Lyrics

God I don't know where to go now
I been here too long, it's old now
Write these songs to get my hopes out
I know I sound negative but that's not what it really is

I just never learned a language
That was not within the anguish
Even in the times of happiness, whatever that is
It was only just distraction from whatever this is

I can feel it building up now
I don't know when it'll come out
But I know that when it does though
You don't wanna be within scope

I'll hurt everyone around me
When I can't please the one's around me
When I can't take them up the mountain
At least I know that I can show them where the ground is

anguish. | Produced by HELL$HOT

1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

Produced by flower x luffysome

This song expresses raw pain, rejection, and a deep longing for love and validation. It reflects a cycle of seeking fulfillment through a relationship, embracing pain as a necessity and using anger as a coping mechanism. From a faith-based perspective, it highlights the emptiness of trying to fill a void that only God can truly satisfy. It’s another piece of my story that could be reframed as a testimony to healing and transformation.

Misplaced Identity and Worth:

“I need the pain, I ain’t nothing without it.”

This line reflects a dependency on pain and rejection to define my identity, which ultimately leads to toxicity and despair. God calls us to find our worth in Him, not in our suffering or others’ approval.

“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession.” (1 Peter 2:9)

The Futility of Seeking Validation:

“Gave her my heart, she ain’t care nothing about it.”

This lyric echoes a common struggle: placing your heart in the hands of someone who cannot fulfill its needs. God offers the love and care that no human can perfectly provide.

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7)

Embracing Pain as Inspiration:

“Fuck inspiration / I just got hate inside of my body and this where I take it.”

While pain has driven my creative process, this lyric reveals the limitations of using anger and despair as a source of inspiration. God invites us to channel our experiences toward healing and purpose.

“Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.” (Romans 12:21)

Longing for Love and Connection:

“I just wanted to hold your hand.”

This simple yet profound statement speaks to a yearning for closeness and intimacy. The Bible reminds us that God is always present, offering a love that fulfills this deep need.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:18)

Lyrics

Some of my music might make you uncomfortable
If that's the case then it's not meant for you
I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
So girl you can hurt me if that work for you

Gave her my heart, she ain't care nothing about it
Like bitch, can't you see that I did this for you?
That girl got the key to my heart
The lengths I would go, she don't know how far

I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
Say she love me but I fucking doubt it
Nobody saved me, I was drowning
They don't hear what I'm saying, they just hear how I'm sounding

She don't care that I'm hurting, she left me deserted
I want her love but I guess I ain't worth it
I just spoke up, don't ask how I wrote it
I feel like a rodent

Everybody I see only wanna get rid of me
You don't understand what you just did to me
Girl, I wish that you knew what you meant to me
I'm so good to you but you so mean to me

What you mean to me, guess I don't mean to you
Girl, you're my drug and I fiend for you
Baby, call me when your lips are black
I would bleed for you

Some of my music might make you uncomfortable
If that's the case then it's not meant for you
I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
So girl you can hurt me if that work for you

Gave her my heart, she ain't care nothing about it
Like bitch, can't you see that I did this for you?
That girl got the key to my heart
The lengths I would go, she don't know how far

Know that I should but I can't let it go
Did so much but you don't even know
If she isn't there then I don't wanna go
Need the pain so I don't wanna cope

Fuck inspiration
I just got hate inside of my body and this where I take it
Broke my heart but bitch, I ain't breaking
This a song but bitch, I ain't faking

Bitch I ain't faking, I swear
I would prove it to you if I cared
But I don't so I guess that you won't
And it's cool cause I know that you don't

Understand all the shit that I'm sayin'
I just wanted to be your man
I just wanted to hold your hand
But you told me that I can't

i just wanted to hold your hand.

Produced by fowni x luffysome

This song is another deeply personal reflection, revealing themes of betrayal, regret, loneliness, and a longing for love. It carries an intense emotional weight and expresses the pain of broken relationships, self-inflicted wounds, and a desire for redemption. From a faith-based perspective, this song can serve as a powerful testimony of transformation, showing the contrast between living for oneself and finding hope and healing in God.

Trusting Others vs. Trusting God:

“Putting my trust into someone and thinking they’ll help me but really get stabbed in the back.”

This reflects the pain of misplaced trust in people who I allowed to let me down. The Bible reminds us to place our ultimate trust in God, who never fails.

“It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in humans.” (Psalm 118:8)

This doesn’t mean you shouldn’t trust others but rather that your foundation should be built on God, who provides security and hope even when others fail.

Self-Destruction and Redemption:

“Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love.”

This line acknowledges the fleeting comfort of substances and the deeper void they leave behind. True peace and love can only be found in a relationship with Christ.

“Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.” (Ephesians 5:18)

Regret and Ownership of the Past:

“I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn’t care, that’s a fact.”

This honest acknowledgment of past selfishness and wrongdoing is a critical step toward healing and growth. The Bible calls this repentance, and it’s the path to God’s forgiveness.

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)

Lyrics

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love
I was broke so I ran up some bands, why the fuck do I still feel alone?
And I'm sorry to all of my friends that I made wanna leave me alone
I just wish I could tell you thank you, helped me more than you ever could know

What I lost I won't ever get back, it's my fault so I'll leave it at that
I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn't care, that's a fact
I ain't care about nobody else, all I cared about then was myself
And I'm honestly still a bit selfish but I'm only like that for my health

I ain't finna go break my back for a bitch that won't ever care about that
I ain't finna go reach my hand out tryna save someone that wouldn't reach back
I ain't finna go waste my time opening up and getting attached
Putting my trust into someone and thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back

Bitch, don't text me, don't wanna chat
Bitch, don't test me, I'll fucking snap
Where my heart should be there is a gap
Cause I gave it to her and she didn't give it back

Okay, she did but that shit turned to ash
So what if she did? Man, that shit wouldn't last
Cause she's all that I need
So I can't let her leave

No, I can't let her go, wish you'd call but I know you won't
I just wish I could let you know when I say "I hate you" just know I don't
I don't even know who I am, am I detmer or garrett or ken?
But I know who I need and they'll never come back again

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

put my trust into someone thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back.

Lyrics

Broke my heart, ran away
Scream I hate you but my feelings don't match what I say
Make my art from my pain
It's a paradox, wanna let it go, but can't
Where she went I can't go, I know that I'm always gonna end up on my own
Tried love, fell apart, I think that there's something evil growing in my heart
Tried to stop it, I can't stop it, my heart's hardened, out of options
I know I should let you go, if your heart get involved don't let her know
Feel like 2019, give me back my soul
But it's 2024, I ain't a kid no more

i say i hate you but my feelings don't match what i say.

Lyrics

I say I hate you but I won't let you go
I say I hate you but you still in my phone
I say I hate you, I say I hate you..
I say I hate you but in my heart, I don't
I say I hate you but girl we both damn know that I still want you
Baby, why you hurt me? Baby, where you run too?
Baby, don't desert me
Baby girl, I need you
Why you do me like that?
Everything I gave to you but you won't give me...
You won't give me all that, you won't even call back
You're all that I care about, I'm about to air it out
I cry into silence but I swear you gone hear me out
I'm not even violent but you know how to bring it out
You know to get me to open up, touch my heart, and just go rip it out

*auditory agony*

Dear mе, love you
What did I turn into?
Don't recognize my rеflection
I hate what I've succumbed to

*auditory agony*

auditory agony.

Produced by kledyy

Lyrics

I opened up my chest, laid it bare for you
I pulled out my heart, something I never do
I scraped out the pain, every secret, every scar
I was hoping that you’d see me but you always stayed so far

I gave you the pieces, every single one with care
I was hoping that you’d hold them but you just left them there
I poured out my soul, let you see it all
But you never even caught me when I began to fall

I scraped it clean, down to the core
Gave you the love I’d never shown before
But you turned away, left me bleeding out
Now I’m hollow inside and I'm filled with doubt
I gave you my heart, every piece that I could
But you never would love me in the way that I thought that you would

You were the light I reached for in the dark
The warmth that I chased to mend my broken heart
I showed you all of the places I hide
The ghost of my past that I kept deep inside

Now there's nothing left but an empty space
Echoes of a love that time itself won't ever erase

i've scraped my heart clean to give you everything i possibly could.

Lyrics

I'm fucking up again, so God, forgive my sins
I'm losing all my friends, how did I come back to this?
I ran away till it caught up, fuck all these games tear the card's up
Don't know what this is but it's not love
My heart's put away and it's locked up
You can't save me, not like you'd give it a try though
I'm still breaking down but I sing on the high note
It's okay if you hate me, I know you used to have high hopes
Please don't chase me, if yes really meant no, I would be right
How far could I get if I really tried? Don't care about shit, if I do, then I lied
I found a genie stuck in a bottle, I wished for death, and I still havеn't died
Why can't I get out of my head? I think I'd bе better off dead
Lies making me say that again, life took me back to the bottom again

sins. (2019)

This is a 5 song EP about a girl.

1. What Could've Been One Day
2. Why Are You So Far
3. Almost Had A Dream
4. fork in the road
5. beyond lost without you

beyond lost without you (prod. Xzaviar)

Why can't I?

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling, that feeling is gone

I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help
I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help

No cure for me so theres no care for me
Call me your friend but you're not there for me
I'll never fit in, theres no "pair" for me
I'll never leave but they don't bear for me

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

sins. (2019)

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