prod. acey

[casperrr]
i've come to realize
that i'm dumb and i despise 
myself for all those lies 
im sorry for the fight

(chorus) [casperrr] 
i really am worthless
i can't change and im trying my best
my life is nothing more than a mess
i just can't seem to get well 


[autumn]
how do i focus when locusts are biting my neck
she cut me open and tore out my chest
"i swear to god that was not my intention"
fentanyl, over her innocent jaw
now it don't matter at all
time just isn't a road
it's all that i've ever known
so when i say goodbye
there better not be tears in your eyes
cause i warned you from the start
how we'd end before we even fell apart
before we fell apart (2x)

(chorus) [casperrr & autumn]
i really am worthless
i can't change and im trying my best
my life is nothing more than a mess
i just can't seem to get well 

[casperrr]
feeling alone
turn into ash all of these bones
my demons awoke

(a crash; the scent of metal)
(strewn across the air)
steal every moment
(strewn across the air)
but what is grief?
(if one isn't wrong)

casperrr x autumndropsdead - locusts (acey ii)

Letdown

i dont wanna hesitate
wanna go with what i feel
and i look at both my hands
just to make sure im still here
and i check my pulse heartbeat
just to make sure i can hear it 
and i find the closest mirror
just to make sure im still real 
so i force myself outside
and i crawl out from my cave 
and i hear whoosh of tires
and i feel wind on my face
and i zone out for a sec
cause i was thinkin of you
i was in this nice daydream
it was only just us two
and everything was so good 
and we lived a simple life
in a little house in the woods
with the birds and butterflies

cautious and delicate 
only if its right
only if its right
let me know if

if you wanna hang sometime
on the roof of your old house
we can sit and watch the sky
n find pictures in the clouds 
when im bored i think about
how wed sit and talk for hours
but it doesnt feel that long
wasnt even keeping count 
and we held our bodies close
and you said that i was warm
and i think about it sometimes
and how i want it more
and everything is so good
and everything feels just right
like ill wake up from this dream
and its only just one night

cautious and delicate

lyrics ⬇️

options yea I don’t got a lot of em
cautious cuz I don’t wanna fall for em
nauseous these women got me sick
what did I do to deserve part of this
did nothin but they always feel a way
Think I can’t function 
well lemme say something

i been doing better than I had ever did 
I’m so used to running from anything I’m ever scared of but
but brother turn 21
so I gotta sober up tell em what’s real love 
gotta brand new appartment 
but nobody here to tell me what to start with

we shoulda restarted cuz maybe if we did we coulda been something 

broke down to nothin
you don’t tell the truth you always be sussin
well lemme say something
i got the proof to show all ur assumptions 

like what’s more to lose
i got no time off barley buy shoes
i liked to drown myself in booze
but nowdays I’m better of without the juice

let me say something w/ halfhearted & greenwood (sorrowbringer)

lyrics⬇️
listeing to everything around me
I don’t eavesdrop i just hear my surroundings 
i wish i had someone to say that they were proud of me
but thats unrealistic i only make enemies
Try my best to find out where i should go
all i have is hope in my head
but im still feeling low

dont make me turn away
sheer luck finna fill my veins
no chance that im gonna change
horrible everytime im in my brain
affordable atleast im making a lane
adorable i used to used to think was ur face
now when i go out i feel like a pain
never thought id be the batman to bane

but truthfully im still on track 
but idk whats going on in my head
i hate when they say they that i slack
but maybe theyre right cuz im in my bed

well i wanna just do my own thing
ill write on the wall in red ink
maybe the words are coding
for all of the ways that i think

and i miss the feeling i felt when i had a drink in my hand and a hand on the wheel
told you you dont gotta fear
i know whats good;know how to steer

he’s probably making a bag
she probably misses him bad
well probably isnt true; its barley even half that

unrealistic (soloft)

[Intro]
Yeah (Woah)

[Verse]
Live inside of a cloud (Cloud)
Smoke a little while for the loud
Momma get mad if I smoke in the house
It's likely these swishers all over the couch
I'm moving up and it don't make me proud
Spotify soon, I'm just lazy as hell
Weed of waverly place got me under a spell, no Ian Mckellen
Speed like Sonic and I can't slow down
Hit me, gold coins fly out
You trash like GFL (GFL)
You pop a couple xans, zoned out and speaking code HTML (HTML)
Keep talking that dude I peep your page and [?] like Taco-Bell
Don't need to drop yo addy, I'll google earth it
You stealing all your bars like you google searched it (Searched it)
Why do some people talk that shit on twitter
Then you hit them in the DM and they block you from their searches (You blocked now)

[Open Verse]

9TAILS - oookay (prod. jaburd)

[Intro: 9TAILS]
Yo (Yo)

[Chorus: 9TAILS]
Shit way too real
Overloaded, I forgot how to feel (Feel)
Mental forcefield of high grade steel
Show me how you work, baby, looking like a meal snack
Girl whatchu wield, weapon defection, you kill me with feels
Cracked (Cracked), open exposed
How you look hot when you fill me with cold (Burr)

[Verse 1: 9TAILS]
Touchin' the toes
Locking the door when I'm packing a bowl
Don't let me go, I'll tell you the facts
When I say I love you, I love you to death (Death)
Look at your breath
Why are we freezing outside in the back
Get in the bed and she biting my ears
Take control of my head and just play with the fear (Fear)
Got her singin', phone ringin', no time for the loved ones
Stone cold like shogun, like Austin
Bad bitch head of Princeton, got a clout hit list
Miss this, I don't really do long distance
Washed up rappers lookin' like dishes
Witness, the birth of a wave
Come with the ammo or you get erased (Erased)

[Chorus: 9TAILS]
Shit way too real
Overloaded, I forgot how to feel
Mental forcefield of high grade steel
Show me how you work, baby, looking like a meal snack (Meal)
Girl whatchu wield, weapon defection, you kill me with feels
Cracked, open exposed
How you look hot when you fill me with cold (Fill me with cold)

[Verse 2: shattered]
She's always chasin' weed
Yeah, she be a fiend
Hope on any dude that says he's got some speed
She gives neck for free after she had told me
I broke her heart in two, I'm bugged and I get through
When I blow up, will I see you again? (See you again)
I knew you bitch, I'd drop that dude giving head (Giving head)
I know that you wish that I would be dead (I would be dead)
But I hope you know that I already bled
Level my brain, I'm so numb
I can't feel a thing, my eyes start to bleed
My heart turns to black, I can't even attack
I can't even believe what you've done to me
Heart palpitations, my room of carnations
The breaking foundation of this creation
Feeling like Goku, now I'm Super Saiyan
Get out my way, I don't care what you're sayin'

[Chorus: 9TAILS]
Shit way too real
Overloaded, I forgot how to feel (Feel)
Mental forcefield of high grade steel
Show me how you work, baby, looking like a meal snack (Meal)
Girl whatchu wield, weapon defection, you kill me with feels
Cracked (Cracked), open exposed
How you look hot when you fill me with cold (Fill me with cold)

9TAILS - vision (ft. shattered)

lyrics ⬇️

hear me out gimme two more days and ill be clean
double down 2 more days and if not then ill leave
trouble house, i feel like the destroyer of peace
a couple hours then ill be right where i wanna be
a lower power always tellin me that i should give up
but i dont wanna quit it cuz it was just a hiccup
i never wanna miss it i never wanna mess up
i know it could get better but i do not wanna fix it

and im sorry that i really took the long way home last night
roll the window down and feel the breeze

and im sorry that i smoked another bowl last time
cuz i felt like i couldn’t really breathe

somethin in my head
it make me believe 
they just want me dead
get it out my head

hear me out i dont wanna live this life now
turning down opportunities to hide out
ive been missing all these things while i lay down
and im wishin i could change but its harder than it sounds
and il truthfully that id be better off without the drugs
what they do to me oh i cannot explain it to my bruzz
it made me beautifully ruin all my things and all my stuff
and what im contemplating i dont even know if i can budge
find a cemetery lay my stupid corpse into the mud
like in February when i got tricked into someones love
i cant understand, we were sharing everything 
and now your other man makes you look like youre a freak
i might have a disease
might be OCD 
i roll my other sleeve up cuz it dont look right to me
and then my heart skips a beat
i cant feel like im free
lately everything surrounding me looks like it just bleeds

hear me out gimme two more days and ill be clean
double down 2 more days and if not then ill leave
trouble house, i feel like the destroyer of peace
a couple hours then ill be right where i wanna be
a lower power always tellin me that i should give up
but i dont wanna quit it cuz it was just a hiccup
i never wanna miss it i never wanna mess up
i know it could get better but i do not wanna fix it

unrealistic (soloft)

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