[intro]

Worst days
Worst days
Ooh 
No, no

[chorus] 

So I go
To the same old place that you know
And I wish that I could just hold
You inside my arms, cuz u know, u know, u know

[verse - flesh golem]

I've never felt this safe 
I hope you feel the same 
you wish I wouldn't go 
I know the feeling baby 

everytime that I'm alone 
I start disintegrating 
I can't take this on my own 
could you be my blanket maybe 

its a cold night
really haven't been this frigid in my whole life
baby could you let me in i wanna hold you tight
maybe you could help me get rid of this frostbite

i wanna let you know i got you if it goes bad 
and I'm still gonna love you through every rough patch 
and I can't wait I can't wait I can't wait till I come back to you

[bridge]

Worst days
I really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days, your worst days I’ll love you

[chorus] 

So I go
To the same old place that you know
And I wish that I could just hold
You inside my arms, cuz u know, u know, u know

[bridge]

Worst days
I really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days, your worst days I’ll love you

your worst days (feat. flesh golem)(boyfifty & autrioly)

https://soundcloud.com/irby314

https://soundcloud.com/decksmusic


you said it too many times 
to everybody else it’s got no meaning left 
I don’t wanna close the distance 
I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this 

(Decks)
i’ve been having a hard time adjustin
i don’t want it to amount to nothin
you unravel the spite and corruption
i know im stuck, whats the point in reduction
i, been holding on
nothing falling past the point
i took too long
i saw the problem with the story
all along
i wouldn’t have done that if i knew
how i was ending up
why? a troubled thought
gotta leave this fuckin town
i been here too long
if i heard what u had said
i wouldn’t be movin on
all the stars are burning out,
all my wishes gone
its far too often
my conscience
makes me regret the topic
i’m too anxious
over nothin
is this why im still stuck here?

murder the man but not the memory
east coast, now i know thats where they’ll bury me
far along the shoreline
i cant sit and waste my time x2


I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this

unabashedly bashing my head in ft. decks (Irby)

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lyr1cs:

u couldn’t make it up
i couldn’t if i tried
n i been stayin up
i wanna make it by
if i could grant 1 wish
i’d be right by ur side
look at the positives
i swear to god i’ll try

when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
i might be 0 for 3 but im keeping it steady
u know the pieces that prospered took years to finally be ready
and when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
i might be 0 for 3 but i’ll try if i’m able
i never saw the other side till i was turning the table

i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night

sun sets on the east coast when i’m
breaking away from pressure
mess with the sheets, don’t bother me
(its not like i have a choice)
digress, all the details piling up
tell me its not forever
test: all my patience, what the fuck?
(you know that you have a choice)

so when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
(you know that you have a choice)
i might be 0 for 3 but im keeping it steady
u know the pieces that prospered took years to finally be ready
(you know that you have a choice)
and when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
(you know that you have a choice)
i might be 0 for 3 but i’ll try if i’m able
i never saw the other side till i was turning the table
(you know that you have a choice)

i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night

bird's eye [flesh]

spotify & apple music!

Produced by @pekarot_161 & @xlhc
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
It's a hat I wear these days
It's just one of many
I keep a picture of you in my pocket
I'll commit this to memory
You are the missing piece I never knew I needed
But you fit in so seamlessly
And after all this time I still can't believe it
I found my family

But do I actually deserve it
I feel like a serpent
That slithered in to take
What is not his away
Impostor
I fear I'm an impostor
I shed my skin
I'm a monster
You let me in
Now I'm not sure if I can measure up

I'm not sure If I can be the one
To bear this weight on my shoulders
There's so much expected of me now
And I'm still tryna figure out
How to care for myself
While being there for someone else
It's not so easy
But I know that you'll be there for me as well

Listen on Spotify!

Dad Hat (Prod. Pekarot & Extra Large Holiday Card)

worry 'bout urself w/Bmurph [+gaxillic]

taylor swift cover
very personal 2 me
hope u enjoy
<3

august (cover)

music vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdMxIrKfnmo
prod tykun

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

and I just wanna leave it all in the past tense
No one used to hit my phone now it's all mass texts
They try to tell me Josh you can hook up with a bad bitch
and I'm like no she can just stick to using her lovense, fuck sex

And I got nothing to lose and I got nothing to gain
And all this boredom & cluelessness driving me insane
Feel like absolutely nothing when I'm not using my brain 
And I wanna go outside but no one hanging out today

Tired of being lonely no matter where I go
And I wanna move out then I'm like hell no
One little thing will turn me off and it's no longer a goal
I just hope that I will keep on getting stronger I suppose

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

And all these artists around me they tryna make an image
Sorry I'm not with y'all I don't do this all for business
I respect my boundaries and push myself to the limits
After performance I celebrate with a shake, like I'm grimace

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real
Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

flower field (tykun)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @pekarot_161

LYRICS
All the places that I used to go 
At sixteen have now been closed 
2010 just feels so far away
And the house that I grew up in
No longer belongs to me
But I still belong to these
Midwest streets on which I cut my teeth

Have you heard the news
The shopping mall’s been closed
Vacant signs and boarded windows
A sad sight to behold
Guess it’s a sign of the times
So this is what growing old feels like
Saying goodbye to everything we’ve come to know

I’m getting good at saying goodbye

This town I call my home
Is slowly being overgrown
Taken back by nature
We’re all in danger of being swallowed whole

Overgrown (Prod. Horosha & Pekarot)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
These days
Everything means nothing to me
I’m not phased
Can’t help but feel
I’m living in a movie
I’m so sick of simply getting by
I long to take control
To truly own my life

For years I have waited for the warmth of the sun to come
But it never does
And I fear attachment
‘Cause I know that this won't last
And if I hold on to my heart
Then no one can ever smash it
Into tiny bits just like you did
I guess that’s what I get for being selfless
I won't make that mistake again

Because I gave myself away
Trying to paint a picture
That would make you want to stay
I should have known better
‘Cause it’s right in front of me
Everything I needed yeah

Phased (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

prod. aesttc
♡
#edm #hyperpop #digicore

let me be your home♡

Big shoutout to @fleshgolem for mixing shizu's verse! <3

1st - @dylaanlotus
2nd - @strivemusicau
3rd - @shizukesaaa
4th - @noxious-nights
5th - @soulfadexo

Hold up, that shit my bad
Put that all on my back
I don’t get along with that bitch but I don’t fight back
Write a couple songs about that shit just tryna take the pain
Write a couple songs about that shit just tryna get away
Know that I can’t find a way to love without it hurting
Up in my head I don’t give a fuck you did me dirty once again
I’m done
I’m done
I’m done
all the times you said you’re numb

Tell me what the fuck is happenin
Everybody’s turned to savages
Half of you started panicking 

Twitching in the floor just let me drop
tell me I’m the one even know I’m not 

I guess
this could be the end
I guess
everything is for the best

How can I trust?
How can I try?
Establish my own in my timeline

Oh no
Now I think I’m running solo
I know I’m reaching for the end zone

Oh no
Now I think I’m running solo
I know I’m reaching for the end zone

eyes rest
wake up
dread cycle
fucked up, shouldn’t tell me I’m your idol
slitted wrist stupid kid, suicidal
only wish ion fold under my goals
bitch you really dont know shit ‘bout me anymore
so all we do is fuck and smoke, you’ll come and close the door
chilly breeze beneath us freeze the feelings left before 
forevermore severed connection as I hit the floor

I found my soulmate had to be far away
like the sky told me my smile has to be paid
hope the day I see you wont be too late
you keep telling me that you wont leave

I love you and you tell me that you feel the same
deep down I hate that im not really there
you know it doesnt mean that I love u less
wish u were here when you tell me to sleep

what did I do to deserve you?
what made you love me like you do m?
why do you think I’m the one for you?
I know I could be so much better

You thought I would play nice
Like following blind mice
To break I’m like thin ice
That I won’t suffice
It’ll never fly through
Why’d you feel so blue
You made it here too
I don’t wanna know what’s new
Gotta get the money, money
I don’t need you honey, honey
Even if you want me, want me
Imma get some bitches on me
And don’t you even dare
Why’d you even care
Even if you try again
We’ll be everywhere

savagery w/ dylan lotus, strivesad, shizukesa, noxiousnights & soulfade [+ splashgvng]

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact

Phased (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

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