written about someone who is completely devoid in my mind but i like my vocals so im keeping it up

waking up here again
above all you said we'd be here together
but nothing lasts forever
yeah nothing lasts forever
stuck inside this game of yours
constantly worried that ur bored
bored of me my texts are green
i texted u so patiently
please tell me is it worth it
take oxy my stomachs hurting
throw up outside the curtains
wish i still knew for certain
sweet release
you got me down on my knees
ill do whatever you need

hook

Forever

now on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/1HuuHimszG0rwRJa8OJqNT?si=kNLgzqfCRUCVeG0XnSwLkw

produced by me

I wish you wouldn't ignore me, I texted you last morning
You said you’d call me early, you said you’d call me early
I thought you didn't like parties, apparently, now you’re changing
I hope you don't exchange me, I hope you don't exchange me
You're so cute, maybe we could still start dating
You said you'd think about it, I doubt you think about it
I don't wanna die alone, can you just pick up the phone?
I'm so in love with you, I'm so in love with you

beta orbiter (xo_willow cover)

pwnd - kms (ft. h4rtbrkr)

prod me

lyrics:

on my pc all my time
i just wanna make her mine
im just waiting for the second
that shes goes online

hope she doesnt think im obsessed
ima try my very best
but i dont think i can hold it 
i wanna cut open her chest <333

i love
i love you
why wont
you say it too?

she said "are you crazy?"
idk maybe :3
i just killed ur boyfriend
so we can start dating

idk why shes running
but its okay cause i love chasing
idk why shes still crying
cause you still have me baby

i love
i love you
why wont
you say it too?

im obsessed w my internet girlfriend

prod me


I don’t act delicate
As much as I wish I did
I want a gentlemen
That's genuine

I'm lacking so much estrogen
Blocky build and hairy skin
Such a contradicting specimen
God I wish I was feminine
Wish I was a lesbian

I hate my body
My head is throbbing
Illuminati
I wanna be a hottie

I wish I wasn’t 6 feet tall
I wish it didn’t look like I had balls
I wish I didn’t bleach my fucking hair
Cause now it falls out
Fuck me who cares
Fuck me who cares

I wish I wasn’t flat
And I arched my back
I wish I was a pretty cat
And not an ugly little rat
I wish I was born just an average girl
But now I get made fun of by what seems to be the world
I wanna be a girl
I wanna be a girl
I wanna be a girl
I wanna be a girl!

I hate my body
My head is throbbing
Illuminati
I wanna be a hottie
I hate my body
My head is fucking throbbing
Illuminati
I wanna be a hottie

i wanna be a girl cover

prod me wit @odihu & @mqxixo (shoutout wuj)

https://open.spotify.com/track/3ThfD6whQ3jeXUvtHo5vN8?si=b9ebd3e522d642b8

[me:]

reduce my heart into oblivion
i dont care i dont care
take my bed and throw me in a river yeah
i dont care i dont care

grew out my hair so i dont have to see u
starved myself so that i could eat u 
feel my pulse u can tell that i need u
leave me alone if thats what ur gonna do

i love u so much so much
when im near u i blush i blush
could we make it just us jus us
just us just us
just just us

i dont wanna hurt u 
oh no oh no
i just wanna love u
i just wanna eat u

grew out my hair so i dont have to see u
starved myself so that i could eat u 
feel my pulse u can tell that i need u
leave me alone if thats what ur gonna do

[odihu:]

i wanna see you
i wanna be you
get so close yeah i just wanna fell you
youre like everything to me my dreams come true
hug me softly when uiim in a bad mood
feel like an elephant in the room\
feeling so bad fell like excuse
i should take it
i cant face it
when u take my hart bb pls dont break it
wish that u were next 2 me it fell just like its rainin
im so stuck i think that im caved in
i cant abandond you youre the whole point of my life
hopefully well meet at one point isnside our lifes
im so sad becasue i reaklly really tried
well be together one day and well be fine

[moxi:]

i do everything i can to be the best for u 
i know u hate me but its too late im obsessed with u 
think ab u all the time 
in my dreams every night
praying you'd be by my side 
hoping our hearts intertwine 
am i trying to hard? 
will any of this suffice?
i rlly care ab u 
i wanna change ur whole life

hp- hoowwoeooooo
i wanna change ur whole life
4x

i do everything i can to be the best for u 
i know u hate me but its too late im obsessed with u 
think ab u all the time 
in my dreams every night
praying you'd be by my side 
hoping our hearts intertwine 

[me:]
grew out my hair so i dont have to see u
starved myself so that i could eat u 
feel my pulse u can tell that i need u
leave me alone if thats what ur gonna do

eat yu (ft. odihu & lifeless)

lyrics:

atp im down for whatever
relationship w a whore
whatever

the pillows i hug r not enough
i need some fucking female touch

but im a wreck im a mess
im not a good man
i have a billion issues
save me pls maam

idc about anything i just need a hug
im so down bad and i don give a fuck

atp im down for whatever
relationshit w a whore
whatever
fuck my life fuck me
forever
im gonna kill myself i swear
whatever
x2

i dont blame the society
i dont blame anyone else
the only one whos responsible is me, myself

i know im at fault i fucked my life up
so a whore would be just good enough

i dont pity myself i deserve what i got
but for my redemption i need someone

atp im down for whatever
relationshit w a whore
whatever
fuck my life fuck me
forever
im gonna kill myself i swear
whatever
x2

to scratch my hair cuddle me in bed
holy shit i hate myself

finally im starting to get what ive always wanted
but why does it matter when im fucked in my head

im not good looking have no social skills
my paycheck barely covers all these bills

they said i shouldnt drink on these pills
but what the fuck am i supposed to do
fuck this bullshit

atp im down for whatever
relationshit w a whore
whatever
fuck my life fuck me
forever
im gonna kill myself i swear
whatever
x2

Relationship W A Whore

@bloodsekai

https://open.spotify.com/track/51ZjJcupHpaKxT2Oib82Q5?si=ff63f972d4e94eec

treat me like the rest do 
i dont even get to 
say that i like you
my message goes right thru
i see ur online too 
why cant i attract u 
why cant i attract u
why cant i attract u

im stuck in a loop 
can someone please shoot
or say that they love me

when will my life shift
how long it will b like this 

treat me like the rest do
i dont even get to
say that i like you
before u make me feel all alone
all alone

in a loop Prod bloodsekai

@bloodsekai @foreverstained

sitting in the back of class
why do i feel so attached?
i dont wanna ever go back
to the way it was cuz it was sad
everyone sits and stares
i look around like i don't care
it's so mundane
like everyday
it's so mundane 
like everyday

i always feel excluded
i wanna be included
why's everyone so ruthless?
good thoughts been so elusive  
walking around with no change of face
i wanna be like u so bad
joking & laughing everyday
inconvenient, my heart lacks 
i wanna be like u so bad

sitting in the back of class
why do i feel so attached?
i dont wanna ever go back
to the way it was cuz it was sad
everyone sits and stares
i look around like i don't care
it's so mundane
like everyday
it's so mundane 
like everyday

i miss when i could jus smile it off
recently i've been finding myself pissed off
scrolling on twitter, it feels like tinder
every girl's in love, i wanna wither
it forces me to always remember 
what i once had yea i miss her
seems like i just want attention 
but i promise i have good intentions
disconnected from my friendships 
broke my antennas i have no reception 
every girl hates loverboys they just want manipulators 
i dont wanna be that guy but i could really treat u greater
every nights the same thing im begging someone saves me
why does it feel like everyone hates me?

sitting in the back of class
why do i feel so attached?
i dont wanna ever go back
to the way it was cuz it was sad
everyone sits and stares
i look around like i don't care
it's so mundane
like everyday
it's so mundane 
like everyday

pwnd - kms (ft. h4rtbrkr)

forgiving