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Glass Heart

getaway 

getaway (PROD. s e s h)

guitar by @pekarot_161
this is for the OG listeners, I love you all from the bottom of my heart. 

lyrics:

i don’t know where i came from
only where i’ve been 
i could scratch out my eyes
when i’m feeling like this 
i can’t breathe since you left
i got cuts on my fist 
and they hurt (they hurt)
they hurt (they hurt) 

and i know that i’m sad but still smile when we kiss
i got scars on my arm from those nights i gave in 
and then you said forever but now you’re with him
and it burns (it burns)
it burns (it burns) 

but those scars on my arm 
they tell you a story
since 14 years old
they’ve been coming for me
i’m not what you want
so just throw me aside
and i’m old enough now
so i’ll wipe my eyes

and i’m praying to god
that i’ll just get better
i’ll hide in my car 
and sleep on the leather
i love you to death 
from now to december
this ones for the grayfox fans 
love you forever 

and now i’ve learned 
i’ll never be first 
but at least i’ve turned
my life around,
look at me now 
x2

look at me now
look at me now
look at me now
not 100% but i’m still here 
so look at me now 
x4

lookatmenow (pekarot)

i'm so sorry for what i've done
i'm so sorry for my choices
i'm so sorry for my head 
i'm so sorry i chose the end 
it's the voices  
oh they keep on speaking im tired
and i sit in my room in the silence 

what the fuck should i do
when i don't know what to do 
who should i hurt me or u 
how was i such a fool
kept on thinking i was fine 
even tho you made me smile 
there's was something wrong all the time
i don't blame you
so don't blame me either 
i can't love you
but i can't hate you either

love isn't enough (pekarot)

prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

produced by hero

completely non profit

lyrics

when her life is done n the credits roll on this movie screen
I was only ever credited as victim number 3
when the lights turn on n they all rush to take their leave
but I'm still here laying dead in this cinema seat
in truth I've been dead since 17
none of my feelings r free
they're kept under lock n key
no one needs to know about the pain I hold
heaven knows I've tried but I can't let this go

the lump I feel inside my chest when I'm all alone
tell me why u still the only thing that feels like fucking home
my eyes grow heavy as my heartbeat slows
I was promised death but still my soul refuse to go
oh no
just count it
take my brain n slut it out
take my drink n pour it out
take my dart n snuff it out
make me someone u won't doubt
that shit don't work I'm fucking out
what are plans they just fall out
n what r friends? just tell me now

what is love I think I've figured out
it's just a tool that she gon use for clout
she's an angel with a filthy mouth
and I'm a sinner with a Gucci pouch 
inside my pocket gotta quarter ounce
I got a smoke screen blowing out my house
so fuck me up and leave me to the hounds
I'm just a sinner with a Gucci pouch

I coughed up both lungs up on out of my chest
I've been here before so I'm not scared of my death
fell for the devil's whore n I can taste his breath
so what u try me for, when I've got nothing left?
but I have read these books
and I have read these texts
I've seen it all before
I know what happens next
I watch her lock that door
her lips run down his neck
u could've waited more
I guess that I digress 

n what is love I think I figured out
it's just a tool that she gon use for clout
she's an angel with a filthy mouth
n I'm a sinner with a Gucci pouch
inside my pocket got a quarter ounce 
I got a smoke screen blowing out my house
so fuck me up and leave me to the hounds
I'm just a sinner with a Gucci pouch


digress, i guess (hero)

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guitar by @kill_vein

i’m just trying to find
a reason to care
i once believed in a god till i cried out to him
and nobody was there

a burden on my brain
that isnt going away
and now i’m looking for reasons
that i shouldn’t need this
but i can’t turn away

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t relapse
but now i’m standing
on my deathbed
and i don’t want to stay
when i've always been this way

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t go back
but now it’s been 3 nights
at the hotel we met at
and you’re not here with me
but the memory remains

and as i took my last line
i was approaching the light
you laid your head next to mine
what a beautiful sight

i made up my mind
i’m friending i’m fried
i don’t need these drugs
i just need your love

ive got no reason to hide
tell momma i’m fine
it’ll be ok down the line
but i’m tired of trying

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t relapse
but now i’m standing
on my deathbed
and i don’t want to stay
when i've always been this way

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t go back
but now it’s been 3 nights
at the hotel we met at
and you’re not here with me
but the  memory remains

letterfromadeathbed (prod. heffy & killvein)

guitar by @imcaves
rest is me
something told me i should put this out now, so here you go
hope you enjoy .
retention 8/26

totally unprepared
faces shapeshifting around me
i tell myself, don't be scared
only what i think can hurt me
but every night's harder than the last
(the last)
(the last)
(the last)
i let my spirit shatter just like glass
(like glass)
(like glass)
i stood up again last night
i couldn't close my eyes
no matter how much i cried
i tried
i tried...
night.

spirit trash

residential. - youth (demo version)

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

spring. (+ pekarot)

Acoustic cover of the song The Story So Far - Navy Blue

navy blue acoustic cover

The Story So Far - Navy Blue *acoustic cover*

morgue dress

residential. - morgue dress (santana)

sewerperson - brrp brrp (scottysplash)

castle (w/ altwys.)

I love and appreciate all of you out there whoever and wherever you are. It took me awhile to except life for what it is! U don’t gotta be foolish like I was u can escape this bull shit system.Recorded 3/2/24 Indianapolis Indiana somewhere up ina burbs. live in the NOW

spirit trash

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