Lyrics

I don't think I belong here, I don't think I belong there 
I don't think I belong on earth, I think I belong in hell 
Hold on, wait I'm already there cause I'm stuck inside my head
No one should go up in there, I get so damn fucking scared

I don't know where I should go, I wish I could let you go
Say I do but know I don't, know I could but guess I won't
Cause I want you and I can't have you back ever again
Wish that I could go back so I could never send you that

First text I ever did, fuck you and fuck your man
Fuck him and fuck that kid, I wanna disappear

I don't think I belong here, I don't think I belong there 
I don't think I belong on earth, I think I belong in hell 
Hold on, wait I'm already there cause I'm stuck inside my head
No one should go up in there, I get so damn fucking scared

Losing focus, I don't think I belong here
I'm so worthless, I don't think I belong there
I don't think I belong on earth , I think I belong in hell
Hold on, wait I'm already there cause I'm stuck inside my head

i don't think. | Produced by jewelerbeats

STONE HEART （Minotaur).mp3

Back Door — where they creep in when the front line’s too exposed.

This one’s for all those nights I had to move in silence. Bars from pain, lessons from loss, and the hunger of the streets

Produced by EMITE
Mixed by JoonzDontCap & mastered by FR33WORLD

Big respect to everyone who held me down when I had nothing.

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BACKDOOR

yesterday's souncloud: https://soundcloud.com/cpt_sad

_____________________________
i know you think you get me
but you can’t see what i see
i always feel so empty
baby, i’ve been dying slowly
don’t ghost me. i’m so lonely
if you leave i’ll have nobody
i’m dying. i can’t breath
feels like i’m suffocating

don’t call me back, that’s fine
i’ll really be alright
wait never mind, i lied
i think i’m dead inside

i think i’m losing patience
i just feel so isolated
don’t think anyone will save me
it feels like the whole world hates me lately

maybe i’m just crazy
it feels like i’m suffocating
know that’s already been stated

but really i’ve been drowning
there’s no savior, there’s no fountain
with no hope spouting around it
so i don’t know how i’m coping
i just feel so fucking hopeless

my life is going downhill
like a motherfucking slope, bitch
and it’s getting hard to focus
i don’t think i have a purpose
and that’s probably why i’m hurting
yah that’s probably why i’m hurting

fuck all this shit
 i just feel like a burden

and don’t you ever say i didn’t love you
gave you everything i had
but everything fell flat again
i hope that new boy has your back like i did
laying flat in my bed
rolling up the same way i did
calling back whenever you fled
feeling empty, wishing we were dead, okay

hollow hearts just make an empty pit
so take it back to when i never meant shit
come to think
bring me back to when you left me
never meant a damn thing
i never meant a thing to you

collection 1

asphyxia

Spotify <3

asphyxia w/ yesterday (prod. reaper)

i'm gonna miss high school and all of the experiences i've had through out it. honestly, i don't feel ready for life, but i guess it doesn't matter because you can't stop time from passing. every second you're alive you're aging.

lyrics:
high school sucks
it really does
i can’t go to school if i’m not on the drugs
high school sucks
it really does
and when it’s done i guess it’s time to grow up

football bleachers where i had my first kiss
with a girl i’m probably never gonna see ever again, shit
i guess that’s life and it’s time to move on
but honestly i wish i could replay it like a song ‘cause
i never told my crush that she was the one
the funny thing is i don’t think she ever was
i wish i could just say that it was lust
but really i don’t think i’m ever meant to be loved

and that’s why
it’s alright
that she’s in his arms at night
‘cause that’s life
and that’s fine
it’s all good. it just makes me wanna die

high school sucks
it really does
i can’t go to school if i’m not on the drugs
high school sucks
it really does
and when it’s done i guess it’s time to grow up

my life sucks
it really does
i can’t go a day without being on drugs
high school sucked
but it was fun
and honestly i’m just afraid of growing up

honestly i’m just afraid of growing up
honestly i’m fucking scared of growing up
i cannot believe my childhood is gone
i cannot believe my childhood is done

no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go ‘cause i need you still

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high school sucks [prod. sketchmyname]

feelings go like leaves in the wind
feel the breeze blow against my skin
i can still feel the warmth of your lips
i can still feel the love in your kiss
can’t stop the emotions within
summer night clear sky we were kids
it was just you and i on a park bench
looking up at the stars when i felt it

when i look in your eyes it’s contagious 
see a map of the sky on your iris
hear the beat of your heart in the silence
feel the love inside mine, it’s so vibrant
but it’s all in the past, you’re a memory
now i’ve fallen apart, you’re my center piece
now you’re in love with him, that’s instead of me
so my brain’s given up, like the rest of me

i can still feel the darkness inside of me
feel the pain as it flows through my arteries
all that’s left in mind are my fantasies
but i still can’t erase all the memories

please don’t let me go. you can’t drop me like this
i feel the tears rolling down my eyelids
summer outside but i still feel freezing
the ice in my heart is never leaving
i am alive but i feel so broken
so i hit a fucking blunt. it’s too much smoke so now i’m choking
how’d i always fuck it up. you’re gone and that’s my form of coping
now i’m always taking drugs so i can put it out of focus

when i look in your eyes it’s contagious 
see a map of the sky on your iris
hear the beat of your heart in the silence
feel the love inside mine, it’s so vibrant
but it’s all in the past, you’re a memory
now i’ve fallen apart, you’re my center piece
now you’re in love with him, that’s instead of me
so my brain’s given up, like the rest of me

summer nights, clear skies [prod. vvs melody]

i’m always stuck in my head
i always overthink shit
like was it something i said
and it’s a lot to digest

now i feel better off dead
and every thoughts a regret
guess i’ll just lie in my bed

so i sip bottles to block it
and i get high as a rocket
my mind is constantly foggy
i just ignore all my problems
give me a pill and i’ll pop it
i’ve never been one for stopping
i’ll go till i’m in a coffin

it’s not the same anymore
don’t think that i can keep on pushing through the pain anymore
and i keep taking all these drugs. don’t think it’s safe anymore
but i don’t really give a fuck, i wanna crash bitch
plug ran out, goddamnit
what the fuck am i supposed to do, i didn’t plan this
i can’t sleep at night if i’m not on another planet
she said i needa stop ‘cause she can’t fucking stand it
she says i’ll overdose, yeah that’s the fucking plan bitch
that’s the fucking plan bitch 

i’m overdosing on my problems
yeah
and i don’t think that i can solve em
yeah
so i been falling like its autumn
yeah
like all the way down to the bottom
yeah
just reapplied my nail polish
yeah
she likes my chains, well, i just bought em
yeah

i got a blunt in my pocket
i think i might have to light it
my mind’s always so divided
but all these weed makes it silent
just got a text from the plug
he delivers, i buy it
no, i don’t give a fuck
‘cause i’m tired of trying

dysphoria [prod. heylog]

prod @areusure
https://soundcloud.com/areusure/h8-u
feat @benedixhion

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www.instagram.com/lilhermitxo
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lyrics : 
I’m already over you so I ain’t worried about shit yea 
I don’t know why you’re wasting time stressing bout the kid yea 
I can pull my own I do not need an assist yea 
My stacks are fucking thick yea 

I used to kiss your face, for a little taste 
But now my heads insane, and I’ll never change 
You used to always say, that you would never stray
But I don’t wanna stay, cus you are just a fake 

I’m slowly getting racks up in my pocket 
You used to be around my neck in a locket
But now I got real ice, my vice grips lost bitch
We both know that you would walk after you’d talk shit
Call me jimmy I’ma blast off in this rocket 
I don’t need your energy, you know it’s fucking toxic
Nonsense is what you’d speak, instead of being honest 
So on this day,  I say fuck off bitch

[benedixhion]

yeah 
you probably have a problem with me
but i don’t care bitch, what’d you think
you were never there, never there for me
and if i died in your arms you wouldn’t even blink
yeah
oh my god, you know i’m off it
i won’t stop this grind until my name’s a trending topic
fuck you lil bitch, you know i’m boppin’
with this emo shit, made my own coffin
yah
look, the money ain’t a problem
i won’t stop the grind until the day that i am poppin’
if it’s looking edgy as fuck you know i’m coppin’
benedixhion gun’ spit the truth and i ain’t stoppin’
yeah

[lil hermit]

Yea I hated you, like my room you were a mess too 
If you keep texting me I’ll knock you back like I’m deku 
Bless you, is what I’d say if I regret you 
But I learned from all of that dumb shit you put my head through 
You used to say that you gon never ever lose me 
But now all you are to me are just lyrics on this loose leaf 
Truthfully, you would piss me off with all your scrutiny 
I could always take care of myself I didn’t need you to be so damn close

(this song will only be on soundcloud, and not monetized)

no need to stress

no need to stress feat. benedixhion (prod. areusure)

Produced by Yeezo

TELL ME BABY WHY YOUR TEARS KEEP FALLING

Lyrics:

[Intro]
"iluvtora"

[Verse]
i'd be lying if i said that life was easy
but you keep trying and you said you didn't need me
so now im gone girl, why do you keep chasing
im still fucked from the drugs i was lacing

[Pre-Chorus]
and now im scared, cus i don't see nobody else around
it's not fair got my cigarettes burning on the ground
tell me baby why your tears keep falling
tell me baby why your tears keep falling

[Chorus]
i need a sad girl in my life
and i promise that i'll treat you right
i dont know you but you're in my mind
i dont know you but you're in my mind

[Verse 2]
you're a sad, punk, goth girl on my mind
just the type that i want every friday night
you like my plaid red jeans and my silver rings
you can wear my chains just don't pull my strings

[Bridge]
you're a bad lil vibe and i wish you were mine
you can waste my time cus together we shine
you're a bad lil vibe and i wish you were mine
cus together we shine

[Pre-Chorus]
and now im scared, cus i don't see nobody else around
it's not fair got my cigarrettes burning on the ground
tell me baby why your tears keep falling
tell me baby why your tears keep falling

[Chorus]
i need a sad girl in my life
and i promise that i'll treat you right
i dont know you but you're in my mind
i dont know you but you're in my mind

[Outro]
i need a sad girl in my life
and i promise that i'll treat you right
i dont know you but you're in my mind
i dont know you but you're in my mind

Biteki びてき

sad girl (prod. Yeezo)

Lyrics

I don't like the way I feel when I'm alone without you here
All I do is scream for help but I don't think you ever hear
Hate inside my veins everyday that you're away 
And I don't feel the same, I just wanna see your face

I wanna get so fucked up right now but I'm really trying not to go that route
I can't even lie I really miss your touch now, I really wish you'd come back now
I don't see the point of going on without you
I get so annoyed when I wake up without you here

I feel like ice
My skin so cold
I miss those nights
You'd hold me close

My voice breaks and cracks when I talk to you now 
I don't think we'll get back when you were still around 
I hate that fucking song where I sampled your laugh
Because it really shows you laugh at me when I'm down

I have so much more love than I would ever show 
And I did so damn much that you will never know
And it was all for you but you're a fucking ghost 
I'm glad we're fucking through but I don't really know

agony. (unwritten) | Produced by nicasso

Lyrics:
guap is what im gettin, double what im sippin
black out when it hittin, i still ain't forgettin
girl got me addicted, i ain't ever quittin
black on black is fitting, bitch you always kill it, oh

say you mine, say you mine, but you not tho
every time, every time, when you down low
hit a line, hit a line, dont get caught tho
girl you know, you my world, but im not tho

i was not the one that burned all of those bridges we set in place
you were only hoping for a scapegoat to blame
i was not the one that burned all of those bridges we set in place
you've got more than your dignity to lose

you said that you ruined everything

and now that we're just friends guess it's okay
to ghost for days and days im not lonely
i know youre busy making your own way
i guess ill just give in to my own fate

i was not the one that burned all of those bridges we set in place
you were only hoping for a scapegoat to blame
i was not the one that burned all of those bridges we set in place
you've got more than your dignity to lose