if i ever leave w/ bixby (prod. tennis player)

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pretty but toxic

ignorance w/ roan

produced by Bhertuy 

lyrics:

My heart is turning sour
I’m tired of this sorrow
Oh why oh why oh why
 
Can’t get you out my head
I wish that I was dead
But I'm in love with you
I'll stay alive instead
l wanna say a million things to you
I feel the barrier holding up between me and you
Cause I can’t figure out whatever intends you have
If you want me to slide
Or should I just leave your side
Don’t play no games with me
I see everything that you never wanted me to see
Heart made out of paper
I'm asking for a favor
I want you to promise me that you would never date her
 
My heart is turning sour
I'm tired of this sorrow
Oh why oh why oh why
You don’t know how much I miss spending my time with you
I would give it up for you
Yes anything for you
I don’t wanna lose your touch
So I'm not fucking up
I know it for a fact that you would keep my trust
You don’t know how much i miss spending my time with you
I would give it up for you
Yes anything for you
I don’t wanna lose your touch
So I'm not fucking up
I know it for a fact that you would keep my trust

dance with me

produced by Bhertuy

Lyrics:

Baby you showed me love
And I showed it back
So why aren’t you texting me saying all that
I fantasize
How you’re in my life
Taking care of me
You’re right by my side
Right now you hate me
I feel so shitty
Only cause I’ve been attached to you lately
Baby forgive me
I’m acting so silly
Let me sing one song for you ‘fore you leave me
 
Baby you showed me love
And I showed it back
So why aren’t you texting me saying all that
I fantasize
How you’re in my life
Taking care of me
You’re right by my side
Right now you hate me
I feel so shitty
It’s only cause I’ve been attached to you lately
Baby forgive me
I’m acting silly
Let me sing one song for you ‘fore you leave me
 
 
Why don’t you reciprocate everything I do for you
You’re just like a broken mirror I can’t even fix you back
Said you wanted me to come here soon as I’m here you’re at
Another person’s house you could’ve told me that you’re attached
To him
Not me
I’m just a remedy to you
I guess it's sad to see its you
You chose him over me that’s you
 
And I showed it back
So why aren’t you texting me saying all that
I fantasize
How you’re in my life
Taking care of me
You’re right by my side
Right now you hate me
I feel so shitty
It’s only cause I’ve been attached to you lately
Baby forgive me
I’m acting silly
Let me sing one song for you ‘fore you leave me
 
And I showed it back
So why aren’t you texting me saying all that
I fantasize
How you’re in my life
Taking care of me
You’re right by my side
Right now you hate me
I feel so shitty
It’s only cause I’ve been attached to you lately
Baby forgive me
I’m acting silly
Let me sing one song for you ‘fore you leave me
 
 
It’s sad to say
My feelings gone
I’ve been waiting for way too fucking long
What time is it
My time is up
Turn me to a fucker that don’t give a fuck
I spy with my little eye she’s surprised
She don’t know I know that she commit crimes
You’re filled with lies but the type to deny
I’m satisfied with the size of my lies

broken mirror

someone else

Produced by Bhertuy & Yeezo

Hate how this turned out
You’re still mad at me
It haunts me in my sleep
Fucked up my self esteem
You know none of us was right all along
So there’s no point telling lies
I hope you can make a song out of this when you degrade my life
Don’t get how you’re never past things I left behind for heights
You bring me back to places I left long ago behind

She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me

Even say I like me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
Now I’m very fucking sure that you defo despise me
In another universe I know that you’re my wifey
Do you remember why I left ur house that night when I said bye to you
Do you remember how I felt when you called me and told me that I hate you
Do you remember how I felt when I took care the 3am of you who’s drunk as fuck
Do you remember how I felt when you took back the love I gave to you for someone else

She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when i know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me

Endlessly feeling my type of insecurity
I hate how this all happened from one night of routine
Endlessly feeling my type of insecurity
I hate how this all happened from one night of routine

endlessly feeling my type of insecurity

produced by me

baby please don’t play no games wit me
my friends been telling me that u tryna fw me
i told them don’t worry bout nothing i got it locked
u the only one that understood my paper heart

every single day i sit in pure dismay
u the only one that brought me out this way
personally wanna thank u for everything
possibly u the one that i wanna date

doesn’t everything seem too perfect for me to fuck it up
but i took it for granted and went for lust instead of love
i’m a shitty person i’ll admit that i did have it rough
but it’s not an excuse to throw ur love in the fucking dust

baby i’m sorry for everything
i mean it i didn’t write this out just for me to sing
trust me i’ve grown as a person and i would’ve changed
for u my love id do anything i won’t stay the same

woke up on the wrong side of my bed
now i’m stuck thinking bout my death
rewind to the day i wasn’t dead
i thought bout why i wasn’t dead

woke up on the wrong side of my bed
now i’m stuck thinking bout my death
rewind to the day i wasn’t dead
i thought bout why i wasn’t dead

baby u my remedy
to my insanity
ur the reason why im still alive why i can breathe
baby if u go im scared that i won’t feel relieved
i might get way too stressed but it’s my fault that im

fucked up in the head
u my only friend
that gets me fed
i said what i said
u make me feel better when i’m dead

every single day i sit in pure dismay
u the only one that brought me out this way
personally wanna thank u for everything
possibly u the one that i wanna date

paper heart

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lyrics:

baby i’m back to square one
where the hell r u
a single reassurance
wouldn’t fail to ease my mood
fucking forget it
u left b4 i got to u
rinse and regret
ur single action that caused us to
go back to square one

we didn’t need to take a look to notice that we're regressing
in a picture perfect world where it wouldn’t get depressing
i’m standing by you

it took you forever to notice that you no longer need me
like the way u did before whenever i barely knew me
i found myself but lost you

when the snow hits you’ll intrude
i can’t be lying to myself bout how you move
absence holds control

square one

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lyrics:
if kissing him goodbye
was ur way to play it safe
then leaving u by five
shouldn’t make u misbehave
he needed u inside
but u didn’t wanna stay
a needle in my eye
will be the reason that

i won’t b the first one
stepping out of here
out of fear
watched them say ur name
it changed the atmosphere
blood was smeared

first five weeks
you’re held wit love
next five years
you’ll hold a grudge

Newport between ur lips
i’ll light it for u
before u ash it out
il take it from u

leaving you by five

far off memories; scattered dreams

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lyrics:

[intro]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[verse 1]
got your hopes up just to watch me let you down
a better shot you’d have if i’m not around, my love
i tried to be your hero
but I’m too cold for you now
so i’ll keep my all from you
until i’m dead in the ground
risen up from hell
kiss and never tell
broken as i fell
a happy story sells
living as a shell
killed my former self
no way you could help
so baby try not to dwell

[chorus 1]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[verse 2]
day in
day out
spending my life tryna break out
was focused too much on the payout
lost faith now
ain’t no doubt
left all of the homies on read
not getting sleep cause i’m working instead
working to make sure my family’s fed
if i can’t protect her i’d rather be dead
so
took a risk and now i’m paying with my life
it’s kinda funny making money off of lies
i try my best but even then, will it suffice?
in keeping everyone that’s close to me alive and well
guess time will tell
my minds confined and tied to hell
i’m sorry
i want you to eat, so i’ll stay starving
i’d much rather bleed than leave you falling
than leave you falling apart
make no mistakes where i’m going, i should have known from the start
it takes a break down to know who you are
it’s time to
to wake now i’m marked to restart again

[chorus 2]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[outro]
stay awake to watch you
stomach aches as knees go weak

ignorance w/ roan

Bhertuy

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