tell me w/ bunny & ivvys [prod. awwboy]

a song ab my struggle and journey w/ identity and dysphoria :)

ty to @nclkyr for being on this with me <3

production: soma @prodsoma
mixing & mastering: orchid @0rch_id & me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

[verse]
ripped all my clothes from my closet
couldn’t bear it
tried breaking every mirror in my home
couldn’t do it
never felt quite right in this body of mine
it’s like i’m living a lie and i feel locked inside
been tryna find the answers to this all my life
but still i hide…

[pre-chorus]
i could dress like this
and i could talk like that
but it would never amount
this feeling just won’t quit
no matter what i do
it lingers back to me
can’t run away…

[chorus]
cuz every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be anymore
x2

[verse: kyra]
im scared to know whats right and wrong 
cuz everything just takes too long 
the way that everyone looks good
and im just stuck here, im thinking 
wish i could do it again and again 
i feel so amazing when im in a dress 
little do they know…
i just dont know who i am anymore

[chorus]
every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be…

[post-chorus]
i could be just like them
or anything that i want
in between or nothing at all
it doesn’t matter to me
cuz in the end, i may not know
what i really want, idk
but i finally know who i am

[outro] (avit + kyra)
who i am 12x
yeah i finally know who i am…

just like them feat. Kyra (Prod. Soma)

one step back w/ kuudere

don't mind the weather 
makes me feel better
don't care if I shiver 
mouth is all bitterly sweet
from all of the tea

smoking on pressure
you are a treasure
ill do whatever 
you want me to do 
ill do it for you

don't mind the weather 
makes me feel better
don't care if I shiver 
mouth is all bitterly sweet
from all of the tea

hunker down 
fall asleep
go ahead and breathe

fall asleep
go ahead and breathe

tea [Prod. idealism]

got botted, rly appreciate the listen, will help fix the algo lmao

comeback szn
+goats @ri4h and @boyromusic

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6H7fbCwleCPnvMHrVGhvdE?si=oSASDw-FQJaqyZLe7XyJCw&utm_source=copy-link

ig: instagram.com/redhxrse

fav drums i made

words:

sampled grigori from dragons dogma, all-time fav game:
"the rantings of an upjumped zealot make for tedious listening; his ilk serves no role in what is to come..."

verse
stare into each others eyes
cant find no surprises 
always sad when it's summertime
u left me in the water
i can feel my body drowning
u say its all my fault
ur a flicking light switch 
change sides all the time so

crazy chorus
i see all ur pieces
now ur tryna break me too
u took all of my feelings
now ur asking me to free u
making no damn sense
shit is so far gone
changing all my numbers
dont u call my phone 
yeah broken into pieces
now i gotta save me too

riah killed dis verse:
i cant focus on u
new scar like a new tattoo
i swear love is so overdue
since i met u
dont wanna do this shit again
i cant pretend
so why did u gimme ur heart
i never knew u would love this hard
but the feelings are so far gone
why couldnt u be the

one

another red verse
yuh
take all the chances i can get
uve been bruising me and fooling me 
no longer feel ur pain
now im seeing u so differently
how did i see right through 
drowning in ur mind games 
telling me ill see u soon
never gonna be your fool
ur love was never true
just another tool to be used now

crazy chorus returns
i see all ur pieces
now ur tryna break me too
u took all of my feelings
now ur asking me to free u
making no damn sense 
shit is so far gone
changing all my numbers 
dont u call my phone 
yeah broken into pieces
now i gotta save me too

insane outro from boyro:
babe wont u tell me that u need me
im in florida sellin demons
six speed im goin easy
i been searchin for no reasons
wasnt enough 
u still in luv
dont call my bluff
dont hit me up
im swimmin in ur curse when u look my way
doubtin every word when u say my name

pieces

stream da mf song

pieces, +ri4h, boyro

s/o to biteki for this cool amv/lyric vid: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ATj8gL--S_Y

i dont rlly wanna talk like that in my head
girl u rlly got me so down bad what the heck 
i dont even wanna fuck i jus want u in my bed
when she left i could feel myself get upset

its the same ol situation
time is sprintin i cant escape it
we just avoid the topic
feels like were looping conversations
i jus cant be another npc
i dont think the norm is right for me
its getting hard for me to breathe
anxiety got the best of me

i think i was in psychosis
u stare at me feels like slow motion
i keep losin fuckin focus
forgot i could feel emotion
got off the sauce now im fiendin
i need someone to believe in me
ignore my cheesy sappiness
i hold myself from happiness

@luvkurtis
dont hide come take it all from me
intentions clear too see
know you wont give it back
so hold it tighter its yours too have now

come tear me down 
i wish that i was found 
by someone else, compassionate
its all i needed

you made my heart stop
heart complications
know that you caused
you caused a break in

my minds spinnin from the come down
psychosis settin in im numb
so you can tear me down too what you wanna take from me
its ruined now 
i cant believe that
its all gone

psychosis w/ kurtis (yungspoiler & scrobaby)

@victxrw
@haveonlyonechance
@northeastlights

end of me ft. victxrw (tenoji and northeast lights)

You resemble the stars

Its too late to stay off
Take all, the weight off
Baby its too late to break off
Through all the shit you face for pay stubs
And you dont know what to say
Cus you dont know how to feel dont know how to love
And you don’t know if it’s real right in front of ya
All the shit im sayin’ gon fuck it up
I been thinkin bout you late, till the sun is up
But i want you for all ages, one call later, i could take it all back
Cus gunshots couldn’t phase us, its okay cus i could say we dont care
Its so hard, with you resemblin the stars
Im just defending my part
Thats the start, no head in my arms
Baby dont tread from my warmth

Its so hard, with you resemblin the stars
Im just defending my part
Thats the start, no head in my arms
Baby dont tread from my warmth
Head over heels for you lately
Obsessed with you but you’re crazy
Im fast as you, you said it
All signs point to you changin’
Upset with you, but you’re waiting
Wont fess with you, cus you hate it
Wont better you, let the roof cave in
We could talk but

Its too late to stay off
Take all, the weight off
Baby its too late to break off
Through all the shit you face for pay stubs
And you dont know what to say
Cus you dont know how to feel dont know how to love
And you don’t know if it’s real right in front of ya
All the shit im sayin’ gon fuck it up
I been thinkin bout you late, till the sun is up
But i want you for all ages, one call later, i could take it all back
Cus gunshots couldn’t phase us, its okay cus i could say we dont care
Its so hard, with you resemblin the stars
Im just defending my part
Thats the start, no head in my arms
Baby dont tread from my warmth

why do i still try w/ cld (violet)

been awhile...


Im sorry that it's been awhile 
right next to the phone couldn’t hit the dial 
fucked up all alone in this domicile
this ain't even even my home this ain't in my file x2

feel like John Chalker with this dirty cup
can't tell when i've had enough
these drugs got me clamming up
door is slamming shut

stuck up in this rut
don't mean to interrupt 
but imma bout to deconstruct

Dial [Prod. neverforever]

performed by: Victxrw, Ozee
written by: Victxrw, Ozee

Lyrics:

[hook: Victxrw]

in the house where the streetlights broke
i start to fall apart when the leaves grow old
so i cant, i cant i cant
the frostbite burning on my hands
in the house where u saved my soul
you had a warm heart but your hands were cold
so i cant, i cant i cant
i dont think you understand

and i cant lie
tell me does it really feel alright?
when you scream and shout at me all night?
i get it i get it alright, i get it
i tried my best to forget it all
it never seems to work
im always ending up in the dirt
i always try to help but im always getting hurt

(in the house where the streetlights broke
i start to fall apart when the leaves grow old
so i cant, i cant i cant
the frostbite burning on my hands)

[verse: Ozee]

my anxiety kicks in
on the road as i drove past your old house
so i'll stay in my home i wont go out
say you know but i dont think you know now
keep it to myself cause im never getting better
while the leaves are dying out in this endless summer weather
cant take back what you said it'll stay with me forever
so many flowers on my bed when i crack under the pressure

in the house where the streetlights broke
i'll stay out of your way but i hope you know
the air is getting cold now
too late for me to hold out
i broke down in my car as i drove by your old house

[hook: Victxrw]

in the house where the streetlights broke
i start to fall apart when the leaves grow old
so i cant, i cant i cant
the frostbite burning on my hands
in the house where u saved my soul
you had a warm heart but your hands were cold
so i cant, i cant i cant
i dont think you understand

and i cant lie
tell me does it really feel alright?
when you scream and shout at me all night?
i get it i get it alright, i get it
i tried my best to forget it all
it never seems to work
im always ending up in the dirt
i always try to help but im always getting hurt

(x2)

Victxrw + Ozee - October

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