wow this is acctualy really good. you have a amazing voice and its easy to tell you write your music from feelings and thats not something a lot of artists do so thank you. your beautiful. 

Omg this is my fave song, the emotion in this song is so real. You can tell she put so much effort into this song! Applause to you 👏￼￼👏👏👏👏👏👏

DAMN, SO BADAZZ & What A LOVELY VOICE!🌹

pills ft. bleeed (prod. yunny goldz)

Soul

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How am I supposed to heal
I’ve forgotten how to feel
Broken promises left out the door
I'm broken hearted to the core

Sometimes when I’m awake
I think about you and I start to hate
To hate the feeling 
And I suffocate
My heart from feeling
Takes my breath away

And sometimes when I’m alone
I fight my urges to pick up the phone
And call your number like I used to do
I was so used to you

And now you’re with her
I hate her
Cause she’s all about you
The same way that I was
I was a fool for you

You played me
You’ll play her
I already know the truth
But she won’t
No she don’t
She don’t know about you

Caught me by surprise
The web of your lies
You told me you wouldn’t leave
you’d never leave my side
 
You lied
And I believed
You made a fool out of me
Everyone warned me
But I couldn’t see

Blinded by your charm
You caused the most harm
You never did say you were sorry
That don’t matter but oh it haunts me

Was there two or was there more?
I was dying on the floor
You cried you called me 
I declined I couldn’t breathe

I couldn’t breathe

You’re selfish 
You’re fucked up
I wish you the worst luck

You miss me?
Well that’s nice
I don’t miss you
I miss the fights

I miss your wrongs 
when I was right
I miss you degrading me
I miss your hate for me
I really miss the jealousy

And all those times that I would cry
You don’t care
you were getting getting high
That stupid band
Your stupid songs
You always cared more about the bong

And now look at you
All fucked up and alone at two
You’ve got me on your mind
wishing you could go back in time

And all those those months I was in pain
and finding comfort in the rain
You didn’t care
You made it worse
You harassed me
I felt cursed 

You told me you didn’t love me
So I don’t get what you want from me
I changed my number
Leave a fax
Leave me alone and face the facts

You lost the girl who was always down
The only girl who didn’t want the crown
She wanted you for you
You betrayed her
The things you do
 
I hope you know you won’t find better
And She’s still burning all your letters
If by chance your hear this song
I hope you see how you did me wrong

Please Stay Away - ANTIVST (Prod.XET)

I don’t wanna live like this anymore 
take a bottle of pills & I’m out on the floor.
Too many times And I'll take the blame
So I’m fucked in the head,
Put a gun to my brain.

Don’t worry about me I’ll be fine
I’ve got thoughts of suicide on my mind 
I want it to end
There is no friend 
who gives a shit

Nobody cares until your dead
And even then they all pretend 
pretend to care,
They’re not really there
No no no

Last year in March
I was in pain
I wanted to die,
Jumped in front of a train

It was only a dream,
So when I woke up,
climbed up to the bridge
Tried to throw myself off

I cried for days,
I was in pain
I felt selfish
With No one to blame

But myself 
I’m always on my own
I’m always alone
And When I get in the zone

I close myself off,
Cut people off,
Cut em off like I do
Cause if they only knew 

What goes on in my head
I’m Better off dead
Like I’ve already said 
God I wish I was dead

Thoughts Of $uicide - ANTIVST (Prod.Raspo)

Art by Lucas David
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This is what I couldn’t say
I didn’t want to walk away 
You left me no choice
I didn’t wanna hear your voice

Tell me all the ugly lies
How you traced around her thighs
Look me the eyes
Tell me it’s a lie

I love you
But I Iove to hate you
It’s sad but it’s true
And I’m not over you 
You’re in my head
Been in my head

I love you
But I want to hate you
You’re bad for my heart
And you’ve torn me apart 
Still in my head 
Still in my bed

You took my last breath
When you said those words to me
3 words that were lies 
But it meant something to me
And those were the lies 
That were sped out of control 
And you took my body
And then crushed my god damn soul
But that was the old me
You were a lesson
Not taking your bullshit
So sit down and listen 
Yeah I was alright
Doing just fine
You walked into my life
But left with a knife

Straight to the heart yeah
You’re cold to the core
And on your way out you sure slammed the door
I showed you my wounds from the previous one 
You said I won’t hurt you but the damage is done
I hope it was worth it 
But you’ll get yours and probably other things from fucking with whores 
I’ll keep my distance and I’ll be okay
trying to forget that miserable day 
you fell out of love I mean that’s what you claim 
but what is love when it was all just a game 
ask yourself that when you’re thinking of me 
or hitting me up when there’s something you need

Damaged - ANTIVST (prod. raspo)

short cover of small hands(ft my moms heroin)

Creep - Radiohead Cover

onelastgo. [prod. nunav]

prod.trashy

lyrics: 
smile through the pain 
you're driving me insane 
used to love how you touched my body and the way you said my name
you say you're not the same 
you only have yourself to blame x2
i'm done playing these games but i see you haven't changed 
you're not ready i guess that's okay
just let me know when you finally make it home
i said it'll be the last time
that i make sure you're alright 
you don't care if i'm doing fine
so i guess this is goodbye 

leave me alone i'm doing fine on my own
you can go do what you want 
just delete me off your phone
i'm not one of your hoes 
don't come around no more
i am not your friend 
remember that when you need me again
i'm done playing pretend 
so i guess this is the end

dead&buried

cataclysm - NOVED X FALLACY a.d.d. (prod. willow) *OLD*

Win N Die

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Thoughts Of $uicide - ANTIVST (Prod.Raspo)

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