sleeping

The Upload

Crystal Mindz Set 3/10/23

JOSH X AKIRA COLLABS

Lil Peep Only

//lyrics//
(hook)
hold on and wait there hold on and listen every single moment in my life so fucking tragic dealing with some bad shit turn that shit to past-tense 
-
(@timxlxss verse)
Can you burn me down ashes set the flame to all the fuckin masses I know that we never had shit could you just put on your glasses you don't have it? Well i see that you can't see straight But why you gotta hate  Like you took the fuckin easy bait Now you gotta wait Appreciate me when i call you on your phone I dont call you when you’re home not even when you’re alone I don't miss you when you hit me with a text but if you say ur with your ex then i won't miss that fuckin text
-
(bridge)
hold on and wait there hold on and listen every single moment in my life so fucking tragic dealing with some bad shit turn that shit to past-tense can you burn me down ashes set the flame to all the fuckin masses
-
(hook)
hold on and wait there hold on and listen every single moment in my life so fucking tragic dealing with some bad shit turn that shit to past-tense
-
(@joshiguess verse) 
hit me with the karma start up like a console she left me in particles i be writing articles if you aren't in my zone i know you are inaudible she blocked me on everything but i guess its better than being on seen

dealing with some bad shit (siem spark x 1heyrick)

you were terrible

w/ @youngburial
prod biscuitboi

i thought
it was different 
thinking back
i was good for a minute
you were terrible
i'm unbearable
can't forget but i guess
i gotta let you go

it's embarrasing 
i let you break me
you treated me terrible 
i was giving you everything 
i had left
but it's all that i've come to expect
i'm out of memories
you left me in debt

fats'e:
you left me in debt n now i'm
trying to pick myself back up
i know you're not one to talk shit 
so i'll try to bottle it up
i don't know where we went wrong 
n i don't know what to say 
i don't feel inspiration
so i'll just rot away

unbearable (w/ fats'e)

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

i just wanted to write a love song 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161
master: https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah

heavenly,
i hope you don't mind
formality apology,
i guess it never hurt you to lie
when you took that from me 
i felt nothing 
shaking aside
butchered up the rosary,
i prayed i could die
but you wanted to 
i said i'd be good for you 
shut my mouth for you 
and prayed it'd be over soon

i just wanted to write a love song 
story book ending 
block it all out 
i'm so good at pretending
they said it takes time
but i'm still stuck with the memory

it's probably my fault 
i must've asked for it 
payed for my sins
spilled out blood to the hyms
but i swear i felt heaven when i'm laying with him

i'm fooling myself 
it was never that fun 
it's easy to romanticize 
i fell for that once,
or twice
i'm losing the count of goodbyes
hoping one day i'd be enough in your eyes

where's the love in this 
hate the bruises on my lips
search for betterment 
and comfort in impermanence
you took it out of me 
i gave it all up
cause it's better to feel nothing
than to hurt when it's done

comfort in impermanence (prod. pekarot)

i hope you think of me 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/trplgmni
master: https://soundcloud.com/ripkais

striaght through the bottle 
blacked out
it's nice to not remember
straight through tomorrow 
tapped out 
i think i'll feel it forever
i know i'll do it again 
escape till it ends
i wanna leave it all behind 
i wanna make you proud 
safe and sound 
pray i'll be alright

i just can't take anymore 
i've said that before
there's nothing left of me 
i watched you walk out the door 
va mon amour 
i hope you think of me
(i hope you think of me forever)

i can't do this sober 
(i'm leaking blood all over)
i can't do it at all
come on,
pull me closer
(i'm leaking blood all over)

hear me out 
i'm breaking down 
lost control and i need you now
this is what i've been waiting for,
prove to me that i loved you more
i'm so used to all the bandages 
but i know you couldn't manage it i,
hope you find heaven in him

there's nothing left of me

there's nothing left of me (prod. triple gemini)

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Lyrics
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Everything I know will soon just be a memory
I'm forgetting more and more every time I breathe
Keep repressing what's depressing some call it a dream
But I forgot how I got here and I wanna scream

I recall sobbing in a winter night's breeze
Couldn't feel my toes so I'd fallen to my knees
I know when I'm older it'll mean nothing to me

I've been captured by the moment
But it always slips away
They keep telling me to own it
But it's only for a day

There's no moment like the present
There's no present like today
I've been learning on my own
'Cause if I don't I'll fall away
I keep trying to be vibrant
But I'm crying when the clouds are grey
Keep it together Rob
You'd be better off on the road
And when you're doing shows you can celebrate

Hanging off the edge I feel like I'm hanging from a hook
Better than the gallows but I don't think by much
Wiping tears from my phone while my shawty send me love
I meet her on the Friday pretending like what's up

'sup

Can she tell than I'm numb
Thoughts keep racing they're running running running round enough
But I'll forget this too
Baby I don't wanna forget you
I don't know what I could do
When living in the present is all I knew

I've been captured by the moment
But it always slips away
They keep telling me to own it
But it's only for a day

There's no moment like the present
There's no present like today
I've been learning on my own
'Cause if I don't I'll fall away
I keep trying to be vibrant
But I'm crying when the clouds are grey
Keep it together Rob
You'd be better off on the road
And when you're doing shows you can celebrate

Present [Prod. Cian]

i wanna write your favorite song

w/ https://soundcloud.com/vito2300
prod: https://soundcloud.com/jolst

this shit keeps breaking my heart
i can't sleep at all
i wanna write your favorite song
i wanna hear you talk 
just fuck it all 
just cut me off
and i'd do anything 
come close,
don't let me breathe
i need you next to me
hands cold till you make me freeze

vito: 
cuts deep but i'm not afraid of it
your touch for a long time was my form of payment
but i couldn't find the words
after all you're not shit
now i been feeling sick to my stomach,
you left me nauseous
don't call me back 
you'll be better off
need someone to tell me i'm good enough
carry that shit and believe it
look at the way i've been treated 
it's black white like old cartoons 
it's not fair that i lost you
and it's not fair that i'm still here 
and you've got somebody beside you

i wanna give it all up 
i've been thinking heavy
if it hurts it's not love
i don't understand 
cause i'm so used to leaking my blood
hate the way it is
but i can't ever get enough of you
i got myself into a mess
don't think you want me too
didn't mean a thing 
you were here in my room
c'mon cut me through 
rip through a vein or two 
want you to make a move

cut me off (w/ vito) (prod. jolst)

all these highs be weary 
they take my friends and bury 
but dont be scared theres much more room inside this cemetery
all these stories cautionary
like take your life compare me 
take the parts you dont like then 
in your life be different than me 
nothing could have prepared me 
none
but i knew the whole time what would happen 
it just hits different when youre really in it heavy 
my skin is slipping off me
just leave me where you find me  
im in the woods trainspotting through the poison ivy 
i left that all behind me
still feel it close beside me 
i dont know what to do with myself when i sit still and silent
i find myself in situations i hope dont get violent 
i trip myself up thinking someones intentions are sideways
ive just been done so badly
you dont know the slightest
all these things that i done seen i keep em in my eyelids 
all this time that ive spent looking youd think that id find it 	  
and i try the millionth i dont know why 
repeat

tombstone carousel (prod. sorrow bringer)

You Wouldn't Know

You Wouldnt Know

a song i wrote in 2019 and released in 2020. it's a song about struggling with addiction, and trying to love not only yourself, but another person. a failing relationship between two people because of addiction. the 2nd and new verse, is a letter to 14 year old me. and a memory for the older one. this song is a personal battle, the death and the aftermath of what's to come. thank you for listening.

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
she never come around, when i'm on drugs
idk what to quit. is it drugs or love?
i feel like it's too much to ask
i'd say i love you, but i'll never take it back
would you take it back, if you said so?
i feel like i can ask, but i'd rather not know
on the road
run away from you
scared of love i don't know what to
do
idk what to do

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse 2
it's been years since i met you
and i've been trying to forget you
it's been years since i met you
and all i wanna do
is forget you
i gave it up for you, gave it up for you
i got sober for you, damn i got sober for me too
huh, i guess that's just the both of us
i guess we're growing up
go back to them days, poppin xans
i'll take another one
getting high with you, getting high with you
thought i'd OD, might just end up dyin with you
sobriety is something i could never do
i hope you're proud of me, the same way that i'm proud of you
i'm just tryna stay clean for my family
if i die young, then i'm dying happily
i don't wanna be here, not anymore
6 pills, now i'm falling to the floor

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

limbo (2022)

the other side w/ foreign forest

Mixed/Mastered By Me & Joshiguess
-
(lyrics)
why'd you stab me in the back thought i made it all clear i be popping all these tags and i know they wanna fear I'll be posted with strap making shawty fucking mad turn the fucking lights off we be bussin in this club 

you said you would stay you think that it's a game you wanna play pretend ya she killed me fucking twice man i thought she was my mistress shawty back it up man i think you get it twisted and i don't care i can see man I'm fucking sound asleep i don't even wanna see you anymore 

i was in my come up made them shut up they be getting too nice damn it's getting fucking weird i thought i made it fucking clear i was in the back of the rear i don't want you here 

(joshiguess)
me and akira just performed last night
we were in sac and the crowd got hyped
Got fucked up like my ping got spiked
we gon blow up like it's dynamite

They wanna say hi but they insecure
But they always give me numbers give me integers
I shake while I'm giving them my signature
I just wish these times were simpler

first song in the room where we both recorded
trees around me like I'm in an orchid
walking up the steps like the plane that I boarded
all these summer times got it feeling so torrid

(akiradoves)
why'd you stab me in the back thought i made it all clear i be popping all these tags and i know they wanna fear I'll be posted with strap making shawty fucking mad turn the fucking lights off we be bussin in this club

(my verse) 
blast off we bussin you tweaking shots on me you said you wanted to hear me now I'm going stupid on this mic thats alright kinda fucking drunk catch a ride i don't wanna fight staring at your crystal eyes 

(joshiguess)
staring at your crystal eyes
we both gonna rise
said I act too nice
quiet like a mice

napalm w/ joshiguess (notartemys)

produced by https://soundcloud.com/domesticscars

I met her in a fever dream
Inside a place I never seen
I guess that nothing's what it seems 
It's always taken to extremes

I felt too lost in the moment
I'm sorry my expression never shows it
Love I gave you in the past yeah you own it
My love is buried in the ground my condolence 
I swear I thought you were perfect
But it's just another instance occurring
Another memory I made that is blurry
I still remorse and from the fact that you hurt me

And here we go our separate ways
I guess it wasn't just a waste
But I've been trapped inside this cage
I may need some help from you mage

I met her in a fever dream
Inside a place I never seen
I guess that nothing's what it seems 
It's always taken to extremes

Guess I had to take a life lesson
Didn't know it would make my life lessen
It's not always worth the connections
And it's not always worth second guessing 
I just got to go with my instincts
Gotta figure out whatever else is missing
But if you come back that's way too risky
You might go ahead attempt again to trick me

fever dream

music video

fever dream (domesticsoul)

featuring & engineered by @mjmadeit
produced by @fantom-instrumentals aka @fantommuzik

(Intro)
Tell me what's on your mind?
I know what's on mine
You and me tonight

I just wanna hold you tight
Make you mine
All the time

(Chorus)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

(JoshIGuess Verse)
And I said why'd you do me like that?
Arguments the only time you hit me right back
I'm sorry I'm not around I've been getting sidetracked
I've gotten comfortable with life while you still feeling attached

I want a simple life not no complications
Wonder if I'll ever last forever dating
I've been tryna work out I've been staying patient
But it's tough knowing things you did were blatant

(Chorus 2)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

lyric video

Myself w/ NightDreams (Fantom)

Mix & Master: JoshIGuess
Produced by @wetgropes
Directed by @kurama_sd

And I'll be honest
I'm beyond stressed
When our bond ends 
I'm on production
Although I turned up 
At the function
I've been tired of
Dealing with this fuck shit

Oh man does it suck
Friends always switch up
I swear I had this all cuffed
But I never was enough 

But I guess she broke the lock
And she shattered through my heart 
And I hate to rid of people
I don't wanna cut off
If it's getting this hectic 
Guess it's best we won't talk
Like I'm looking at a flower 
And the petals fell off


And I'm beyond stressed
After accomplished
People saying that I ain't ever done shit
Look at me now I'm starting moshpits
But I couldn't even handle an apartment

Oh man does it suck (does it suck does it suck)
Friends always switch up (switch up switch up)
I swear I had this all cuffed (had it cuffed had it cuffed)
But I never was enough (ohhh)

Would you be better off if I had vanished
I can't stand this place and I never planned it
If I don't got control you don't got demand then
If you don't got me you don't got a man then

Oh man does it suck (yeah it does yeah it does)
Friends always switch up (can you tell me who to trust?)
I swear I had this all cuffed (yeah i'm never in love)
But I never was enough (woah)

And friends are catching on they realize I'm not worth it
There's no reason to call when they don't got a purpose
They just sit and wait til I hit them up for service
Can you tell me if I'm just being a burden

Oh man does it suck
Friends always switch up
I swear I had this all cuffed
But I never was enough 

I wish that I could give my full love and attention
Past trauma and everything wants to prevent it
And even if you like me you know that I'm always venting
It's always to myself cus my listeners left me

Oh man does it suck
Friends always switch up
I swear I had this all cuffed
But I never was enough
Yeah

beyond stressed (wetgropes)

featuring https://soundcloud.com/diegointhedark
produced by https://soundcloud.com/nickp3tro
mix + master by both joshiguess & diegointhedark
lyrics below
____________________________________________________________________


doing shit with no hesitation
like a step by step animation
my life is a book full of pages
and i'm tired of going thru these phases

shawty always hit my phone when i'm sleeping
bringing my clique up with a beacon
cliffhanger i'm the end of a season
catch your bitch with me in san francisco next weekend
you on the highway and you bumping all my songs
and we gonna blow up like a bomb
joshiguess and diegointhedark
we in sac and you know we going hard

money on my mind go run my bands up 
got a xan under my tongue bitch i can’t stand up 
all y’all just some clones y’all just my fandom
talk shit bitch this 30 throw a tantrum

last year they would treat me like a reject 
everybody bouncing back like a reflex
stone island when i walk imma big flex 
your bodyguard gon die shoot a big tech

she wanna fuck i don’t even gotta ask her 
i pulled up turned the show to a disaster
you want smoke put your liver on a platter 
upgraded diamonds bitch my chain is dark matter

and i swear i had to do this on my own 
you ain’t never had to struggle all alone
my girl looking pale like a ghost 
stepping out i put that rick owens my toes

shawty always hit my phone when i'm sleeping
bringing my clique up with a beacon
cliffhanger i'm the end of a season
catch your bitch with me in san francisco next weekend
you on the highway and you bumping all my songs
and we gonna blow up like a bomb
joshiguess and diegointhedark
we in sac and you know we going hard

playing cities like i'm playing on nintendo
said she wanna hang out took her back home
she wanna smash so i put in some smash bros
if she meant the other way she a bad hoe (battle)

Cliffhanger

spotify

cliffhanger! w/ diegointhedark (p3tro)

feature : @wtchmesuffer
www.instagram.com/molliwhopin__/

Got all these thoughts in my mind but I'm just gonna fantasize
I'm never satisfied enough to try (yeah)
So I let things fly (yeah yeah yeah yeah)
I gave her the world but she gave back the universe
Now it's destroyed just like it's all a repeated curse (yeah)
You're the fucking worst (yeah yeah yeah yeah)

Inside these boggles
I got on these goggles
To shield from these models
And all of what's in my eyes (yeah)
You only shield to ride
Like you did last night
Yeah yeah yeah

But it wasn't with me
That bitch did me dirty
Should've been known that she always was one for the fucking streets
But I just can't believe that she felt complete
She opposing teams (yeah yeah yeah)
I cope with the pain she be grinding that thing on me
But it's hard to feel when I can't take it literally
I'm left bittersweet
But I guess she makes up for it with inner sweet

Was that tmi to put it all in there?
Just like I used to shit I just spilled the beans
Now she'll make a scene
And she only hits me back up once I'm 18
How fucking ironic get me out your dream
I will never commit to your bitch ass again
And I'm sorry but I can't ever be your friend
You said on your life you won't leave but you left
Now you left me upset

Didn't wanna be apart
But I should've known from the start
Fucked it up for me one time
And came back to apologize
But I can see right through your stupid lies
I been waiting for u all night
Walkin in like u got sum to hide

And I've been down this road before
I would kick u out the door cus I gotta stay composed

What I tried to know
Is what I've been told
But I know it's wrong
I'm not where you belong

Got all these thoughts in my mind but I'm just gonna fantasize
I'm never satisfied enough to try (yeah)
So I let things fly (yeah yeah yeah yeah)
I gave her the world but she gave back the universe
Now it's destroyed just like it's all a repeated curse (yeah)
You're the fucking worst (yeah yeah yeah yeah)

You're the fucking worst
Yeah you're the worst
You're the woooooorrrsstt

pre-save

you're the worst w/ suffer (savage squad)

https://soundcloud.com/akiradoves
https://soundcloud.com/7hersx

cus you don't even know what i been through
check my phone every night cus i miss you
and i don't wanna talk about this nonsense
i've always fell low thinking about us

the time I spent with you is still considered priceless
but my mind has been forming an existential crisis
words that she wrote with her ds stylus
but those memories to you are just considered sightless 

forget warmness frozen inside my heart
it's cold and i feel soulless from everything I start

i remember I had you in the picture 
but like i cut you off i grabbed my scissors
try to forget my memories when with her
no matter what I would never forgive her

just bring me down until my last breathe
step inside my castle you won't realize who you been with
so girl you can't come home there's nothing left
you're so indescisive and i do not like it

cus you don't even know what i been through
check my phone every night cus i miss you
and i don't wanna talk about this nonsense
i've always fell low thinking about us

cus you don't even know what i been through
check my phone every night cus i miss you
and i don't wanna talk about this nonsense
i've always fell low thinking about us

I Miss You

AkiraDoves & JoshIGuess - I Miss You (Thersx)

Lyrics

pain pain pain I'm just dying again
wait wait wait don't desert me again
laying down right next to you is something i just fucking need
down down down where I'm gonna belong
hell hell hell I'ma fucking die
you don't know me anymore 
and i don't give a fuck if you go

and yeah I don't give a fuck what's going on
and I never wanted to give up our bonds
and I ain't talking Barry and I ain't getting married
and life is not scary when it's temporary
but life just buries in my mind it's repairing

trust trust trust doesn't fucking exist
one last look and he fuck on your bitch
I don't know you anymore
forget about you pour a four

why doesn't this shit fucking hit?
I'm about to call it quits
put you in solar eclipse 
so I can blind memories in

pain pain pain I'm just dying again
wait wait wait don't desert me again
laying down right next to you is something i just fucking need
down down down where I'm gonna belong
hell hell hell Ima fucking die
you don't know me anymore 
and i don't give a fucking if you go

pain pain pain I'm just dying again
wait wait wait don't desert me again
laying down right next to you is something i just fucking need
down down down where I'm gonna belong
hell hell hell Ima fucking die
you don't know me anymore 
and i don't give a fucking if you go

hell w/ joshiguess (grayskies)

https://soundcloud.com/joshiguess
https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
https://soundcloud.com/branwenmusic

Lyrics: 

Huh huh huh
Now I'm somewhere really far away
You're go-gone
And you left without apology

You didn't mean to say you're sorry
I tried to leave without a warning
And yeah the night sky's staying starry
Until the sunrise in the morning

And my thoughts stay within my sorrows
From all the pain that i have borrowed
I hope it gets better tomorrow 
Mind on the stage they got tomatoes
That's the motto gotta take this call tho

I just wanna cleanse myself with air
It doesn't matter whenever you're in despair
But it's not into ashes I hope that you have this under control

Why you think this game 
Why you playing hard to get
I could never imagine 
Of being with someone new
It's always hard to tell 
If you're honest or not
And can you even imagine in 
A world between us

Finding the world we lost
It's been harder to find true love
Now this mistake has grown on me
Maybe i've changed
And can you understand why
The way she's peeling on my skin
The way she held me so tight

world we lost w/ joshiguess (nevrfall)

Tell me that I'm safe
This is where I wanna stay
Cause when I'm in your arms
All my problems go away
Don't know what to say
It's like my memories erased
Light another blunt
And imma take it to the face
Girl I know that I'm a waste
I'm just something in the way
I will never fit in
It's just something in my brain
Smoke away the memories
And trip away the pain
Acid in the castle
Got it dripping
Like the rain

Crying on the phone again
I'm alone again
All the walls are closing in
Thought you were my friend
Until you stabbed my back again
Barely breathing
I don't even know what's happening
I might die tonight
Bleed out in the twilight
Scars up on my wrist
Cause I'm terrified of life
Terrified of love
Even though it is a lie
Felt my soul die
When I looked into her eyes

When I looked into her eyes
Felt my soul die
When I looked into her eyes
Terrified of life
Terrified of love

Terrified
I'm gonna die tonight
Let me lye
With you in the afterlife

Ask me if I'm fine, I don't really know
I tried to talk to you, but you said you should really go
It's been raining but I think that it's turning into snow
Maybe you should stay until I know you won't be cold
You've got blood upon your eyes
I thought you said that you weren't killing in the night
Impossible to save you if you wanna die
I couldn't help you even if you were alive

Tell me that I'm safe
This is where I wanna stay
Cause when I'm in your arms
All my problems go away
Don't know what to say
It's like my memories erased
Light another blunt
And imma take it to the face
Girl I know that I'm a waste
I'm just something in the way
I will never fit in
It's just something in my brain
Smoke away the memories
And trip away the pain
Acid in the castle
Got it dripping
Like the rain

terrified ft. yung van (prod. aidan)

From the bottom of my cold heart
You know I loved you
Put you in my past life
That's what the drugs do
Acid on a cold night
Fucking freezing
Oh my god
I'm so high
Think I'm peaking

I'm going the distance
Just gotta stay consistent
They would never listen
But now they treat me different
It's because I'm glo'd up
Gave it all my focus
You gotta work your hardest
If you want people to notice

No days off I'm never sleeping
Writing songs in my head
While I'm dreaming
All my life I'm stuck
Searching for a meaning
Wish I gave a fuck
I can't find a reason

I can't find a reason
Bitch I'm smoking trees
And I'm so clueless
Does she love me?
Or she leaving
Oh that's perfect
That's exactly what I needed
A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
My soul is dark
I feel defeated

A broken heart
I'm rolling hard
In the night
And I'm looking at the stars
Took my life
And she ripped it all apart
I put it back
But you can see the scars

You can see the scars
All the pain inside my eyes
I'm just another kid
That's tortured by his mind
Thought of getting out
Like 1000 fucking times
I can barely breathe
But I just say I'm fine

I just say I'm fine
Anxiety inside
Makes it hard to sleep at night
Smoking get me right
Gets me out head
You talking shit to me
But I'm in your bitches bed
In between her legs

I be going stupid
I'm ruthless
Go behind my back
I'll leave you toothless
Leave you looking useless
Like bro what are you doing
Your whole life a lie
Say you winning but you losing

From the bottom of my cold heart
You know I loved you
Put you in my past life
That's what the drugs do
Acid on a cold night
I'm fucking freezing
Oh my god
I'm so high
I think I'm peaking

past life (prod. xtravulous)

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me
Had hopeless feelings
Since I was 14
Just wanna fade out
This world is plain now
This scene is played out
It's all the same now

I hope I wash away
Bring the rain down
I'm smoking everyday
It help my brain out
Cause it's a fucking mess
Lately I'm close to death
I think I need to rest
Cause I don't feel my best
Feel pain inside my chest
It's hard to catch a breath
So I just need a sec
To keep my life intact
Sometimes I feel so lost
And I don't have a map
Don't know where I'm at
Looking for a sign
Wish I could go back
To the better times
To the better days
And the better nights
When I was just a kid
Never questioned life
What was wrong or right
Never really cared

Still don't really care
I can take you there
Welcome to my world
There's sadness in the air
Depression everywhere
Don't feel like waking up
God I fucking suck
Feel so fucking stuck
Walking through the mud
I know I'm not enough
I just wanted love
But now I have no trust
I just got the drugs
And now my feelings numb
Please don't hit me up
Im higher than the sun
I know we had our fun
But that shit's over now
Left me here to die
Looking like a clown
Left me here to die
Bleeding on the ground
But I made it out
Yeah I made it out

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me
Had hopeless feelings
Since I was 14
Just wanna fade out
This world is plain now
This scene is played out
It's all the same now

trust me (prod. blackmayo)

I wonder if they really care
Like they say they do
Bleeding in my room
I would hate me too
If I were being you
I would let me down
Stab me in the back
Leave me with a frown

Yeah I know I'm sick
And my mind is fucked
Think of giving up
Yeah my brain is done

Life is pointless
I just wanna see what's after
Close my eyes all night
I know nothing matters

I hope I don't wake up
Lately I've been dealing
With a lot of fake trust
Fuck your love and fame
I fucking hate this game
I'd rather hang myself
I'd rather hate myself

I just took a 2
Poured it in my sprite
Feeling not alive
Feeling not alright
I just bought a blade
Put it to my skin
Hear the devil call
Imma let him in

These artist talking tough
But my flow wet as fuck
To bad I wanna die
Like all the fucking time
Like all my fucking life

My ex still on my line
This is such a mess
Wish I could just feel less

That's what the drugs do
Help my brain forget
That I ever loved you

It's time to fall back
My coffin all black
What's the point of life?
I'll never solve that
I'll never solve that

Yeah Yeah 

Know I'll never solve that

frown (prod. dirty sosa)

fortnite rap battle> ian dior

waterfalls was here.

@ianndior - molly feat. bernard jabs (prod. nick mira)

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