walk walk walk walk w/ ovrwrld (prod. River)

sober again

sober again (prod. johnnyfriend)

a song ab my struggle and journey w/ identity and dysphoria :)

ty to @nclkyr for being on this with me <3

production: soma @prodsoma
mixing & mastering: orchid @0rch_id & me

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[verse]
ripped all my clothes from my closet
couldn’t bear it
tried breaking every mirror in my home
couldn’t do it
never felt quite right in this body of mine
it’s like i’m living a lie and i feel locked inside
been tryna find the answers to this all my life
but still i hide…

[pre-chorus]
i could dress like this
and i could talk like that
but it would never amount
this feeling just won’t quit
no matter what i do
it lingers back to me
can’t run away…

[chorus]
cuz every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be anymore
x2

[verse: kyra]
im scared to know whats right and wrong 
cuz everything just takes too long 
the way that everyone looks good
and im just stuck here, im thinking 
wish i could do it again and again 
i feel so amazing when im in a dress 
little do they know…
i just dont know who i am anymore

[chorus]
every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be…

[post-chorus]
i could be just like them
or anything that i want
in between or nothing at all
it doesn’t matter to me
cuz in the end, i may not know
what i really want, idk
but i finally know who i am

[outro] (avit + kyra)
who i am 12x
yeah i finally know who i am…

just like them feat. Kyra (Prod. Soma)

uk garage my drilla

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idk what all this lyrical personal shit means go ask an english teacher or something-

verse 1
i just wanna have a talk
about how selfish i am
about how little of a man i’ve become
and you say there’s no rules
tell that to my mum and dad
cos their answers won’t be just for fun

prechorus
why can't i care about the big things in life
the words just drift all over my mind
a bubble i can't burst
could this ever get any worse
i tell them i’m fine

chorus
i put my headphones in
drown out all the bad shit
the fear of rejections getting ever so big
when the culture runs deep
claustrophobia kicks in
and i’m left tryna break this fucking ceiling

postchorus
i wanna tell them i care
but this pain i can’t bear
already tearing up as i write this song
i guess i’ll just man up for once
i’ve had more than enough for too long

verse 2
now i see myself decaying
why am i relishing in it though
i guess routines have their way around me
i feel these emotions fading
cut ties with everyone i know
can’t keep a convo cos noone feels real

verse 3
((rappity raprap))
eyes on my back i keep watching
they all wanna see me lose but i keep winning
do this shit solo don’t need nobody’s help
if u ain’t fuck w me i can only wish u well
say i ain’t normal when they wish they were weirdos
why i needa follow rules i ain’t got nothing to fear for
maybe this ego’s why i’m here tho

prechorus
why can't i care about the big things in life
the words just drift all over my mind
a bubble i can't burst
could this ever get any worse
i tell them i’m fine

chorus
i put my headphones in
drown out all the bad shit
the fear of rejections getting ever so big
when the culture runs deep
claustrophobia kicks in
and i’m left tryna break this fucking ceiling

postchorus
i wanna tell them i care
but this pain i can’t bear
already tearing up as i write this song
i guess i’ll just man up for once
i’ve had more than enough for too long

outro

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lyrics:
tell me what you waiting for
only time can tell
so you don't have to say no more
baby watch your step
do not want to fall again
down to the floor
the stars turned dull
but I just can't let them go away
I know why
and im sorry I just couldn't
end it off this way
you don't know me
not the old me anymore
you don't know me
you don't know me at all
I know why
and now you're waiting for the day
you can tell me im wrong
I KNOW WHY

criticized by the internet
and ill take it
cause their numbers are worth
way more than they should be
and honestly
I cannot breathe right now
tell me what the fuck you want me to be
why you coming at my throat
like you wanting me dead, why now
I'll burn out
I'll come back just to take you down
fess up
told me that you knew what you were doing
but im head up
wish I fucking knew what I was doing
but I've held up
out of damn luck
with this re: love
came back in my life
but I didn't know this was set up

know us
just don't let me grow up
I'll watch the leaves as they fall
know you'll just oppose
hold up

promise you'll forget who you were before

Produced by Me, Soma & Nicopatty @prodsoma @nicopatty
Mixed & Mastered by me

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Lyrics:

been feeling that lately
that we haven’t talked like
we did before 
we did before 
the writings on the wall
and i cant bear to watch
it all fall apart
it all fall apart
i know its hard for you
just to have faith
to have faith 
but all i want is ur trust in me
ur trust in me

put your trust in me
believe in me 
put your trust in me
believe in me
put your trust in me
believe in me
put your trust in me
believe in me 

i know its hard to see
what lies ahead for you and me
but i’ll stay by ur side
i won't give up
no matter what
i’m here today and always 
to be there just to hold your hand
but your heart is closed
i can’t help you
you’re lost and alone
i can feel you
i know you’ve been hurt too many times
but i promised u…
so put your trust in me

Trust in Me (Prod. AViT, Soma & Nicopatty)

prod credits.
me
cole calico
sxth sns
dramatrial
billsburyjoeboi

LYRICS: 
i spent 2 years tryna reconcile
as if its possible to do so i went through the trials
im fresh off bullet wounds and scars love ones left on my body
communicating aint my strong suit i guess that im sorry

man fuck that shit i sent so many damn apologies to you
green bubbles hit harder when i saw'em come through
convinced myself you had an android all along call me insane
but it was easier than dealing with the truth

i aint gon lie like i dont miss you for a single second
but you aint think before the knots to type a single message
hypocrisy i know im spitting yes i need a lesson
but since your gone man who my teacher hope you see me stressing
thinking about you every second yea thats what you wanted 
i shouldve felt the narcissism from the first few punches
do not talk family with me i fucking hate the subject 
what if i killed myself to figure out if i meant something 
you'd of told me i meant nothing 

i used to say you were the best mother 
and to this day i still try not to think much less of you
but its not easy with you not here telling me to run away 
from what im heading towards
i used to think i was the one that burnt the bridge of course
but its in my head now super clear how you were wielding torches
how you built me up and knocked me down made me feel less important
how you tied that noose around your neck before giving me notice 

now it would only take 2 seconds just to hit me up 
i'd probably respond too late but you dont give a fuck 
sometimes i wish i was the one that found you hanging up
i keep calling and hanging up

i wish i had another chance to say i love you 
cuz at this point inside my head im like fuck you
thought i could trust you 
never been more wrong in my life i wish it wasn't true

but i still breakdown wishing that it wasnt you
in my head i been so alone my thoughts are skewed 
can't deny i been in this pain for at least 2 
long years i don't think they're ending soon 
might as well put the gun to my head
and pull the trigger i might get to see you
my dad keep telling me im wrong
he probably right but i don't know if i wanna be here long
yea i wish you could hear this i know it would be your favorite song 
or maybe thats just my ego speaking you know where i get it from
ask me what i do it for?

yea it used to be you but now i don't really know anymore
i could tell you the truth but i know your not there to hear it no more
and if you were here you wouldn't wanna hear it it would bring you
to the floor, i dont really care no more 
you was finna leave me anyway 
through me off the cliff as a featherweight
don't act like it aint take nothing
i dont went through it in a heavy way
feeling naked running through the heavy rain
what the fuck was going on with my brain
they wonder why i made headaches shit
i was really truly going insane

i spent 2 years tryna reconcile
as if its possible to do so i went through the trials
im fresh off bullet wounds and scars love ones left on my body
communicating aint my strong suit i guess that im sorry

man fuck that shit i sent so many damn apologies to you
green bubbles hit harder when i saw'em come through
convinced myself you had an android all along call me insane
but it was easier than dealing with the truth

it really pissed me off when you killed yourself

GROOVE w/ dpf (simon m)

drummer w/ keeta (chrxme , goo)

tomo. - 俺らしく (Sound)

Lyrics

すれ違ってく
流れ星のよう
何処にも、お落ち着かずに
何度でも屈してく形
もっと強くなりたい
辛ければ辛いほどいい
もっと強くなりたい

止まらずに動く心臓
後ほんの少しの事
俺らしく生きてたい
空見上げて、する背伸び

止まらずに動く心
後ほんの少しの事
俺らしく生きてたい
何者にも、なりたく無い

強く
なりたい
ありたい
もっと、もっと、もっと

止まらずに動く心臓
後ほんの少しの事
俺らしく生きてたい
空見上げて、する背伸び

止まらずに動く心
後ほんの少しの事
俺らしく生きてたい
何者にも、なりたく無い

orerasiku

tomo. - 俺らしく (Be myself)

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lyrics:
i dont think i can get over this..
shes holding me down while theres guns to my head..
i jus wish she loved me like she loved him..

but truly we never get what we want
every time we talk its always breaking my heart
i know you say you love him but i treat you better
i wont tell you what to do
but i think thats the wrong move
i think that i lost it
my minds a moshpit
i think that im sick in the head
n i cant get past this
i got over stimulated aimin for the bathroom
i got lost along the way now im stuck in the backrooms
you say that ur just friends w him but ion know what that includes
im havin a panic attack
n ion know what to do
just point me in the right direction
we fell off like a disconnection
i guess that i dont get to say anything its case closed

i hope that ur happier
i hope that u start smilin
x3

ion understand why you always win the arguments
i have things to say and ion think u comprehend them
why is it jus such an issue jus to let me talk
ill jus shut up
ill just stop
please dont tell me that your coming back for me
i think that i told you that he didnt really love you
you want me back but i dont think i trust you
im sorry baby i think that were threw..

but truly we never get what we want
every time we talk its always breaking my heart
i know you say you love him but i treat you better
i wont tell you what to do
but i think thats the wrong move
i think that i lost it
my minds a moshpit
i think that im sick in the head
n i cant get past this
i got over stimulated aimin for the bathroom
i got lost along the way now im stuck in the backrooms
x2

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backrooms (ria)

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