HOW I FEEL EVERYDAY FOR YEARS

Every single night
I'm up thinking bout my life
What causes all the pain I feel inside?
Can't ever escape
Constant battles in my mind
Don't feel human
Half the time
Walking all alone
Get along with no one else
I don't even like my fucking self
Look up at the sky
Asking where the fuck am I?
Whats the point to even try?

Am I really from here?
In this galaxy
Every time I look for love
It's a catastrophe
I know I could never be
What they asked of me
I still wanna help myself
Discover inner peace

Depression brings me underneath
I go invisible
I don't talk to anyone
I know it's pitiful
Some days I feel so miserable
I wish I wasn't here
Anxiety is killing me
It's time to disappear

Running out of time
Lately feel I'm running out of time
Running from the demons in my mind
I can't get away
Speeding
Like I'm driving in a race
One day hope I'm driving
In a wraith

Running out of time
Lately feel I'm running out of time
Running from the demons in my mind
I can't get away
Speeding
Like I'm driving in a race
One day hope I'm driving
In a wraith
Don't care what they say
Lately feel like everyone is fake
Lately they been lying to my face
That is not okay
You don't understand the pain you cause
Used to see the light
Now I am lost
I am lost
I am lost

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inner peace (prod. xtravulous)

When I pull up
My car topless
And I'm dripped out
Imma drop it
Imma fiend tho
Needa stop it
I got 12 grams in my pocket
Imma smoke it
Till I'm seeing stars
If you love me
Take my broken heart
And please hold it
Don't let it go
It's all hopeless
Yeah I already know

Yeah I already know

When its over
Imma be a sad ghost
Lost myself
On a search for my own soul
Imma come back
Haunting all of my ex hoes
Only thing I'm hearing
Is the echoes
Lurking in the night
Hiding in the shadows

It's not easy to be me
If I was in your spot
I probably would leave me

Here to die
Tried my hardest
Like 1,000 times
I still stay up
Like all damn night
Minds a mess
From anxiety inside

When I pull up
My car topless
And I'm dripped out
Imma drop it
Imma fiend tho
Needa stop it
I got 12 grams in my pocket
Imma smoke it
Till I'm seeing stars
If you love me
Take my broken heart
And please hold it
Don't let it go
It's all hopeless
Yeah I already know

Yeah I already know
It's all hopeless
In the end
Nothing fucking matters
She took my heart
Out of chest
And left it shattered
Wish I never met her
Wish I never had her
Tired of this life
I wanna see what's after

Tired all the time
I know its a disaster
Get outside my mind
So I can see the patterns
Thought I had some friends
I guess they were just actors

Damn my life a movie
They try to get to close
I know they wanna use me
Always talking
But I never see em doing
I can't fuck with lames
I gotta keep it moving

it's all hopeless (prod. spacedtime)

From the bottom of my cold heart
You know I loved you
Put you in my past life
That's what the drugs do
Acid on a cold night
Fucking freezing
Oh my god
I'm so high
Think I'm peaking

I'm going the distance
Just gotta stay consistent
They would never listen
But now they treat me different
It's because I'm glo'd up
Gave it all my focus
You gotta work your hardest
If you want people to notice

No days off I'm never sleeping
Writing songs in my head
While I'm dreaming
All my life I'm stuck
Searching for a meaning
Wish I gave a fuck
I can't find a reason

I can't find a reason
Bitch I'm smoking trees
And I'm so clueless
Does she love me?
Or she leaving
Oh that's perfect
That's exactly what I needed
A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
I'm rolling hard
In the night
And I'm looking at the stars
Took my life
And she ripped it all apart
I put it back
But you can see the scars

You can see the scars
All the pain inside my eyes
I'm just another kid
That's tortured by his mind
Thought of getting out
Like 1000 fucking times
I can barely breathe
But I just say I'm fine

I just say I'm fine
Anxiety inside
Makes it hard to sleep at night
Smoking get me right
Gets me out head
You talking shit to me
But I'm in your bitches bed
In between her legs

I be going stupid
I'm ruthless
Go behind my back
I'll leave you toothless
Leave you looking useless
Like bro what are you doing
Your whole life a lie
Say you winning but you losing

From the bottom of my cold heart
You know I loved you
Put you in my past life
That's what the drugs do
Acid on a cold night
I'm fucking freezing
Oh my god
I'm so high
I think I'm peaking

past life (prod. xtravulous)

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me
Had hopeless feelings
Since I was 14
Just wanna fade out
This world is plain now
This scene is played out
It's all the same now

I hope I wash away
Bring the rain down
I'm smoking everyday
It help my brain out
Cause it's a fucking mess
Lately I'm close to death
I think I need to rest
Cause I don't feel my best
Feel pain inside my chest
It's hard to catch a breath
So I just need a sec
To keep my life intact
Sometimes I feel so lost
And I don't have a map
Don't know where I'm at
Looking for a sign
Wish I could go back
To the better times
To the better days
And the better nights
When I was just a kid
Never questioned life
What was wrong or right
Never really cared

Still don't really care
I can take you there
Welcome to my world
There's sadness in the air
Depression everywhere
Don't feel like waking up
God I fucking suck
Feel so fucking stuck
Walking through the mud
I know I'm not enough
I just wanted love
But now I have no trust
I just got the drugs
And now my feelings numb
Please don't hit me up
Im higher than the sun
I know we had our fun
But that shit's over now
Left me here to die
Looking like a clown
Left me here to die
Bleeding on the ground
But I made it out
Yeah I made it out

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me
Had hopeless feelings
Since I was 14
Just wanna fade out
This world is plain now
This scene is played out
It's all the same now

trust me (prod. blackmayo)

I wonder if they really care
Like they say they do
Bleeding in my room
I would hate me too
If I were being you
I would let me down
Stab me in the back
Leave me with a frown

Yeah I know I'm sick
And my mind is fucked
Think of giving up
Yeah my brain is done

Life is pointless
I just wanna see what's after
Close my eyes all night
I know nothing matters

I hope I don't wake up
Lately I've been dealing
With a lot of fake trust
Fuck your love and fame
I fucking hate this game
I'd rather hang myself
I'd rather hate myself

I just took a 2
Poured it in my sprite
Feeling not alive
Feeling not alright
I just bought a blade
Put it to my skin
Hear the devil call
Imma let him in

These artist talking tough
But my flow wet as fuck
To bad I wanna die
Like all the fucking time
Like all my fucking life

My ex still on my line
This is such a mess
Wish I could just feel less

That's what the drugs do
Help my brain forget
That I ever loved you

It's time to fall back
My coffin all black
What's the point of life?
I'll never solve that
I'll never solve that

Yeah Yeah 

Know I'll never solve that

frown (prod. dirty sosa)

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak steers you
Got your burnt down house
In my rear view
Stuck thinking of the shit
That I went through
Just to realize
That I didn't need you

I never did
I was just foolish
Looking back
How could I be so clueless
We all die in the end
Know it's useless
Wake up every morning
Why do I do this

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak steers you
Got your burnt down house
In my rear view
Stuck thinking of the shit
That I went through
Just to realize
That I didn't need you

Call your name in the flames
Wanna hear you
Reach out for my hand
I won't help you
I'll just drag you down
To my hell too
Once you're like me
Nobody can save you

Once you're like me
Nobody can save you
Once you're like me
Everyone will hate you
Might wanna fucking take some drugs to numb the pain too
Become an addict
With some habit's that will hurt you
In the night
Memories will haunt you
There's no telling to the damage that they might do

Ain't no telling to the damage that they might do
How you think I got these issues

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak steers you
Got your burnt down house
In my rear view
Stuck thinking of the shit
That I went through
Just to realize
That I didn't need you

I never did
I was just foolish
Looking back
How could I be clueless
We all die in the end
Know it's useless
Wake up every morning
Why do I do this

Why do I do this
Torture my own brain

Why do I do this
Drive myself insane

Pile up the stress
I can't take it I'm a mess
Try my best
Just to end up feeling
Permanently depressed

Ever since I lost my soul
Nothing been the same
The weather's getting colder
And I hope it doesn't change
I hope that it rain's
The whole entire day
So I can stay inside
And never see another face

Never see another face

I already know my fate
I'm not meant for living long
Imma burn through life
Till I'm fucking gone
This shit is boring
Feel like moving on

Feel like moving on

Feel like moving on

love dies fast (prod. spacedtime)

(LYRICS)   ft @hammy     prod. @droozzzy
ask why im down guess im used to it
walk around the mall wearing raf simons
i wont stay here forever thats sad
scared to show my face yeah
i should wear a mask
live in isolation that shit is gonna kill me
looking like a ghost when im walking through the building
i can see myself yea im hanging from the ceiling
laying on the floor and the walls r moving closer

writing these songs just to get it out
i can see my own life and its fading now

      
I can see my own life and it's fading
I can see my own life and it's

life keeps fading 
mind is always racing
out in public 
hide my face 
like im Jason 
got the razor on me
if you hating
got my team around me
we just hanging

we just posted 
smoking potent
my hands are shaking 
I hope she doesn't notice 
I hate my mindset
it's hard to focus
when everything fucking seems so hopeless 

I don't want friends
I just want the end
I just wanna rest 
spend the day in bed 
I'll lay here till I'm dead
can't get out my head 
It's cause I'm trapped inside
It's such a lonely night

I live a lonely life
half the fucking time 
I don't feel alive
I know it's not alright
but I don't have the drive
to do anything
motivation inside 
keeps withering


ask why im down guess im used to it
walk around the mall wearing raf simons
i wont stay here forever thats sad
scared to show my face yeah
i should wear a mask
live in isolation that shit is gonna kill me
looking like a ghost when im walking through the building
i can see myself yea im hanging from the ceiling

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used to it +hamilton (prod. droozy)

prod. @spacedtime

stuck in my room 
just waiting on you
we had good plans
but they all fell through
anxiety inside
I don't know what do
tears in my eyes 
get a call from you

I'll decline it
pain in my chest 
but I'm trying not to mind it
I get hopeless feelings 
ain't no way to fight it 
battles in my brain 
that's why I'm staying quiet

sorry I know I'm hard to reach
I just can't wait till I'm underneath
I'll rest in peace 
my eternal sleep 
all these songs in my head 
and my heart's the beat
so basically this music's me
at the end of the day 
it's all I need
I'm still searching though 
feel so incomplete 
cause of the hole 
she left 
from the knife in me 

at night
I see the reaper follow me 
I got so much weight up on top of me
wanna let it slip 
just lose my grip 
and say fuck it all
I'm over this 

all these fake people 
steady ruin shit 
they'll take what's yours
and try to run with it 
but if you take mine 
you ain't running bitch 
you gonna go insane 
before you manage it
try to figure me out 
you can't handle it 

I take two pills 
now they dissolving quick
Imma damaged kid 
yeah this how I live 
girl I gave you all
that I had to give
but you looked at me 
like I wasn't shit 
and I can't forget
no I can't forget

I'm over it
so over it 
 
stuck in my room 
just waiting on you
we had good plans
but they all fell through
anxiety inside
I don't know what do
tears in my eyes 
get a call from you

I'll decline it
pain in my chest 
but I'm trying not to mind it
I get hopeless feelings 
ain't no way to fight it 
battles in my brain 
that's why I'm staying quiet

that's why I'm staying distant
I keep my distance
I don't belong here 
I feel so different 
it's a sickness
I can't fix it
prayed it would change
but it isn't 

mental prison
it's like I'm locked in
all the memories of us
I wish I lost them 
burn them in a fire 
and just toss them
I'll feel better laying in a coffin

stuck (prod. spacedtime)

Nowadays I never sleep
Work until the sun fading
I can't fuck with all these lames
Cause they keep changing
Lying to my fucking face
Feel my heart breaking
She left me in the rain
Now my hands shaking

Yeah
I could never trust
I don't have it in me
Now my pockets full
But I'm still empty
Smoking out the pound
Keep it in my Fendi
Black knife on me
To protect me
Keep it tucked in
To these true religions
She think I'm an angel
But I'm a demon

I remember when they hated
But now they listen
I always knew
I had a clear vision

Shoutout to my day 1's
Who stood by me
We in newport beach
In a v8 audi
I'm lighting up the weed
Now it's looking cloudy
I could give a fuck
If they wanna doubt me

I see what they can't see
I'm high above
They can't reach
His girl wanna talk to me
But her touch is deadly
I can't fall in love again
I can't have to many friends
My heart is growing heavy
And my bones are wearing thin

I can't fall in love again
I can't have to many friends
My heart is growing heavy
And my bones are wearing thin

I can't fall in love again
I can't have to many friends
My heart is growing heavy
And my bones are wearing thin

My bones are wearing thin
It's getting pretty bad
All the walls are caving in
You turned me to a fiend
Yeah you were my medicine
I miss your fucking touch
Felt like spiders on my skin

Made a promise to myself
I would never fall again
Try so hard to wake up
But this nightmare never end
People used to talk shit
Now they wanna be my friend
Keep my feelings locked down
I can never let you in

To this head of mine
I'll search but
I can't find
Satisfaction
I can't ever get it right
I'm staying up all night
Bags under both my eyes
I'm not tired
Yeah I'm working overtime

Nowadays I never sleep
Work until the sun fading
I can't fuck with all these lames
Cause they keep changing
Lying to my fucking face
Feel my heart breaking
She left me in the rain
Now my hands shaking

Yeah I could never trust
Just don't have it in me
Now my pockets full
But I'm still empty
Smoking out the pound
Keep it in my Fendi
Black knife on me
To protect me
Keep it tucked in
To these true religions
She think I'm an angel
But I'm a demon

I remember when they hated
But now they listen
I always knew
I had a clear vision

nowadays (prod. xtravulous)

(Another night spent alone)
(Sometimes I wish you could know)
(How much you fuck with my head)
(I'm constantly on the edge)
(I'm constantly on the edge)
(I'm constantly on the edge)
(Sometimes I wish you could know)
(Sometimes I wish you could know)

Another night spent alone
Sometimes I wish you could know
How much you fuck with my head
I'm constantly on the edge

I'm smoking, drinking coffee
Scars on me like a zombie
For you baby I'm crazy
Dive headfirst, now I'm too deep

I can't breathe, sinking deeper
Things are different, we're older
The world is on our shoulders
I feel it growing colder

Crush my dreams, watch them shatter
None of this even matters
Wanna die when I think about her
Wish I could know what's after

I'm a ghost, yeah I feel like Casper
When you're near me, my heart beats faster
And when I see you my mind starts racing
I've been working, now life's changing

No sleep, my body's aching
I'm no good at conversation
Need you like medication
'Cause every night I'm contemplating

Another night spent alone
Sometimes I wish you could know
How much you fuck with my head
I'm constantly on the edge

I'm smoking, drinking coffee
Scars on me, like a zombie
For you baby I'm crazy
Dive headfirst, now I'm too deep

(Dive headfirst, now I'm too deep)
(Scars on me, like a zombie)
(Maybe I'm going crazy)
(I wish that you would love me)

zombie (prod. jody)

Crush my dreams
And stab my back
Let me down
I'm used to that
Lie to me
Like all the time
Every night
You're on my mind

When I sleep
You're all I see
In my head
So constantly
Knock me right off
Both my feet
Tear my heart up
Piece by piece

Suffocation
I can't breathe
Drowning fast
And sinking deep
Take my life
And set me free
I hope they
Remember me

I'm hanging on by a thread
Looking over the edge
Evil voice in my head
Tells me I'm better off dead

I'm no good
Yeah I know I'm the worst
Smoking weed
Till my lungs start to hurt
Tell me lies
Already I know how this works
She won't care till
I'm covered with dirt

When we kissed
I knew I was cursed
You showed me hell was on earth
You dragged me to a new low
Then left me nowhere to go

Paranoid
I roll on my own
Skeleton
I'm just
Skin and bones
These days
I feel so empty
In my dreams
You still haunt me

When I sleep
You're all I see
In my head
So constantly
Knock me right off
Both my feet
Tear my heart up
Piece by piece

Suffocation
I can't breathe
Drowning fast
And sinking deep
Take my life and
Set me free
I hope they
Remember me

I know they won't remember me
Forget me in your memories
Take away my sanity
Stomp on me
Till I can't breathe

Till I can't breathe

piece by piece (prod. brody)

I'm too numb now
Can't come down
Just a fucked up kid from a small town
Used to doubt my dreams
They real now
Used to hate on me
How you feel now?

Ricks on my feet when I walk round
Silver on my teeth when I bite down
CDG 03 when I pop out
You only care about me cause I'm hot now

You only come around when I'm winning
Nowhere to be found when I'm bleeding
Stab me in the back for no reason
Thought you loved me
Why you leaving?

So sick of all these feelings
Growing tired of breathing
All this money means nothing
When you hate existing

Yeah I don't love these hoes I put that on my bitch
Hit from the back out the back door I dip
Nut then I cut I left that on her lip
Don't show no love these bitches ain't shit
Every time you come around you just bring drama
I need more bands I need more commas
Every time I get some more it be more problems
Yeah it be more prada
Yeah I get so high can't feel my heartbeat
All black dripped out its a dark sea
They just want us home got us locked in
I been in the stu I been locked in
And I never planned on stoppin
I know that they watchin when I'm gone and on the road
A lotta niggaz hatin so I gotta keep that pole
Paranoid and I'm numb that's fasho
Yeah these drugs got me gone
These drugs got me gone
These drugs got me numb
These drugs got numb
Yeah these drugs got me gone that's fasho

I'm too numb now
Can't come down
Just a fucked up kid from a small town
Used to doubt my dreams
They real now
Used to hate on me
How you feel now?

Ricks on my feet when I walk round
Silver on my teeth when I bite down
CDG 03 when I pop out
You only care about me cause I'm hot now

You only come around when I'm winning
Nowhere to be found when I'm bleeding
Stab me in the back for no reason
Thought you loved me
Why you leaving?

So sick of all these feelings
Growing tired of breathing
All this money means nothing
When you hate existing

can't come down ft. pillxxx (prod. maxtaylor)

thanks for 10k <3
prod. @prodjody

tired and tied down
i need you like right now
stuck in my own head
i can’t find the way out

too far gone
can’t save me
these drugs keep me steady
my heart gets so heavy
a ghost i’m nobody at all

feel like i don’t exist
and you’re my only fix
i got a thing for you
i want you in my room

feel like i’m made of glass
watch me break in half
weight up on my back
is slowly crushing me

fight for my sanity
everyday suffer silently
devil inside of me
but your touch feeling heavenly
it feels like ecstasy
bringing my feelings back to me
but ice cold in my heart
is all i’ll ever be

and your face in my dreams
is all i ever see
when i’m awake
my brains filled with anxiety

tired and tied down
i need you like right now
stuck in my own head
i can’t find the way out

too far gone
can’t save me
these drugs keep me steady
my heart gets so heavy
a ghost i’m nobody at all

nobody at all (prod. jody)

I don't wanna see the sun
I got toxins in my lungs
I got tabs up on my tongue
4 grams rolled inside the blunt
Medicine inside my cup
I can't love I fuck it up
Got me fiending for your touch
Will I ever be enough?

Until my heart stops beating
Imma be this way
I don't know my purpose
All I know is pain
Wake up in the evening
Every day's the same
Can't escape the cycle
It will never change

Ughhhhh
I don't wanna speak
I'm busy fighting feelings
Laying on my bed
Staring at the ceiling
No hope inside my heart
It feels like I'm sinking
Aiming for the stars
When I'm awake I'm dreaming

When I'm awake I'm dreaming
Your the one I'm seeing
In my head like all the time
Try to get you off my mind

Always overthinking
Always high for nothing
I love feeling nothing
Ketamine I'm frozen

You play me like a game
Fucking with my emotions
Acting like you care
But I know that you fronting

You lie right to my face
So now our trust is broken
Hope you miss me
Going missing you won't see me again

You won't see me again
Diving off the deep end
Everyday I'm drowning
In this life I'm locked in
There's no other option
Yeah this do or die
I'm aiming for the sky
I'm learning how to fly

Aiming for the sky
I'm learning how to fly
Far away from everyone
And everything

Until my heart stops beating
Imma be this way
I don't know my purpose
All I know is pain
Wake up in the evening
Every day's the same
Can't escape the cycle
It will never change

Ughhhhh
I don't wanna speak
I'm busy fighting feelings
Laying on my bed
Staring at the ceiling
No hope inside my heart
It feels like I'm sinking
Still aiming for the stars
When I'm awake I'm dreaming

I don't wanna see the sun
I got toxins in my lungs
I got tabs up on my tongue
4 grams rolled inside the blunt
Medicine inside my cup
I can't love I fuck it up
Got me fiending for your touch
Will I ever be enough?

until my heart stops beating (prod. jody)

Always saying that you care
But you're never there for me
My friends are make believe
In my head it's all a dream
I can't trust a soul
I'm a paranoid freak
Pour another cup
Every time I'm lonely

And if I'm being honest
You should stay away from me
Cause I know I got problems
And it's obvious to see
That I could never be
Anything you'd ever need
Better by my self
Everything I touch bleeds
And I'm no good at trust
Everyone I love leaves
They all disappear
Soon as it gets ugly

But they all reappear
When you getting money
Get out of my face
I don't want you near me
Every time you come around
You want something from me
But if we were to switch
I know you would dub me
Treat me like I don't exist
Yeah I'm nobody
Feeling like I'm dead
Barely have a heart beat

Frozen cold
Iced my soul
Cut my skin
Break my bones
As I grow
Years they go
By so fast
Blow right past me

I can't keep up
Feel so stuck
I'm sealing shut
I think I've had enough
Sometimes I wished the world
Would turn to dust

Always saying that you care
But you're never there for me
My friends are make believe
In my head it's all a dream
I can't trust a soul
I'm a paranoid freak
Pour another cup
Every time I'm lonely

And if I'm being honest
You should stay away from me
Cause I know I got problems
And it's obvious to see
That I could never be
Anything you'd ever need
Better by my self
Everything I touch bleeds
And I'm no good at trust
Everyone I love leaves
They all disappear
Soon as it gets ugly

I got some old friends
That wanna see me bloody
But I can't go out bad
So I keep it on me
Life is moving fast
This shit getting crazy
Imma keep on going
Till the reaper takes me
I don't wanna make a song
Bro you couldn't pay me
Imma cut you off
Without saying sorry

Imma cut you off
Without saying sorry
And Imma keep on going
Till the reaper takes me

obvious (prod. luca malaspina)

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New year
Same dreams
Old faces
I'm tired
I can't take it
So sick of this bullshit
I might fill my brain with a full clip

I might fill my brain with a full clip

They wanna see me dead
Voices in my head
Falling off the edge
I can't stop it

It's hard to love again
I don't have no friends
I just got a hole where my heart is

Yeah I got some scars
Don't get me started
Gave my all for you
I tried my hardest
We're nothing in the end
We die regardless
I just wish my head
Wasn't like this

I isolate myself I can't help it
Cause nowadays I'm always fucking anxious
Waking up at night still faded
I don't even know what the day is

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing

problems (prod. jody)

@hammy

lyrics:

know she see me scoring 
4 in the morning
i should be asleep, it don’t look like i’m ignoring
candles at my feet
counting bands like i’m hoarding 
i can’t get attached to results and rewardings
sometimes i feel broken 
that’s why i been saving up my potions 
and i’m always gonna change i’m in motion 
i can’t keep the light i’m not good with my devotion 
got divided i’m the quotient 

always in the forest or the park 
Juliet we’re apart
when i’m 3d i play my part 
on the tree in the stars 

rolling up this flower 
i got magic powers 
u can wear my rings now 
everything is ours 
meeting with the fairies 
feel like close encounters 
silver left a burn on my wrist
smokin sour 
reborn in an hour 

hammy:
always smoking loud
dont wanna hear u now
after hours at the park im just walking round
off a heavy dose
im such a lonely ghost
deep inside the ground is where i wanna go
underneath the dirt and inside the flames
nothing of me left only ash remains
i got frozen blood running thru my veins
Vivienne charms on my silver chain

always in the forest or the park 
Juliet we’re apart
when i’m 3d i play my part 
on the tree in the stars

motion w/ hamilton

Going insane
Imma fiend
I can't fucking stop it
Always staring at my screen
I wanna drop it down

When i think about it all
I wanna end it
Always messy in my head
I'm feeling manic now

Always lonely and confused
I don't what the fuck to do
All my friends keep falling through
But now I know that's nothing new

Bitch I made it by myself
I don't need your fucking help
I'd be better off in hell
Always hiding my shell
Wishing I was someone else
Oh well oh well
I'm just playing with the cards
That I was dealt

Always gamble with my life
This game is do or die
So I roll the fucking dice
And you can't live it twice
So I'm up like every night
I wanna feel alive
But I know I'm not alright
I know I'm not alright

Going insane
Imma fiend
I can't fucking stop it
Always staring at my screen
I wanna drop it down

When I think about it all
I wanna end it
Always messy in my head
I'm feeling manic now

Always lonely and confused
I don't what the fuck to do
All my friends keep falling through
But now I know that's nothing new

when i think about it all (prod. malloy)

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

I got way to many problems
I can't deal with them at once
Voices in my head
Always say I'm not enough
Roll another spliff
And you know I spark it up
It's hard for me to trust
When you cover me in cuts
Acting like you gave a fuck
But deep down inside
I know you hate my guts
And everything about me
All you do is doubt me
Imma make you sorry

Always stressin
Always second guessing
Lost inside my life
I got no direction
So imma do these drugs
Till I'm seeing heaven
Waking up in hell
I don't know what happened
Demons at my door
And they always knocking
When I try to sleep
They tell me I'm nothing
And it's driving me crazy
I feel like everybody hate me

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

I got way to many problems
I can't deal with them at once
Voices in my head
Always say I'm not enough
Roll another spliff
And you know I spark it up
It's hard for me to trust
When you cover me in cuts

Acting like you gave a fuck
But deep down inside
I know you hate my guts
And everything about me
All you do is doubt me
Imma make you sorry

cuts (prod. jody)

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth  

Silvertab jeans
With the Vivienne's on me
No sleep
I'm a strung out zombie
Can't count the grams I'm burning
5am in the morning
Pull up on the beat I burned it
Talk bad bout me
I heard it
But when I come around
It's quiet
When I come around
It's silent

Paranoid shy and anxious
I don't want no new friendships
All they do is make me nervous
Staying lowkey and cautious
A lot of people out here toxic
They never got your best interest
But I already know how it is
I've been on my own since a kid

I've been alone
For so long
Don't know the place I belong
Just floating round like a ghost
I can't let anyone close
I'm crying on my cracked screen
Wishing you would hear me
Wish I could rest in peace
Lay me down underneath

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth 

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth 

Silvertab jeans
With the Vivienne's on me
No sleep
I'm a strung out zombie
Can't count the grams I'm burning
5am in the morning
Pull up on the beat I burned it
Talk bad bout me
I heard it
But when I come around
It's quiet
When I come around
It's silent

HOW I FEEL EVERYDAY FOR YEARS

Young A-State