chronological order lol

collection of songs put into a playlist for lit times

$udzy$crap

Scrap

my first time ventilating my brain with music made me overheat and now i need fans or a cooling tank for my brain.
i made the beat on soundtrap.com for free pls dont sue me, i need money for a new car );

can i get rgb fans for my brain?

(zoloft) i take back all my time I lied but i can't go on
Whyd u say those lies to me
i dont wanna push it so hard to go on
I swear that u were the not the one tho
U swear that u were so true
Not everythingis black or blue
($udz) i don’t really care about noth’n no more
ion really care what the day got in store
for me
cuz all i’m really do’n is selling my soul
just to sleep just to live how long can this be?
how long can this be
it’s just like a bad dream
but i can’t wake up
wake up
gotta go
sell your soul again
shit
i should have stayed in bed

check out my friend zoloft here 🤙
https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/w7CLrcfkQCb4SJS5A

should've stayed in bed w/zoloft [Prod. @STARBOYROB + BROOKEBEATZ + PRODBYCOLORADO]

lyrics
($udz)bitch im the suds from the shadow realm 
out the sink gonna wash you away way
no sun can burn the clouds hang’n over my head when i’ve had a bad day day  
say all you want like twenty questions 
but  this world i cannot stay stay 
made up my mind or at least what’s left of it
 it started to decay cay

if i knew it’d be like this i would’ve stayed in the womb 
tomb
all im thinking about is doom 
soon
agitated 
ya know you instigated 
this situation 
mass devastation 
reunite pangea 
tear it apart again 
god’s hands
sudz’s will
(MOTHDUSTER)
Averted coped, 
diverted kitchen sins
That bitches whipped cream covered nippled limbs 
Stuck inna loop that runs in my head
Like my downstem 10
I’ll snap till I’m dead,
Wanna cover my face with a hatchetsen 
Gasoline, syrup matchboxes for parents heads 
A cardboard boxer and a metronome to keep my pockets safe 
I’m no fucking saint
Ask behavior health 
They’ll say I did it with a belt
Jack n’ 24 with no more 
Ask me what’s wrong and I don’t know
I do the stick n’ poke
x2 I do the inking you do the bleeding x2


https://soundcloud.com/user-606813790
https://soundcloud.com/mothdusterr

Omen ft. MOTHDUSTERR [Prod. poison pond]

mixed by my friend zoloft. check him out https://soundcloud.com/zoloftmusic (:

beat prod by sorrow bringer https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCtk0rtkTTpOGqnIX9W68vIQ (:

LYRICS:
what’s the point in run’n if the race is rigged
is it insane to keep going on
cuz things are getting bad each day ain’t look’n better
i’m pretty worn down get’n beat from the weather

feel’n suicidal
stress floods in like a tidal..
wave
waves of happiness are short and they wave goodbye only to come back once a blue moon
moon
illuminate my night
give some light for my eyes and my heart
cuz this stress is heavy and it’s burning out my wick
wicked thoughts are all that remain

like blowing out their brains so their screams heal my pain
i’ll frame the stain
i’m done with these charades their fake smiles and parades burst with grenades

shrapnel flying
loved ones dying
mother’s crying
my eyes are shining
hate is blinding
always grinding
my art is smiting
demon’s dining

lap23 [Prod. sorrow bringer]

(zoloft) Take back I dont wanna go out like that
Sitting in the back I got so bad
I was in all black jeans stay strapped
Walk in worn out shoes u can stay mad

I dont need no fake friends stay back cus I'll b playing shows in LA rad
Nd one day ill b on tour with the right pack
Smoking what I need, need some life pacc

($udz) i’m just skate’n
i’m just skate’n
you just hate’n
you just hate’n
for what?
i don’t even know
but you know
i be here
grinding in these streets
got you sweating in your sheets
cuz you see me with the blade getting my own way

still getting paid
making ends meet
like runners on their feet gonna cut to the chase
run up on me
ima make you blue faced
fast forward
 i’m with zoloft erasing your fate



check out my friend zoloft here (: https://soundcloud.com/zoloftmusic

ep with zoloft coming at the end of the year stay posted B)

black jeans//strapped w/zoloft [Prod. crybabycam x bello]

walking by w/ neph nd dgtl prod. jean parker X yago

check out majzkluani theyre super talented n various with the beats! https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8VWfguCs1-v1DTni79qd4A

check out brother chxngii too do not sleep on maguy https://soundcloud.com/christ-exe

quanch make a sc damnit

Lowkey Dokie Artichokie w/Quancher, Chxngii [Prod. MAJZKLUANI]

I COULDNT FIND THE PROD/THEIR YOUTUBE PLS MESSAGE ME IF U MADE THIS SO I CAN CREDIT U!!!!!!!!!


- ($udz)
$udz is sleepa
he’s dream’n of demons
he’s lucid scheme’n while he’s dodge’n the geeza
and no i won’t please ya
i rather you tease me
so i can be-seat you
talk back i bewitch you
i’m saying i’m through with it
fuck it im over it
don’t bug me now or i will be lose’n it
 give it a try
test it let’s die
putting an end to your bullshit disguise

(chxngii) vile-entertainment
sunshine white picket sign
nowhere to stand
whispers in the town we in
lets see who’s in your closet
skeletons yeah you all lost it
best on display for everyone
never scrapping out
passive aggression a tone
atone for the last night
when you beat your wife
and stole your sons escape
from a reality you create
i don’t know how else to convey
god serves best late
his greatest mistake
human pathologic caged cells
in the form of conscious evils
proudest amongst a crowd
that thinks they’re not going to hell

($udz) remember what you did does that ring bell
well whatchyu gonna do now
pray to god
you seem off
act’n righteous on your throne of skeletons
the guilt is bus’n in
my anger’s kick’n in
why can’t you see you’re a hypocrite
if you wanna live mindlessly might as well kill your self
there’s too many sheep like you
cant tell right from wrong
still you follow the script
i burn these pages
now we in the dark age
you contract unholy contagion
blistering and bleeding out
no god can save ya
$udz will take ya to the next life
best roll the dice

(chxngii) hell, what a relief
eternal suffering that’s in store for me?
hell, what a belief
eternal suffering that’s what they believe.

brother https://soundcloud.com/chxngii is fire run his shit up

skeletal throne ft. chxngii [Prod. ? LMK!]

i’m searching through these options but i cannot see a way out of this hell hole
each door is marked with blood stains
so it seems the path ahead i cannot change
demons sing to me they say $udz please won’t you stay with me
feel’n forsaken i do not awaken
im stuck in my tomb and my mind it be vacant
i’m casting this madness my smile be tragic
your eyes they be plastic you blind to this magic
 i see what you’ve come for i’m selling my soul
you are twisting these morals it’s starting to show
got resent in my mind and it’s starting to grow
while i carry your burden my heart turns to stone
i’m not okay and the angels won’t help me
so i’m turning to the shadows light’s diminishing
this never was my home always standing at forked roads turning back the darkness comforts me im staying here
gave up on life don’t wanna see a better day that shits the same as yesterday…
pain turns my heart black malice in my brain’s back clouding my vision my soul cracks
i’m searching through these options but i cannot see a way out of this hell hole
each door is marked with blood stains

- c0der n No Name Plug aredope go follow them https://www.youtube.com/user/uShUgEbL17qgkkj0T6q2
c0der


https://youtube.com/c/NONAMEPLUG
No Name Plug

hellbound [Prod. c0der x No Name Plug]

^-^ happy birthday chxngii ^-^

life comes to me in a dream
because you’re hidden within me
i don’t know where to go
i just know im not alone
and i don’t want to go outside
the world is getting out of line
no i don’t want to go
sparing her leave me alone

i cant be who you are to me
dumbing down the tragic parts of life
i think ive begun to understand why
everyones colors seem to lie
past present nonsense and no sense of right
hang on to these memories
hang on to my friends stories
hang on to a lonely fiends sense of therapy
dreams caught under rain
blood tear drop stain
clinically insane
please just let them be okay

talking about a type of love
a type of love for a type of life
that’s hurting inside
that type of love
never seemed to have died
cause i know got no reason
at the end of the night
it isnt my right
to say what i got say
to make myself feel alright
ill just keep inside
keep inside the words
cause the words i got say
i want to say left her with nothing else to say
no response for the rest of our days
sometimes i want to feel gray
but that’s not how i felt that day

x's for u's [prod. puhf x 5head]

[zoloft]
I cant stand up on my legs 
Ivebeen tired all day 
Thinking abt the darkness i cave 
I was off something I cant say
When I talk i feel lost 
When yr here I dont know 
Why am I still going wish the snow would stop

[chxngii]
What the fucks the point of this
Lets sink to emptiness
Life as an abyss
Its the struggle that we try to find
Why we’re granted this time
Some would rather die
When others couldn’t even try


[zoloft]
Throw out the window everything u dream of 

Sorry I couldnt even fucking try 

Wasted my whole fucking life 

When i think about it wanna cry

[chxngii]
Rivers sway into the oceans decay
Nature heals with life’s blood 
Mother and Father without desire
Lead to lost children meant to fend for themselves
Cowards in their flesh 
We don’t know the struggle they possess in them
Silenced as a burden

[zoloft]
I think I sholdve killed myself 
But I just way to scared of hell
The devil really wants my soul 
But no Im never letting go

[$udz]
why can’t you let go 
why can’t you just let go
there’s something stopping you from letting go 
let it go let it go 
take a breath and just let  go 
air flushing out my lungs
i let it go 
now i’m free
as bird 
there’s no shackles on my feet 
i can fly, this life was weighing me down 
too much shit in this world making me drown 

[chxngii]
what the fucks the point of this
we age to nothingness
i’ve found some bliss
it’s the struggle that we try to find
why we’ve parted this time
sometimes i’d rather die
by your side but you never tried

[$udz]

you should try to clean your mess up 
your life’s a wreck and it’s holding up the traffic 
your bitching’s got me so sick 
so please just slit your wrists
acting like you will but you just want some Likes

[lilxwes]
I can’t smile when I’m near you 
I’m sick of the thought I was ever about you 
I can’t breath when I hear you 
Say my name 
So just shut the fuck up right now 

Why am I even tryina do 
What everybody expects of me 
Once I follow through all they do is expect the worst of me 
Why don’t I get any sympathy 
Is it cuz I sat to long in my misery 
Is this how you treat someone 
Who’s fought hell n back 
To get what y’all take for granted 
And stay dismissing 

Fuck life 
Fuck strife 
I can’t sleep right 
I’ve got regrets 
Cut slow 
I’ll bleed right 

You fucking BITCH!






Hey thanks for listening! go follow the guys they did an amazing job on this track I’m so glad I was able to be apart of it 
Special thanks to chxngi for putting me on and to puhf for making this sick beat ONI UP MFR!!!
-sllick138 

Here’s everyone’s links!!!
Chxngii

📸: https://instagram.com/chxngii?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

🎧: https://on.soundcloud.com/7gxnhzdXCR5Hqx4N9


$udz

📸: https://instagram.com/c0rpsebleed?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

🎧: https://on.soundcloud.com/7149vMyJ6kffHm2H9


Zoloft

📸: https://instagram.com/the_frozen_enchilada?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

🎧: https://on.soundcloud.com/w2Atxt9n2fsE4vfZA

“ThisIsAStory” ft. zoloft x chxngii x $udz//prod. [puhf]

life keeps on stab’n at me it’s grab’n for my pockets
always bleeding out these bands 
gotta serve it to the man 
no silver spoon golden plate 
just a salvaged fate
 piece’n together my life
 tryna get it right but these hands are tight 
around my neck 
and i’m really convinced that it ain’t really worth the fight 
survival instincts off and i don’t think twice 
 if i die then i’m dead and i’ll have nothing to dread but instead i tread on a path i misread oh my god cut the rope and im hang’n  by a thread 
get the needle n sew me up 
cant control my feelings im blowing up
i see my demons i say what’s up 
they say 
hey $udz
why you holding back 
i wanna see your anger peak 
i wanna see them bleed 
commit onto them as done to you 
yuh 
what comes around goes around and will come back for you 
you know it’s true i could say it till i’m fucking blue 
but you go act’n how you do it’s got me see’n different hughs 
red blends together with the black in my heart concocting sacrificial art
killing all my feelings there is nothing in me
just a spine chilling memory of who i use to be 
it’s a glimpse from the past but the sunshine won’t last please don’t worry about me cuz i’m already passed

ketsukiyomi//thread [Prod. bughvvl]

im not even tryna live i just go with flow till i turn to a ghost 
necro 
next day commence but i already feel past tense life got the best of me 
fuck off 
i don’t wanna hear it got these sticks n stones n im down to show it 
okay 
gotta cope with pain so i spit on the days that i’m feeling all the rage
visions bleeding out again my brain can’t sense the daze im in 
so i’m scream’n at the world in vain punch 
myself in the face can’t feel the pain 
my heart is in a constant haze i ponder death but am not phased there is no light i can obtain disgraceful life i am a stain 
all my life amounts to is nothing 
all my life i’ve been looking for something 
all my life there has been no feeling
all my life just hang’n from the ceiling 
never 
thought it’d be this way 
reality checks in my mind is caving in 
stress cracks the concrete 
foundation crumbles to the ground
call out to the foreman but he ain’t around 
lights on 
but nobodies home 
just corpse in the room peeking out the window 
looking for a way to escape this limbo 
stagnant in my mind feel the pain in slo-mo

waiting [Prod. bughvvl]

lyrics:
I hate the way you look at me just save your fucking pitty 
all i know is pain and there is no such thing as healing,
lost all of control a hollow shell with no feelings

You fuckin with the wrong one
I’ll kill u slow and drink ur blood
ive never felt an ounce of love
you think its over i just begun
always unhinged
fall into the abyss 
i pray everyday but everyday i sin
sick in the mind a lil demented
try to move on but i dont learn my lessons
life ful of sin aint no place for me in heaven 
always gettin high and i always keep a weapon

all on my own stuck on the road
the darkness is my only home
im on a throne but nobodys there
i travel alone
nah, i travel alone.

fading on the deep end
take medication to not be yourself sad
burnouts on the east end
i don’t know where to go
burning out is all i know
guess my friends aren’t around no mo
it’s fine they can go cause we both know
that differences are still held in tact
lets sever and never look back
beauty is alive at dusk
sunset golden trust
beauty alive at dusk
black hole sever my trust

hellbound [Prod. c0der x No Name Plug]

sudz 🦇