Lyrics

I fucked up again, that's on me
I feel lost can't find nobody
That could understand my thoughts
I hate my mind, can't turn it off

I don't wanna run but I don't know if I can take this
I am not the one, I got lost in the matrix
Inside not okay but on the outside I can fake it
See my silver cord, I don't want it, I'ma break it

Fly away, I can feel my wings now
Why does every body only want me when I leave out?
I can now be seen by all the things that I can see now
Faces are grotesque, auras of darkness

Where do I go when I'm trapped in the open
By souls that are broken and only are hopeless?
I can't take the weight of my spiritual makeup
I've called God since 2014 and I still feel like he ain't fucking heard me

Where do I go?

Where do I go? I don't fucking know, never really did
When I'm a ghost, I won't fucking know, I won't even exist
I can't even tell now if I really am alive
I been thinking shit like this since I was in grade 5

L O S E & R, I'm a loser
D E P R E & double S, I O N user
My connection with this fucking world is getting looser
My progression in this life is not a thing I'm too sure (x2)

2014.

Lyrics

Drunk, stuck, don't give a fuck
I still ain't had me enough
Why so shook? Knew what was up
I never lied about none

I told you I wasn't what
You were still searching to find
You hurt you
I was just taking advantage and passing the time

I'm not even what's close to divine
I lost hope and I never will find
It again, I'm in the shit again, I'm never fitting in, God I know that I'm not getting in
Your heaven, I'm hellbent on my only purpose

You think I'm at the top
But I feel like I'm losing
Life's hard wanna stop
Something in me keep choosing

To fight off these thoughts
That tell me let it off
That tell me that I'm not
Worth everything that I got

That bitch ain't care
Why the fuck should I?
There's some in the air
That makes me wanna die

So why do I fight?
When I think I'm lost?
Maybe because I
Can only fight when lost

Stuck in a cycle, that's how my life go
Honestly think that I'm psycho
Midnight, can't keep my eyes closed
I might need Nyquil, I never like it when I feel

Like I can't sleep cause you'll be in my dreams
Even when you don't care you're the one that I see
In my life for the rest of eternity
Why this love in my chest keep on burning me?

Why the girl that I love keep on hurting me?
Don't know what's wrong with me, everyone always deserting me
God why the fuck did you burden me? Death is an urgency
All my emotions are murkin' me

mercury.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

out of reach.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Tryna change is hard
Don't know where to start
It's so many parts
I can't see it all
I turned off my heart
I can't turn it on
I got all this pain
I can't turn it off

Never got no help
I been on my own
Everything I felt
You could never know
I came out my shell
I was vulnerable
You sent me to hell
Now my heart is stone

I be needing help
And I don't ever ask
And I lost all my hope
And I can't get that back
What's the point if I did?
I won't ever have that girl back again
No one could turn on those feelings within
She has that key and she won't unlock it

i turned off my heart.

Lyrics

I been making progress from the old me
But sometimes I wish someone would just hold me
Sometimes all the weight gets me to folding, gotta let go of what I'm holdin
Is it just the drugs or something more I feel?
At this point, I really do not know what's real
I've seen a lot and hurt some more than time can heal
If I slip back in, I'm saying fuck those pills

daemon. (2019)

Produced by luffysome

Lyrics

I love that girl more than myself
She ripped my heart right out my chest
Sick of this life, I don't care what's next
I don't care cause I don't really got none left

I gave it all to her
She thought I was joking but I really wasn't
I knew that I shouldn't of gave her my heart
But I did and now that shit is broken and it won't be fixed

Why in the fuck do y'all tell me y'all really miss my old shit?
Ain't even like that shit been deleted, you can go listen to old shit
Bitch you can get off my dick, I really don't give no shits
I make this shit for myself, make this shit for my health, I don't make this shit so it can sell

Bitch I do not make content, I make this shit to be content
All of these fake ass fucks that be blowing up ain't really on shit
Might be a dick but I'm honest, wish I was what she wanted
That girl is all I needed, I lost my way cause I made her my compass

I love that girl more than myself
She ripped my heart right out my chest
Sick of this life, I don't care what's next
I don't care cause I don't really got none left

I gave it all to her
She thought I was joking but I really wasn't
I knew that I shouldn't of gave her my heart
But I did and now that shit is broken and it won't be fixed

i don't make content, i make this to be content.

Produced by fowni

Lyrics

You're letting go, I'm holding on
I wanna go to wherever you are
When you tell me you hate me, I hear that I love you
Cause how could you hate me if you never loved too?

Nowhere to run to, baby I'll haunt you
You don't understand, girl I need you, not want you
Alice in a wonderland the kind of lengths I would go to
Peter Pan in neverland, girl I'm a lost boy without you

Girl I'm nothing without you, every song is about you
I tried living without you but I can't live without you
All I wanted was love, you just wanted to fuck
You fucked more than my body, I'ma need a lobotomy if I wanna let go of you

You need him, I need you, what the fuck did I do?
Can you tell me the truth?
If you do then I swear I will leave you alone
I can't leave you alone, say I will but I won't

Said I did but I didn't
Say I don't but I miss it
I'm alone, where'd you go?
I just wish you would listen

Please can you just hear me out?
Cause your love, girl I can't live without it

You're letting go, I'm holding on
I wanna go to wherever you are
When you tell me you hate me, I hear that I love you
Cause how could you hate me if you never loved too?

Nowhere to run to, baby I'll haunt you
You don't understand, girl I need you, not want you
Alice in a wonderland the type of lengths I would go to
Peter Pan in neverland, girl I'm a lost boy without you

i'm gonna need a lobotomy to let go of you.

Sebastian Ax - Livets Roulette

whxami - FALL [feat.KAMAARA]

lyrics:

Disappointing disappointment death I need an appointment
Life is pointless scream into to the mic until I go voiceless
Overthinking situations till I start to hear voices
My music is a medicine I make from the poison

That intoxicates every single part of me
They said it was a phase but it seems like its a part of me
Only way that I escape, is the drugs that take a part of me
Away from me, the sadness goes away but it takes away the heart of me

So its hard for me, to give back all the love that you would offer me
If it didn't hurt my mom, I would off me
Put myself into a coffin where I oughta be
Yeah thats where I rather be

I'm too weak, life is too much, all this fuck stuff
In two weeks, I'll be heldback, school is rough bruh
I'm amounting to the things that they said I'd be
If you asked them to describe me they'd say "dead to me"

I'm dead to me too, so they're right next to me
Fallin' through a void and there aint nobody catching me

unknxwn. - escitalopram

I feel like a god damn waste
God if you're real you can god damn take
My life away cause I god damn hate
The shit that my mind can god damn make
Me feel, sometimes I wanna take three pills
Just to feel like I have free will
Why can't these god damn people just be real
Some days I feel so low, to the point where I just wanna let go
Gun at my head and I might let it blow
Goin' through shit that you don't even know
I'm fuckin' stuck in place full of snow
Been here so long I don't even feel cold
I need another cup of my merlot
I don't have any love left to show

I live in Hell but you never could tell
Cause the way that I hide it is too fuckin' well
Losing my trust in humanity, full of insanity
I don't have a soul to sell
But if I did, I would
Keepin' that shit would honestly do me no good
I rather thrive on this Earth while I can
Than struggle when shit gets to hittin' the fan
I'm a mess stuck inside the body of a man
Need an escape I just might take a xan
Don't judge, you ain't been through the mud
Don't think that I do this for fun
I'm just a fucked up fuck up
Do it yourself, or I'll shut you up
I don't need help cause I never had none
Standing my ground I will no longer run

daemon. (2019)

Archive: unknxwn.