Oh my God, I'm listening to this after 2 years, incredible memories thank you you great man. You stopped me from suicidal then, and you can now. I hope so 

Mood 2

Real Muzik

[KillJack] - Real Muzik (prod. SKORPY)

Too Cold (prod. cxld blxxd)

Avoiding my feelings
I've been down for the wrong type of reasons
Tell me why I still feel empty
Tell me why my hearts still beating

Avoiding my feelings
I've been down for the wrong type of reasons
Tell me why I still feel empty
Tell me why my hearts still beating

I just feel so damn wasted
I'm a fucking waste of space
So please erase me
I don't deserve happiness
Don't deserve anything
And my entire existence
Is a misshapen thing

I don't know why I'm here
Why is this happening?
Feel myself giving into fear
My heart is blackening
I just wish that someone could hear me
But the end is nearing
And I'm all by myself
I just miss when you were here
I just wish that you were here

Avoiding my feelings
I've been down for the wrong type of reasons
Tell me why I still feel empty
Tell me why my hearts still beating

Avoiding my feelings
I've been down for the wrong type of reasons
Tell me why I still feel empty
Tell me why my hearts still beating

I just feel so damn wasted
I'm a fucking waste of space
So please erase me
I don't deserve happiness
Don't deserve anything
And my entire existence
Is a misshapen thing

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i called, you didn't answer (prod. killedmyself)

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prod. @producedbyinfo
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Corrupted (prod. INFO)

PettyHeartBreak - Nevermind (feat. Convolk)

(prod. blade901)
soundcloud.com/blade_901

[lyrics]

ya i wake up at night again
breaking entitlement 
folding my hands to the back of my head
obvious tension, furious silence
cover in canvas in august.

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

you taught me how to not be there
while mommy always taught me not to stop and stare
these people i erase from my thoughts go where?
i'm sick of every lie that i cry with swear

it's been a long time, i'm feelin like shit
pick up the gun, now i'm wid it
i'm feelin fucked up, i wanna get buck
just lost my mind like i'm vision
blood splattered all in my kitchen
she wanna think that it's pretend 
not comin back for a minute
i'm gone but i'm still singin
 
she's so cold
hold me close and dont let me go
baby that's fine
you leave me alone all the time
oh yeah, please tell me was it worth it
too many fucking voices they're echoing
in my head
oh wait, now tell me where your hiding
left me with nothing when I was ten
but now i'm crying

i see you stand all alone
outside our house i watched you go
not enough to feel bad, just enough to let go
every thought in my head eats away at my soul
mom and dad are upset, I don't know what to do
i was just a young boy crying alone in my room

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

don't enter pt. 3 (prod. blade901)

daniel silver - next girl (prod. HXRXKILLER)

i'm gonna miss high school and all of the experiences i've had through out it. honestly, i don't feel ready for life, but i guess it doesn't matter because you can't stop time from passing. every second you're alive you're aging.

lyrics:
high school sucks
it really does
i can’t go to school if i’m not on the drugs
high school sucks
it really does
and when it’s done i guess it’s time to grow up

football bleachers where i had my first kiss
with a girl i’m probably never gonna see ever again, shit
i guess that’s life and it’s time to move on
but honestly i wish i could replay it like a song ‘cause
i never told my crush that she was the one
the funny thing is i don’t think she ever was
i wish i could just say that it was lust
but really i don’t think i’m ever meant to be loved

and that’s why
it’s alright
that she’s in his arms at night
‘cause that’s life
and that’s fine
it’s all good. it just makes me wanna die

high school sucks
it really does
i can’t go to school if i’m not on the drugs
high school sucks
it really does
and when it’s done i guess it’s time to grow up

my life sucks
it really does
i can’t go a day without being on drugs
high school sucked
but it was fun
and honestly i’m just afraid of growing up

honestly i’m just afraid of growing up
honestly i’m fucking scared of growing up
i cannot believe my childhood is gone
i cannot believe my childhood is done

no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go ‘cause i need you still

spotify

high school sucks [prod. sketchmyname]

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Anxiety Feat. Trevor Daniel (Prod By. Michael Bao)

never made it back
never made it back
now i hate my life
there’s no saving that
i’ll just slit my wrists
where’s my razor at
i just waste my time
and i’m fine with that

why you stab me in the back
guess your love was just an act
wish i didn’t want you bad
‘cause you treat me like i’m trash

hit a hundred on the dash
and i really hope i crash
i been burning through life fast
now i can’t wait till it’s passed
now i’m living to forget
every night when i’m in bed
i can never fucking rest
‘cause you’re always in my head

you’re in my head lil bitch
fuck what you said lil bitch
i’m fucking dead lil bitch
i’m fucking dead
you just left my life. now it’s a fucking mess

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@benedixhion - insomnia [prod. sketchmyname]

Soundcloud edition.
Also on Spotify, Apple Music, etc.

More coming soon :) Thank u

University Of Death

university of death (intro) [prod. by Mike Frost & andeo]

dear mama, løve cøzybøy <33

VERSE CØZYBØY
woke up in a strip club tell me where the fuck i’m at
how’d i get here and how am i gonna get back
check my phone missed call from my mom
if she knew where i was she’d have heart attack

mom i’m sorry i been knowing it’s hard to call me
i dont answer i get nervous i know i’m causing
anxiety and stress you’re baby bird’s out the nest
but i keep my wings to my chest

there’s distance between us
i know that you’ll see this
i love you and kelsey
i swear that i mean it
just in my feelings
i’m sorry i need this
throating this drink like i dont know my weakness

most of my friends don’t know none of my secrets
only le play he knows some of my secrets
i got these demons they wreck me to pieces
when i say i love you that’s when i mean it

CHORUS
today a pretty angel lost it’s wings to fly
i’m hurting while the smoke stings my crying eyes
lost inside a cloud oh i swear i tried
falling to the ground but i dont wanna die

VERSE LE PLAY
mom i’m sorry i know you see the scars on my body
but you will never stop me
trying i’m trying i swear that i’m trying
but the rope around my neck seems to always keep tightening

but it’s hard when you know that you’re ugly
and it’s hard when you know that you’ll fail
and it’s hard when there’s nothing above me
a mouthful of secrets that i could never tell

and i’m sorry that i never call you back and
and i’m sorry if i been quiet lately
and i’m sorry if i been getting mad
but if i’m only being honest hate the skin that you gave me

and i been trying to see the lights in the day
but the lights go out and the sky turns grey 
and my heart’s been numb but the words wont stay
just know that i love you and that will never fade ey

CHORUS
today a pretty angel lost it’s wings to fly
i’m hurting while the smoke stings my crying eyes
lost inside a cloud oh i swear i tried
falling to the ground but i dont wanna die

OUTRO
you dont know that you got me
but i swear that you have me ok
you dont know that you got me
but i swear that you have me ok

dear mama (ft. Le Play)

feelings go like leaves in the wind
feel the breeze blow against my skin
i can still feel the warmth of your lips
i can still feel the love in your kiss
can’t stop the emotions within
summer night clear sky we were kids
it was just you and i on a park bench
looking up at the stars when i felt it

when i look in your eyes it’s contagious 
see a map of the sky on your iris
hear the beat of your heart in the silence
feel the love inside mine, it’s so vibrant
but it’s all in the past, you’re a memory
now i’ve fallen apart, you’re my center piece
now you’re in love with him, that’s instead of me
so my brain’s given up, like the rest of me

i can still feel the darkness inside of me
feel the pain as it flows through my arteries
all that’s left in mind are my fantasies
but i still can’t erase all the memories

please don’t let me go. you can’t drop me like this
i feel the tears rolling down my eyelids
summer outside but i still feel freezing
the ice in my heart is never leaving
i am alive but i feel so broken
so i hit a fucking blunt. it’s too much smoke so now i’m choking
how’d i always fuck it up. you’re gone and that’s my form of coping
now i’m always taking drugs so i can put it out of focus

when i look in your eyes it’s contagious 
see a map of the sky on your iris
hear the beat of your heart in the silence
feel the love inside mine, it’s so vibrant
but it’s all in the past, you’re a memory
now i’ve fallen apart, you’re my center piece
now you’re in love with him, that’s instead of me
so my brain’s given up, like the rest of me

summer nights, clear skies [prod. vvs melody]

Goodbye (Prod By. Michael Bao)

i watch my life as its falling apart
but i feel fine as i lie in the dark
this life’s a game and i’m playing my part
soon i’ll burn out like a dying star

without the drugs i’d never make it
the only way i’m getting by is staying faded
yeah
but half these plugs be selling fake shit
it got me feeling kinda off, they prolly laced it
whoa
i’m fucking wasted
i feel like gucci, take a shot right to the face bitch
you never wanted me so that’s the way i face it
i shouldn’t even give a fuck, ‘cause girl you’re basic

i’m over that chick
and i’m so far gone
i might crash my whip
just for the hell of it
‘cause i don’t give a shit
i’m fucking done with this
i’m screaming fuck you bitch

big bands in my pocket
yeah
wallet chains wit no wallet
yeah
i got plans to be up next
yeah
i won’t stop till it happens
yeah

i smoked an 8th and now i’m cruising
all i really want in life is to make music
but everybody fucking hates me
my dad despises what i’m doin, says i’m lazy
well, you can hate me from afar but i’ll keep moving
‘cause i got big ass fucking goals while y’all ain’t do shit
you waste your youth going to college like you’re s’posed to
i spend it doing what i want while making big moves

oh my god i think i miss you
i don’t wanna but i think i do
i just wish i didn’t miss you
i don’t wanna but i think it’s true

summer nights, clear skies [prod. vvs melody]

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