you were so fake
numb my brain
to help me deal with it
i feel so dead
i’m insane
i am my own damn victim
you were so fake
numb my brain
to help me deal with it
i feel so dead
i’m insane
i am my own damn victim


bottomless pit inside my head
wish that i could get some rest
but nah
i can never pause
everything i try is not enough
well fuck
so i always turn to drugs
no duh
‘cause your love jus really ain’t enough
no it ain’t enough
i need pills my brains so fucked

gone
i needed you
you’re gone
i’m fiendin
for your love
i needed you
but you’re gone
guess im not enough

ohh
ohh
ohh
ohh
ohh
oh no
i can’t let go

martyr :/ [prod. spacecore]

waste [prod. fewtile]

:/

lyrics:
want you bad
want you bad
want you bad
yeah yeah
but you’d never want me back
that’s why i’m sad
yeah yeah
now i’m dead
in the head
i’m a let down
yeah
hope i have a heart attack
so i don’t have to wake up

yeah
pouring liquor in my cup
yeah
drink it down ‘till i throw up
yeah
but it’ll never be enough
yeah
and you never showed me love
yeah
so i’ll leave you in the dust
yeah
‘cause you never gave a fuck
yeah
no, you never gave a fuck

breakdown breakdown
yeah i had breakdown
crying in my bed
i just need a lil space now
facedown facedown
i feel so ashamed now
i’m stuck in my bed and there’s no way i can get out

i feel sad in my bed
‘cause you’re not in it
now i feel dead
i’m so over this
heart torn to shreds
i need a surgeon
lost in my head
and i’m still searching

yeah i’m still searching
i need a surgeon
i’m such a burden yeah

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want u bad [prod. noir zero]

i'm gonna miss high school and all of the experiences i've had through out it. honestly, i don't feel ready for life, but i guess it doesn't matter because you can't stop time from passing. every second you're alive you're aging.

lyrics:
high school sucks
it really does
i can’t go to school if i’m not on the drugs
high school sucks
it really does
and when it’s done i guess it’s time to grow up

football bleachers where i had my first kiss
with a girl i’m probably never gonna see ever again, shit
i guess that’s life and it’s time to move on
but honestly i wish i could replay it like a song ‘cause
i never told my crush that she was the one
the funny thing is i don’t think she ever was
i wish i could just say that it was lust
but really i don’t think i’m ever meant to be loved

and that’s why
it’s alright
that she’s in his arms at night
‘cause that’s life
and that’s fine
it’s all good. it just makes me wanna die

high school sucks
it really does
i can’t go to school if i’m not on the drugs
high school sucks
it really does
and when it’s done i guess it’s time to grow up

my life sucks
it really does
i can’t go a day without being on drugs
high school sucked
but it was fun
and honestly i’m just afraid of growing up

honestly i’m just afraid of growing up
honestly i’m fucking scared of growing up
i cannot believe my childhood is gone
i cannot believe my childhood is done

no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go ‘cause i need you still

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high school sucks [prod. sketchmyname]

lyrics:

heartbreak and hennessy
you were my everything
now you'd just watch me bleed
please let me rest in peace
heartbreak and hennessy
you were my everything
you made my life complete
heartbreak and hennessy

i thought that maybe you were different but you're not
i'm lost inside of my dark thoughts and that's a lot
you're gone but i can't seem to get my head to stop
thinking about you lately
i thought that you were fucking different but you're not
i'm lost inside of my dark thoughts and that's a lot
you're gone but i can't seem to get my head to stop
and it is driving me crazy

yeah it is driving me crazy
i'm doing drugs on the daily
you made me feel like you hate me
but what'd i do to you

heartbreak but i don't drink
i won't lie
i kinda miss your taste
i won't lie
i kinda miss your face
throw me with all the other waste
she quietly running her fingers through my hair
big brown eyes but it's a different pair
i'm thinking too much
i gotta calm it
what should i do
will i ever stop this

heartbreak and hennessy w/ heylog [prod. blunted beatz]

lyrics:
There's no way
No how, okay?
I'll just make
The same mistakes
Don't love me
That shit's a waste
There's nothing left
To contemplate
There's no way
No how, okay?
I'll just make
The same mistakes
Don't love me
That shit's a waste
There's nothing left
To contemplate

You best not ask me out
There's nothing left to talk about bitch
If you do I'll shoot you down
Ain't talking semi-automatic
Sorry, I don't wanna fuck
Lately I'm feeling so erratic
To alleviate my frown
I'm taking hits while in a panic
I got nothing on my mind
Except the reaper
But the high helps me escape
I'm on the reefa
Put a clip into my brain
That ain't no haircut
And I swear to god
I always have the worst luck

My fucked up brain won't me sleep
I feels death's hands all over me
I taste the blood between my teeth
So please just let me rest in peace

There's no way
No how, okay?
I'll just make
The same mistakes
Don't love me
That shit's a waste
There's nothing left
To contemplate
There's no way
No how, okay?
I'll just make
The same mistakes
Don't love me
That shit's a waste
There's nothing left
To contemplate

no way no how ok?

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no way no how ok? (prod. sketchmyname)

lyrics:
yeah, i know that i get lazy, yeah
and your dad fucking hates me, yeah
but you think that you can change me, yeah
girl, nobody can save me, yeah

yeah, i know you think i'm lazy, yeah
and your family thinks i'm crazy yeah
everyday is like the same thing, yeah
why does everybody hate me, yeah

girl, i fucked up and i know it
i just want you back, bitch
shawty give me head in the back of a black benz
i feel better dead ever since you left me waiting
want you in my bed
tell me when you gun' stop playing
why you playing?
no, this shit isn't atari
ain't no game bitch
and i know that you don't love me
you won't say it
and you only wanna fuck me when you're wasted, yeah
when you're wasted
yeah, you only wanna fuck me when you're wasted
and i know that you don't love me
you won't say it, yeah

Collection II

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ur dad hates me lol (prod. odece & northeast lights)

rest in peace juice. you were a big inspiration for me and a lot of people. you may have lived a short life, but at least you accomplished your dreams and never gave up. you’ll be remembered


lyrics:

i feel a change inside
something far beneath the skin
my demons are awakening
i feel them deep within
i never thought i’d make it
to see the next day
but here i am faking my existence like a game

i ponder my whole life
why am i even alive
when my body’s gone so numb
that i feel nothing inside

don’t even wanna try
i’m not even gunna lie
every day when i wake up
i just wanna end my life

these emotions are so dumb
my head’s banging like a drum
so i pop a couple pills
and my whole body goes numb

these feelings are too much
guess i’m really losing touch
of what’s real and what is not
so i’ll end it with a gun

i feel a change inside
something far beneath the skin
my demons are awakening
i feel them deep within
i never thought i’d make it
to see the next day
but here i am faking my existence like a game

i’ve struggled my whole life
just to feel like i’m alive
i’m decaying inside
so i’ll never be alright
no, i’ll never be alright

beneath the skin [prod. discent]

icecaps [prod. nxcturnal]

you been really playin games lately
you been really tryna make me bleed
i dont understand a goddamn thing you do

hey
im a fuckin waste of space
if your loves your motivation
why your actions say it aint
wait
you told me that you would stay
but i know just how it goes
its time for you to go away
hey
you always playin fuckin games
i should really end it all
its time for me to be erased
wait
but i still got dreams to chase
so i guess that means
i have to live another fuckin day

hey
i take these pills right to my brain
and i pray that i go numb
but nope my bodys still in pain
put me right inside my grave
cause theres no one left to save me
know the ends approaching
i can see it all in HD
i found myself under her shadow
where i was always meant to be
so throw me up onto the gallow
and watch my lifeless body scream
i got a plan to get away
hope i overdose before the day i go fucking insane
she just played me like a game
what the fuck im sposed to say
you left me crying in the cold and pouring rain

BLUE DREAM FANTASY✨ [prod. zach sutton]

Show some love please...

LYRICS:

(benedixhion)
i don’t wanna talk at all
you said you love me but you don’t
you never fucking call
not at all
once had feelings
now i’m fucking numb
hope the end comes quickly
no one’s gunna miss me
miss when you would kiss me
now i guess i’m better off alone
tell my mamma i ain’t comin home

(cyzun)
I really hate my life 
I wasted so much time 
You played with my mind 
I’m leaving you in the past 
Because of you I’m sad 
But i want you back 
I’m taking these drugs so I can’t feel
It makes it much easier to fucking heal
It’s killing me slowly but I’m still here
My minds getting fucked up can I disappear

(benedixhion)
i don’t wanna talk at all
you said you love me but you don’t
you never fucking call
not at all
once had feelings
now i’m fucking numb
hope the end comes quickly

no way no how ok? (prod. sketchmyname)

benedixhion

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