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benedixhion

Benedixhion

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can you tell me where im going baby
pretty sure that i been going crazy
i been living life like its a fucking daydream
yeah
its a fucking daydream
i feel so numb
you abuse me with your love
that shit got me so fucked up
i only feel okay on drugs

you dont wanna love me trust me 
im hooked on codependency 
baby you gotta stay away from me 
im crazy 
nobody is saving me im waiting 
for an exit to the next bitch 
text quick 
got me feeling fucking restless
im a dead bitch 
got me screaming fuck it 
ending the discussion 
used to feel in love 
but now you got me feeling nothing

what the fuck
i hate you
this aint love
cant change you
i cant but
ima be fine uh ima be good
im poppin my xans and smoking backwoods
i should
be fine
i dont need you in my life
you dont make me feel alive
i just wanna feel alright
 but i think i might fucking die

daydrream w/ ifeelsosmall [prod lil buscuit]

way more than friends
guess not

you didn’t pick up my call again
and we coulda been way more than friends
guess not
it’s all good this grind don’t stop
i’ll keep goin till i’m on the top
the top
i just pray the pain will stop
i don’t know why i’m alive
one more pill and i might die

wait
i feel so out of place
wish i could be erased
i’m lost and i can never seem
to find my way to any peace
that’s life
i smoke a blunt to feel alright
yeah i’m always getting high
cuz that’s the way that i survive
im a reck
life’s a mess
all these drugs my only friends

morethanfriends [prod. tenoji]

you don’t know what i been through
oh whoa i’m feeling blue
i don’t know what do
and girl it’s cuz of you
smoked a blunt and now i’m faded
mixed that shit with xans and now i’m wasted
i feel like i have been failing
this whole life is overrated

yah 
it’s over overrated
i can feel my memories fading
i don’t think that i can take this
i can’t fuck with no fake bitch
no i don’t want you to go
i can’t be left alone
i needa know
why you treat me like im a ghost
you don’t really need me at all
i wish i knew why you never call
you just left me broken and scarred
but fuck you bitch i’ll still go far
wont you come and hold me
i can’t take being this lonely
wont you come and hold me
i don’t wanna die alone please

i’m so sick of crying
every night i think of dying
i can’t take it 
i don’t think i’ll make it

xoxo [prod. Varela Katana]

you don’t know a thing about about me
i don’t either though
i’m off way  too many xannies i been talkin slow
i feel dead
wont you please just let me rest
i’m stressed
fuck
i can be whatever you want
on whatever i just popped
call me baby
call me crazy
we’ll just wait and see

wont you set me free
i’m lost
i hate that i cannot stop
give me pills bitch i’m gun pop
on god
i got problems baby
wont you come and save me
i’m so sick of fucking waiting
for you 
i just can’t wait all night boo
ill give you my number
for you to come through
for you to come over
find shit to do
yeah
i think i died im sorry

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idiedsrry w/ ifeelsosmall [prod. saint mike]

made this on insta live lol

lyrics:
you just tore a hole in my heart
i should’ve known your game from the start
im all alone i need to restart 
pour acetone all over my scars
i’m gone
nauseas off the oxy
fuck the cost
whyd you never call me
pills popped
it turns me to a zombie
i’m so lost
nobody can stop me

life is pain
i’m feeling like shit
i don’t know why i even exist
i tried to find a reason
but i decided living’s a bitch
you don’t care at all so i’m faded
lost my mind i’m way too sedated
cant stop it i’m always failing
i am not a soul worth saving 
not a souls worth saving
i feel like the whole world hates
i wish you wouldn’t play me
i just really need you baby

i hate the way that i feel
life doesn’t even feel real
i’m trapped inside my head again
these drugs my only friends
these drugs my only friends
i’m trapped inside my head again
i miss you baby
wont you come back and save me
i don’t know how to cope without you
honestly i’m so blue
i feel like i’m losing myself when i am around you
yeah
baby i know
you don’t even wanna take it slow
honestly we should just go hit the road
maybe do a couple tours
and do a couple shows
i just wanna see the world with you
i just wanna make your dreams come true
you said that you love me
hope you do
cuz u already know that i love you

acetone [prod. Atis x Deucesrk x CV]

ima hit your line up ina minute
you told me you loved me
but we both know that you didn’t
love it when you fuck me
it feels like i’m dreaming baby
i hope that you can save me

pulled up to the party fucked up
and shawty ain’t like it
i feel like i’m losing my soul
and girl i can’t fight this
i just need more pills in my skull 
before i get violent
yeah ay
before i get violent
you said that you needed me
but you ain’t really need a thing
no baby
you can’t fucking save me
i can’t trust a soul
already know your gunna play me

pulled up to the party fucked up
and shawty ain’t like it
i just need more pills in my skull 
before i get violent
oh
i can’t live my life if i’m not off a benzo
lil shawty grinding on me
she ain’t wanna take it slow
oh oh oh
shawty all up on me she ain’t wanna take it slow
life feels like a dream when i be off a benzo
i’m off too much i lost my soul

i ain’t gotta lot on my mind
except for you girl
i just wanna take up your time
and that’s the truth girl
i wanna make it to the bag
shawty on my lap
she be all up on me while i countin up my stacks
on god
if you gotta problem with me think that can be solved
lil bitch jus pull up
what the fuck
i been really living dangerous but this shit is fucking fun

snorting oxy straight to my lungs
i’m know i’m goin crazy
just wanna be xanned out for fun
so i’ll be chillin baby
i need another fuckin bar
already on three but i ain’t feel that shit at all

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pulledup2thapartyfuckedup

Ninomi - Время (sound By Blesc)

spoti

Бута в аниму :33)) АХАХА!!! (ft. sacristain)

life’s strange
everyday feels like it’s a game
might just die tonight
suicide
too many too many pills
i
my stomachs full of pills my lungs
are full of smoke cuz i can’t trust
nobody
i don’t think that she loves me
or does she 
cuz i can never get enough
i’m stuck on pills i need more drugs
i found another plug
but her love just ain’t enough
love is just another drug
cuz the moment she’s leaving
i’m feeling empty

and this life is deceiving
so please don’t tempt me
i might end it
not alive just pretending
i’m just pretending
yah
i’m just pretending till the moment life is ending
i’m stuck
i don’t wanna die like this
but i need more drugs
i can’t lie this shit
has got me so fucked up
yah
got me so fucked up
yah
this love or lust?

temptme [prod. chavez x itsmalloy]

Dacdplays - TIME
(prod.graydawn)
(Lyrics)

(Intro/Verse 1)
As she sees past 
the time will go
But not slow 
And she’ll find 
That everyone will run
From her
This thing it seems to comfort her


(2)
She’s evil
But evil in pain 
I know her
And know that she’s sane 
Deep down I feel all her pain
Go back I know we’re the same  


(Hook)
My mind won’t fall back in
Then she tried to call again
I’ll give it all back
won’t fall back
Now she’s called back,
 All that
she can crawl back 
againn


(Verse 2)
Hurry just hurry 
“I know”
I worry, I worry
I’ve sang you hurt me
You hurt me the same
It’s been bad so now I’ll hang


(Outro) 
Some things are meant
And not
But how could I make it stop 
The day you walked away
I wish I had made you stay..



(Contact Me)
@dacdplays
www.instagram.com/dacdplayss/
dacdplaysmusic@gmail.com

TIME

Ollane - Poem

luna has risen

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this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

staring at my ceiling
hiding from my feelings
tired of the same shit
tell my mom im leaving

playing playstation
ill call you back later
im so sick of waiting
can you do me a favor

just leave me alone when i ask you to
silence by myself is all i ask of you
you tell me that you care but i dont think you do
i need to get away i just cant deal with you (x2)

this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

i just need to move on
ive been waiting too long
to feel like myself again
to feel like i never left

hiding from the gallows
hang my head downlow
walking in the shadows
feeling fucking shallow

just leave me alone when i ask you to
silence by myself is all i ask of you
you tell me that you care but i dont think you do
i need to get away i just cant deal with you

this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

luna

download

lite brite ✨

I'll always love you.

- Much thanks to Idst and 990x :)

rain

[prod. jakkyboi]

so tie me
to the train tracks 
light me up like a blunt when you face that
hate me 
when I’m dead and 
gone so far but I’ll stay in your head and

Tie me to the train tracks
Tie me to the train tracks
Tie me to the train tracks
Leave me there on my own dont look back

I dont really wanna talk i wanna walk away
Shawty say she wanna fuck i tell her not today
I been busy so i cant respond to all the hate
I dont fuck with laziness because i cant relate

this that sad shit
this that don’t show your dad shit
this that “oh this whole wave just a fad shit”

Pop 4 xans then it all fades to black shit
16 bars gonna cost you a rack bitch
 
Wrote you a note but i just wanna burn it
Life is a gift but i want to return it
Crashin the whip got trash in the bin
Say its just words but it cuts deep like a surgeon

just words but im fucked up from the hurt and
Your lies got me tossing and turning
Notes from the class that we had back in high school
Joking about how i want to be like you

so tie me
to the train tracks 
light me up like a blunt when you face that
hate me 
when I’m dead and 
gone so far but I’ll stay in your head and

Tie me to the train tracks
Tie me to the train tracks
Tie me to the train tracks
Leave me there on my own dont look back

tie me to the train tracks

Everyone asks me is like how do I even do this
I don't know maybe it was by luck or maybe it was by god
But

We on the top of this car
We leaving the past so far
That's the way to do it
Love each other so dearly
Its foolish
Sunset is failing me 
I just want to see you in the daylight
Not the nighttime 
But your eyes are so bright
I can see that shit lit 
In my own darkness
We on the top of this car
We leaving the past so far
That's the way to do it
Love each other so dearly
Its foolish

And I feel it now
Call me when the suns up
Love your smile baby 
Maybe we can make up
Turn on the radio
Did you wrong I'm sorry tho
Play along and we can dance slow yea
Was it something I said
We can go to my bed
Take a night off chill here instead
I don't want to be alone anymore

[Failed sunset.]{ft. Kuzumellow}

replaced

just another day

Anxiety Is Real (Prod. By Syndrome)

i watch my life as its falling apart
but i feel fine as i lie in the dark
this life’s a game and i’m playing my part
soon i’ll burn out like a dying star

without the drugs i’d never make it
the only way i’m getting by is staying faded
yeah
but half these plugs be selling fake shit
it got me feeling kinda off, they prolly laced it
whoa
i’m fucking wasted
i feel like gucci, take a shot right to the face bitch
you never wanted me so that’s the way i face it
i shouldn’t even give a fuck, ‘cause girl you’re basic

i’m over that chick
and i’m so far gone
i might crash my whip
just for the hell of it
‘cause i don’t give a shit
i’m fucking done with this
i’m screaming fuck you bitch

big bands in my pocket
yeah
wallet chains wit no wallet
yeah
i got plans to be up next
yeah
i won’t stop till it happens
yeah

i smoked an 8th and now i’m cruising
all i really want in life is to make music
but everybody fucking hates me
my dad despises what i’m doin, says i’m lazy
well, you can hate me from afar but i’ll keep moving
‘cause i got big ass fucking goals while y’all ain’t do shit
you waste your youth going to college like you’re s’posed to
i spend it doing what i want while making big moves

oh my god i think i miss you
i don’t wanna but i think i do
i just wish i didn’t miss you
i don’t wanna but i think it’s true

end of the world and i feel fine [prod. sketchmyname]

Rest In Peace Mr.A this ones for you.
produced by : @mental
mixed by :@kammichaelmusic

Gone But Not Forgotten... ft.Snøw (prod.mental)

hydrocodone in my blood stream yah
and it got me feeling lovely yah
she keeps telling me that i’m up nex
she keeps telling me she loves me yah
ay
can you tell me are you down for a joyride
i think i might fall in love witcha tonight
how could this be wrong when it feels right
we could play your favorite song in the moonlight
yeah ay
in the moonlight
we could play your favorite song in the moonlight
took a couple blunts on the road so we can vibe
shawty we might fall in love if the moods right
like right now
always off the drugs in my own hell
but i couldn’t give a fuck i hate myself
so i’m ringing up the plug i might as well
popped another pill it don’t feel real
she keeps telling me that i’m gun end up killed
fuck it i don’t care i need more pills
you could catch me poppin norco till i’m ill

hydrocodone in my blood stream yah
and it got me feeling lovely yah
she keeps telling me that i’m up nex
she keeps telling me she loves me yah
she keeps telling me she’s fuckin wit it
then girl come thru lets make some bad decisions
i jus wanna cuff you boo and that’s my only mission
i’ll jus sip my juice till i’m lookin livid
she told me to tell the truth she’s fuckin wit my vision
fuckin wit the flows inside in my head
i don’t think that i could ever rest
i’ll keep poppin pills until i’m dead
nothin ever works i try my best
i try my

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inthaMoonlite [prod. thatboineco]

sokai - sorry (feat. chloe)

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sorry that i'm not enough..

used to think that it was something 
guess not
then you left me like i’m nothing
what the fuck
that shit hurt like a concussion
uppercut bitch
you ain’t talking money that’s the end of the discussion
you just cut me deep
you just let me bleed
goddamn
what the fuck

i’m fucked up
i just bought a hundred xannies from the plug
holy shit and now i’m sippin on this rum
i must have death wish
think i’m dead bitch
take me from this earth
cuz i can’t take all-