Center of Attention

Produced by wishlane and Alaska Sargent

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Lyrics:
Numb the pain, I've let my teeth decay
I guess I'll wash my mouth out with some Tanqeuray
I look at postcards of memories I can't afford to make
Silhouettes upon a lonesome bridge
I open up the door, there's nothing in the fridge
Besides a box of lies in which I can't afford to fucking reminisce
What is this

Faux emotion
Threw my phone out into the ocean
Kept it folded and sealed the garden
Withered flowers locked inside my closet
Dishonest

Shed a tear and get me out of here
I guess it's not as simple as it may appear
I look at songs I wrote when I was too young to know fear
Daydream of a point in time I've lost
The miracle I wished for, never knew the cost
I throw my faults over the lines I know I've crossed upon
What is this

Faux emotion
Threw my phone out into the ocean
Kept it folded and sealed the garden
Withered flowers locked inside my closet
Dishonest

Faux

Listen to Run Away (You're to Blame): https://ffm.to/asrunaway

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Lyrics:
Pacing back and forth
I don't want to go to war
I can feel the cold
I forgot to bring a coat
Wishing you would call me back
Just to break the wind again
You've left me to feel alone

From the bottom of my heart
I'll run away
I'll take my time and erase your name
I'll read between the lines
I'll take what's yours and mine
And I will throw it all away
And you're to blame

All the tears I've led
All the towels that have bled
All the floors I've feared
For you to leave me just this year
I don't want you to go
I scream your name beyond the road
What's it like to be alone

From the bottom of my heart
I'll run away
I'll take my time and erase your name
I'll read between the lines
I'll take what's yours and mine
And I will throw it all away
And you're to blame

Run Away (You're To Blame)

Listen to To Drown: https://ffm.to/todrown

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Lyrics:
I don't have much going on
I think I worry a bit too much
I should go easy on myself
What's the point of make believe?
You can have me when you please
I'll put your postcard on the shelf

Hold onto me
I'll take the lead
Oh, can't you see?
You're all I need

What's the point of being numb
Your name is stuck here on my tongue
You know I miss you when you're gone
Lately
Wear my heart here on my sleeve
Painting pictures in my dreams
And every second you're with me 
Always playing make believe

Hold onto me
I'll take the lead
Oh, can't you see?
You're all I need

All I Need (feat. Oathbarerr)

A NEW KIND OF LOVE, WRITTEN BY G. SIGSWORTH, IMOGEN HEAP, PRODUCED BY ALASKA SARGENT, EVANGELINE.

A new kind of love
Genetically altered
Enough of "Love Lite"
And "I Can't Believe It's Not Love!"
I can't help myself
And you don't have to say that
"It sparks across flesh
You'll feel it kicking in soon"

Are you falling in love?
I've a feeling you are
Are you falling in love
With a feeling?

So you're running late
And it's not even like you
You were doing so well
Did the dog eat your homework again?
I can't help myself
Cause my friend says in real life
"It's only the police
That ever come looking for you"

Are you falling in love?
I've a feeling you are
Are you falling in love
With a feeling?
Are you falling in love
Or only feeling you are?
Cause if you're falling in love
Let me feel it

I've been busy, you know that
You know you're just saying that
Are you going to get that?
What's that supposed to mean?
I've been busy, you know that
You know you're just saying that
Are you going to get that?
What's that supposed to mean?

To Hear Your Voice

A New Kind of Love

A New Kind Of Love

@eva-nge-line

They come in droves
And I walk alone
I gave her back her coat
A crow looks upon his post as she walks home alone
He flies away as if he knows something that I don't
Back and forth, she lies again
She takes off her dress
And undoes her hair
And sits on the couch
And tells me to come
And she says in vain

The bleeding makes it obvious I don't fit in your slipper
I fall right back into your arms as my whole body quivers in the rain
Who am I to say?
A deer goes by, a lion roars, the rabbit is a skipper
I carry on, I sulk inside, or I allow my nights to turn to gray
I'd take it all away
To be your Cinderella

It comes and goes
You feel it in your core and then it creeps up to your muscle through the bone
Bleed along to the sound
Tap your sparkling red shoes, 1, 2, 3, but no home could be found
Then again
Drown your hands in sugar soap
And rub it all in 'till your knuckles turn red, the pain grows
You keep on doing it
Doesn't it feel good?

The bleeding makes it obvious I don't fit in your slipper
I fall right back into your arms as my whole body quivers in the rain
Who am I to say?
A deer goes by, a lion roars, the rabbit is a skipper
I carry on, I sulk inside, or I allow my nights to turn to gray
I'd take it all away
To be your Cinderella

Your Cinderella (feat. Evangeline)

To Thin Air

Your Cinderella (feat. evangeline)

@monikrr

Creek down below
Sink your words before the tide
Stand by the pier
Boats glide along the lone shoreline
I find the pieces of my heart in July
I don't understand
Why wasn't I there
When you said goodbye

I can't let you go, brown eyes
There's a spot inside my heart
Where the flower's yet to die
Catch a glimpse upon the scars
Rip it up for your own sake
I am just your worst mistake
As the garden fades to black
You should go and run away

You should go and run away
(Do re mi so ti so mi re)
You should go and run away
(Do re mi so ti so mi re)
Oh

I'm falling for you in zero gravity
You hold my neck against the tree
Shirt stained mahogany
Hung upside down, catch up before I
Leave behind the places I can't go
The people left buried in snow
Oh, darling, please don't let me go
(Please don't let me go)

I can't let you go, brown eyes
There's a spot inside my heart
Where the flower's yet to die
Catch a glimpse upon the scars
Rip it up for your own sake
I am just your worst mistake
As the garden fades to black
You should go and run away

I won't let it die in vain, vain
I won't let it die in vain

Mahogany (with monikrr)

@saoirsedream

FRIENDS, WRITTEN BY A. SARGENT, A. AUTUMN, C. EGBERT, PRODUCED BY ALASKA SARGENT.

You wouldn't have to lie to me if you were self-assured
You wear a mask and consider it your allure
I've been through this before
You go back on your word
And you walk out the door
I tell you it's absurd
Who cares about your complexion
You highlight your own imperfections
"Tell me you love me," you say
What is the use anyway?
You throw me around like a muppet
Upon my string, no interruption
You tell me, "I love you, just stay"
Yet you hold me up on these strings

You said, "break yourself clean in two
I'd do the same for you"
Beyond the ocean blue
I pray that we are through
Some fucking friend you are!
I start to fall apart
And still you watch
As you don't know just where to start

Wish all of this could work
We could keep what's on the surface
Save the depth until it's worth it
I need all the infighting to stop
You can look at me like I'm selfish
Is it so wrong to need some focus
I get your hearts are broken
But I'm losing family to time
In more ways than one
I know I sound pathetic
Poor Catie wants attention
I'm sorry for your loss
I can't value validation
I won't wait through conversations
For one short turn to talk
You should know it's not enough

You said, "break yourself clean in two
I'd do the same for you"
Beyond the ocean blue
I pray that we are through
Some fucking friend you are!
I start to fall apart
And still you watch
As you don't know just where to start

PG-13 - Alaska Sargent Remix

charlie zacks - PG-13 (Alaska Sargent Remix)

@thelovelyrobot

COME HOME, WRITTEN BY A. SARGENT, A. FRANKLIN. PRODUCED BY ALASKA SARGENT, ALASKA SARGENT.

I see
Shadows of unwithered leaves
Fly by me
Sunset
Radiant flowers of June
I bid adieu

Who let the garden turn gray
I heard your voice in the lilies today
How do I take time away
Oh, autumn, oh, you're not alone
Who let the water run cold
The leaves fall away and the branches glow gold
All of the stories we've told
Oh, autumn, oh, autumn, come home

I miss the rain of the Pacific Northwest 
And falling asleep with my head on your chest
But this dark desert void is where I have to stay
Far from your arms that kept me out of harm's way
I'll wield your love against the unknown
I'll explore it all on my own
My heart won't stop playing its rhythm for you
Just as the rain on our window used to do

Who let the garden turn gray
I heard your voice in the lilies today
How do I take time away
Oh, autumn, oh, you're not alone
Who let the water run cold
The leaves fall away and the branches glow gold
All of the stories we've told
Oh, autumn, oh, autumn, come home

Come Home (feat. The Lovely Robot)

Acoustic guitar and dulcimer recorded by Kaden Johanson of cookie meat / The Lovely Robot

Contains a sample from "Yours Truly!" by Pelican Party!, written by Cooper Alexander, Nathaniel Ivey and Nelson Green 

https://ffm.to/selfportrait

Lyrics
____________

I've grown a little tired of fanatics
I sing for little bugs that eat out holes inside my mattress
And wake up to their blood smeared on the carpet
I wonder if they understand the fear my mom has harbored
I've seen her go through too much for a woman
I know she wants it to be better, yet she thinks she shouldn't
I search around for change between the cushions
And maybe if we have enough, I'll take her back to Brooklyn

When the moon shines over Ellis Island
I'll find the nearest bridge and take her down right to the harbor
Oh, if she may endure, I'll make sure there's something to offer
I'll take a bus to Central and we'll stay there for the summer
When the moon shines over Ellis Island
I'll find the nearest bridge and take her down right to the harbor
Oh, if she may endure, I'll make sure there's something to offer
I'll take a bus to Central and we'll stay there for the summer

I fall into the chains that house the wicked
Remember all the names despite the embers of the bridges
It fills my heart with uncertain resentment
Why is it that when I have fun, I soon yearn to forget it?
The frequent getaways became so selfish
I jeopardized the house, I don't know how she worked around it
She said she has a flight in just a moment
I hope that she can see the magic that I felt in Brooklyn

When the moon shines over Ellis Island
I'll find the nearest bridge and take her down right to the harbor
Oh, if she may endure, I'll make sure there's something to offer
I'll take a bus to Central and we'll stay there for the summer
When the moon shines over Ellis Island
I'll find the nearest bridge and take her down right to the harbor
Oh, if she may endure, I'll make sure there's something to offer
I'll take a bus to Central and we'll stay there for the summer

New York

Piano recorded by Tristan "monikrr" Valenti
Drums recorded by Abigail Warner of The Lovely Robot
Acoustic guitar recorded by taiyoukei

Artwork designed by Alaska Sargent in collaboration with Meredith Franklin

Lyrics
____________

Cycles and cycles of wires around my neck
Particles on white walls expire through your sunset

You know that I would do anything
You know that I would break down in a heartbeat

I give myself up to you
Just so I can hear you say
You love me
You're happy
Where you are

Padded with fabric, I crumble when I'm without your presence
You've really done a number on me, do you regret it?

You know that I would do anything
You know that I would break down in a heartbeat

I give myself up to you
Just so I can hear you say
You love me
You're happy
Where you are

I'll tear out my insides
And let you wander in my mind
I'll smear it all upon your face
And let you feel a fresh disguise

You know that I would do anything
You know that I would break down in a heartbeat
For you

Body Horror

Written by Alaska Sargent
Produced by Alaska Sargent and Self Discovery
Backing provided by Brooklynn Ivy
Piano recorded by Tristan "monikrr" Valenti
Acoustic guitar recorded by Kaden Johanson of cookie meat / The Lovely Robot
Drums recorded by Abigail Franklin 

ffm.to/selfportrait

Lyrics
____________

My mother told me
That my father fucked her friend
And even though I looked shocked
I stared at the clock
And I knew it was all pretend

I'm in the Tahoe
4 o'clock, he took me to a dead harbor
I've never seen his eyes so red
And when I saw her
Open up the door, and they looked at each other
Then and there, I knew Virgin Mary couldn't care less

I'm sorry, mother

She didn't know it, and as far as I remember
I forgot to bring my jacket
As he walked out of the door that day
I could hear my mother screaming
Her voice continued breaking

"Open your eyes up
You're blind to the cold
I fell for that side of you
Couldn't process it all
Motherfucker
Now I shrug and sit alone
You taught me how to love
And Mary stood beside the altar"

I hear the crows call my name
I'm sorry, mother
I hope you never change

Virgin Mary

Written and produced by Alaska Sargent
Additional arrangement by JHL
Piano recorded by Tristan "monikrr" Valenti
Acoustic guitar and bass recorded by Abigail Franklin of The Lovely Robot

ffm.to/selfportrait

Lyrics
____________

I hate my friends
And I don't doubt
They're all so sick of me
And my pageantry
I offered a home
And we'd hold out
Until I fell out of speech
And left her bleeding

Am I on your mind?
Give it time, I'm sure I'll be forgotten
Another hit or two, I'll be fine
It's just my
Sativa indigo

Untamed heart again
I break out in pieces
You watch me on the edge
When I drain the liquid from its insides
I can't come to the phone, my heads in clouds
Is it such a crime?

Am I on your mind?
Give it time, I'm sure I'll be forgotten
Another hit or two, I'll be fine
It's just my
Sativa indigo

Sativa Indigo

featuring @fearozzles
guitar recorded by abigail franklin of @thelovelyrobot
stems: https://stemmy.versary.town/a/alaskasargent/ayfs/

Hold your hand out
Where did we take the fall
And what did we surround?
Hold your tongue back
From the wolves that close you in
Before you take another chance

You feed like a leech
And grit your teeth
And yet, you smile
And look up to me

Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?

I don't know what your intentions are anymore
And I don't care
You won't break my trust anymore

I rather distance our space than another sleepless night
And from all the shit you've done to me
Can you get the fuck out my life
It was unforgivable
Self destructible
So predictable
I'm fed up
All I endured
Unavoidable
Always miserable
But

You feed like a leech
And grit your teeth
And yet, you smile
And look up to me

Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?
Are you forgetting something?

Are You Forgetting Something?

AYFS?

Are You Forgetting Something? (feat. fearozzles)

@skybr34kr

Burn my pockets dry
And cancel all my credit cards at Mercury Lounge
And open up my phone
My friend is missing and I just left town

And then you scribble me out
I smash up my guitar
I ripped up every page
Even the art

I know that we're hurting
But I am deserving
Of some kind of closure
I know you don't forget
And I'll never forgive
For I miss the summer

You owe me my childhood
The bitter years you taught me to hate myself
The field of thorns
You dragged me hand-first into
Forced yourself into my head
And forcing me into your arms
When I fade will you forget me?
Living is folly and death is empty
Where does that leave you?
Robbing me of sense of strength of love
Leaving me, my eyes, my guts, my blood
Animated by habit alone
Petrified when the flame is gone
When the hate is gone and the engine's blown
Leave me by the wayside to fend for my own
Wasting away in the Sunday paper
Perish the thought that you ever cared

I know that we're hurting
But I am deserving
Of some kind of closure
I know you don't forget
And I'll never forgive
For I miss the summer

Mercury Lounge (feat. cnri)

p. Alaska Sargent, Logan Montoya (Lone Construct / @loneconstruct)
w. Alaska Sargent, Logan Montoya (Lone Construct / @loneconstruct)
gtr. Julian Schessel (foole / @dwarfwave)

WATCH THE WORLD DECAY

p. Alaska Sargent
    w. Alaska Sargent
    gtr. Abigail Warner
    bss. Abigail Warner
    drm. Alaska Sargent

VIRTUE SIGNAL

p. Alaska Sargent
w. Alaska Sargent
gtr. cnri (@skybr34kr)
samples a portion of "SENTI // MENTAL" composed by blissom (@blissom)

OVER MY DEAD BODY

JOKER & HARLEY QUINN

p. Alaska Sargent, Micah Callari (@micahcallari)
w. Alaska Sargent, Dylan Longworth (@dylanlongworth)
gtr. Kaden Johanson
bkv. Micah Callari (@micahcallari)

OVER MY DEAD BODY, the debut album by Alaska Sargent, releases on May 16th.
Pre-save: https://ffm.to/omdb
Pre-order on Bandcamp: https://alaskasargent.bandcamp.com/album/over-my-dead-body
Pre-order on my digital storefront: https://shop.alaskasargent.com

Lyrics:
In hindsight, I've been a fool
In fact, I'm quite surprised
It's taken me this long to pay the price
Because I lashed out, and you took my word
I filled you with lies
I thought were truths until last night
I scribbled names all on my board
And each and every one has their own story they can say about me
And I wonder if they tell them
I guess I'll find out in Hell
I don't doubt that they have a room reserved just for me

So hang me on the clothing line
Vertigo erases me as I drift off like swine
Nothing's ever cut and dry
Exhibition takes a toll when no one looks back twice
I faltered then
And still, I fall
So watch me rot
As the resident afterthought

Okay
I'll admit that I had left them out to dry
This brain is scrambled up with lies
How frail am I?
Dwindle down with clear hindsight
And honestly, I'm quite surprised
It took this long to realize
They weren't the only ones disguised
Lost composure
Never found my closure
Mind's just too damn polar
I keep getting colder, frozen over
Scratch out names etched in my walls
And waiting past the clock for calls
My head affected my surroundings
I never thought it was the cause
It always does
Please just think of me
In recovery
Stuck in infancy
I won't live in infamy

So hang me on the clothing line
And tick me off when it's alright, I swear I'll be just fine
Nothing's ever cut and dry
Discomfort grows but watch the fire stoke and take that light
I'll trip and fall, I'll give my all
I'll leave transgressions in the dust
I'll jump, I'll crawl, I'll stand up tall
But don't say I'm not in your thoughts
You'll make your plans
I'll come dead last, but I'll take it all
I'll hold no grudge
You know my hurt
You know my faults
I'm your resident afterthought

resident afterthought (feat. Dylan Longworth)

p. Alaska Sargent
w. Alaska Sargent
gtr. cnri (@skybr34kr)
sfx. cnri (@skybr34kr)
bkv. Azalea Bettigole (Shifting Perpsectives / @azaleabettigole)
bkv comp. Azalea Bettigole (Shifting Perpsectives / @azaleabettigole)

god knows where

as featured in backdoor!'s "afterparty! vol. 1"
also known as "Center of Attention, chapter two"

streaming: https://ffm.to/circusclown

backing vocals by @pixondle
guitar by @skybr34kr

she points with a gun
she's speaking my language right off the bat
she hangs up her coat
and leaves me entranced with the tip of her hat
i fell for the joke
and only she knows the punchline now
still, i'm in hysterics
i step on stage like a circus clown 

i can't prove myself to anyone
to anyone
besides myself
so why not piss off everyone
i've already won
(it's already begun)
i'm here for the taking
join the show, it's our parade
i did it all for you
all for you

treat me like a doll
and smear me in makeup like all the rest
dance like no one knows
as they load me in the back of the van
we're onto the show
i'm starting to get the punchline now
and i'm in hysterics
and no one mourns when they hear the sound

i can't prove myself to anyone
to anyone
besides myself
so why not piss off everyone
i've already won
(it's already begun)
i'm here for the taking
join the show, it's our parade
i did it all for you
all for you

LOOK AT ME, ANOTHER CIRCUS CLOWN!

p. Alaska Sargent, Azalea Bettigole (Shifting Perspectives / @azaleabettigole), Aero Pathrose (a.pathrose / @apathrose)
gtr. Julian Schessel (@dwarfwave and @smollbi)
pno. Tristan Valenti (monikrr / @monikrr)
drm. Alaska Sargent, Azalea Bettigole (Shifting Perpsectives / @azaleabettigole)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Alaska-sargent-au-contraire-lyrics

AU CONTRAIRE

@jhlofficixl

to preface: we started working on this and planned the release date prior to hearing the unfortunate news about steve harwell. although we intend to give this a proper streaming release, we have chosen to make the release on bandcamp entirely free to download, forever. thank you for inspiring us to create

lyrics:
somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me
i ain't the sharpest tool in the shed
she was looking kind of dumb with her finger and her thumb
in the shape of an "l" on her forehead

well, the years start comin' and they don't stop comin'
fed to the rules and i hit the ground runnin'
didn't make sense not to live for fun
your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb
so much to do, so much to see
so what's wrong with taking the backstreets?
you'll never know if you don't go
you'll never shine if you don't glow

hey now, you're an all star
get your game on, go play
hey now, you're a rock star
get the show on, get paid
and all that glitters is gold
only shootin' stars break the mold

it's a cool place, and they say it gets colder
you're bundled up now, wait 'til you get older
but the meteor men beg to differ
judging by the hole in the satellite picture
the ice we skate is gettin' pretty thin
the water's gettin' warm so you might as well swim
my world's on fire, how 'bout yours?
that's the way i like it and i'll never get bored

hey now, you're an all star
get your game on, go play
hey now, you're a rock star
get the show on, get paid
and all that glitters is gold
only shootin' stars break the mold

well, the years start comin' and they don't stop comin'
fed to the rules and i hit the ground runnin'
didn't make sense not to live for fun
your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb
so much to do, so much to see
so what's wrong with taking the backstreets?
you'll never know if you don't go
you'll never shine if you don't glow

All Star (with jhl)

p. Alaska Sargent, Benny Seeburger (Whitefish / @whitefishmei)
w. Alaska Sargent
gtr. Benny Seeburger (Whitefish / @whitefishmei)
vnva. Alaska Sargent

cul-de-sac

written by burt bacharach and hal david
interpolates "reason" by @letitallout
guitar by @whitefishmei

(They Long to Be) Close to You

saoirse dream, daywaiter - darkroom (Alaska Sargent Remix)

p. Alaska Sargent, Noah Watson-Pratt (delcarmen / @ratelthemusic)
w. Alaska Sargent, Noah Watson-Pratt (delcarmen / @ratelthemusic)
gtr. Kaden Johanson, Noah Watson-Pratt (delcarmen / @ratelthemusic)

cambridge (feat. delcarmen)

p. Alaska Sargent, cnri (@skybr34kr)
w. Alaska Sargent, cnri (@skybr34kr)
gtr. cnri (@skybr34kr)

let me

as presented at Camp Boneyard 3 on the Connection stage

0:00 — Intro
0:47 — I Shall Not Walk Alone (originally performed by The Blind Boys of Atlanta)
1:12 — The voice of @micahcallari
1:37 — The voice of @quququinny
1:53 — The voice of @samuilkeyes
2:07 — The voice of @guy-with-dog
2:25 — Alaska Sargent - VIRTUE SIGNAL
3:37 — Alaska Sargent - VIRTUE ↑TEMPO
4:37 — Alaska Sargent - AU CONTRAIRE
5:38 — Alaska Sargent - WATCH THE WORLD DECAY
7:38 — Alaska Sargent - desidero
9:34 — In Conclusion

As We Give Ourself, To The Ocean Blue—a Special Presentation

my debut album OVER MY DEAD BODY is out now

amateur poet
contact@alaskasargent.com

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