I loved you

cd w/ ry

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4I9bp9alDC4m9MT4GNLtOY?si=b589387c7a0a444c
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/able

produced by jonah bru
mixed written performed by me
cover art by yinon

valentines day song
hope you enjoy, more stuff soon :)
thank you for listening as always

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show me how
show me how you love
tell me how
tell me how you feel
stop it love I'm exhausted
don't give it up, I thought you were someone that I-

don't tell me the time that I spent was no use
will I be more than (be more than)
problems to you?
oh I'll carry all my baggage to show you I'm able
you stutter your speech cause it's true

tread fine lines
when I'm with you it feels like there's no wrong or right
sworn by you, we'd grow older
my feelings attached
now I sit like a loner
oooh
I'll make sure that I'll
dooo
everything that you want me to
dumb ear had me in loop
what's there for me to do
don't give it up, I thought you were someone that I loved

don't tell me the time that I spent was no use
will I be more than (be more than)
problems to you?
oh I'll carry all my baggage to show you I'm able
you stutter your speech cause it's true

able

demo 2

i don't know how to say it
if it keeps on i'll be emaciated
another product of harming
crash, fall
i don't wanna be here at all
don't catch me if i fall down
another product of harming
crash, fall
i can't seem to find it, it's lost
the boy i was before
why have grown disheartened
crash, fall

mind my mind you
pick my fights
hand my life over
i rest my soul down been at it since october
don't lie to yourself you're not a toler
you barely know her
think she a showman
petty scars all over
you should've known then
it gets too heavy to breathe
i'm pleading down on my-
i stay up grinding my teeth
my flesh is ready to eat

i don't know how to say it
if it keeps on i'll be emaciated
another product of harming
crash, fall
i don't wanna be here at all
don't catch me if i fall down
another product of harming
crash, fall
i can't seem to find it, it's lost
the boy i was before
why have grown disheartened
crash, fall

product of harm

prod: meutry

your words they cut like incisions
i cant take her back cause she knows
ill act different
like all of the time that i spent 
countless hours 
now missing
like 
baby you just know that i wanted you so bad
yeah why did you just leave me up 
and put me in the trash yeah
why am i just living my whole life
up in the past tense?
baby i just wanted you
but it aint never happenin’

like oh why am i so alone?
i still wear her cologne 
just to feel at home
like oh why am i so alone?
i still wear her cologne
just to feel at home

yeah
no matter what she do 
i still love her
i think that i want her by my side
with no other
i think abt her all the time 
my mind filled like a gutter
trapped like a mime 
instead of a box it was a dumpster

wordscutdeep

its my birthday today

p. peril

1,2,3,4
your so draining 
i did everything i shouldnt
could you stop complaining
but i knew you always wouldnt
do you hate my guts?
i can tell from the way you look
and do you hate my love?
i can tell from the things you took

ohhh oh i
been waiting for a text back from you
i oh i 
hate the things you always do
please stop lying to my face because yk i hate that bitch
i get anxious when you talk to me because your just a prick
id do anything under the sun, you left me in a ditch
id do anything under the sun because,

your so draining 
i did everything i shouldnt
could you stop complaining
but i knew you always wouldnt
do you hate my guts?
i can tell from the way you look
and do you hate my love?
i can tell from the things you took

im up at 3am im in a panic
i might just cut my wrist because im feellin manic today
i never meant to fuckin ever throw u away
i think im running out of fuckin words to say
with you, with you you made me feel so fuckin lost
screamin at myself in the mirror but at what cost?
lately i think my battery is running low
im so sick to my stomach i think i gotta go.

your so draining 
i did everything i shouldnt
could you stop complaining
but i knew you always wouldnt
do you hate my guts?
i can tell from the way you look
and do you hate my love?
i can tell from the things you took

last time

back like i never left x

video out now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fnzyutj7XJ4

-

set your mind right
i dont really care but
i just wanna know when the times right
and i know you got no friends but
i just wanna know where ur minds at
took a prozac
faded
left my third eye on a mindmap
fuck unconscious hating
you dont wanna know where my minds at

and i know you hate the sight but
i dont wanna leave when youre blinded
shed some tears in amsterdam cause
i dont wanna hear when we're fighting

wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses

i dont wanna hear when we're--
/wont cut away, cut away with your losses/
i dont wanna hear when we're fighting
/wont cut away, cut away with your losses/
i dont wanna hear when we're

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produced by neverforever

tired

spoder

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