Always Mine

A short compilation of early songs I planned to release but time got the best of me.
Most old projects are lost but they still mean something to me.
Enjoy <3

Dirty Blunts

Poser

woke up with my head all spinning
in ur backyard
doesn't feel like winning
i can hear the freeway from here
it's 10 am, nothing u said was sincere
are u over me cuz i can't tell
im not over u but i won't tell u
are u over me cuz i can't tell
i'm not over u but i can't tell u

i'm so dizzy from purple cups
my heart's telling my soul just how much i suck
i'm so picky it's not enough
for me to be happy i need way too much
late nite spinning on my king bed
thinking bout the times that i should be dead
are u over me? cuz i can't tell
im not over u, but i cant tell u

i can hear the freeway from here
it's 10 am, nothing u said was sincere

head all spinning
in ur backyard
doesn't feel like winning
i can hear the freeway from here
it's 10 am, nothing u said was sincere
are u over me cuz i can't tell
im not over u but i won't tell u
are u over me cuz i can't tell
i'm not over u but i can't tell u

spinning in circles (chill sebs)

lyrics:

If I pushed back on odds
Theyd scotch this boulevard
Right When this itch evades your arms
Ill calm your hopeless heart

The breaks come compound I couldnt save her
Times flips wayside scattering papers
Ive pieced back the excerpts found
A cold room red wine brewed by a stranger
My word wet tongue dries faster with anger
But these thought forms calm me down
For Ive drawn lines
In sand and silt
And split this life
So pick ur side love
For just this time
Its all on you
To do what’s right
And not what’s light load
U know My clipped down wings prevent ur fall
And air makes room to reverb ur calls
For I know life’s hard but it beats its pulse
So match up yours fore you’ve none at all
I see this Party had pushed forth mimes
They bring silence no one minds

If I pushed back on odds
Theyd scotch this boulevard
Then When this itch evades your arms
Ill calm your hopeless heart

the pulse of us (ryan kelly)

lyrics:

Lets go
I swear u take off the glasses and light up the park
You pick at my brain pick out the pain in fragile porcelain parts
How could I look at the bright side in the dark
U feeling my frame u touch on my face and worry become malark
so Where is the best spot to die at when life gets hard
Im tapped out
Im spilling my brain and your answer is steeped in sly remarks
How could I look at the bright side in the dark
U push at the small of my back and Im falling 170 yards

but I get u back in the worst way
U see my worst face 
Every time u look at outside in the yard
Arterial blood thick as toothpaste
How was the view with
My skull opened up like a birthday card
I think u raising the asshole bar
All this work for a condo and luxury car
Ill fire bomb u while u drive to the bar
Its a fire works show in the back the car
I will rip u apart and im not even high right now
Ill meet you on fifth lets just meet up and die right now
ya The building is empty there’s no where to hide right now
Meet me up top fuck it lets both jump down
48 floors 58 floors they passing me by right now
Im going fast but I stand on his back and I land on him skateboard style
He got his brain pushed out
Fuck it though I got my feet blown out
Even his shoes flew off
Thats how u know that he dead right now

Lets go
I swear u take off the glasses and light up the park
You pick at my brain pick out the pain in fragile porcelain parts
How could I look at the bright side in the dark
U feeling my frame u touch on my face and worry become malark
Where is the best spot to die at when life gets hard
Im tapped out
Im spilling my brain and your answer is steeped in sly remarks
How could I look at the bright side in the dark
U push at the small of my back and Im falling 170 yards


a hundred and seventy yards (eric godlow)

NoFeel

Viele Gedanken in meinem Schädel doch komme nicht voran,
Ich schreite ständig nur im Nebel und drehe Kreise schon seit Jahren,
Die Last auf meinen Schultern drückt mich runter obwohl keiner schuld dran war,
Ich trete auf der stelle reiß Wege ein auf den ich laufe,
Trampel Pfade selbst kaputt obwohl ich weiß dass ich sie brauche,
steh mir selber nur im Weg, und ich hab verlernt nach vorn zu schauen,
jeder Ausweg liegt so nah, doch ich trau mich nicht, ihn zu bauen.
Halt mich fest an alten Mustern, obwohl sie mich in Ketten legen,
will nach oben, doch mein Spiegel zeigt mir Gründe, mir zu mistrauen.

Hook:

Ich bin der fleischgewordene Wahnsinn glaub nicht dass du mich begreifst,
Wenn du mir in die augen blickst ist alles was siehst der Zweifel,
 
Part 2:


Blick  in den Abgrund und sehe zu wie weit mich es in die Tiefe reißt,
Jede Sekunde wird zur Prüfung ich beweg mich auf dünnem Eis,
der Boden bricht bei jedem Schritt doch ich geh weiter und  zahl den Preis,
Geh nicht ins Licht denn es zerbricht unter der Schicht ist nur noch Scheisse,
alles, was glänzt, ist nur Kulisse, Wahrheit lebt im Schattenkreise,
Schneide mein Herz in Scheiben, jede Hoffnung ist hier viel zu leise

part 3:


Schneide mein Herz in Scheiben, jede Hoffnung ist hier viel zu leise,
Schrei in leere Räume rein, doch hör nur Echos meiner Kreise,
Hab gelernt zu funktionieren, doch verlernt mich selbst zu spüren,
Trag Masken wie ’ne Rüstung, um die Leere zu kaschieren.
Gedanken rasen wie Sirenen, keine Pause, kein Entkommen,
Jede Chance stand vor der Tür, doch ich hab sie nie angenommen,
Hab mir selbst so oft bewiesen, wie perfekt ich mich sabotier,
Bin mein größter Feind geblieben, egal wie sehr ich’s reflektier.
Will raus aus diesem Muster, doch die Angst hält mich hier fest,
Jeder Schritt nach vorn fühlt sich an wie ein letzter Test,
Hoffnung flackert kurz auf, wird vom Zweifel direkt gelöscht,
Hab so viel in mir vergraben, dass es kaum noch jemand hört.

Hook :

Ich bin der fleischgewordene Wahnsinn, trag das Chaos in mir drin,
Meine Augen voller Fragen, doch kein Spiegel gibt mir Sinn,
Wenn du tiefer in mich schaust, siehst du Narben, keinen Glanz,
Ich lauf im Kreis mit letzter Kraft, zwischen Stillstand und Balance.

doubt

lyrics:

Well You could come by right now
I am not hard to find
Its just a right turn and then left at the lights
U know I’m an asshole and I’m not tryna fight it
If i had got mad right now
Well then everyone dying
face up
Like don’t fuck up ur makeup
Oh like what’re u so afraid of
I just packed some moon rock in this blunt and it took my face off
Baby this just my day job
And I’m convinced that I got aimbot
Oh Cause I keep making hits hits hits and I can’t stop


This shit really my job for u it’s a hobby oh my
And everywhere I go they go to
My dogs behind me oh my
And everywhere I go they go to
Even these words be bulletproof
Everywhere im at they come thru
Pink in this drink like majin buu 
I put a tab right on my tongue
How much is that like 2 plus 2 
Like how this night be so much fun
After the shit that we been thru
I go out and they show me love
I wish I could bring that in the booth
Cause it gets cold inside of here
And I think there’s holes up in the roof
I said
I came down again from my magic
Time moves slow so I appear faster
Ive missed home so much u cant fathom
Catch me up on life and what’s happened
Im Weighed down 
For I carry my name sake on me
Check now
It gets heavier the more they want me
Oh but Someone had to jump in the arena get em talking
Cause u gon spend the rest of ur life just watching

Well You could come by right now
I am not hard to find
Its just a right turn and then left at the lights
U know I’m an asshole and I’m not tryna fight it
If i had got mad right now
Well then everyone dying
face up
Like don’t fuck up ur makeup
Oh like what’re u so afraid of
I just packed some moon rock in this blunt and it took my face off
Baby this just my day job
And I’m convinced that I got aimbot
Oh Cause I keep making hits hits hits and I can’t stop

work night slop (sorrowbringer)

lyrics

eof:

yeah yeah yeah yeah i stayed
yeah yeah yeah yeah in that place
now i’m filled up with disgrace 
i’ve been sitting at a loss for words now idk what to say

you took my voice away
you took my voice away
i’ve been sitting in the silence cause i like the pain
and i like the rain
i’ll take that to my grave
you won’t know im serious til you see the color leave my face

b fr
b fr
did you know i was bein honest baby do you know the deal
ion do this shit for profit baby ion like how that feels
so why you reachin for my pocket baby whatchu tryna steal

march22nd:

we grew up way too fast
we swore we would last
i dont know
whats happening

now you watch my heart turn black
save me and pull me back
i dont know
whats happening

six long years now lost
what have i done to us
grind my bones to dust
feels just like your touch

im stuck in my head
my face is turning red
and i cant exhale
this weight off my chest

hope i find myself
in minding my neck
if i lose my cool
ill find it again

jadedloner:

you. took. my. voice away
i been sad sat in this place my phones off
i cant take the hate
im so scared i will see your face
and its really not your fault i think i overthink it yeah
something else is giving me these fears and anxious breathing
you were not the one but youre also not causing these dreams,
i hate to say it but i need to take accountability trace it back to me

eof x march22nd x jadedloner - b fr (alfie snapped x spaceboyry)

lyrics:

Thru smoke and mirrors I see sky
It breaks glass on the window
Where u would have thought
They’d swallowed it up 
And spit out night
Stand here in the limbo Its so fucked up
And Ive lost an arm but im alright
A harsh tax for the hero
Ill just bandage it up
Have me bite on a cloth 
And ill clean up nice
I swear ill make u proud
I swear ill make u proud

I know how they sound these songs of mine
Cause I was just like u
I wouldnt buy it at all
If I never had seen
It with my own eyes
but now i do like oh god i do
The war blimps light up these auburn skies
They drop napalm letters
I know u think me a fool
But ur a government tool
And they’ve told u die
And thats what u’ll do
I know thats what u’ll do

Eyes wide grip tucked
Main lined drug mutt
Cocaine zeitgeist 
Just crash the plane into em and blow up

Hellspawn
Snowflakes
Or is it ash clouds
Dropping on me
What has hit my tongue im seeing fall down
Last night I heard voices mesh into a wolf howl
But this night I heard nothing else but the wind howl
For everyone is gone and the environment has changed
Oh the boards wiped pawns and the knights saved face
Culled in just cause or a billionaires game, war
Call it what u want but the sights just strange

Thru smoke and mirrors I see sky
It breaks glass on the window
Where u would have thought
They’d swallowed it up
And spit out night
Stand here in the limbo
Its so fucked up
And Ive lost an arm but im alright
A harsh tax for the hero
Ill just bandage it up
Have me bite on a cloth
And ill clean up nice
I swear ill make u proud
I swear

hero tax (sorrowbringer)

i don't get along with my mind

New music out whenever I feel like it

spinning in circles (chill sebs)

Caramel

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