always on my own

Lyrics

This whole year been dumb shit
I lie and say that I'm making it better but I ain't did nothing
Said that I quit drugs but I'm still out here buzzin'
Whenever however so I can feel something

Nicotine in me supress the anxiety
I can't get out that's inside of me
I lie to you so it's cool if you lie to me
Tell me sweet nothings, just for the time atleast

Cause I want what I don't need
Don't want you but don't leave
I might be a dick but I'm worse when I'm lonely
I'll write a quick line bout the time you were still here
I'm so indecisive like bitch why you still here?

I'm sorry that I'm not, it be like that
I won't tell you when I leave, like be right back
I don't open up but when I do I needed that
You think I'm going down the wrong path and I agree with that

How could I love you? I don't even like me
Why do I wake up? Death doesn't want me
I'm stuck in my room, they won't let me leave
One day I'll kill them all, they don't believe me

Cause you won't, cause you're weak
You ain't got the strength to fight us
We don't like the way you push away
You don't invite us

To anything anymore, you treat us like we're not you
We can't go away if you don't let us from inside you
Shit, fuck, I ain't even think about that
Was tryna keep you here, cause you the reason that I wrote raps
Guess I gotta let you go, honestly I want you gone
I guess I can't progress if I keep crying and I don't move on

Don't worry, won't hurt me
Take your time, no hurry
Without pain, no glory
No climax, no story

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climax. | Produced by røse

sampled @marlasdreams for guitar :)

Lyrics:

take a minute start asking yourself
what are your worths if u don't have ur wealth
who are your friends i would call it to question
what are the kinds of stories they tell
i didn't know that we needed permission
i guess i've been used to plain fighting it out
i have met plenty of people in life
and enough had a hiss so i keep to myself

in due time you'll have seen it all
what happens then
personally i would hate every breath
if i spent my whole life locked inside of a shell

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i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you
i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you

I REFUSE TO EVER FEAR YOU
THROUGH THAT TRIAL I FOUND MY VALUES
IF I WERE MORE HONEST I'D BE SEE THROUGH
SPOUT MORE LIE TILL YOU BELIEVE YOU

i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you
i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you

take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute

depersonalization

Lyrics

Everything is so bad
Everything is so wrong
Hate is all my heart has
That's why I don't make love songs

If I say I love you what I really mean
Is I wish I could love you, I don't feel a thing
I don't feel peace, I don't feel pain
I don't feel pride, I don't feel shame

If there is something I do feel
Then it's a void that I won't fill
I been so hurt and I won't heal
I needed you but you don't still

Where did you go? Why don't you call?
I needed you but you don't care at all
You found someone else but I'm still just alone
I need some help but I'll say that I don't

I don't really wanna go on, I feel stuck, I just wanna go
I don't wanna talk to no one, play a song if you wanna know
What I got in my brain, what I wake up and face
What I ask God for strength for when on my own I'd break

I'm not an angel, I'm not a demon
I'm just a human with addictions, I'm fiending 
Want it don't need it but I want it so bad
I convince myself I need it and I set myself back

Everything is so bad
Everything is so wrong
Hate is all my heart has
That's why I don't make love songs

If I say I love you what I really mean
Is I wish I could love you, I don't feel a thing
I don't feel peace, I don't feel pain
I don't feel pride, I don't feel shame

If there is something I do feel
Then it's a void that I won't fill
I been so hurt and I won't heal
I needed you but you don't still

Where did you go? Why don't you call?
I needed you but you don't care at all
You found someone else but I'm still just alone
I need some help but I'll say that I don't

7SPHERE. | Produced by living puff x miitya‬

DEATHWISH

(prod. blade901)
soundcloud.com/blade_901

[lyrics]

ya i wake up at night again
breaking entitlement 
folding my hands to the back of my head
obvious tension, furious silence
cover in canvas in august.

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

you taught me how to not be there
while mommy always taught me not to stop and stare
these people i erase from my thoughts go where?
i'm sick of every lie that i cry with swear

it's been a long time, i'm feelin like shit
pick up the gun, now i'm wid it
i'm feelin fucked up, i wanna get buck
just lost my mind like i'm vision
blood splattered all in my kitchen
she wanna think that it's pretend 
not comin back for a minute
i'm gone but i'm still singin
 
she's so cold
hold me close and dont let me go
baby that's fine
you leave me alone all the time
oh yeah, please tell me was it worth it
too many fucking voices they're echoing
in my head
oh wait, now tell me where your hiding
left me with nothing when I was ten
but now i'm crying

i see you stand all alone
outside our house i watched you go
not enough to feel bad, just enough to let go
every thought in my head eats away at my soul
mom and dad are upset, I don't know what to do
i was just a young boy crying alone in my room

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

don't enter pt. 3 (prod. blade901)

Convolk - Visions Of Blue

never made it back
never made it back
now i hate my life
there’s no saving that
i’ll just slit my wrists
where’s my razor at
i just waste my time
and i’m fine with that

why you stab me in the back
guess your love was just an act
wish i didn’t want you bad
‘cause you treat me like i’m trash

hit a hundred on the dash
and i really hope i crash
i been burning through life fast
now i can’t wait till it’s passed
now i’m living to forget
every night when i’m in bed
i can never fucking rest
‘cause you’re always in my head

you’re in my head lil bitch
fuck what you said lil bitch
i’m fucking dead lil bitch
i’m fucking dead
you just left my life. now it’s a fucking mess

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@benedixhion - insomnia [prod. sketchmyname]

theres something else that she wont tell me
theres something wrong with how she holds me

cuz i heard it in ur sighs
felt it in ur breath
I saw it in how you made a mess out of me,
out of me

as i watched our love die
and it took its last breath
i hated you for how you made a mess out of me,
out of me

i can understand it by the spaces in ur breath
and in everything little way that you dont touch me like you did
but imma write it off and say you goin through a phase
cuz im too fuckin scared to hear ur feelins may have changed
and i know, im fuckin stupid, cuz i dont listen to it
and i know, you goin through it, and ion wanna prove it
ignorance is bliss when somethings going on
im goin crazy what the fucks going wrong

theres something else that she wont tell me
theres something wrong with how she holds me

cuz i heard it in ur sighs
felt it in ur breath
I saw it in how you made a mess out of me,
out of me

as i watched our love die
and it took its last breath
i hated you for how you made a mess out of me,
out of me

theres something else that she wont tell me
theres something wrong with how she holds me

im afraid to accept the fact that somethings change
cuz ive grown so used to hearin u say my name

cuz i heard it in ur sighs
felt it in ur breath
I saw it in how you made a mess out of me,
out of me

as i watched our love die
and it took its last breath
i hated you for how you made a mess out of me,
out of me

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somethings wrong (prod. 5head)

--uncertain-- [prod. shinjin]

i don’t think that i can change 
lately i been feeling stuck inside my ways
pretty sure my life is just a fucking waste
yeah
maybe i should go ahead and throw it all away

sick of life 
i wonder what’s after
i’m a fuck up
i’m a disaster
i wish that i would die faster
restless nights, could use dreamcatcher oh
‘cause you left me all alone
never even met you, only saw you on my phone
yeah
i still miss you on the low
i cannot stop thinking bout the day that you went ghost
yeah

so i’ll make it on my own
i don’t need you anymore, it’s time for me to go
yeah
all these girls are tryna hit this
they don’t really want me, but my name is on they hit lists
damn
so i think it’s time to dip bitch
i been chasing after my dreams
and yes i’ll risk it
you best get up out my way
i’m on a mission
you always got sum to say
but never listen

would you hold me close
i can’t let you go
you already know
how i feel bout you