Prod by soloft

I have more than enough

MOODFOREVER

my favorites pt 2

weekly 84

do it Alex gooo

New space

websitezero september '24

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SEX (Ft. Kami) (Prod. Kami)

Nature's Experiment - Cheater

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Cheater (prod. Soloft)

soda pressed ( so depressed ) // prod. soloft

produced by soloft and lavendertxwn
mixed and mastered by mvø

I try my best to let go of the things I can’t control
This constant state of finding things to hold to when I fall has gotten worse 
I wasn’t perfect, maybe I deserve it 

The sun coming up is not the same since you left
Yeah, it’s hard to accept that everything I’ve come to love now hurts me
Should’ve never said I was you one and only
And still I try my best to breathe slow
Say you love, I was nervous, so I stared out your window
Never knew someone could make me feel this low
No need to talk, I’ll just go

Tried to make you happy I won’t leave unless you say so
Never wanted me but I was there when you got low
Switch up on the scene I see you act like you don’t know
Don’t care if you’re fake don’t hit me up when you’re solo

And I don’t really have the words to say
The ones to make you stay with me all day
Never thought you’d ever make me feel this way
Just let me go cuz now I can’t stay

no need to talk, i'll just go w/ flowers for you (prod. soloft x lavendertxwn)

wish I could get back time
wanna exist without you on my mind
I put the blame on myself 
too often I ignored the signs 
Might’ve cared 
sorta there 
why’d you do that? 
now im scared 
cause now I think everyone’s gonna move like you do 
im aware 
I wasn’t perfect, just wanted to show I was worth it. 
to you, I’ll never deserve it.
what a shame that you never wanna take the dive 
Wonder why 
Still want him and I’m not surprised 
Still in love with the way he lied
guess you just don’t want your scars to fade away
Everyday feels like a maze
stay freaking out 
Don’t know what about 
Damn I wish that you had stayed 
Could’ve found a way to be okay
my friends say “give it time” 
just wish you hadnt wasted mine 
For so long, thoughts confined
Always said I was crazy 
But damn I was right
You really didn’t have to do that 
as much as I wanna say “that’s too bad”
I can’t go out without seeing you in everything
and it brings me back 
youve always said forever 
should’ve really just said never
I’ll leave the details out 
just hope that he don’t lose his temper 
still don’t know what to do
still don’t have the slightest clue
jokes on me, I just wanted it to be you

you really didn't have to do that (prod. soloft)

What's the point of being in love
What is the use of feeling numb
I never asked for much, All I wanted was your heart
I guess I'm not the one, I'll never be enough
My Lonely broken heart
you knew this from the start
I'll never be enough, for you 

will she stop and hear me sing, will you turn and run away
I've been crying out for her, but you don't want to stay
Boy don't turn out like me, a worthless waste of space
I don't want to live, I'm so sick of empty days
I used to want to spend my time reinvent my life for the better
Ever since she left I don't have to drive to do any better

Never Been Enough (prod. Sorrow Bringer)

MY HEART MATCHES THE CONCRETE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISMFvsAGj38

its not you its you nd me
hidden in the leaves
look at where we are theres not much that you cant see
tell me where to start i don't mean to intervene
im just what you need and not rhetorically
moving accordingly and stacking this bank roll
oh watch me dangle and walk on this cable
join in the light show its better w eyes closed
roll back in my dome and ask how my night go
say its alright tho i knows its concerning
hope that im learning won't end up deserted
properly furnished end up in a nice home
been through them nights long enough we don't like those

its not you, its you and me (isolated) [video in description]

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

spotify.

shiver. | Produced by septfree

lyrics: 

lost all my hope 
lost all my hope 
down the same road 
"fix up" but I cant
look at my bones
look at my bones
sailing on fear
the thin ice is breaking 

hate on my soul 
hate on my soul
wither then perish 
its dark, but I hope
I waste into dust 
powder; my heart 
I longed paradise 
but I tripped from the start 

oh how did I get here? 
how did I get here? 
blood on my palms 
from etching the scars 
my breath is so shallow
I'm falling apart 
I'm falling apart 
let me corrode away 
loosen your grip I'm fine 
loosen your grip

fix up [prod king theta]

outside ghost . heart farm

nobody listens to me 
watching as everyone leave
ill be here falling to peices
outside for autumn to see
I cannot see thru the madness
theres too many secrets to keep
ill meet you out by passage
ive hidden a sword in my sheath
see im grittin my teeth
waiting for problems got somewhere to be
But everyone fake
yea i cant beleive
were all struggling underneath 

yea under the surface
youll find a purpose
its not picture perfect but
my lord gimme courage 
so i promise ima stand up

Its like every night every night every night i cant
understand really why
i cannot stick to the full plan


wonder why everyone lookin at me
i might throw up right off the balcony
anxious and idk how i can keep
walkin around when everyone follow me
why am i paranoid
washed like a janitor
never take steroids 
but i got mad at her
Hurt in my chest
whip in a challenger
i can adress 
ive got a lot learn

one minute im gone
next minute im next to you but
after you hear this song
you know that everything i said was true

passage (cxrter x cobalt)

@lilskeleskrrt

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i haven’t been waking up fast enough
i’m too naive for something like real love
i don’t even really know who you truly are
at least it feels like that from afar

so tell me everything that you've been hiding
a faceless volunteer that left me writhing
i’ll be in my room so please don’t mind me
the worst part of it all is the deciding

whether or not you’ll even
be here tomorrow
you've given me blades
but i guess they were all borrowed
the lies that you’ve spun
you hid your last smoking gun
don’t wanna know how it starts
just know you fractured the hearth

wait
for a second
i need to catch my breath
take a step and
realign myself
with my intentions
i forgot how to think
yeah it’s impressive
the way i read your mind
no obsession
i just had a hunch
it was expected
no matter what you do
i’ll still accept it
you’re still half of my genes
i can’t resent it

baseline elevated high, i
wrote this to remind my
ego to abide by
the rules behind my eyes, i
fell into a state of shock
amassing so much writer’s block
i thought my hands had time to thaw
now i focus on every flaw

would you hate to be so weak?
would it tear you up limb to limb?
has it ever occurred to you that i'm
lost at the beginning, no?

[skele]

hold on to you
so tight it hurts
i can’t let go
i can’t make you worse
this isn’t what i asked for
give me a sign
that you would’ve kept my
heart sore
leave me to die
gave you a little
don’t have more
i’m out of time
i can’t move on for
a reason tonight
it comes from the hearth
i wish you could see the sparks
i made for us

[zoltar]

i been waking up at 4 a.m.
white lies got me stressed again
internalize all of my anger then release it
through a pen
i’m so sick of second chances
you heal with a small bandage
how could you jeopardize a life,
a wife, a holy marriage?

and i won’t ever make the same mistakes as you did
i know you’re in my blood but i’m a different human
plus i can air out all my grievances through music
i lost the man that i revered through shit excuses

i cannot handle the things are given to me
i thought i was strong but i’m so fucking weak
feel safer in sadness, i hide my exterior
peace is so boring but i feel inferior
i’ll be returning whenever you’re hurting
cause you’re still a part of my family tree
suffer through poems, i gotta get goin'
just don’t forget to leave the light on for me

hearth (ft. skele)

lyrics// 

youre unbothered when i walk by 
and you only waste my damn time
 i dont think that we can do right 
no chance im not waiting for this green light 

[chorus]
cuz u said u loved me just stop the bluffing, i try so hard
to you im still a deadbeat 
nobody can love you like i did girl 
my bodys been broken im brittle


but ill never say i never let u down 
u were half the reason that i got out of this town
guess ill never get it back huh?
4 months and you left me in the background
aint it funny how we go seprate ways
and we turn right around i swear we never change
and all i wanted was a soul i could save 
u just rot and decay 
six feet inside my grave 
and i would ask you i know u dont listen
if its too much a hassle i’ll go back in the basement
it’s hurt that you’ve discarded the picture that we painted


[chorus]
cuz u said u loved me just stop the bluffing, i try so hard
to you im still a deadbeat 
nobody can love you like i did girl 
my bodys been broken im brittle

[vito]
you call and call
embrace the fall
back to the wall
is where i belong
and i count every second your away
my memory of you has fade to grey

i can pull myself back in real time
lie and say i feel fine 
iv been on a decline 
wish that i could rewind
and take it back to you and i

[pre chorus]
all we ever do is run
and fess up on our broken trust
i wish that i could be the one
iv been tripping on your fucking love

brittle w/ VITO [cxrter]

my first jerseyclub song with @mannyily enjoy

Luv It Feat. Mannyily *OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS*

I Turned 24 And Im Scared

self prod
guitar by hiraeth
<3


in ur own ways
tell me where u stand
no. its not 2 faced
dont understand? :)
is all that you take
left the way u found it? 
now this i cant shake
not this, i doubt it

Maybe on a different day
You’d have been nice to me
Maybe in some different ways
U formed apologies
If the weather was a different type 
Would u still be with me?
Cloudy, with seafret in sight 
Does that mean anything?
its the way that you are
i thought you loved that i hated myself, not to mention
my critiques are poor
theres nothing left in this hollow, ashen and hes tarnished
to
no ones support
i probably could do more
baby watch me fumble, every chance i get in love
im
cutting down my line
is that what you planned for my life ?
its clearly out of spite, youve done it 3 or 4 more times

shake w/ hiraeth

WAYAHEAD feat. halfhearted (prod. maysmusic)

I set the stone of the love that I know
and its all coz of you
never let go
coz your all that I know
and I need you

your perfect
your worth it
don't be hurting
u don't deserve it
like I don't deserve u

its the little things that I catch
itching till you rash
and i can help you love
don't you hurt no more

its okay
don't you hurt no more
its okay
don't you hurt no more

I set the stone of the love that I know
and its all coz of you
never let go
coz your all that I know
and I need you

ill be the light in your darkest time
let me be the one to hold you and you'll be just fine
your eyes say it all when you're inlove
the heart says more when you're close

(its okay
don't you hurt no more
its okay)

need u

This a dark road I laid a path and you don’t even like it
Backwoods, I’m looking backwards under my eye lids 
Light up, I light it up, I inhale just to try it
Now I’m smoking 4 or 5 a day and I don’t buy em
Load up, I’ll grab a gun and cock it at my target
Steady hand I pull the trigger, just so I can try it
Aiming bullseye, point blank, how am I standing
Put it back between my eyes and twitch before I fire it 

This six shooters got more then 1 bullet 
It’s hitting 0 it’s hit in the green
And all my bets placed 4,9 and 13
This roulettes Russian it’s not very
Clean 
My body’s fearing the worst I can’t 
Breathe
I saw you with another guy and I 
Screamed 
How many more until you stop being a slut 
Close ur legs just to open em up

And that really isn’t even half
You had to block me just to get in his car
It’s annoying that you don’t say it with chest
Window down I bet he’s kissing ur…

What id do oh what I’d do to anyone who ever tries it 
Molotov his bedroom 
Pouring petrol on his carpet
I’m gonna rip him from everyone that he loves
Stainless steel around his neck
I’ll put a knife in there and plunge
Stop being a narcissist baby I need some love
Like just a little more, then what I’ve already got
Anything is better than what I have
Please don’t neglect me I’ve had all that 

This a dark road I laid a path and you don’t even like it
Backwoods, I’m looking backwards under my eye lids 
Light up, I light it up, I inhale just to try it
Now I’m smoking 4 or 5 a day and I don’t buy em
Load up, I’ll grab a gun and cock it at my target
Steady hand I pull the trigger, just so I can try it
Aiming bullseye, point blank, how am I standing
Put it back between my eyes and twitch before I fire it

stainless steel

hexdrinker

homies

Pass me, I don’t where I’m going
Should of asked me before, now I can’t show it

It’s half three at night
It can’t be morning yet
Go to sleep my dear
It’s not like I could yet
Pull me out of here
I’m in a hole of regret
Don’t highlight my fear
I’m not over it yet

There’s cracks in the pavement, I’ve been walking on 
Hold me up, outside 
I’ve been waiting for so long

Don’t get annoyed when this morning was fine 
Keep your hold on me, leech to me tight
The person that I am is no worse than the one I was
Somewhere in the winter I lay
Hibernate way too long 
A part of me died
I’m hosting funerals
It’s partly in spite 
So you can watch my body decay
Rot infront of your face
And I’m sat checking my list
Just to remember your name
Though it’s partly in spite 
It’s mostly in vain

It’s half three at night
It can’t be morning yet
Go to sleep my dear
It’s not like I could yet
Pull me out of here
I’m in a hole of regret
Don’t highlight my fear
I’m not over it yet

3:30

lyrics⬇️
listeing to everything around me
I don’t eavesdrop i just hear my surroundings 
i wish i had someone to say that they were proud of me
but thats unrealistic i only make enemies
Try my best to find out where i should go
all i have is hope in my head
but im still feeling low

dont make me turn away
sheer luck finna fill my veins
no chance that im gonna change
horrible everytime im in my brain
affordable atleast im making a lane
adorable i used to used to think was ur face
now when i go out i feel like a pain
never thought id be the batman to bane

but truthfully im still on track 
but idk whats going on in my head
i hate when they say they that i slack
but maybe theyre right cuz im in my bed

well i wanna just do my own thing
ill write on the wall in red ink
maybe the words are coding
for all of the ways that i think

and i miss the feeling i felt when i had a drink in my hand and a hand on the wheel
told you you dont gotta fear
i know whats good;know how to steer

he’s probably making a bag
she probably misses him bad
well probably isnt true; its barley even half that

unrealistic (soloft)

thanks to notahero for his beautiful verse <3

lyrics:
scorpio:
im sick and tired of the way things have been
im feeling something breaking within
all these cuts surrounding my skin
called out for help now im hearing sirens

did this to myself, but its not my fault
couldnt get help, nobody picked up my calls
its like that pain i felt didnt matter at all
paint the room red and watch it drip from the wall

they hear what im saying, but are they taking it in?
i cant do this alone, feel like ive got no friends
this the last time, i cant do this again
i tried the best i could i guess
cant look at my body, its covered in sin
i cant lie to you, you know what i did
razerblade went straight through the mid
how it was right? i was just a kid

i needed you here but you couldnt stay
hope ill see you there by havens gates
yeah, i hope you hear everything i say
every time i visit your grave

notahero:
i hope i say it right cuz i can’t even tell if i’m talking and it’s fucked
i’m running out of drink cuz i think she running out of love
if everything just boils down to not knowing enough then what do i even try for
i call it self love
you call it embarrassing and i should give it up
i’m just tryna alleviate the stress that’s piling up
and lately it’s like breathing oxygens just not enough
sometimes i feel like crying cuz i know that i-

scorpio:
did this to myself, but its not my fault
couldnt get help, nobody picked up my calls
its like that pain i felt didnt matter at all
paint the room red and watch it drip from the wall

they hear what im saying, but are they taking it in?
i cant do this alone, feel like ive got no friends
this the last time, i cant do this again
i tried the best i could i guess
cant look at my body, its covered in sin
i cant lie to you, you know what i did
razerblade went straight through the mid
how it was right? i was just a kid

Heaven's Gates (feat. notahero)

deceitful (feat. ghoul_001)

// mace
go ahead and take it off
that mask wont help you find what you lost
so don't be scared and take it off
those scars you're hiding don't define who you are

tell me what's on your mind i wanna make you
feel like you're alive i wanna take you
somewhere that we'll be fine and we can break through
all of the doubts in my mind that you have made true
you're all i need
you're everything to me

// geist
i felt the kindness as it left my soul
looked in the mirror, didn’t know who i was
i lost my patience but you lost yours first
i just can’t deal with all the back and forth

and it’s okay if i don’t make it out
i’m happy with all that i have done

i’ll keep the mask on until i die
i don’t let anyone see me cry
but i let my guard down in front of you
and you just watched me as i bled right through

i like it better when you’re off my mind
don’t get me wrong oh my health's on decline
i swallow feelings just to be alright
cause i search for words but i just cannot find
what could i say
when everyone around me is fake
just keep the mask on
honestly
don’t want to see your face

insincere

spotify

insincere w/ ohmace [tnvr]

end of the rainbow (prod. hrpr)

ty amo

lyrics
 
with those beautiful eyes i’m wondering how u see
with that shit u said on sunday wondering how u sleep
and the more i smoke i feel this kush push me in my seat
and the longer that we fight i feel the less we agree on
and u think that i’m a star
i got my hands in my pockets
u got your hands in ur hair
u know there’s no way u can stop this
i’m not rlly there
can’t tell if i’m even talking
but i rlly care
it’s been that way since i started

n ur so pretty if only u knew that
felt my heart grow in size and then it split right in two halves
u pulled me back together baby how’d u do that?
ur my love n everybody knows
it’s my fault but who’s that on ur phone
u lay ur head on my jacket now makeups on my coat
give a monologue but it’s slurred words like i’m speaking in a code
i hit the road
anything she say goes
she say she worry bout me
think i’ll comatose
it’s all in moderation baby plus i’m a pro
hope u don’t fly away from me cuz i hate the crows
i hate how it goes

i hate when you look away
open up those sunny eyes when the skies are gray
get so lost when i take walks in your iris maze
just don't forget my microphone when you throw me away
there's so many roads
and where they go i don't know
i hope you dig a little hole for me inside of your soul
cupids nice with a bow
he hit my heart with arrows
and they all point right to you
they point right to you

n ur so pretty if only u knew that
felt my heart grow in size and then it split right in two halves
u pulled me back together baby how’d u do that?
ur my love n everybody knows
it’s my fault but who’s that on ur phone
u lay ur head on my jacket now makeups on my coat
give a monologue but it’s slurred words like i’m speaking in a code
i hit the road
anything she say goes
she say she worry bout me
think i’ll comatose
it’s all in moderation baby plus i’m a pro
hope u don’t fly away from me cuz i hate the crows
i hate how it goes

clementine w/ kiddamo (king theta)

ON ALL PLATZ
ft. @devins_world

LYRICS:
Reminisce, we still have our remnants
Losing my perspective give me something sentiment
Aiming for the bullseye but every shot just tends to miss
Every time i roll by i always reminisce 

Looking back how life used to go
Boardwalk cows eating ice cream cones
life moves us in different directions
Every wrong move a valuable lesson

I aint perfect, bitch i aint saint
Despite my inner wishes perfection is just something that i cant obtain, but neither can anyone, if they claim that theyre bluffing, we all make mistakes even we think they mean nothing

We live to our own accord but this is not honda
Chevy cobalt not a ford, this shitbox will haunt ya
Red chipped paint and i bought that way
Everything including the dent is just the way it came

devin:
Ex like diamond and pearl 
I got my turtwig and squirtle 
Cuz I’m well rounded as fuck 
But there’s no way to unlock 
perfection that we want today in this day in age 
I Hate that idea wish it would go up in flames 

Miss the times when wore 12 on back just like I’m Tom Brady
Slinging the rock around my back yard and going crazy 
Yea I Could’ve sworn I was like a rod just ripping homers
Wish these times had never passed me over

Reminisce ft. devin's world [prod. ryan kelly x starshow3r]

prod by Liminaldream

blink, im 24
theres still things i cant be rid of
i think i could do more
feeling younger than i am

fell distant from my friends
things felt different on my end 
i feel my stomach sinking when

standing over a hole i cant fill
going nowhere, im at a standstill
this october, it weighs like anvils

and i could last 
this december
find my flame 
in dying embers 
find my passion
and it wont change how fast im aging 
i cant take it 
i cant

blink

3 days no sleep everyday it's bad news 
Didn't wanna let em go but I had to 
I was alone in my room last June 
Pop a couple n pass out in the bathroom 
Takes my pain away But that how it grabs you 
Scars on my body yeah wear em like tattoos 
Wanna fuckin end it but don't wanna give you bad news 
The biggest lie I've heard is I love you 

If I don't stop these drugs are gonna kill me 
But it's all love being sincere 
I feel different now but I promise that I'm still me 
My biggest fear is what I see in the mirror
Shadows of who I was demons tell me that's the real me 
I want love n happiness ideally 
Cry alone when Noone is near me 
These drugs help me hide my feelings
Do I have I voice is there anyone who  hears me  

Closed off numb inside 
I promised that I wouldn't die 
In all honesty it's a lie

3 days no sleep everyday it's bad news 
Didn't wanna let em go but I had to 
I was alone in my room last June 
Pop a couple n pass out in the bathroom 
Takes my pain away But that how it grabs you 
Scars on my body yeah wear em like tattoos 
Wanna fuckin end it but don't wanna give you bad news 
The biggest lie I've heard is I love you 

Mirror (prod.elisxxv)

Revisit in time (prod. The sound clown + tiedforsilver)
Voice over from Lil Peep . May he rest in peace ❤️
Hope you enjoy. Vails.

Lyrics below:

I’m afraid
It’s time I left this city and never once look back
I’m afraid 
Of the people I’ll upset 
But I know in the end they’ll all understand 

It’s been far too long
Hiding in my shell I think I need to come out
It’s been far too long
i miss being happy 
So maybe next time
We can revisit this song 

Watching rain drops
Fall out my window
feeling glum
No innuendo 
Will it get better from here ? I hope
Will i ever stop shedding tears? I guess nope 

I’m afraid
It’s time I left this city and never once look back
I’m afraid 
Of the people I’ll upset 
But I know in the end they’ll all understand 

It’s been far too long
Hiding in my shell I think I need to come out
It’s been far too long
i miss being happy 
So maybe next time
We can revisit this song 

#sadrap #emorap #rap #sad #lilpeep #emo #hiphop #emotrap #soundcloud #music #rapper #soundcloudrapper #emorapper #trap #sadtrap #beats #gbc #newmusic #gothboiclique #juicewrld #alternative #sadraps #liltracy #producer #darktrap #guardin #xxxtentation #bhfyp #goth #sadmusic

Revisit, In Time

lyrics//

wrote a letter to you 
wrote the date
signed my name
saw in the news
they finallly locked that man away

i dont wanna be the one to talk 
abt the problematic things
used be the one you call
when somethings wrong
but now we don’t agree

mama never learned
my dad tried his best but it only left him burned
sorry that it hurt you
yeah i stayed up every night 
asking “God what is my worth?”

but its all good
its a part of me now
im awful, just a face in the crowd
i wish you were proud.

so i drink another bottle by myself
sick and tired of the feeling that iv felt
said im lying but i know the truth
it’s killing me so im killing you

we were never ones to play it right
and 
i was never one to be aligned
feel the blood flow right into my visine
theres two sides to the silver lining

problematic [idly blare]

lyrics

im fighting off something violent
ive gone deaf from ignoring the sirens
i never know how strong i am until im so close to dying
think imma store some energy so i can make a song
and maybe if you opened up then i could right a wrong
this feeling in my chest enough to make my stomach gone
its like the world hate me, looking up like oh my God I-
know you want something better than me girl im not stupid but i lost my-
touch after i touched down from that hospital after i blacked out for the first time
start burning the sage
i dont think its fate that i met you
but im thankful that you stayed
i think youre one of the few

drugs pick me up
lately i been getting fat and crying too much
i gotta get up off my ass and make a song
remember we was driving by them big houses and im thinking to myself "i want this for us"
ill make a song with my friends
i still got that blindfold on im jumping off the fence
i cant wait to pour up
said i cant wait until we fucking blow up
but you still bump my songs thats why i love you so much
so i know that its all in my head
i know that youre all in my head
i know that its all in my head

im fighting off something violent
ive gone deaf from ignoring the sirens
i never know how strong i am until im so close to dying
think imma store some energy so i can make a song
and maybe if you opened up then i could right a wrong
this feeling in my chest enough to make my stomach gone
its like the world hate me, looking up like oh my God I-
know you want something better than me girl im not stupid but i lost my-
touch after i touched down from that hospital after i blacked out for the first time
start burning the sage
i dont think its fate that i met you
but im thankful that you stayed
i think youre one of the few

God I-
know you want something better than me girl im not stupid but i lost my-
touch after i touched down from that hospital after i blacked out for the first time
start burning the sage
i dont think its fate that i met you
but im thankful that you stayed
i think youre one of the few

i think ur one of the few (p. ryan kelly x jolst)

i shut myself off, dead
ion feel nun at all
til my eyes cry red
i feel dead by default
til i'm drained out, bled
i still take all the fault
you can blame me instead
i should take all the fault

i never call, we never talk
i never wanted that, i swear
i swear it's off, i swear we're still the same, i thought
thought we'd be over this, i swear it's all my fault
it's all my fault. i always act like i forgot

bitch i'm way more than pissed off
i got fifty in this drum inside my pistol
i'm so close to breaking my streak, cut my wrist raw
i pray to this sawed off, how i hope it blow your lips off

this bitch so psychotic, almost lost it, ion give a fuck
i could kill you right now where you stand, like is you down or what
i hope that you understand that you're way past just fucking up
i know deep inside you're so depressed, lil bitch just suck it up
swear to god bitch suck it up

we're on different pages
but the same book
i'm waiting
for you to find out
what i did, i'm impatient
i should show you
its ok, i'm still sorry
i thought we, had an understanding
i'm sorry

suck it up

Produced by https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
mixed/mastered by https://soundcloud.com/demxntia
Lyrics:
I feel washed up again on the shore...
Said I wouldn't stray closer to the water
But you keep pushin' me further in
Baby I've never really felt this sure
But it feels I'll wait for you forever
If I hold on it'll hurt even more

I'm standing on my own but is it ok if I hold my chances?
Tell me what's temporary and what stays permanent.
Temporary, permanent we keep on shifting surfaces
So who you tryna fool right now?
If you're not stayin' just leave right now
Can't feel you now, Losing my grip now I'm fading out
Couldn't hear my voice even if I shout
Tell me what's next for us baby
You hear it in my voice, Can you erase me?

I feel washed up again on the shore...
Said I wouldn't stray closer to the water
But you keep pushin' me further in
Baby I've never really felt this sure
But it feels I'll wait for you forever
If I hold on it'll hurt even more

Baby I've been overthinking
See the blood from the thorns on the roses
If I tried could I let you go now
But the memory of you stays permanent...

What Stays Permanent (prod. killedmyself)

prod/mix - fats'e

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good at being lonely pt II

Produced by tundrabeats

Lyrics

I thought I moved on, thought I forgave
But the shit that you done still stuck in my way
Tried to ignore and I tried to escape
But I still think about your touch everyday

Still think about what I could of changed
You were the reason my soul got saved
I try to find love but I retreat to the fact
That I know no one else is the same

Maybe that's good that you're one of kind
But I swear on my life you won't get out my mind
I thought I let you out but when I walked away
You were standing on the other side

And I can't lie, if you came back
With all of the knives in mine
I'd still have yours, because I never lied
That you were the love I was dying to find

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high

Fuck it, I'm stressed again
I don't who you been messing with
I thought that you were my medicine
But it don't seem like you heaven sent

But for your love I'm hellbent
I'm so selfish, I want you all to myself
But it don't seem if that's it
So I think I'ma just take you to my little hell

I think my mind gone bad, I'm so sad
You think you leaving me? Not so fast
"Yo shit man, why so rash?"
I guess we all want the shit we ain't have

This ain't aesthetic, it's fucking pathetic
You think it's a trend, you gone fucking regret it
I can burn all of you down to the filter
I say the words of a mouth with no filter

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high (x2)

pathetic aesthetic

Why are you crying (ft. YungADHD) prod. soloft

my therapy
-3 song EP w sad chill out now on all plats 💚

unrealistic (soloft)

brecken