thx @777evil & @nokerbforever <3

Life is alway changing, youll find a new perspective
Im sorry that i did this, but that shits not respected
fucked up once we let it go, you fuck up twice and then it shows
That you never changed, and you never will
in me builds the rage, to the point where i could kill
put a bullet in your chest, watch the blood pour out and spill
I trusted you, you gave me nothing, i shouldve known, you were up to something
A second chance, we deserve it all, but people like you, put us all at fault
And theres nothing i could say, you didnt learn your lesson
Forgave you the first time, but i cant do a second

Choices fall, into a sick shape
Reminisce the times we fixate
On our broken souls
Swear i let it go
Every fucking second
But your failure it shows

evilmiku:
i can’t keep up with every single change
you try to make everything bad a game
all of these thoughts you planted in my brain
but i won’t go down from anything you say

NOKERB:
you would always pressure me to get shit done
lately i been wondering if this is all worth it
wasted my time on you, thought it was perfect
it was not, you was treating me so worthless
i wonder how long it all will last.. 
the choices fell!
you was treating me like trash
im on the edge of falling down
baby im about to jump

choices fall ft. evilmiku & NOKERB [prod. saint mike]

Produced by Carlby
Guitar by @irby134
Vocals mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Michael Venia @veniamastering

LYRICS
It’s hard for me to make peace with this
Can’t shake this sense of abandonment
You left me feeling misplaced
Like I don’t really fit in
You were a friend to me back then
But now we’re broken irrevocably
It can’t be mended
Who knows what went on in your head
The path you chose was selfish

But I stuck out my neck anyway
And I believed you every time you swore to me that you’d change
The path you chose could only lead one way
Towards your self destruction and an early grave

But what about all those you left behind
At only twenty-five
That’s too young to die
To put your vice above your life
That’s suicide

Listen on Spotify!

Misplaced (Prod. w/ irby)

laid down in Hollywood
puffin on that gas, get fucked up no i really shouldn't
its so hard just to get by, i swear i really could
where cuz at
straight right down the road i swear im swerving, in and out for good

does she mean that?
when she gone late out at night, givin me heart attacks
i swear we moved too fast
but its alright i guess
i dont need to blend in, im my own man

pumpin up my gas again
you really thought i laid here, like all day
all day, ill be working on myself like all day
no breaks, no narcotics in this shit like i been past that
i dont mean pass that

Toronto in the city gotta wait in line, again
wait for phone calls, opportunities to come by, on set
dont you call unless your ready baby, ill hop right in
why you buggin bout some chick i havent seen in months again

laid down in hollywood
puffin on that gas, get fucked up no i really shouldnt
its so hard just to get by, i swear i really could
where cuz at
straight right down the road i swear im swerving, in and out for good

laid down in Hollywood
puffin on that gas, get fucked up no i really shouldn't
its so hard just to get by, i swear i really could
where cuz at
straight right down the road i swear im swerving, in and out for good

ion need trouble
ion need no bass here
why the hell you even bother
when i already ask
do you mean that?
do you mean that
laid down here, hollywood

laid down in hollywood

with @decksmusic

[intro]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep

[chorus]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

[verse - decks]
and when i look underneath i'm the reason i rot in hell
i did all i could to help you, never helped myself
i wonder what it would take now to flip it all month
these visions have plagued me i'm tripping
say what you're feeling cause i know it's different
you'll never wish me well
no you'll never wish me well

[chorus]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
you’re like the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

[outro]
i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i don’t wanna fall down onto my knees
but you make it so hard for me just to breathe
i try hard to float but i’m falling in deep
and i wanna go back to the place that i sleep
i go insomniac cause you’re still in my dreams
and you give me heart attacks when i try to gain peace
the ghost of my past that stays haunting me

oni boy x decks - zzz (prod. idealism x Lucid Green)

prod. shinju x krave
@safeatlast

[kill breanna:]

ive been distant
FUCK all my bros swear to god they on my hit list
FUCK em! ion care bout no bitch cus im above em!
they was half there, never really cared, i bucked em!

dont go there
dont type that
lets hope this aint a site pack
i heard you hate me, homie, bite that!
if you plan to mess w me, ask her, "she bites back!"
im aiming for my destiny and nothing fuckin less..
I KNOW I CAN NOT BE MYSELF, BUT ILL TRY MY BEST, YEH
I CANT TRUST MYSELF, AND I'VE BEEN THRU HELL SINCE EMPTYCHEST, YEH
need an AMG,
need an 2 seat,
need completion
i live my life behind the scenes,
like icarly bleeding!

[safeatlast:]
live my life behind the scenes im stuck behind the cameras
lil divine be switching up the flow they switch the genre
everytime i check the bank im seein new commas
lil divine gon switch the flow cuz oo that kid a monster

bitch this aint no rental
sesto elemento
fukkin up da beat thats why they say divine is mental

bitch this what im meant 4
ion need no mentor
sorry ion speak no more
bitch im sorry i been distant
 
[kill breanna:]

ive been distant
FUCK all my bros swear to god they on my hit list
FUCK em! ion care bout no bitch cus im above em!
they was half there, never really cared, i bucked em!

dont go there
dont type that
lets hope this aint a site pack
i heard you hate me, homie, bite that!
if you plan to mess w me, ask her, "she bites back!"
im aiming for my destiny and nothing fuckin less..
I KNOW I CAN NOT BE MYSELF, BUT ILL TRY MY BEST, YEH
I CANT TRUST MYSELF, AND I'VE BEEN THRU HELL SINCE EMPTYCHEST, YEH
need an AMG,
need an 2 seat,
need completion
i live my life behind the scenes,
like icarly bleeding!

wm1 w/ safeatlast

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @pekarot_161

LYRICS
All the places that I used to go 
At sixteen have now been closed 
2010 just feels so far away
And the house that I grew up in
No longer belongs to me
But I still belong to these
Midwest streets on which I cut my teeth

Have you heard the news
The shopping mall’s been closed
Vacant signs and boarded windows
A sad sight to behold
Guess it’s a sign of the times
So this is what growing old feels like
Saying goodbye to everything we’ve come to know

I’m getting good at saying goodbye

This town I call my home
Is slowly being overgrown
Taken back by nature
We’re all in danger of being swallowed whole

Overgrown (Prod. Horosha & Pekarot)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
These days
Everything means nothing to me
I’m not phased
Can’t help but feel
I’m living in a movie
I’m so sick of simply getting by
I long to take control
To truly own my life

For years I have waited for the warmth of the sun to come
But it never does
And I fear attachment
‘Cause I know that this won't last
And if I hold on to my heart
Then no one can ever smash it
Into tiny bits just like you did
I guess that’s what I get for being selfless
I won't make that mistake again

Because I gave myself away
Trying to paint a picture
That would make you want to stay
I should have known better
‘Cause it’s right in front of me
Everything I needed yeah

Phased (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

RAHHHHHHHH!!

lyrics

a fuckin waster
hiding in broad daylight 
every risk i take feels like a tazer
help me meet my maker
just please give me a taster 
the reflection to ur face 
know that u cannot be replaced

again yeah ive been thinking about my lake life
i just wanna hold u so tight
and stay up these late nights
fate dies every time im with u but i hate lies 
snake eyes stare at me they push and pull to break ties

a beaten stowaway no im not going back
to that cold place but know that im back on track 
to my old ways vision fades to black
its those dark days im not going back

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waster
im a waste of life

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waste of breathe
im a waste of time

a waster
just me and my ego oh it push and pulls
face it 
u had never been responsible

list of own rules
this drink so toxic ima cave
tonight i dont wanna be saved
jus feel love, 
love the pain

lights r out its dark
mayb its just me
id o my best to carry weight but this shit aint normal

fucking waster im just fucking wasting time
wasting breathe
i been here, been on 10
somehow almost 25
thought by then wouldnt be alive 
so ima just take it night by night
just wanna feel love tonight
baby its jus me and u tonight 
i want u to take my breathe tonight

wastrrr

wastrrr (branwen)

dont try to rescue someone who wants to be rescued & be careful rescuing someone who wants to be rescued
ohh ooo ohhh ooo
im the complete opposite of self sufficient
and i dont think that ill ever listen
momma used to say you better clean your act up
but now im out here in a room full of actors
and i cant tell what the fuck really matters
im tryna come up they keep kicking the latter
your glass filled half way well mines looking shattered
i can feel it in the air theres not much special
i dont wanna leave you let alone learn to let go
i just want the chicken cheese and guap keep the queso
fighting with you is like a war in the court room
and i lose every single time its a case closed
walking with my demon and i gave him my halo
standing on my business ima do what i say so

and sometimes i may feel like im an idiot
fuck it baby let em think that im an idiot
hold tight and we'll be there in a minute
pick a fight and jus tell me wen u finished
lately i dont like the person im becoming in the mirror 
i keep running i keep running i keep running it aint clear
and they say im close to something but it dont feel like im near
umm i cant even tell you how the fuck i got here
i dont ever think youll feel what i feel
i put blood sweat and tears in this bitch for years

unfinished draft i may or may not finish

There’s No Map for this

Produced by Mark Xenophontos 

Lyrics by Mark Xenophontos 

------------------------

In another world...
(Another world...)
I see you there...
(I see you there...)

I see you in another world
Your heart so pure, untouched by the wicked
Can it be so sure
That you live in the now?
In the chaos of this sound
Ringing inside the minds
Of the broken but breathing
(Broken but breathing...)

You see me like I matter
Though my world says I don't
You tell me I'm special
Though my world calls me a fault
(Am I worth it?)
(Am I worth it at all?)

Who gave you these eyes to see so long?
Though you're not here, I still hear your song
Like it matters, like it's sacred
I never knew it could be true
I fell so far, drowning in this pain
Is it possible to be made anew?
Made anew?
(Tell me it's possible)
(Tell me it's true)

She walks past me like a shadow
Yet you stand in mine
She calls me a fool
But you see the divine
These shattered pieces scattered
On the ground where I fell
But your voice keeps calling
Through this war inside
(Keep calling me home)
(Through this war inside...)

You see me like I matter
Though my world says I don't
You tell me I'm special
Though my world calls me a fault
(Am I worth it?)
(Am I worth it at all?)

Who gave you these eyes to see so long?
Though you're not here, I still hear your song
Like it matters, like it's sacred
I never knew it could be true
I fell so far, drowning in this pain
Is it possible to be made anew?
Made anew?
(Tell me it's possible)
(Tell me it's true)

Need to get back right with my father
Though it's still a long road to forgiveness
I know he's out there
On a heavenly throne
(He's waiting there)
But I could use the help, you know
I can't just fight it alone
There's mercy for the seeds I've sewn
(Seeds I've sewn...)
(I'm ready to come home)

Maybe she's still out there
Maybe she'll fly away
Maybe she'll never exist
But for your heart, I will pray
Who gave you these eyes to see so long?
Though you're not here, I still hear your song
'Cause yours is a heart worth fighting for
A heart worth fighting for
Worth fighting for
(I'll keep fighting)
(For you, I'll keep fighting)

Who gave you these eyes?
(Worth fighting for)
To see so long?
(Worth fighting for)
I never knew it could be true
(It's possible)
But now I know it's possible
(Made anew)
A heart worth fighting for...
(In another world...)
(I see you there...)

In Another World

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact