Produced by Yago

Lyrics

Everyday I wake up it's a bad time
Nic it up my heart rate, I won't flat line
If I do don't even matter, fuck my life I'll trash mine
I am not a good guy, you just haven't seen my bad side

Wanna grab a gun, cock it, put it at my brain
I know that ain't right but I am tired of the pain
Every time I meet a bitch they make me insane
Fuck all this shit, I been stuck in the rain

I don't want no friends but I do
I am just so fucked up don't know what to do
All I do is smoke nicotine in my room
Making all these songs over beats, making tunes

I just wanna love, I don't think I can
Even if I told you, you won't understand
That bitch had me fucked up, left me in a trance
I'ma get my bucks up, watch me do my dance

Tried to give you my heart, you wanna give me hate
Lil bitch I'm on my grind, you gonna watch me skate
I'ma get cash, I'ma get bands, lil bitch I broke that bank
Promise you the day I can, hop on a plane get out of state

fkdupfreestyle! | Produced by Yago

Baby why you do that?
Tell me what I did bad
I don't wanna move on
I want you to come back

I'll tell you my secrets
Only if you keep it
I been on the deep end
You're my only reason

I don't choose to let go
Sink into the darkness
I don't need no help
No one could ever solve this

Problem that I got inside
My stupid noggin
Don't know how to cope
Throw my fist at where the wall is

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

You were all I lived for
Wish we coulda been more
Ever since the day you left
I can only feel sore

I thought you said you loved me
Why you treat me like I'm nothing?

Do you think it's funny to come back into my life when
I finally get you out of my head and stop inviting?
You think I don't know where you live and who you lie with?
Play with my heart ever again, that's who you'll die with

You think I went too far?
But I ain't took a step yet
You think I'm a lover boy
There's a void inside of my chest

It won't be filled till she fills a fucking casket
I won't be healed while she lives, I'm getting drastic
I thought I told you, I'm not angel
But I know how I can make you see a halo

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

loverboy.

Produced by septfree x maestrowons

Lyrics

I don't want you to let me go, I'm still hanging on hopes you'll come back
I wanna let you know, I'll be right here when you come back
Baby I know you will cause if you don't then my life won't be worth it
Bitch I won't ever be healed, you're what I need and I know I deserve it

Promise I'm not that guy, that girl is just perfect, I'll always believe it
She always made my life worth waking up everyday and not leaving
I ain't know where she went but I know where she is
You don't know how far I went just to find out what she did

Just to find out I ain't really mean shit
Just to find out what she said, she never meant
Love what I found but I hate what I hid
I won't hate when I die, I ain't love how I live

I don't want you to let me go, I'm still hanging on hopes you'll come back
I wanna let you know, I'll be right here when you come back
Baby I know you will cause if you don't then my life won't be worth it
Bitch I won't ever be healed, you're what I need and I know I deserve it

Promise I'm not that guy...wait a minute, I might really be
Ain't no way I could see from that side unless at one point I was on that team
At some point I know I was the villain but I was just sick of feeling
Like everyone stepped on me, wanted a hole in my head, dolphin

Felt like a fish out of water, get it?
Every time that I called her, regret it
Ain't know what to say to that text when I read it
She know what to say to get me all upset, shit

I don't want you to let me go
I just wanted to let you know
That I'll be right here when you come back
I'm still hanging on hopes you'll come back

please come back soon, i miss you.

Produced by flower x 5head

This song reflects a deep struggle with boundaries, emotional exhaustion, and the tension between loving someone and being drained by them. It captures the weight of giving so much of yourself that you lose your ability to thrive. From a faith-based perspective, this song could serve as a testimony of learning to set healthy boundaries and entrusting both yourself and others to God’s care.

Loving Without Losing Yourself:

“I love you to death but I can’t let you take my fire.”

This lyric shows the tension of loving someone while recognizing the harm that relationship is causing. The Bible calls us to love others as ourselves, not at the expense of ourselves.

“Love your neighbor as yourself.” (Mark 12:31)

Recognizing Emotional Draining Relationships:

“What is the point of this if I’m keeping you alive but I can’t live?”

This line captures the one-sided nature of a draining relationship. The Bible encourages us to help others but also to be wise stewards of our energy and resources.

“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way, you will fulfill the law of Christ.” (Galatians 6:2)

“Each one should test their own actions.” (Galatians 6:4)

Turning to God in Despair:

“When they thought I would fall, I said ‘Dear Heavenly Father.’”

This is a powerful declaration of faith in the face of challenges. Even in moments of emotional exhaustion, you’re turning to God as your source of strength.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

The “Sinkhole” and Spiritual Warfare:

“Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you’re getting stronger.”

This reflects a recurring battle with darkness, whether external or internal. The Bible reminds us that spiritual warfare is real but God equips us to overcome it.

“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness.” (Ephesians 6:12)

Lyrics

You asked for help, out of love I did and then I got fucked
And I won't help again, so please don't ask again
What is the point of this if I'm keeping you alive but I can't live?
And you may not even know but you're still a vampire, I love you to death but I can't let you take my fire

I been getting colder tryna make you warmer
You're the elephant inside the room, I'm in a corner
Tryna hold it in ain't making me no calmer
Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you're getting stronger

And it seems you're getting smarter
Tryna figure out where you reside is getting harder
I been keeping close some things I should be keeping farther
When they thought I would fall, I said "Dear Heavenly Father"

You asked for help, out of love I did and then I got fucked
And I won't help again, so please don't ask again
What is the point of this if I'm keeping you alive but I can't live?
And you may not even know but you're still a vampire, I love you to death but I can't let you take my fire

I been getting colder tryna make you warmer
You're the elephant inside the room, I'm in a corner
Tryna hold it in ain't making me no calmer
Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you're getting stronger

the moment the pit in my stomach becomes a sinkhole.

Lyrics

I say I hate you but I won't let you go
I say I hate you but you still in my phone
I say I hate you, I say I hate you..
I say I hate you but in my heart, I don't
I say I hate you but girl we both damn know that I still want you
Baby, why you hurt me? Baby, where you run too?
Baby, don't desert me
Baby girl, I need you
Why you do me like that?
Everything I gave to you but you won't give me...
You won't give me all that, you won't even call back
You're all that I care about, I'm about to air it out
I cry into silence but I swear you gone hear me out
I'm not even violent but you know how to bring it out
You know to get me to open up, touch my heart, and just go rip it out

*auditory agony*

Dear mе, love you
What did I turn into?
Don't recognize my rеflection
I hate what I've succumbed to

*auditory agony*

auditory agony.

vanished. (2021)

Produced by flower x fonkyfake

Lyrics

Holding on to nothing
I don't care, I just needed something
Drugs I'm off and drinking? Stopped it
Had to resort to another option

Don't know where I'll go from here though
I wanna save you but I'm not a hero
I need God, I need a miracle
I don't think my vice is curable

This ain't talent, this is pain embodied
Speaking through my body
I'm not alive, I'm a zombie
Pain is what I eat when hungry

Lost my heart, I won't ever find it
My mind's dark and I won't ever light it
I been battling my demons and I'm tired of the fighting
Fuck ken, detmer's who I can confide in

I don't wanna hide it
Yeah, I kinda like it
I don't wanna fall short
But I might really fall in

God can you forgive me?
For I know not what I do
Will it take away the pain?
If I give it all to you?

this ain't talent, this is pain.

Produced by luffysome x noah808

Lyrics

I need you back, whatever he has I seem to lack

Oh, why'd you ever have to leave me hopeless?
Make sure where the bodies go is where nobody notice
I don't wanna be fixed, I got used to being broken
It don't matter how I feel, I don't ever wanna open up

I'm so fucked, you just wanted sex
Baby all I want is love
I'll succumb, I'll become
Anything you ever need and anything you want

Baby I'm not worth it if you not with me, you can hit me
You know I'll forget about it as soon as you kiss me
Don't care what you do to me just don't forget me
I can't let you do all that to me and simply leave me

Bae it ain't that easy, we gone have to both go
Don't go, I need you here with me or I won't cope
I ain't got no need to cope if you just don't go
Moving on is what I need to do but I just won't though

Been in a bad mood ever since I woke up
Lux said I ain't need to write, so I spoke up
With the bogiebois in ATL & we gone smoke up
Love me, hate me, baby I give no fucks

Don't go, please don't go, girl I need you back, I can't let you go
I'm cold, I'm so cold, I ain't got nowhere to go I can call home
She's gone, she won't come back anymore, I guess I'm alone
I know that I should move on but I don't wanna move on

i don't wanna be fixed, i got used to being broken.

Produced by luffysome

Lyrics

I love that girl more than myself
She ripped my heart right out my chest
Sick of this life, I don't care what's next
I don't care cause I don't really got none left

I gave it all to her
She thought I was joking but I really wasn't
I knew that I shouldn't of gave her my heart
But I did and now that shit is broken and it won't be fixed

Why in the fuck do y'all tell me y'all really miss my old shit?
Ain't even like that shit been deleted, you can go listen to old shit
Bitch you can get off my dick, I really don't give no shits
I make this shit for myself, make this shit for my health, I don't make this shit so it can sell

Bitch I do not make content, I make this shit to be content
All of these fake ass fucks that be blowing up ain't really on shit
Might be a dick but I'm honest, wish I was what she wanted
That girl is all I needed, I lost my way cause I made her my compass

I love that girl more than myself
She ripped my heart right out my chest
Sick of this life, I don't care what's next
I don't care cause I don't really got none left

I gave it all to her
She thought I was joking but I really wasn't
I knew that I shouldn't of gave her my heart
But I did and now that shit is broken and it won't be fixed

i don't make content, i make this to be content.

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

Oh no, where in the fuck do I go now?
Don't know, my heart is broken and cold now
I'm so over it, this shit is old now
You really think I would care if you like me? I don't even like myself now

Say what I feel, feel what I say
Wanted to die but I didn't wanna wait
Swear that I tried but I guess that it wasn't my fate
Shit I guess there's a lot more I can take

I guess I got some more pain to experience
Love is the cure and I'm sick of experiments
I ran away and it lead me back here again
But I bet that I won't give into that damn fear again

Holding on with broken arms
Lost, don't know how far I've gone
Every time I call you, you ignore it
Really thought that I was more important

But I guess I'm not and that's okay
Cause I know you'll be back one day
If you're wondering why I'm so certain
Cause she has to be or this shit wasn't worth it at all

Ask me if I care then, I don't, not at all
Every time I get a call
I look at the number to see if she callin' me back
If it's not then I'm turning it off

Turning it off, don't wanna talk
Headed to hell but I don't wanna stop
I wanna feel but I turned off my heart
I can't turn it back on, I don't know where to start

She told me, "Ken, I hate you"
I told that dumb bitch thank you
I do not know why she thought that would hurt me
Pain is all that I'm able to understand

I'm misunderstood
FR87, unstable
9 out of 10 won't understand that
But I swear that you real if able

i don't make content, i make this to be content.

unknxwn.

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