Produced by Yago

Lyrics

Everyday I wake up it's a bad time
Nic it up my heart rate, I won't flat line
If I do don't even matter, fuck my life I'll trash mine
I am not a good guy, you just haven't seen my bad side

Wanna grab a gun, cock it, put it at my brain
I know that ain't right but I am tired of the pain
Every time I meet a bitch they make me insane
Fuck all this shit, I been stuck in the rain

I don't want no friends but I do
I am just so fucked up don't know what to do
All I do is smoke nicotine in my room
Making all these songs over beats, making tunes

I just wanna love, I don't think I can
Even if I told you, you won't understand
That bitch had me fucked up, left me in a trance
I'ma get my bucks up, watch me do my dance

Tried to give you my heart, you wanna give me hate
Lil bitch I'm on my grind, you gonna watch me skate
I'ma get cash, I'ma get bands, lil bitch I broke that bank
Promise you the day I can, hop on a plane get out of state

fkdupfreestyle! | Produced by Yago

Lyrics

You can leave me alone, I don't care, I'm a loner
I don't want no weed, I'ma drunk, not a stoner
I can't let you in my head, I do not wanna go there
Staying in my bed cause I do not wanna go nowhere

You can leave me alone, I don't care, I'm a loner
I don't want no weed, I'ma drunk, not a stoner
I can't let you in my head, I do not wanna go there
Staying in my bed cause I do not wanna go nowhere

I'ma be okay in a minute
Said that you will stay but I do not know if you meant it
I can't really tell if everybody just pretending
I feel like I failed but I know that I am not finished

Keep on, keeping on, nonchalant now
I can't really put a pin right on what I want now
I really do not know what you want from me
But I know that I want you in my company

Fear the silence
Am I past my mileage?
I don't know what I did
But I know you don't like it

You can leave me alone, I don't care, I'm a loner
I don't want no weed, I'ma drunk, not a stoner
I can't let you in my head, I do not wanna go there
Staying in my bed cause I do not wanna go nowhere

You can leave me alone, I don't care, I'm a loner
I don't want no weed, I'ma drunk, not a stoner
I can't let you in my head, I do not wanna go there
Staying in my bed cause I do not wanna go nowhere

Beat me down, let me bleed
I want what I never need
I don't think that I can be
The person that you wanna see

Cause I know things you never will
About me that I'll never heal
I can't tell you everything
I've wrote some songs I'll never sing

I'm a fucking punk put my body in the ground
Why I'll never be enough? I won't ever figure out
I'ma bite the fucking dust, I don't wanna be around
All I know is that I must turn my pain into a sound

I been stuck inside a hole, tryna crawl out
All I really ever known, I get left out
I got hate inside my bones I can't let out
All because I never learned how to know how

You can leave me alone, I don't care, I'm a loner
I don't want no weed, I'ma drunk, not a stoner
I can't let you in my head, I do not wanna go there
I'm just staying in my bed, I do not wanna go nowhere

loner. | Produced by puhf & 5head

Lyrics

I fucked up again, that's on me
I feel lost can't find nobody
That could understand my thoughts
I hate my mind, can't turn it off

I don't wanna run but I don't know if I can take this
I am not the one, I got lost in the matrix
Inside not okay but on the outside I can fake it
See my silver cord, I don't want it, I'ma break it

Fly away, I can feel my wings now
Why does every body only want me when I leave out?
I can now be seen by all the things that I can see now
Faces are grotesque, auras of darkness

Where do I go when I'm trapped in the open
By souls that are broken and only are hopeless?
I can't take the weight of my spiritual makeup
I've called God since 2014 and I still feel like he ain't fucking heard me

Where do I go?

Where do I go? I don't fucking know, never really did
When I'm a ghost, I won't fucking know, I won't even exist
I can't even tell now if I really am alive
I been thinking shit like this since I was in grade 5

L O S E & R, I'm a loser
D E P R E & double S, I O N user
My connection with this fucking world is getting looser
My progression in this life is not a thing I'm too sure (x2)

2014.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

wired.

Produced by kledyy

This song carries a deep emotional weight, capturing themes of identity, longing, self-conflict, and inner turmoil. It’s a powerful piece but it’s important to note that it represents a past version of myself that was caught in double-mindedness and seeking validation through relationships, identities, and external recognition.

The lyrics reveal a struggle with self-identity and fractured personas. I express the pain of trying to reconcile different parts of myself—Ken, Detmer, Garrett, Qayin, and unknxwn.—and the longing for someone’s love and acceptance.

From a faith perspective, this could serve as a testimony of how God’s love has provided me with the wholeness and purpose I was searching for through those identities.

Identity:

“Ken is my name but I’m not who he is” reflects the disconnect you felt from your true self.

Biblical truth:

God created you with purpose, and your identity is ultimately rooted in Him.

“I have called you by name; you are mine.” (Isaiah 43:1)

Love and Longing:

“Wish you would tell me you love me, you won’t” expresses a deep yearning for love and acceptance.

Biblical truth: 

God’s love is unconditional and fills the void that no human relationship can.

“The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love.’” (Jeremiah 31:3)

Inner Conflict:

“Garrett told Detmer to unhand me” and “I’m not alive, I’m an echo” capture the battle between the parts of yourself and a sense of emptiness.

Biblical truth:

True peace comes from surrendering all parts of yourself to God.

“A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.” (James 1:8)

Lyrics

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

Why you leave me on my own?
I need you more than I need my own breath in my body
Cause what is it worth
If you're not the one that I'm spending it on?

Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn.
They came to save me when I was alone
Nobody else did, nobody else will
Nobody on earth will know the pain I feel

Guess I'll explain it again, Ken is my name but I'm not who he is
Detmer is all of the things that he hid, Garrett just wanna make peace and amend
Qayin don't really care who he is, he gone be cool with whoever he with
unknxwn. is an alias we only use it when tryna be confident but we be faking it

Don't call me crazy, I'm not, I make sense to myself and that's all that I got
Cause what's it all matter if what really matters to me is not what I say I believe?
So find out what matters to you & don't ever let it be moved
And don't ever let it get lost, cause you only get one and that's all

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

ken is my name but I'm not who he is.

Lyrics

I'm fucking up again, so God, forgive my sins
I'm losing all my friends, how did I come back to this?
I ran away till it caught up, fuck all these games tear the card's up
Don't know what this is but it's not love
My heart's put away and it's locked up
You can't save me, not like you'd give it a try though
I'm still breaking down but I sing on the high note
It's okay if you hate me, I know you used to have high hopes
Please don't chase me, if yes really meant no, I would be right
How far could I get if I really tried? Don't care about shit, if I do, then I lied
I found a genie stuck in a bottle, I wished for death, and I still havеn't died
Why can't I get out of my head? I think I'd bе better off dead
Lies making me say that again, life took me back to the bottom again

sins. (2019)

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

Oh no, where in the fuck do I go now?
Don't know, my heart is broken and cold now
I'm so over it, this shit is old now
You really think I would care if you like me? I don't even like myself now

Say what I feel, feel what I say
Wanted to die but I didn't wanna wait
Swear that I tried but I guess that it wasn't my fate
Shit I guess there's a lot more I can take

I guess I got some more pain to experience
Love is the cure and I'm sick of experiments
I ran away and it lead me back here again
But I bet that I won't give into that damn fear again

Holding on with broken arms
Lost, don't know how far I've gone
Every time I call you, you ignore it
Really thought that I was more important

But I guess I'm not and that's okay
Cause I know you'll be back one day
If you're wondering why I'm so certain
Cause she has to be or this shit wasn't worth it at all

Ask me if I care then, I don't, not at all
Every time I get a call
I look at the number to see if she callin' me back
If it's not then I'm turning it off

Turning it off, don't wanna talk
Headed to hell but I don't wanna stop
I wanna feel but I turned off my heart
I can't turn it back on, I don't know where to start

She told me, "Ken, I hate you"
I told that dumb bitch thank you
I do not know why she thought that would hurt me
Pain is all that I'm able to understand

I'm misunderstood
FR87, unstable
9 out of 10 won't understand that
But I swear that you real if able

love is the cure and i'm sick of experiments.

MEDITERRANEENNE

Just when you think you’ve got it figured out, it starts rearranging.
The left is right, and right is left, the middle disappears.
Up is down and down is up, and everything starts changing.
Tearing down what you built over the years.
You built it high, it fell down low, & then it fell completely off.
It didn’t stop, it didn’t go, it didn’t run, it wouldn’t quit.
It moves forward just a step or two, then sputters, stalls and coughs,
And then won’t move a bit!
Can’t understand the way things are, and I’ll never remember the past.
Never refuse to slow it all down, but I’ve gotten so used to the fast.
I’ll always confuse what the difference is, and how I can make it all last
But that’s okay, my love, it’s all a dream.
INSTRUMENTAL
I sometimes think I’ve got it figured out, but then I realize.
I never truly knew what it’s about, I made it up.
So, if I claim to know my way around, try not to be surprised.
I’ve run out of luck.
Can’t understand the way things are, and I’ll never remember the past.
Never refuse to slow it all down, but I’ve gotten so used to the fast.
I’ll always confuse what the difference is, and how I can make it all last
But that’s okay, my love, it’s all a dream.

It’s All a Dream

Produced by sketchmyname x vaegud

Lyrics

No matter where I go, I'm always caught in my own mind
Lately I been so low, I just wanna go and get high
She left my heart in the cold, I don't think I'll ever know why
All of my days just go by, no matter the hurt I won't cry

Can't let 'em see me down, that's all they want I know now
Can't get a bottle to drown, I'm really on my own now
I gotta find my way out, I don't got time for the fake now
I just want something real, I hope it's not too late now

Don't ever try to come back, you took my love for granted
Most of these hoe's I can't stand, nowadays I just pass it
Fuck tryna flex on the gram, you really care bout a caption
Burn everything down, turnin' yo life into ashes

Everything past tense, nothing I had ever lasted
All except me, I'm all that I need, I'm real to myself and that's it
Don't want her she plastic, fake love, that's the bad shit
Polluting my heart, my mind, my soul, don't waste my time, it's gettin' old

sins. (2019)

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