giving my all still wasnt enough,
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. idly blare -+-
(lyrics)
i been lost again
these thoughts theyre freezing my brain
and the mirror is a portal to take me away
are you gone again?
always when i need you the most
can i call a friend?
or will they all be gone now

what did it really mean?
when you left here from my life,
why is this happening?
tearing me from the inside.
can we restart again?
oh how ive messed up this time
was that my final chance?
i guess youre gone for good now.

and now youre gone for good,
always thought that i am the worst
and its been killing me,
when you speak bad to your friends
i am sorry,
i was never the best
i was trying hard,
i really gave you my all.

made 7/7/2022

what did it really mean anyway (idly blare)

losing sleep and its just getting harder,
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. domesticsoul -+-
(lyrics)
ive been losing my sleep, and i dont wanna see the day end
ive been losing my sleep, and i dont wanna see the day end
ive been losing feeling, when i feel it in my head
you been so damn jealous, im just talking to all of my friends
cant make you my everything, trying to push me around just
rest a little, while you are thinking about me
life's so little, just want to clear my own head
but it doesn't work, it never works

it never works, just want to clear my head
while you are thinking about me.

i been losing all my sleep
i dont wanna see the day end
when i feel it all in my head
i dont wanna feel a thing
these thoughts are filled with suicide
never to be around again
a hidden message, held within

made and finished 7/12/22

losing sleep (domesticsoul)

ill make it up to you if you give me a chance
i dont know if i'll ever be okay again
these wounds you gave they left scars unseen
and i don't think that i'll ever be okay with this
it's atrocious what you did
my whole heart's been broke from this
fight back i tried but i can't take it
you're an expert when you fake it
even though the love's been gone there's still traces

she dont love me anymore
at least thats what i think
cuz i'm not the same anymore
idk if she's okay with this

you say what i did is atrocious i don't remember a thing
i wonder if one day we can start it all over again

oh girl u know i'd like it if you could give me a chance
but i don't care
i'm good on my own
i need me some time to work on myself

gimme the face
or gimme a hug
i just need a fix i don't really need u
i don't got no feels
i'll jump down the hill
but before i'll see if you can get back with me

J'ressens pas grand chose mais c'est sympa d'être à tes côtés
(I don't feel much but its good being by your side)
Me demande pas c'que j'pense certaines questions seront sautées
(don't ask me what i think, some questions won't get answers)

ill make it up to you if you give me a chance
i dont know if i'll ever be okay again
these wounds you gave they left scars unseen
and i don't think that i'll ever be okay with this
it's atrocious what you did
my whole heart's been broke from this
fight back i tried but i can't take it
you're an expert when you fake it
even though the love's been gone there's still traces

give me a chance ft. noxiousnights (mackk)

hello

she seems so nice
but the devils inside her eyes
imma pay my price
maybe all I need is this device

cause we ain’t in harmony 
we’re by ourselves 
these words drain out of me
like bullet shells
need to stock my armory
I’m living hell
say you need all of me
I’ll wish you well

when the sun sets
but the nights gone
I need you here
in my arms
I’m a toxin
I’m an addict
where’d my friends go
I have had it

I wake up
and never feel the same
it’s tough luck
but your the one to blame
red cuffs 
a devil in dismay
float up
im drowning in the pain

cause we ain’t in harmony 
we’re by ourselves 
these words drain out of me
like bullet shells
need to stock my armory
I’m living hell
say you need all of me
I’ll wish you well

armory (splashgvng)

grief

grief ft. Teddyboi (branwen)

You, 
You don't need a friend. 
You don't need a helping hand. 
You, 
You don't need anyone at all. 
So why am I so cold in the Fall?

Shelter me, 
From any little thing you could think of. 
Cause I don't have a friend, 
And I need one. 
I'm lucky if I even think to be one. 
And I'm sorry but I haven't been myself. 
And I'm sorry but I know it doesn't to help. 
I could worry for my presence in your life. 
Or I could try to go and make it right. 

I don't know how to help you, 
But I want to. 
Cause everything I need, 
Everything I need, 
Lives inside you. 
And I treat you like you're nothing, 
But you're everything. 
I hope that I afford you a wedding ring. 
I'm broke, 
And dumb, 
And messing up. 
Catching up, 
I can tell, 
That you really don't need me. 

Here's a necklace to make up. 
Here's another year face up. 
But I'm laying face down on the ground. 
Wonder why you let me take up. 
Half of your time, 
Half of your life. 
Half of the things that I say, 
They ain't right. 
Half of the things, 
That I take, 
They ain't mine. 
But every single day, 
You rewind. 
I'm really not perfect, 
And you know it. 
Give me one shot, 
Imma blow it. 
When you crashed your car, 
I couldn't tow it. 
I'm really not great, 
If you noticed. 
Shelter me, 
From any little thing you could think of. 
Cause I don't have a friend, 
And I need one. 
I'm lucky if I even think to be one. 

I don't know how to help you, 
But I want to. 
Cause everything I need, 
Everything I need, 
Lives inside you. 
And I treat you like you're nothing, 
But you're everything. 
I hope that I afford you a wedding ring. 
I'm broke, 
And dumb, 
And messing up. 
Catching up, 
I can tell, 
That you really don't need me. 

You, 
You don't need a friend. 
You don't need a helping hand. 
You, 
You don't need anyone at all. 
So why am I so cold in the Fall?

i need you, you don't need me

Prod @horoshavibes & @kingtheta
Featuring @1endie
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I'm staying quarantined from everyone who cares for me
 
'Cause they could never really get it
I'm not shy
I'm just staying independent
I have trouble letting people in
Ask me what's my problem
Where do I begin
 
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I won't even try to hide that I don't want to socialize
'Cause I'm a wreck
I'm a recluse
 
Three days in the same shirt
What's the point of waking up if I don't gotta work
Check my phone
No missed calls
At this point I'm convinced
No one'd miss me at all
 
(Endie)
I love and hate my youth for someone like you
And you know that I don't write
My feelings for you in a notebook
A journal
Trying not to fall for
Someone like you
‘Cause you’re all I know
And you're all I want

Listen on Spotify!

Recluse w/ Endie (Prod. Horosha & King Theta)

your best is all you can do, keep trying

produced by eeryskies

cover art by Kensy Rose

LYRICS:
my words have never meant as much
as when i didn’t say them
swallowed comfort to abstain my thoughts when crying bout your heritage 
west virginia’s been a prison
locked between the maples and the
option to embrace forgiveness
from the ones you wish to love

i saw the signs, early on
tired of your monthly visits from the ghosts within the sticks
and darling
i know you’re exhausted and know time keeps moving on
from every time you heard your younger self in those old songs

and she said heal
try your best i know it’s hard
she said heal
it’s time for you to move along

every scene you acted out
i sat in the audience
watching youthful tragedy
translated to indifference
if my shaky hands could be the vessel for your soul
i’d never shake again to keep your spirit from the cold

so baby heal
no matter where you are
try to heal
remember who you are

heal [prod. eeryskies]

Loaded Gun / Weightless

LilGui34 - Momentos

Haunt me

❤ IV
˅˅ i destroyed myself to repair you, ˅˅
official bizzies archive.
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