told myself to ride my skateboard been starin at this screen for 3 days i dont wanna eat or try i dont care anymore just typin what feels like. please i invite ya

All track by benedixhion are so cool and this one is no exception

welcome to my hometown everything is change now

🗡️ʘ‿O|×‿×🔪

can you tell me where im going baby
pretty sure that i been going crazy
i been living life like its a fucking daydream
yeah
its a fucking daydream
i feel so numb
you abuse me with your love
that shit got me so fucked up
i only feel okay on drugs

you dont wanna love me trust me 
im hooked on codependency 
baby you gotta stay away from me 
im crazy 
nobody is saving me im waiting 
for an exit to the next bitch 
text quick 
got me feeling fucking restless
im a dead bitch 
got me screaming fuck it 
ending the discussion 
used to feel in love 
but now you got me feeling nothing

what the fuck
i hate you
this aint love
cant change you
i cant but
ima be fine uh ima be good
im poppin my xans and smoking backwoods
i should
be fine
i dont need you in my life
you dont make me feel alive
i just wanna feel alright
 but i think i might fucking die

daydrream w/ ifeelsosmall [prod lil buscuit]

you don’t know a thing about about me
i don’t either though
i’m off way  too many xannies i been talkin slow
i feel dead
wont you please just let me rest
i’m stressed
fuck
i can be whatever you want
on whatever i just popped
call me baby
call me crazy
we’ll just wait and see

wont you set me free
i’m lost
i hate that i cannot stop
give me pills bitch i’m gun pop
on god
i got problems baby
wont you come and save me
i’m so sick of fucking waiting
for you 
i just can’t wait all night boo
ill give you my number
for you to come through
for you to come over
find shit to do
yeah
i think i died im sorry

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idiedsrry w/ ifeelsosmall [prod. saint mike]

MOG - WILL SHE STAY???!

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PPL THT I LUV THE MOST

Please Don't Shoot

Albatross

(prod. blade901)
soundcloud.com/blade_901

[lyrics]

ya i wake up at night again
breaking entitlement 
folding my hands to the back of my head
obvious tension, furious silence
cover in canvas in august.

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

you taught me how to not be there
while mommy always taught me not to stop and stare
these people i erase from my thoughts go where?
i'm sick of every lie that i cry with swear

it's been a long time, i'm feelin like shit
pick up the gun, now i'm wid it
i'm feelin fucked up, i wanna get buck
just lost my mind like i'm vision
blood splattered all in my kitchen
she wanna think that it's pretend 
not comin back for a minute
i'm gone but i'm still singin
 
she's so cold
hold me close and dont let me go
baby that's fine
you leave me alone all the time
oh yeah, please tell me was it worth it
too many fucking voices they're echoing
in my head
oh wait, now tell me where your hiding
left me with nothing when I was ten
but now i'm crying

i see you stand all alone
outside our house i watched you go
not enough to feel bad, just enough to let go
every thought in my head eats away at my soul
mom and dad are upset, I don't know what to do
i was just a young boy crying alone in my room

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

don't enter pt. 3 (prod. blade901)

lyrics:

i feel like i'm dying
i'm tired of crying
the pain inside's violent
but my screams are silent
i know that you hate me
why's everyone play me
i'm so used to failing
rejection don't phase me

hit a blunt in the back of the bus
'cause it's freezing as fuck
and i'm in love with drugs
i hate that i'm never enough
so you fell out of love
and that shit really sucks

it's sunny outside of my window
i lie in my sins though
and make sure the blinds closed
i hate that i always feel alone
have no place to call home
i'm better off solo

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my screams are silent (prod. tothegood)

convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk

lyrics:
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
used to be gunshots
now i see teslas
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
i don't want jokes
i want answers
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
i was on the road
you was out doing lame stuff
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot

everyday i feel the same
it's like why'm i not okay
why can't i just be happy for once
i'm always stuck in place
i don't think i can be saved
i have always been this way
i am dying in my room
and it's the middle of the day oh
feel my body die slow
i been feeling so low
i should help myself
but i don't even wanna try though
feelings don't sway me
everybody hates me
think i'm going crazy
feel like this on the daily

wasted my youth

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benedixhion x convolk - wasted my youth [prod. curtains]

worried sick

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Check Out The Producer:
Soundcloud: @lilghosty00
Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCVj24MJaGwohHDmmbfQ6Frw

Lyrics
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If you hate me now wait 'till you see me on shit
Fucked up in the back of the new whip
Write another track while I'm in my all black drip
With a brand new bitch
Baby one more kiss
You know I like that

Right now I feel on top of the world
And I ain't coming down
I ain't stopping now
Miss me when I'm not around

I ain't lie to my girl
So I mean it when Imma make it now
She hop in the whip
When I scream fuck this town

Nobody knows me
Y'all just like who you think that I am
Because how I show me
I'm on my lonely
But I'm just fucking fine with that
'Cause nobody owns me

I've been working non-stop
Working on a new drop
Making sure it's top notch on my own
Yeah I think about her a lot
Sometimes I wish I could stop
Instead I smoke on some pot all alone

All alone, all alone
Instead I'm smoking on thrax all alone
On my own, on my own
Imma make it to the top on my own

If you hate me now wait 'till you see me on shit
Fucked up in the back of the new whip
Write another track while I'm in my all black drip
With a brand new bitch
Baby one more kiss
You know I like that

Right now I feel on top of the world
And I ain't coming down
I ain't stopping now
Miss me when I'm not around

I ain't lie to my girl
So I mean it when Imma make it now
She hop in the whip
When I scream fuck this town

They'll be jeering on the way back
Looking at my face tats
So off of my face
I don't know where my face at
I don't really give a fuck
Imma make it on my own two
You can hate me all you want
I don't even know you

Right now I feel on top of the world
And I ain't coming down
I ain't stopping now
Miss me when I'm not around

I ain't lie to my girl
So I mean it when Imma make it now
She hop in the whip
When I scream fuck this town

(Outro)
Where is my mind
Where is my mind

One More Kiss

iTunes

One More Kiss [Prod. Lil Ghosty]

[+] i just wanna die slow.. see me from the blunt glow
* featuring @nicoteenninyo * prod by @metlast *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/gxxBsbHSbkU

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[intro: seejayxo]
i just wanna die slow
see me from the blunt glow
with my blinds closed
burning up the sky oh oh ya

[hook: nicoteen ninyo]
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?

[verse: seejayxo]
try and get me now ya
fucked up off the sound oh
i smoke like a pound ya
so high off the ground oh
you cannot touch me you basic
i roll a blunt then i face it
wonder why they always hatin
i know you know i'ma make it
so just face it,
i won't say shit, i hold back,
i don't know why i'm sad, shit
i forgot my past 
ion think i'm that bad
i want a big truck and a benz
get fucked up wit my friends
out in LA til i'm dead, LA til i'm dead

[hook: nicoteen ninyo + seejayxo]
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
(i just wanna die slow, fuck up out my life hoe)
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully  
(write my death note, i just want a slit throat)
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
(i just wanna die slow, see me from the blunt glow)
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully  
(with my blinds closed, burning up the sky oh)
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?

die slow

+ visuals

die slow (feat. nicoteen ninyo) *MUSIC VIDEO IN DESC*

screaming into the void of nothingness
111

burnout

feels like love but i know it isn’t
i’m so damn numb who’m i kidding
i hate life i wish that i didn’t
i’m poppin percs just to fix it
but i know that i’ll never fit in
an outlier to the human race
i’m a lost soul and i’m drifting
i wish that i could just be erased
i hate the me that i have become
i’m just a fiend and i need more drugs
off a thirty i’m so fucked up
i’m running out i best hit the plug
i took a journey with no way back ay
i got money i’m chasing so ima make that ay
she jus pass me a swisher so ima face that ay
if you ain’t talkin benjis then just get outta my face
please let me lie here
i wanna die here
i’m so sick of this life
i wanna give into my fears

pain in my head guess i’m broken
i’m already dead they don’t notice

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its2much [prod. zach sutton]

yuh
oh whoa
i don’t really know what
to do
i jus wanna go back
to you
i hate that you’re really gone
can’t take being alone

yuh
i know
you aint really wanna hold me close
you just couldn’t wait to let me go
oh
so let me go
i’m turning to the tabs and the shrooms
i can see the energy in this room
i’ll leave from this vicinity to the moon
but the tears keep falling for you

what’s next
i ain’t really wanna another ex
can we just talk you saw my texts
please don’t leave me here on read 
i’m begging
for you to come save me
the simulations breaking
everybody here is faking
nobody gives a damn
i need you
you don’t need me
everything in life is fleeting
you say you’ll always be there
but i know one day you’ll leave me 
popped off
i jus wanna pull up in a
droptop
so i gotta keep on grinding no i
cant stop
everyday is a reminder
that my soul is gone
im so fucking lost

im falling for you
ion even care if you knew 
gotta cut the past off
start new
baby just back off
were through
baby just say u aint have time for me
but u do with your friends i know ur not busy
now u wonder why i always act all pissy
i know ur doing shit and i know u dont miss me
i dont see us
falling in love
you took whats mine
now i am stuck

letmeGO ft. heylog [thatboineco]

✖️Unfamiliar to people🛸
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