Lyrics

Life I do not know what's right about
I do not know what to write about
Stuck in my head, I been psyching out
Life is a game I been thinking bout signing out

ALready feel like a ghost
All the way, might as well go
Thoughts that you never could know
Always right on the top of mind so

I keep it quiet a lot
I do not know how to stop
All of the loops that I just keep repeating
You say that I'm great but I'm not

I keep on trying to rot
But I keep on trying to top
All that I've done in the past
I'm crossing lines that I never could pass

I don't know what I should do now
I got so wore out, I'm through now
I'm so sick, my mind's a virus
Can't be fixed so don't you try it

Go on? No
I can't let go
I won't ever
Get it together

i won't ever.

Lyrics

I fucked up again, that's on me
I feel lost can't find nobody
That could understand my thoughts
I hate my mind, can't turn it off

I don't wanna run but I don't know if I can take this
I am not the one, I got lost in the matrix
Inside not okay but on the outside I can fake it
See my silver cord, I don't want it, I'ma break it

Fly away, I can feel my wings now
Why does every body only want me when I leave out?
I can now be seen by all the things that I can see now
Faces are grotesque, auras of darkness

Where do I go when I'm trapped in the open
By souls that are broken and only are hopeless?
I can't take the weight of my spiritual makeup
I've called God since 2014 and I still feel like he ain't fucking heard me

Where do I go?

Where do I go? I don't fucking know, never really did
When I'm a ghost, I won't fucking know, I won't even exist
I can't even tell now if I really am alive
I been thinking shit like this since I was in grade 5

L O S E & R, I'm a loser
D E P R E & double S, I O N user
My connection with this fucking world is getting looser
My progression in this life is not a thing I'm too sure (x2)

2014.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

Produced by flower x 5head

This song reflects a deep struggle with boundaries, emotional exhaustion, and the tension between loving someone and being drained by them. It captures the weight of giving so much of yourself that you lose your ability to thrive. From a faith-based perspective, this song could serve as a testimony of learning to set healthy boundaries and entrusting both yourself and others to God’s care.

Loving Without Losing Yourself:

“I love you to death but I can’t let you take my fire.”

This lyric shows the tension of loving someone while recognizing the harm that relationship is causing. The Bible calls us to love others as ourselves, not at the expense of ourselves.

“Love your neighbor as yourself.” (Mark 12:31)

Recognizing Emotional Draining Relationships:

“What is the point of this if I’m keeping you alive but I can’t live?”

This line captures the one-sided nature of a draining relationship. The Bible encourages us to help others but also to be wise stewards of our energy and resources.

“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way, you will fulfill the law of Christ.” (Galatians 6:2)

“Each one should test their own actions.” (Galatians 6:4)

Turning to God in Despair:

“When they thought I would fall, I said ‘Dear Heavenly Father.’”

This is a powerful declaration of faith in the face of challenges. Even in moments of emotional exhaustion, you’re turning to God as your source of strength.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

The “Sinkhole” and Spiritual Warfare:

“Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you’re getting stronger.”

This reflects a recurring battle with darkness, whether external or internal. The Bible reminds us that spiritual warfare is real but God equips us to overcome it.

“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness.” (Ephesians 6:12)

Lyrics

You asked for help, out of love I did and then I got fucked
And I won't help again, so please don't ask again
What is the point of this if I'm keeping you alive but I can't live?
And you may not even know but you're still a vampire, I love you to death but I can't let you take my fire

I been getting colder tryna make you warmer
You're the elephant inside the room, I'm in a corner
Tryna hold it in ain't making me no calmer
Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you're getting stronger

And it seems you're getting smarter
Tryna figure out where you reside is getting harder
I been keeping close some things I should be keeping farther
When they thought I would fall, I said "Dear Heavenly Father"

You asked for help, out of love I did and then I got fucked
And I won't help again, so please don't ask again
What is the point of this if I'm keeping you alive but I can't live?
And you may not even know but you're still a vampire, I love you to death but I can't let you take my fire

I been getting colder tryna make you warmer
You're the elephant inside the room, I'm in a corner
Tryna hold it in ain't making me no calmer
Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you're getting stronger

the moment the pit in my stomach becomes a sinkhole.

vanished. (2021)

03 - A Lot Done Change

geek limo prod lex the wizard

Peanut Butter And Jelly

Just wanna go back to the days when I wasnt depressed and my life wasnt shit
Cause now all I do is just cry in my bed cause I think about shit that I need to forget
When I wake up I reach straight for the shovel I'm diggin' myself deeper into the pit
Life is a puzzle but the way that we live our life puts you in a place that you dont fit

I'm seeing shit that I wish that I couldent
And I'm doing things that I wish that I wouldent
My feelings are fucked idk how to put it
I keep giving up and I know that I shouldn't
But as of recently I have no care
Don't waste my time I aint got none to spare
Said that you'd be there but now I'm like where
I dont play by the rules because life isnt fair
Used to want friends
Now I just want it to end
No longer wanna pretend
Thought I was making my way out the void
But the whole time I been falling back in
This shit is fucked
Why am I never enough
I can never call the bluff
Summer was straight 
My depression was left
But school came right
And now I feel stuck

Always inside of my bed
Sleeping on positive thoughts that are inside my head
Fighting with feelings that tear me apart that are deep inside my heart insted
You feel alive while throwing out lies but I speak the truth and I feel like I'm dead
I'll say my goodbyes and cut off my ties then open the bottle OD on the meds

Why open up? I don't see why I should
Why try to be happy when I never could
I rather fake my smile and say that I'm good
Than sayin' I'm fuckin' depressed
Sick of the shit I been givin' 
I bouta give up because
Honestly I'm fuckin' pressed
I'm gonna snap if you treat me the same as everyone else
And leave just like the rest
Warning you now not to fuck with the last of my feelings
Cause I'll do some shit I'll regret
Tell me you care whenever you can
Because if don't I'll just sit and forget
The way that I'm livin' my life
I'd honestly be better off playing russian roulette
I dont feel like I should try
I'm down in the dumps and I'm fucking upset

Unknxwn - Reject | Prod.Almight

Ice in my veins
Knives in my heart
How did I die I dont know where to start

I start to fade
Everything grey
Other than death I dont see any way

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

Bodies everywhere, and I watch em all burn
Thinkin' to myself, "did I take the wrong turn"
I make mistakes and I will never learn
Once I depart I will never return

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

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