by https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
please don't leave
i hold so much grief
and i loved your voice
ur not here so there's no point
ur a liar, it's in your name
i had no idea your two-faced
gonna die here for ur sake
ur actions tell me u were brave
and i thought that i knew u
i guess i don't
u can say if i'm annoying too
cause i know
got a lot i need to figure out
i'm trying so
i believe there ain't no stopping now
i'm on the ropes
the corners made of cobwebs
the widows home
sometimes she comes to visit me
through the holes
and she say "what're you doing here, you look alone"
and i say that i'm developing and in the zone
accept no apologies ur just too late
split my heart in half now it goes two ways
exhausted, i need to say goodbye
i love it when there's peace and when it's quiet

suffocate in feelings
it's 100% my decision
whether if i should just let it go
but the sadness keeps filling
(it never ends)
made no progress
i got so much time to stall with
but i don't know how to manage it
produce on my own and abolish
ur attitude is contagious
i rub it off but u kept staying
and i let u walk all over me
i should've stood my ground
i ain't no man i am weak

i mean nothing to u now
cus i feel it through the text
oh how u love to talk about yourself
well no one likes a narcissist
these lines i split
slowly vanish from my wrist
and i tried to hide what i did
now the planks are rotting on our bridge
but how can i get u to change your mind
well babe i'm never ever fine
only for a sec, depression prys
swear the gap is crushing on my life
ur a liar, it's in your name
i had no idea ur two-faced
gonna die here for your sake
ur actions tell me u were brave
please don't leave
i hold so much grief
and i loved your voice
ur not here so there's no point

veins

the widows home

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heylog - the widows home

GOOD FOR ME : GOOD FOR YOU

[Hook]

you’ra so are good for me
i am so good for you
the way you look at me
i’m in peace
cuz you’re loving me


[Part]

it feels so good
to be with you
the way you love
it feels so good


[Hook]

you’ra so are good for me
i am so good for you
the way you look at me
i’m in peace
cuz you’re loving me

GOOD FOR ME : GOOD FOR YOU (prod. eric86x)

it'll be okay

the temperamental feeling will pass
and then i’ll go home
i don’t take meds for any pain
i feel it in slow mo
baby don’t you dare say my name
cause i don’t know you
play cautious but i still lose the game

so i tripped
i fell
blood's on the stairwell
i stand where we kissed
and say my farewells
again
it always ends the same

what do you even want from me?
can’t you see I can’t fucking breathe?
there’s a beautiful thing about pain and suffering
it all depends on what you believe

crumbling in my skin
always lose never win
drink from the bottle until i spin and spin and fucking spin
out of control
i can feel it all in my bones
i ain’t never coming home
so just leave me the fuck alone

it always ends the same

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it always ends the same w/ revengeinkyoto [tnvr]

LEDs blind me
yeah, stigmatism covers up what I wanna see
when I’m looking at your pretty face, yeah you got me
wrapped around you little fingers yeah, my soul was free for the taking
 
it’s like what did you mean I didn’t get it
stuck in the past with my obsession
got a collection of memories 
burn them on the wall for all to see
 
it’s like what is that smell my flesh is burning
stuck in the tide I see you turning
fragments of wood sticking out your flesh
the void is leaking from my chest
 
my friends now covered in the dragon’s rot
they didn’t seem to mind that I was stuck
with the crows above calling out my name
didn’t seem to matter how much I changed
 
loved ones passed out in the burning house
smoked bellowed in my lungs and I’m left in doubt
like was I the one to start this flame
didn’t mean to burn out now nothing remained
 
now the clouds above are looking at me
filling their guts with my pity
crying out loud, I’m smothered in shame
resurrection the love I called pain
 
now the fragile bodies pile up like logs
turn my back on my problems cus I know its a lot
this reality is nothing that I could dream
guess misery has finally found his peace

I guess the person that just I really miss is me
yeah, what have I become
misery just finds a way to seep into me
I guess it’s time to say that I’m done
 
every day is suffering so please won’t you leave
you only care to know that you’ve won
sink into the past to find that memories haunt me
this wasn’t something that could be love

sick of me, sick of us
yeah, every time I try to
explain it I seem to rot
yeah, fake friends corrupt
 
yeah can’t get grip on myself fingers are shaking losing patience
of me and the place I call home from the start I was just alone
lather myself in drugs to feel nothing cus it better then feeling something
cus I don’t want to feel this anger again from a childhood where I didn’t understand
 
the consequences of being different pushed aside there was no interest.
of understanding who I could be and who I became
until I met you I thought you were everything that I deserve
you brought hell to my mental state I didn’t think it could get worse
 
down here now in the abyss I see friends are suffering  all the same
burning out our mental trauma from the bones of family ones that lay 
when the osulouths come down and change the forms that we try to portray
distorted figures is what became, no face could recognize the pain.
 
how do we survive when we don’t understand the person in front of us
disgusted by reflections of everyone that just seem to pass.
now time doesn’t wait for now one, so we ignore the issues and drown it out
so, we live in constant agony fill us to the brim aching doubt

I miss me

lil bit of a harder one, hope u enjoy :)

prod: softscars
mastered: tnvr

LYRICS: 

Are we all the same?
Are we all insane?
Watch me fall and feel no pain
Hear you call, don’t hear my name

Don’t hear you calling out to me
Don’t hear your voice, don’t hear you scream
What’s the point in anything?
What’s the point in anything?
I don’t see the point of talking to you right now
I don’t see a point of even hearing you out
You could make a change but we ain’t on the same page
You could change your face but baby, I don’t care what you say
Can’t stop this game
Can’t end my rage
Can’t break these chains
Can’t shake the shame
You could pull me apart and pick at my brain
Just to find out that we are all insane

Are we all the same?
Are we all insane?
Watch me fall and feel no pain
Hear you call, don’t hear my name

we are all insane

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Cover Art by Scar$:
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Lyrics
==========================
I was once at one
Living in the shadow of what I crave
I counted days in dust
Now I count them in blood slipping away

What's the point confessing
With my words at a surgical knife
And how good is impressing the oppressor
When I still fear for my life
Well I'll paint my words in a pretty picture
These colours blur and drain
Brushes broken can't paint over 
You can still see the stains
Tears in reflex I try to erase
Perfection for you I crave

Stitch my mouth shut
And drown me alive
(And drown me alive)
I spent too long
(I spent too long)
Behind these eyes

Another puppet you can masquerade
Take my hands and we can celebrate
Write my will you can write my fate
Say to them that we've been doing great
Loving teeth sinking at the nape
Bite down tight when I get in your way
A good day is filled with hate
A bad day is too painful to sleep

And I toss and I turn for what feels like weeks
I shouldn't have said anything
No escaping when you haunt my dreams
These nightmares seeping into everything
In one I see a severing
Cutting chunks from flesh and bone
The parasite is losing tethering
But it's all that I've known

And it won't let go that easy
No matter how I let you down
I'm not the one needing
You keep coming around, around and around

Stitch your mouth shut
And drown you alive
(And drown you alive)
(And drown you alive)
You spent too long
(You spent too long)
(You spent too long)
Behind these eyes

Behind These Eyes [Prod. Reborne]

Same damn cycle, I'm helpless or either in denial
Keep lying to myself, diminishing my health
With every pill and bottle

I'm tired of losing, oh I'm in delusion
It's all an illusion, but I need to pay the bills
I'm standing still, can't find my will
To carry on, and staying strong damn

I cannot see straight, I'm stuck in this rat race
I see through the lies, through the blank old eyes
Oh everyone I know, vile
I'm tired of the fake smile

Don't you dare let me down, can't you see this crown
And this heart of gold, they want my soul
Well come and take it, I'm afraid it ain't there
I sold it way back then, we all know price weren't fair

I'll never love again
Dial, a knife into my skin
Lie, and tell myself it all will end
All will end, one day

I'm tired darling, can't you see
When did we become enemies 
Why did you have to leave me here
To face my fears alone

When I see you again, I'll be digging a grave
For you and me, cause I don't wanna see you happy
With someone else, burn the world down
Watch it crumble, baby oh to the ground

So tell me when will it all end
I'm tired of losing all my friends
I can't wait for the day when we're both dead
When we're both dead, my dear

I'll never love again
Dial, a knife into my skin
Lie, and tell myself it all will end
All will end, one day

I'm tired darling, can't you see
When did we become enemies 
Why did you have to leave me here
To face my fears alone

I'll never love again
Dial, a knife into my skin
Lie, and tell myself it all will end
All will end, one day

I'll never love again
Dial, a knife into my skin
Lie, and tell myself it all will end
All will end, one day

VILE? (prod. myss)

I'm sorry for the things I said,
I got these thoughts in my head.
You know I didn’t mean it,
And I can't get these thoughts out clear.

Huh, promise that you'll still be my dear?
Yeah, know you got a new man—could you promise that you'll still be my dear?
Take a flight out to Japan, yeah, promise that you'll still be my dear.

And that you'll be here when I need you there.
I'll buy you that new Prada bag, I'll buy you brand new hair.
I'm on a flight, I'm outta here—I'm in the stratosphere.
I've seen his fits; he ain't got no swag, so please do not compare.

This shit does not compare to the shit that I have seen.
I'll take you places that, I swear to God, they ain't ever been.
We can go and eat at five-star restaurants that they'll never eat at.
Got some loud-ass beats inside my head, so please turn up the feedback.

Uh, and I hope I don't relapse,
So I think I gotta relax.
Can we just put the seats back?

And I'm at a terminal, baby, so I might not text back.
I got some things I gotta do, but then I'll get right back.
So please don't get attached to another guy that you know.

I got some lyrics in my head—I'll jot them down in my notes.
I'll get to them when I get home,
When I'm back in the studio.
And I can do any flow—
That's why she calling me the goat.

And I promise I'll get back to you,
Just gotta get off the flight.
Yeah, I promise I'll get back to you,
Just give me one more night.

So let's not end this on a fight,
You know that doesn't sound right.
You know that doesn't sound right,
So let's not end this on a fight.

RETURN FLIGHTS

In the dark grid, shadows trace our names
You cracked my code; I’ll never be the same
Fiber optics flicker when you’re near
Binary whispers only we can hear
We met behind the firewall's flame
Two rogue scripts in a love untamed
Your hands on the keys, sparks in the night
I saw your soul in the circuit light
 
Neon hearts in the mainframe, burning bright
We write our love in the code of midnight
Pulse and data, we collide
In this wired world, you're my guide
Neon hearts won’t let this signal die
We ghost through towers in electric skies
In silent ops with chrome disguise
Love in encryption, raw and pure
A glitch in the system they can’t cure

I traced your trail through zeroes and ones
Across darknets, through loaded guns
But no firewall can keep me away
You're the echo in every word I say
 
Neon hearts in the mainframe, burning bright
We write our love in the code of midnight
Pulse and data, we collide
In this wired world, you're my guide
Neon hearts won’t let this signal die
Upload my soul into your stream
Merge our minds inside the dream
Rooted deep where the silence hums
We’ll stay alive where the system runs
“Unauthorized access...
Two users detected...
Connection unstable…
Love confirmed.”
Neon hearts in the mainframe, side by side
You and me against the override
Pulse and data, we collide
In this endless loop, we’ll reside
Neon hearts eternally digitized


NEON HEARTS IN THE MAINFRAME

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