prod. sapphirekill @sapphirekill
mixed by LXXIV @adam-vanscoyk

lyrics:

[citrate]
my life isn’t going well i’m always filled with panic
i just wanna live my life i cannot stand it
turned into a living hell i cannot fucking manage
i just wanna live my life i cannot stand it

i went to the hospital and i asked for something
anything to give my mind repair from damage
gave me meds to stop it all now i feel like nothing
i just wanna live my life i cannot stand it

i just take it till i’m numb
then i take it till i’m numb x17

bitch i’m trapped in my head
my dad came in i can’t map what he said
when will it stop i’m so wrapped up in dread
when i wake up i stay wrapped up in bed

i can’t focus
mind is broken
tried so many times i’m hopeless x2

feeling so dissociated
i don’t have a sense of self i really fucking hate it
all these years of constant worry don’t know how i made it
negative emotions coming in i can’t evade it

i need some help so i hit up my friends
they never answer so i sit and pretend
like everything’s okay fuck don’t think they’re my friends
fuck it imma go ahead and down my pills again

then i take it till i’m numb x18

numb [prod. sapphirekill]

prod. fendi444 (@fendi444)
mixed by LXXIV (@adam-vanscoyk)

lyrics:

[citrate]
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me

cuz i’m getting sick of always feeling like shit
yeah i am so fucking sick of always feeling like shit
cuz i’m getting sick of always feeling like shit
yeah i am so fucking sick of always feeling like shit

act like it’s a problem i have female friends why
all you do is talk to all my friends and it’s alright
for my own sake this has to end bye
if we take a break bet you'll fuck my friend no surprise

doesn’t make sense now does it
making me anxious suspense now what if’s
then you tell me that it’s fine so fuck it
did it then you started crying you’re dumb bitch
doesn’t make sense now does it
making me anxious suspense now what if’s
then you tell me that it’s fine so fuck it
did it then you started crying you’re dumb bitch

why are you changing my outlook on love
constantly talking bout guys that you fucked
leaving me hanging here i’ve had enough
losing my friends cuz they’re girls bitch it’s rough

you never go days without taking offense
i never do nothing it doesn’t make sense
you truly control me you cannot defend
you truly control me you shouldn’t pretend

and my friends aren’t real no they’re not
and my friends aren’t real no they’re not
and my friends aren’t real no they’re not
and my friends aren’t real no they’re not

why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me

cuz i’m getting sick of always feeling like shit
yeah i am so fucking sick of always feeling like shit
cuz i’m getting sick of always feeling like shit
yeah i am so fucking sick of always feeling like shit

control [prod. fendi444]

prod. fendi444 (@fendi444)
mixed by LXXIV (@adam-vancsoyk)

lyrics:
hate it when you say that you wanna stay
you should go away cuz i’m not okay
got a lot of pain that i don’t display
i just always say that i am okay x2

cuz i do not wanna deal with all your shit
you’re abusive as fuck and you’ll never admit
that you used me for attention so i guess it all makes sense
why you’re acting like a fucking whore in front of all my friends x2

wait
i can’t call them my friends
cuz they’re low tier faggots and they always defend 
you cuz you act like a victim you don’t make sense 

we both know what you did to me so i put an end
to it all
oh did i offend
see you fall
cutting all my friends
i recalled
had to make amends
you just stalled

hate it when you say that you wanna stay
you should go away cuz i’m not okay
got a lot of pain that i don’t display
i just always say that i am okay x2

cuz i do not wanna deal with all your shit
you’re abusive as fuck and you’ll never admit
that you used me for attention so i guess it all makes sense
why you’re acting like a fucking whore in front of all my friends x2

ok [prod. fendi444]

featuring LXXIV (@adam-vanscoyk)
prod. fendi444 (@fendi444)
mixed by LXXIV (@adam-vanscoyk)

lyrics:
[citrate]
i know that my life goes one way
downhill life is always leading me astray
i know that my life goes one way
downhill there’s nothing else i can say

i’m not scared i just have nobody i just need some help
i’m aware that you’re hella slutty put my mind through hell
please don’t stare you’re not fucking funny you should off yourself
i’m compared to your ex you’re scummy but you’re hot as hell

everybody hates me why don’t you
everybody hates me you should too
and i don’t know what to do yah

so i cut myself with all my fucking knives
i wanna trust myself but i just hate my life
i wanna love myself you know i’ve fucking tried
but all these sluts from hell are gonna take my life

fucking leave me alone why you wanna know
what the hell i’ve been up to with all these other fucking hoes 
you made me this way it wasn’t something that i chose
that i chose

lately i’ve been having thoughts of killing you and every single one of your stupid ass friends
hopefully i get my chance i’m willing to stab you until your pathetic life ends

i know that my life goes one way
downhill life is always leading me astray
i know that my life goes one way
downhill there’s nothing else i can say

i’m not scared i just have nobody i just need some help
i’m aware that you’re hella slutty put my mind through hell
please don’t stare you’re not fucking funny you should off yourself
i’m compared to your ex you’re scummy but you’re hot as hell

[LXXIV]
if god got me where i am then where does he go late at night
mind is racing devil on my back but he's no where in sight
befriend all the demons at my door ready to fight  fight
dead man walking off the pills, no i'm not living right

pain killers causing my pain, they keep controlling me
doc said i've gone insane, they grab ahold of me
put the poison into my veins, till i can never see
follow me into the dark, where i feel vacancy

vacant minds tend to think alike, lets go fantasize
you decide, if we’ll take our life, see the sunrise
I need help, imma turn the tide, at least I’ll try
yeah, I’ve been in my mind

I need help, I need help, I need help
I need someone that can save me from myself x2

[citrate]
i know that my life goes one way
downhill life is always leading me astray
i know that my life goes one way
downhill there’s nothing else i can say

i’m not scared i just have nobody i just need some help
i’m aware that you’re hella slutty put my mind through hell
please don’t stare you’re not fucking funny you should off yourself
i’m compared to your ex you’re scummy but you’re hot as hell

help [feat. LXXIV] (prod. fendi444)

verses in order:

@killkarbine
@kvrvist
@voidkys
@xyrnhangyourself
@fucksomniaa

prod. @killkarbine

SECURITY BREACH - KARBINE + KVRVIST + V O i D + XYRN + FUCKSOMNIA [KARBINE]

mixed by shisui (@shisuiwuzhere)

lyrics:
i don’t wanna live cuz you make me wanna die bitch
you don’t give a shit i just want some fuckin silence
fuck i think somebody saw me cuz i hear some sirens
did this hoe just call me mommy she think i’m a dyke bitch

eat that hoes intestines then i shit em out
do not ask me questions your bitch in my house
eat that hoes intestines then i shit em out
do not ask me questions my dick in your mouth

yeah i’m in your head whore
i know you’re pissed that my bitch gives me head more
why you insist on consisting those meds for
i see you’re sick of existing you dead whore

let’s not fucking talk about it cuz i know you hate me
pull up with a .357 and you know that bitch is not on safety
all these bitches want my clout and they just wanna rape me
fuck it i don’t wanna go to heaven i just wanna go to hell please satan take me

doctors cannot tell me what is wrong with me
feel like i just won the illness lottery
doctors cannot tell me what is wrong with me
feel like i just won the illness lottery

i don't wanna fucking live i just wanna fucking die pussy
you a fucking bitch you can get hit by my knife pussy
i don't wanna go bitch i would rather die pussy
you look fucking homeless do you wanna die pussy

i don't wanna live i just wanna go hang myself
these fucking thoughts inside my head are everything but well
i got a mac11 on my motherfucking shelf
and if you talking down i'll send you faggots down to hell

i don’t wanna live cuz you make me wanna die bitch
you don’t give a shit i just want some fuckin silence
fuck i think somebody saw me cuz i hear some sirens
did this hoe just call me mommy she think i’m a dyke bitch

eat that hoes intestines then i shit em out
do not ask me questions your bitch in my house
eat that hoes intestines then i shit em out
do not ask me questions my dick in your mouth

INTESTINES

CITADEL STABBING [PROD CADAVERIC]

Fuck Hoes

mixed by @purpoll

LYRICS:
Local pussies always talking shit they are not bout that
Say they toting weapons but I highly fucking doubt that
Lose our minds because of money how do we allow that
Blinded from the true facts of life we always cloud that

I don’t really ever have too many fucks to give
Break my trust again and I will not ever forgive
Sitting in my room I turn my chair leg to a shiv
Sorry but I do not think I really wanna live

Stay for me, I just need you to x4

Walking in the rain thinking what you’d do without me
I’ve been seeing lots of possible enemies in the alley
I was thinking I was spotted so I went inside of rally’s
Seen a couple dudes behind me bitch it might be my finale

Ima hurt you I don’t got a virtue
Why the fuck this system gotta make me have a curfew
Bitch I fucking heard you I’m who you refer to
If you do not like me then you better fucking learn to

cuz I hate myself I wanna rake the wealth
i don’t not like myself you fucking bitch
cuz I always ache like hell I do not take shit well
i do not like myself you fucking bitch

fed up to my core I might just kick the fucking bucket now
been through this before I might as well just go say fuck it now
talking like you are somebody acting like a puppet now
all this shit I’m dropping is so heavy so it plummet down

stay for me I just need you to
stay for me I just need you to
stay for me I just need you to 
stay for me

STAY [PROD. MUTRU]

prod. mutru & st. napster
mixed by lxxiv @adam-vanscoyk
art by me and ryuzu @ryuzusdeath

lyrics:
[citrate]
put a blade to my veins
i’m too fucking pussy wanna end all the pain
throwing shade playing games
all i want is pussy and she wants my remains

boutta make my ruger go pop although despite this
every single shooter i rock with gonna like this
boutta make my ruger go pop although despite this
every single shooter i rock with gonna like this aye

i’m attracted to thots
fucked up my life i’m distracted by thoughts
she said i’m fine it’s so sweet how she spots
giving me signs she might reach for my crotch

grab all the cash from the bag on my waist and then slash fucking gash leave a rash on my face and then pass me the gas i can trash it with lace
i just smash and then pass always passing on dates 

like fuck you i don’t want you
i don’t wanna fuck you cuz i want to
i just kinda fuck you cuz you want to
but why do i fuck you if i don’t want to

i don’t even know why i do these things i insist
doing all this sketchy shit you’re losing my interest
i’m so fucking tired of when i’m rudely dismissed
i’m so fucking done yeah all these bitches got me pissed aye

put a blade to my veins
i’m too fucking pussy wanna end all the pain
throwing shade playing games
all i want is pussy and she wants my remains

boutta make my ruger go pop although despite this
every single shooter i rock with gonna like this
boutta make my ruger go pop although despite this
every single shooter i rock with gonna like this aye

pain [prod. mutru & st. napster]

prod. ingram11 @ingram11mac
mixed by LXXIV @adam-vanscoyk

lyrics:
[citrate]
i just wanna know why all these people acting so fake
acting like they like me then they switch up cuz they so fake
switch up cuz of sluts that have no morals bro you’re so fake
i just wanna know why all these people acting so fake

beg to use my studio now you’re between my exes legs
why’d you choose a hoe that said she loves you in a couple days
using you for clarity cuz in her head i’ll always stay
i just wanna know why all these people acting so fake

slit my wrist 7 times for you
so i don’t have to feel the pain
try to face what you put me through
but it all always ends the same

i don’t want more friends all they do is lie
keep my circle closed you’ll get no reply
everyone can see it although you’ll deny
you’re a slut you’ll never change my fucking mind

i just ride around and i smoke in the alley
i cry up in the mound sitting close to the valley
inside it makes me drown bro there’s so much to tally
it’s fine i’m leaving town though i’ll roam out in cali

bitch i’m boutta leave all these fuckers up in the past
always getting played with bitch i’m never turning back
didn’t wanna hear about the dudes up in your past
now you out here fucking one who stabbed me in the back

bitch you’re bout as stupid as your friends you bitches crazy
so much bullshit that it’s all hazy
didn’t wanna do it but you made me
cannot count the times you have betrayed me

i just wanna know why all these people acting so fake
acting like they like me then they switch up cuz they so fake
switch up cuz of sluts that have no morals bro you’re so fake
i just wanna know why all these people acting so fake

beg to use my studio now you’re between my exes legs
why’d you choose a hoe that said she loves you in a couple days
using you for clarity cuz in her head i’ll always stay
i just wanna know why all these people acting so fake

STAY [PROD. MUTRU]

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