you put ur hands all on me now im leaving
you tell me that you love me, do you mean it ?
mean it 
mean it
dont you ever mean it ?
how could i mean everything you keep me as a secret

i put the switchblade to my arm
you left in the pain now its all gone wrong
you left me in vein now youre all i want
i dont gotta stay but shes all i want

like keep me as a secret
you mean it ? you wont leave ?
tell me that you miss him im griping upon ur sleeve
and even in the end i wont matter i wont breathe
im sick of always wanting the best and its not me

sleepwater
keep me from what you been selling please
pushing straight down make it hard to breath
i'm not okay now find it to hard breath !
dont know who to chase now, guess it wasn't me
rolling with my
guess ill just roll on my own i guess ill just roll on my own

i put the switchblade to my arm
you left in the pain now its all gone wrong
you left me in vein now youre all i want
i dont gotta stay but shes all i want

like keep me as a secret
you mean it ? you wont leave ?
tell me that you miss him im griping upon ur sleeve
and even in the end i wont matter i wont breathe
im sick of always wanting the best and its not me

roll on my own (feat. sleepwater)(prod. unlucky)

@nevrfall
i love @heylog so much, he's an amazing person c:
lyrics:
(casperrr)
moving away as my body collapse
half a day and i already smoked half a pack
i smell the chemicals burning in my hand
i need to change this i need to take a stand
all of the promises u made they didn't worth nothing
while u ran ur mouth ur actions didn't prove anything
u still wanna tell me that i am lying
do u really wanna tell me that i am lying

AND THIS IS FUNNY CAUSE THE PROMISES ARE STUCK IN THE WALLS
U TREAT ME WRONG AND I STILL PICK U UP EVERYTIME U FALL
I GET DEPRESSED AND I SHUT MYSELF FROM WINTER TO FALL
I REALLY NEED HELP I CANT SEE WHATS REAL I JUST SEE fog
FOGGY MEMORIES IN MY BRAIN HELP ME REMEMBER
WHAT WAS THE THING THAT TRAUMATIZED ME LAST DECEMBER
CUZ I TOOK IT OUT OF MY HEAD
I KNOW I WISHED EVERYDAY FOR DEATH
I WAS GETTING SO MAD
I WAS GETTING SO FED UP

(heylog)
u made me mad, i called but u won't answer
don't speak to me like that where are your manners
it's hard when life just sucks, is it supposed to?
deteriorate non stop what am i s'posed to do
u hate on me now when i didn't do a thing
u love causing ruckus and it's concerning
but i kill the vibe is that why u hate me
i won't give u shit or anything

is it safe to say that i miss u
forgot what it's like to kiss u
i'm sorry u had to tell me what u been through
if u need me i'll be here for u
forgot what ur face looks like, it's been a day
leaving ur house but i can't drive away
arriving home and it don't feel the same
without u here, it feels so plain

promises w/heylog (nevrfall)

co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

https://open.spotify.com/track/6CbxhNDiS43RkM728SpInl?si=e92a5e39fcfc4020
prod. @dercept + gateway & danielsara
cover art done by kittikyu <3

this ain't a ballad; fucking unbalanced
give me a challenge, i'm in the smog
tossed like a salad; thought i had talent, guess i was wrong 
putting the p in pain, everything ain't what i want 
you put that shit away, it's new a day, in a NEW DAWN

leeches! clogging every vein from the start
secrets!! i wanted to keep in my heart 
bleeding! blood is looking blacker than some tar 
don't communicate, because your brain's already charred

no chance, i ain't ever doing any shit like that again
i don't have an ego, but she fucking with my head
racking up the people that'll probably want me dead
said i'm fucking lethal, tell me what did you expect?

two-faced; show faith
walkin' round the town in my mind with a mace
i'm a fucking loser, so i never show my face 
wish i never knew her; couldn't believe what i'd say
so i rest admist the panic, going manic, tryna change
if ur talkin' shit then can-it, all your bullshit; it can wait
i got way too damn satanic, pull me closer to the flames
you should quit this life and hand it over, imma take your place

(i'm looking through the fog)
(i've been confused for so long)
(the things that i've undergone)
(are proof that i don't belong)

leeches! clogging every vein from the start
secrets!! i wanted to keep in my heart 
bleeding! blood is looking blacker than some tar 
don't communicate, because your brain's already charred

no chance, i ain't ever doing any shit like that again
i don't have an ego but she fucking with my head
racking up the people that'll probably want me dead
said i'm fucking lethal, tell me what did you expect?

leeches! [prod. dercept x gateway x danielsara]

prod. sinxi


Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Im running where the sun wont face yet
U can see it in my eyes im faded 
Im waiting 
for nothing 
Leave something
Oh
Don’t run away 
I don’t wanna lose you
I won’t love again
Im not used to that
Don’t call me back
I wanna leave the past
Id feel better with a heart attack

Don’t talk to me 
Im too out of it
Left out alone
Don’t try again
Like honestly
She won’t lie again
Im too far gone
Leave me out of it

Im tryna quit
No Time for this
All my words fall flat again
Still arguing
Swear she’s such a bitch
Please let go 
Let me outta this

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Faceless
You can see it in my eyes im faded
No thoughts promsie u won’t change it
Im waiting for nothing
Tell me im trying for something

Changing
U keep telling me u never wanna face it
Fucked up got my heart beat racing
Im faded off nothing
Tell me im waiting for something

faceless

something a lil different, hope u enjoy
produced by: @siemspark

LYRICS:

You love and hate me, yeah it breaks me, I'm so fucked up
Too many wounds on my heart heal them with alcohol
I watched you fall back in the arms of someone that you loved
And it wasn't me, I'm so fucking dumb
And after all the mental torture I think I'd finally had enough
Now you're coming back to me and you said you've been out of luck
A normal person would've said that they don't give a fuck
But I just welcome you back with my open arms

'Cause I am still in love
And I don't wanna watch you spiral back out of control
So I just hold you close
I know you need this the most, I don't care if you're ghost
I'm gonna hold you 'cause I'm cold as well
Yeah, you use me, abuse me, I was nothing but an object
After everything I said, you always had to object
I hate the way you use me for your project
Now I'm all alone, guess I was nothing but a target

And after all the mental torture I think I'd finally had enough
Now you're coming back to me and you said you've been out of luck
A normal person would've said that they don't give a fuck
But I just welcome you back with my open arms

'Cause I am still in love (still in love)
And I don't wanna watch you spiral back out of control (out of control)
So I just hold you close
I know you need this the most, I don't care if you're ghost
I'm gonna hold you 'cause I'm cold as well
Yeah, you use me, abuse me, I was nothing but an object
After all the things I said, you always had to object
I hate the way you use me for your project
Now I'm all alone, guess I was nothing but a target

(Use me, abuse me, I was nothing but an object)
(After all the things I said, you always had to object)
(I hate the way you use me for your project)
(Now I'm all alone, guess I was nothing but a- )

object

[you have arrived at a depth of 5600 metres. please ensure all diving gear is safely fastened. please also ensure that you close both doors behind you to prevent flooding.”

on my own
and my bones 
are so cold
in this hole
and god knows
im not prone
to good news
so i’ll hope 

that when i step up to this entrance
i’ll cross my fingers
take 3 pills i need my medicine
feel heavy and i’m sweating
this fuckin place gon be the death of me
i think the diver team was right when they said 
“anything you do
just stay away from this” 

and this water is so cold
oh my god
i feel dizzy
and my oxygen is low 
wait what the fuck
was that noise
deep in this bowl
i’m looking up
and i can’t see 
it’s too dark 
and i hear footsteps to my left
behind me, the door shuts 

and it’s strange
cus i’m in the water
but feel like i can breathe way better than before
so i take off my mask, walk and look around
at the back of the cave theres a wooden door
what the fuck is this place 
turn around and go to leave
but the way that i came in is not there anymore
then i hear the door open
so i turn around
and i felt my cold heart fall out and hit the floor 

what the fuck is this place 
what the fuck is this place 

[EMERGENCY. EMERGENCY. SOMETHING HAS SEVERED THE OXYGEN SUPPLY. PLEASE DO NOT PANIC. WE HERE AT SEMTEX ARE DOING EVERYTHING WE CAN TO KEEP YOU ALIVE.]

there’s something in here (jolst)

Do Not Quit

Half the Story

X pill Molly

PALM ANGLES

NEED YOU LORD

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/heylog
produced: brenton
mixed: brentonand heylog

object

B Murph