CHORUS:

my eyes roll back
the skies fade to black
nothing stays the same
and i wish it wouldn’t change
the clouds are looking gray
as my colors fade away
and i cant tell what’s real and what is not
anymore
my life’s becoming a chore

VERSE:

(becoming a chore)

b-been wasting my time 
trying to find
happiness in that
that don’t feel right
how might i
survive this tragic life

(how might i survive)

i wake up and complain 
about the day 
before it’s even begun 
am i the only one
that feels this way
i cant look at my own face

BRIDGE:

to bare witness to face the facts that i just go on living the same boring shit… i cant fuckin do this


CHORUS:

my eyes roll back
the skies fade to black
nothing stays the same
and i wish it wouldn’t change
the clouds are looking gray
as my colors fade away
and i cant tell what’s real and what is not
anymore
my life’s becoming a chore

my life's becoming a chore (metlast)

Main Artist: lil XipZ
Featuring: @nevrwrld
Production: @shxdy808
Mixing: lil XipZ x nevrwrld
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LYRICS: 

[Chorus:lil XipZ]
i know that im losing feelings again
i wanna find them but i cant seem to help myself
cuz no matter how i try, i always seem to tell my pretty little lies 

and i know that i shouldnt but i always do
trust me girl it hurts me too
cuz i try my best to be honest
why cant i ever be honest with you? 

[Bridge: lil XipZ]
why cant i ever be honest with you?
worried about things that i cannot control
oh oh
oh oh 

[verse:kevrwrld]
pretty little lies cant go through this again
tears falling right down to the floor again
overthinking everything in my head again
am i o
im not enough 
don't worry about the things i used to say
dont worry about the problems in my brain
i know im not enough 

[Chorus:lil XipZ]
i know that im losing feelings again
i wanna find them but i cant seem to help myself
cuz no matter how i try, i always seem to tell my pretty little lies 

and i know that i shouldnt but i always do
trust me girl it hurts me too
cuz i try my best to be honest
why cant i ever be honest with you?

Pretty Little Lies (w/ nevrwrld)[Prod.Shxdy808]

produced by soloft and lavendertxwn
mixed and mastered by mvø

I try my best to let go of the things I can’t control
This constant state of finding things to hold to when I fall has gotten worse 
I wasn’t perfect, maybe I deserve it 

The sun coming up is not the same since you left
Yeah, it’s hard to accept that everything I’ve come to love now hurts me
Should’ve never said I was you one and only
And still I try my best to breathe slow
Say you love, I was nervous, so I stared out your window
Never knew someone could make me feel this low
No need to talk, I’ll just go

Tried to make you happy I won’t leave unless you say so
Never wanted me but I was there when you got low
Switch up on the scene I see you act like you don’t know
Don’t care if you’re fake don’t hit me up when you’re solo

And I don’t really have the words to say
The ones to make you stay with me all day
Never thought you’d ever make me feel this way
Just let me go cuz now I can’t stay

no need to talk, i'll just go w/ flowers for you (prod. soloft x lavendertxwn)

Coffin [+ nate2timez]

i dont mind if im just wasting time
im alright when i see you smile
fuck my life 
why did you leave me
please dont cry
when you're reading
what i wrote you
sorry that i broke you

i dont wanna be okay
when i cant be with you
im drowning in this fucking pain
i needed you
i wanna kiss you in the rain
i miss seeing you
i guess now its too late to change
i needed you

when i see you smile (splashgvng x jolst)

[featuring @crizzywhite & @xipz_sad]

Lyrics:
(soon)

grand prix. (ft. Crizzy White & lil XipZ) [+happytears]

losing sleep and its just getting harder,
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. domesticsoul -+-
(lyrics)
ive been losing my sleep, and i dont wanna see the day end
ive been losing my sleep, and i dont wanna see the day end
ive been losing feeling, when i feel it in my head
you been so damn jealous, im just talking to all of my friends
cant make you my everything, trying to push me around just
rest a little, while you are thinking about me
life's so little, just want to clear my own head
but it doesn't work, it never works

it never works, just want to clear my head
while you are thinking about me.

i been losing all my sleep
i dont wanna see the day end
when i feel it all in my head
i dont wanna feel a thing
these thoughts are filled with suicide
never to be around again
a hidden message, held within

made and finished 7/12/22

losing sleep (domesticsoul)

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161 and https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

pekarot's yt: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBVicoij06gb6PA2rapkqFg

vito's yt: https://www.youtube.com/c/Vito2300


/lyrics/

i can't sleep in this empty bed
i can't think with this faulty head
i can still taste that lead
with every word everything we said 

look at myself and i think i don't know you
screaming for help but the sound can't break through
plenty space for you here we could mold in my room
this abyss in my heart is made for two

my throat is clogged no air seeps through
everything i should've said is stuck there too
and i thought i could break this barrier I've built
but I'm not strong enough so I'll stay in this filth

i can feel the traction drag me to you
feel it in my atoms i still need you
stuck inside of what we had and i can never be free
i will never get past what you have shown me

my mind is barren i stare at my ceiling
i promise id talk if i knew what i was feeling
bruises on my body think my skin is peeling
im sorry i wish i could be more appealing to you


Unsaid (Pekarot x vito)

SoundCloud struck the original and denied my claim even though i own a lease. so here's the song unmonetized. sorry for the delay.
"lifefuckinhatesme" track 1.
prod. metlast and 5head

lyrics:
i been tryin my whole life
to figure sumn out
but nothin ever goes right
and i thought i was gonna be okay
when you came into my life
but now you're gone
and im pretty sure its my fault
guess you couldnt handle me after all?
and i swear to god this is the last time
cuz all this bullshit weighing down on my mind

its weighing down and its been so fucking long
since i felt okay
im running out of things to say
feelin so fucked up every day

and it never seems like i can ever figure out
wtf is going on inside my mind
but im trying, believe me im trying
but i swear to god it seems like
they're always lyin
so idk why i keep on tryin
i just wanna let it go
and ion really know
why nowhere feels like home

i just wanna go, but nowhere feels like home
i been feelin so fucked up
feelin so alone
i just wish that there was somewhere that i could fuckin go
guess ill just settle for another night stoned...

Spotify

myfault. [+metlast & 5head]

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

prod by Ryini Beats. 

this jealousy is gonna kill me.
I've learned to bite my tongue when im feeling upset.

Feels like I’m driving with my eyes closed, 
I can’t see,
And I’m upset, but it’s not down to me.
And that song you like’s been in my head since March 13’.
Just sweep me away girl, I’m down on my knees. 

And I said jealousy, is gonna kill me. 
I’ve learned to bite my tongue when I’m feeling upset.

And my eyes are green with envy,
I can’t see,
She says she “loves me”, but why won’t she just leave?
And my love you don’t know, got me down on my knees,
My heart is blue girl, one touch makes me freeze

And my love, you don’t know the way you make me feel.
X2.

And I said jealousy, is gonna kill me.
I’ve learned to bite my tongue when I’m feeling upset.

And my darling,
I’m tied down to you, now I can’t move,
Please tell me baby, what are you gonna do?
I can’t take a heartbreak, I’ll cry on my own,
I said the jealousy kills me, let me die on my own

And I said jealousy, is gonna kill me,
I’ve learned to bite my tongue when I’m feeling upset.

thisjealousyisgonnakillme

❤ IV | Stay safe, | ❤ 19yo
˅˅ i destroyed myself to repair you, ˅˅
i miss your voice,
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