Wow I really needed this thank you!🥹😪

this is amazing and beautiful you both killed this track love this ep reaction coming soon <3

had so much caspy music to catch up on 😭😭 ily bro youre so inspiring to me

luv yall <3
prod. ztope

lyrics
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long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

all already alone
so it shouldnt make any difference
but why cant u pick up the phone
n why is everyone distant
i speak and its hurt in the tone
i just wanted u to listen
this blunt really got me in thoughts
inside of my mind is a prison

long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

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nites

produced by branwen

completely non profit

lyrics

turn it up turn it up for another night
getting drunk on a sunday till the morning light
waking up in a monday in a strangers bed
i think i finished all my drinks theyre in my fuckin head

holy shit here i go again
i been off my meds for a while
n im a god again
i dont really know who i am
n im alright with it
at least im being honest
if it hurts then u dont feel regret

ur head will hurt in the morning
u dont give a fuck
shes kinda cute might as well go n try ur luck
she thought that i was 25 holy wtf
so this wont go past tonight idgaf

19 i make connections when in drunk until i break them when im sober
in my heart im older
i bleed from underneath the scotch tape thats holding me together
its forever

why waste my time writing all these fucking metaphors
im still in love with the person that i met before
gave her my heart n she threw it on the fucking floor
i find it hard just to trust cus in the end
fucked my best friend
said she wishing i was dead
u live in my head
both u n him
and its such a mess 
that u have left
that u have left
that u have left

(hero)

i find it funny how we repeat such a cycle here again
shits so toxic its obnoxious she refuse to leave my head
and im okay with that, as okay with being sliced in half
"i got a thing for artists" oh i want ur take on that
chugging octane to experience a numbness when she on me
stop me, id like to see u try oh u could never
sulfate to really rub the cut into my skin
with scotch tape to wrap the fatal wound once again

scotchtape & sulfates ft. hero (branwen)

not for profit

original:
https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson/lock-da-doors-samashi

love y'all, hope u enjoy
thanks for making this song king @sewerperson
shoutout samashi

lock da doors (cover) [samashi]

everything by me
thank you for listening
so much.

when the grass is dry
and never green
i contemplate what's happening
and who i was just other week
wonders why the fuck he felt so weak
letting water rise
and stumble down his cheeks
it gets a whole lot worse
when it's just a dream
for every promise i
just couldn't keep
i'll amputate your heart
so it won't bleed
i know it's not very often when we speak
i hope you know when we do
it's so comforting
oh, if i made up these feelings
then how am i still here?
and if the world is still turning
that's all i have to fear
i think that i've been in slumber
since last summer, but what made it end?
i've grown tired of conversations
it's like i'm brainless
(my thoughts go over their heads)
(their heads)
i hate that i get why you leave me dormant
i'm tired of feeling normal
it's horrible

amputee

<3 

tilting over like the pictures on your wall
i didnt wanna meet your mom and dad they didnt like me at all
somehow they liked me oh
down the line its you and me now that dont get along and
somethings arent always better than nothing
your love is like the ocean and i just wanna jump in
relationships and me they hardly ever work
im tryna keep my balance i just keep slipping first

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

oh oh oh
so is it important to you cause god knows this shits important to me
and i lost every part of me trynna be what they want me to be
theres a war inside my head lately i just want peace
so is it annoying i keep falling cant stand on my two damn feet
i tried a thousand of times im at a thousand and one
i wanna blow my fucking brains but i dont own a gun
none of this is fun

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

<3

disgusted with myself

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DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF [p. king theta]

prod. @pekarot_161

[casperrr]
nobody will love you as i do did
seeing u with some1 else makes me sick 
i wish u the best, but i feel like shit
hope u succeed in life while i can't even live 

(chorus) [casperrr]
on the ground i'm laying~
oh my heart is aching
all my bones are breaking
i only succeed in failing
all the songs i've been making~
they show what pain is

[casperrr & autumn]
ooh~

[autumn]
and they say i'll never change
just put that on my grave
not tryna resist this, but it's on my name
just calm down
you're aware of the wrongs that you did
so just let them run out
just not right now
just twist what you want, up until you fall down
i'm losing my hair
trying not to be scared
it took so much time to get where i am here
my knees to the ground
as well as my pride
the ones that i've hurt aren't good at goodbyes

so i stay inside
cause this home knows i
accepted what i've done
just not to that extent
oh how i was stunned from 
all of it

(chorus) [casperrr & autumn]
on the ground i'm laying~
oh my heart is aching
all my bones are breaking
i only succeed in failing
all the songs i've been making~
they show what pain is

casperrr x autumndropsdead - succeed in failing (pekarot)

prod. @pekarot_161

[autumn]
as i crash straight down from the ship i manded 
shit's been tough, i been tryna manage
sinking from all the sand i stand in
got no luck with the shit i'm handed

oh, oo, oh
my bones; they grow
so slow
in this body there's nowhere left to go

[casperrr]
nowhere left to go
i'm down on my own
i know death is close
cause i can hear all these crows

(chorus) [casperrr&autumn]
breaking, im shaking, im aching i stg
what did i do to be treated so terrible
nothing at all
u were my downfall
u got me addicted and then u ran off 
i'm sick of the pain
sick of the hurt
wish i was dead
if we are being blunt
roll me another 1 
pass me another blunt
it's the only thing that keeps me going on 

[autum]
woah, what's going on?
i don't fear no death, but my head is hung
oh what have i done..
shadows; they scattered and moved to the sides
the webs on the wall, found commfort in spite
my life's not canon to what comes much after i die

[casperrr]
with these spiders crawling on the walls
im breaking every single bone
suck my blood out of my body 
but promise u won't leave me for~

(chorus) [casperrr&autumn]
braeking, im shaking, im aching i stg
what did i do to be treated so terrible
nothing at all
u were my downfall
u got me addicted and then u ran off 
i'm sick of the pain
sick of the hurt
wish i was dead
if we are being blunt
roll me another 1 
pass me another blunt
it's the only thing that keeps me going on

casperrr x autumndropsdead - downfall (pekarot)

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[casperrr]
the marks on my body
make me remember
what everybody made me go thru
back in december

[autumn]
this all is my fault
it aint no surprise
i lean into the wall
and back intol ife

[casperrr]
my body is rotting
could u save me now
i can't stop myself from falling
but can u pick me up from the ground

[autumn]
im stuck in the rubble and ash 
to fly in a line is a definite crash 
stumbled across who i was in the past
hope i don't re-la-pse

[casperrr]
they all think im different
really whats the difference
i do have feelings
how can't yall see that

[casperrr & autumndropsdead]
ooh~

casperrr x autumndropsdead - back_in2_life (casperrr)

time goes over and over 
in circles it hurdles me forward towards destiny 
i know 
there’s no where left for me 
everyone’s dead to me 
but i keep chasing 
after 
falling faster 
everythings backwards
everything 
but there’s nothing left you can do now

nothings what it seems 
i been tearing at the seams 
getting lost inside these dreams 
and i know it’s not good for me 
i’m losing sleep
i’m feeling weak 
i’m counting sheep 
it’s like i’m somewhere 
inbetween both 
life and death but
i can see what’s going on 
and i can’t do a thing 
it’s like i’m paralyzed 
staring at the summit i have to climb 
i have to learn how to swallow my pride 
the pressure has me feeling buried alive 

time goes over and over 
in circles it hurdles me forward towards destiny 
i know 
there’s no where left for me 
everyone’s dead to me 
but i keep chasing 
after 
falling faster 
everythings backwards
everything 
but there’s nothing left you can do now

everythings backwards

everything by me
been working on a lot
seriously way more to come
hope you enjoy. 
thank you so much for listening.
your support means beyond any means to me.

i know i can't keep killing me off slowly
putting my dreams behind me
i find it so damn unlikely; 
remind me
quiet lifestyle, but defiled by this thoughts of mine
memories are heaven
'till you are what you forgot in time
don't care..
you don't care
you don't care, anymore.

i can see appeal
conflicted with the feeling
a burden on myself
it feels like i just killed me
get over that hill
down another cup of coffee
relive how it felt
to think, see, hear, and feel nothing

over-sensitized and ill
aye, when's it my turn to heal?
insinuate that better place you've always dreamt of only kills
until we fall and call it quits
by stone or gun that don't exist
i was here for all of this
(i was here for all of this)

i know i can't keep killing me off slowly
putting my dreams behind me
i find it so damn unlikely; remind me

how i got here, and who i am to stand by
'cause with fragile ears and hearts,
we've always been paralyzed, paralyzed
no wonder, why.

(killing me off slowly)
(putting my dreams behind me)
(i find it so damn unlikely)
(remind me)

all of this

produced by ztope and killedmyself
completely non profit

lyrics

ice and mud is giving way
its a waterslide

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time
the ice and mud is giving way
its a water slide
both my feet are swept away
guess its do or die
i just hope she feels the same
hope its u and i 

i guess these circumstances arent exactly normal, i can give u that
faint roads, the pain grows, always clawing at the scabs 
i play a song from my memory
something inside me still struggling
somehow i grip on the muddy reeds
nothing could take it away from me

i found shelter all alone
on a shore in freezing clothes
20 miles barefoot snow

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time
the ice and mud is giving way
its a water slide
both my feet are swept away
guess its do or die
i just hope she feels the same
hope its u and i 

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time

casperrr x autumndropsdead - succeed in failing (pekarot)

casperrr

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