lyrics:
I could’ve called you, even if i would
I would’ve had you, it would backfire
Nothing will make sense, long as i live
Getting little tired, imma head home
Feeling so stressed out, brain is on fire
Where's the “love me”, where is that heart
Losing emotion, breaking like glass
And i’m so broken, nothing to fix

Too late to stop me, even if i could
I would’ve loved me, bet you never would
Dousing the fire, with the kerosine
All that is trusting, burns away to ash
I don’t wanna love you, i can’t help it
You were a mind freak, playing these games
It was so trusting, knowing it’s a lie
And i’ll just sleep now, in my coffin

mindfreak. [+ 02ashes]

giving my all still wasnt enough,
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. idly blare -+-
(lyrics)
i been lost again
these thoughts theyre freezing my brain
and the mirror is a portal to take me away
are you gone again?
always when i need you the most
can i call a friend?
or will they all be gone now

what did it really mean?
when you left here from my life,
why is this happening?
tearing me from the inside.
can we restart again?
oh how ive messed up this time
was that my final chance?
i guess youre gone for good now.

and now youre gone for good,
always thought that i am the worst
and its been killing me,
when you speak bad to your friends
i am sorry,
i was never the best
i was trying hard,
i really gave you my all.

made 7/7/2022

what did it really mean anyway (idly blare)

losing sleep and its just getting harder,
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. domesticsoul -+-
(lyrics)
ive been losing my sleep, and i dont wanna see the day end
ive been losing my sleep, and i dont wanna see the day end
ive been losing feeling, when i feel it in my head
you been so damn jealous, im just talking to all of my friends
cant make you my everything, trying to push me around just
rest a little, while you are thinking about me
life's so little, just want to clear my own head
but it doesn't work, it never works

it never works, just want to clear my head
while you are thinking about me.

i been losing all my sleep
i dont wanna see the day end
when i feel it all in my head
i dont wanna feel a thing
these thoughts are filled with suicide
never to be around again
a hidden message, held within

made and finished 7/12/22

losing sleep (domesticsoul)

ill make it up to you if you give me a chance
i dont know if i'll ever be okay again
these wounds you gave they left scars unseen
and i don't think that i'll ever be okay with this
it's atrocious what you did
my whole heart's been broke from this
fight back i tried but i can't take it
you're an expert when you fake it
even though the love's been gone there's still traces

she dont love me anymore
at least thats what i think
cuz i'm not the same anymore
idk if she's okay with this

you say what i did is atrocious i don't remember a thing
i wonder if one day we can start it all over again

oh girl u know i'd like it if you could give me a chance
but i don't care
i'm good on my own
i need me some time to work on myself

gimme the face
or gimme a hug
i just need a fix i don't really need u
i don't got no feels
i'll jump down the hill
but before i'll see if you can get back with me

J'ressens pas grand chose mais c'est sympa d'être à tes côtés
(I don't feel much but its good being by your side)
Me demande pas c'que j'pense certaines questions seront sautées
(don't ask me what i think, some questions won't get answers)

ill make it up to you if you give me a chance
i dont know if i'll ever be okay again
these wounds you gave they left scars unseen
and i don't think that i'll ever be okay with this
it's atrocious what you did
my whole heart's been broke from this
fight back i tried but i can't take it
you're an expert when you fake it
even though the love's been gone there's still traces

give me a chance ft. noxiousnights (mackk)

hello

she seems so nice
but the devils inside her eyes
imma pay my price
maybe all I need is this device

cause we ain’t in harmony 
we’re by ourselves 
these words drain out of me
like bullet shells
need to stock my armory
I’m living hell
say you need all of me
I’ll wish you well

when the sun sets
but the nights gone
I need you here
in my arms
I’m a toxin
I’m an addict
where’d my friends go
I have had it

I wake up
and never feel the same
it’s tough luck
but your the one to blame
red cuffs 
a devil in dismay
float up
im drowning in the pain

cause we ain’t in harmony 
we’re by ourselves 
these words drain out of me
like bullet shells
need to stock my armory
I’m living hell
say you need all of me
I’ll wish you well

armory (splashgvng)

Big thanks to @carlby for being on this one. Mixing this was hard, because no matter what I did, everything I did to my mix made it sound worse. It got to a point where I basically just said "screw it, it's never gonna be good enough, I'm gonna drop it just how it is" so I hope you guys enjoy my suffering xD

Like A Forest Fire(Feat. Carlby) | Prod. HeyRick

prod. eeryskies


verse
im falling in love and im drowning
out
tell me about it
now
whoever you feel when my hands touch your thighs
and the feeling you get when i look in your eyes
baby im not the one you wanna fall in love with
i'm not amazing or incredible in the way
you thought of me
and i wanna hold on to you
without turning your skin blue

chorus
im drowning
with you
im drowning
with you

verse
see, you're running around and round inside of my brain
i don't wanna suffocate you with the fact that i bottle so much of my hate
and emotion, it fills me up to the brim
so many thoughts of just letting this blade to my wrists
could you handle finding me unresponsive?
i'm not afraid to love
im just afraid of
the fact that my demons are speaking in tongues
i promised you i wouldn't drag you down with me
i'll be gone when you hear this, i pray you don't miss me

chorus
baby im not the one you wanna fall in love with
i'm not amazing or incredible in the way
you thought of me
im drowning
with you
im drowning
with you

Moribund

You, 
You don't need a friend. 
You don't need a helping hand. 
You, 
You don't need anyone at all. 
So why am I so cold in the Fall?

Shelter me, 
From any little thing you could think of. 
Cause I don't have a friend, 
And I need one. 
I'm lucky if I even think to be one. 
And I'm sorry but I haven't been myself. 
And I'm sorry but I know it doesn't to help. 
I could worry for my presence in your life. 
Or I could try to go and make it right. 

I don't know how to help you, 
But I want to. 
Cause everything I need, 
Everything I need, 
Lives inside you. 
And I treat you like you're nothing, 
But you're everything. 
I hope that I afford you a wedding ring. 
I'm broke, 
And dumb, 
And messing up. 
Catching up, 
I can tell, 
That you really don't need me. 

Here's a necklace to make up. 
Here's another year face up. 
But I'm laying face down on the ground. 
Wonder why you let me take up. 
Half of your time, 
Half of your life. 
Half of the things that I say, 
They ain't right. 
Half of the things, 
That I take, 
They ain't mine. 
But every single day, 
You rewind. 
I'm really not perfect, 
And you know it. 
Give me one shot, 
Imma blow it. 
When you crashed your car, 
I couldn't tow it. 
I'm really not great, 
If you noticed. 
Shelter me, 
From any little thing you could think of. 
Cause I don't have a friend, 
And I need one. 
I'm lucky if I even think to be one. 

I don't know how to help you, 
But I want to. 
Cause everything I need, 
Everything I need, 
Lives inside you. 
And I treat you like you're nothing, 
But you're everything. 
I hope that I afford you a wedding ring. 
I'm broke, 
And dumb, 
And messing up. 
Catching up, 
I can tell, 
That you really don't need me. 

You, 
You don't need a friend. 
You don't need a helping hand. 
You, 
You don't need anyone at all. 
So why am I so cold in the Fall?

i need you, you don't need me

your best is all you can do, keep trying

produced by eeryskies

cover art by Kensy Rose

LYRICS:
my words have never meant as much
as when i didn’t say them
swallowed comfort to abstain my thoughts when crying bout your heritage 
west virginia’s been a prison
locked between the maples and the
option to embrace forgiveness
from the ones you wish to love

i saw the signs, early on
tired of your monthly visits from the ghosts within the sticks
and darling
i know you’re exhausted and know time keeps moving on
from every time you heard your younger self in those old songs

and she said heal
try your best i know it’s hard
she said heal
it’s time for you to move along

every scene you acted out
i sat in the audience
watching youthful tragedy
translated to indifference
if my shaky hands could be the vessel for your soul
i’d never shake again to keep your spirit from the cold

so baby heal
no matter where you are
try to heal
remember who you are

heal [prod. eeryskies]

produced by @itstyshii
engineered by @itstyshii

NEUROTIC

FALLING (interlude of betrayal)

❤ IV
˅˅ i destroyed myself to repair you, ˅˅
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