had lots of fun working with sxdtune on this one!

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The Night That We Met (ft. sxdtune)

{part 1}
yeah we threw it all away at a record pace
years of building broken down in just a couple days
i’m zoning out and going numb up in the face
crying
begging me to change
but you know it goes both ways
losing everything is something i can’t take
smoking cookie tryna ease some of the pain
looking for an appetite i ain’t eaten in days
i’m fighting with my brain
you can see it in my face

codependent
self aware but i still hate myself til it’s embedded 
i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old

still i never hate you
if you need i’m here
the bond with someone else i don’t think it could compare
but i don’t think i can save you
i’m broken
it’s not fair
i could make you feel safe
running fingers through your hair
i know the way it feels to feel like nobody cares
and every time i think about it i feel guilty like it’s only me
i like to facetime when i fall asleep
so i know that you’re alive when you’re not next to me

i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old
leave a message at the tone
cause i’m all alone
soon as i walk out that door
i'm never coming home

{interlude}
you say that you hate me 
but i know you're lying
said you don't need me
but i see you crying
it happened so fast
throwing it all away
now that i've left
you don't know what to say

{part 2}
second chances aren’t the same when you bend the meaning
every chance another scar that formed with no bleeding
tensions always getting higher we both getting heated
if you love me better tell me cause i fucking need it
we hurt each other saw it coming from the start
i wish that it was easy but it’s really fucking hard
i feel your energy beside me when i’m looking at the stars
just two people living equal with another broken heart

codependent
self aware but i still hate myself til it’s embedded 
i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old

still i never hate you
if you need i’m here
the bond with someone else i don’t think it could compare
but i don’t think i can save you
i’m broken
it’s not fair
i could make you feel safe
running fingers through your hair
i know the way it feels to feel like nobody cares
and every time i think about it i feel guilty like it’s only me
i like to facetime when i fall asleep
so i know that you’re alive when you’re not next to me

i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old
leave a message at the tone
cause i’m all alone
soon as i walk out that door
i'm never coming home

nch

produced by 4lexf https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCiYzQlIUDoklHxtRC2Q6_OQ

written, performed, engineered by cavasoul

nch (prod. 4lexf)

who's gonna catch me..?

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falling right back (prod. ocean)

S T R E A M

letters2myself w/ A Distant Voice (mrmcchickino)

this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain
what have i done
i got pain in my lungs 
no space in my chest my heart confined palpitation
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
i’m wrong
for thinking that i’m the only one
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
what have i done?
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
from everything that ever did me wrong
what have i done?
everything that ever did me wrong
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain

run from everything that ever did me wrong (prod. hero)

LYRICS:

Love
Beautiful potent and toxic
None can compare
And you're unaware
That you've had it till you lost it
If love was a drug let me OD
Smother me in your affection
Withdrawals can you hold me
Let my heart synch to your lips and

Mama taught me to be cautious
Love is a word so strong that it
Can throw us down if we toss it
So I cross my heart and I promised
We fell asleep in that apartment
Broken promise my tongue slipped
I said I love you

The chatter stops
The needle drops
Life forever paused
The music starts
Falling stars
Upon her crimson arms

The chatter stops
The needle drops
Life forever paused
The music starts
Falling stars
Upon her crimson arms

Goddamn did I fall too hard
Is this how it's supposed to feel?
Baby were dumb and in love
No we're dumb and we're young
Pessimistic keep it real
Overthinking till it kills
Dopamine to send me thrills
Sabotaging myself
I'm worthless
No I'm working
On myself so I won't hurt and I

Push out the world just to close off my thoughts
While I measure my heart
Tryina weigh out the costs
I can't afford any loss
Maybe I'm just better off
Not knowing what love was
Than having a second to taste it
Cause if I never knew what love cost
Then how am I supposed to waste it?

The chatter stops
Needle drops
Life forever paused
The music starts
Falling stars
Upon her crimson arms
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Overthinking Pt3

written and performed by: @futoh
produced by: 4lexf
mix and mastered by: @futoh
———
don’t know what you’re holding on to.
———
lyrics:

girl you holding on to me, im yet to find out why,
i dont got redeeming qualities,
i barely go outside,
cant remember when you weren't here,
now i wish you weren't,
wish i could go back to simpler times without the torrent,
cause i seem to lose my grip again,
i cant take it,
when you go and disappear again,
dont think ill make it,
cause im feeling sick again,
caught up in whats not pretend,
wish youd go away,
but i hate when you with him again,
come back to my place,
we can talk about the little things,
at the right pace,
but i accelerate my heartbeat,
but you slowing down,
looking back i lost ground,
looking back i lost count,
of the times you said you over me,
yet you come back,
and im honestly so sick of it,
bout time that i consider it,
maybe we not meant to be,
we different like the land and sea,
living side by side,
but we always tend to disagree,
i never thought wed make,
both of us are jaded,
thats the only thing we hated,
we didnt wanna face it,
that we couldnt fix our faces,
cause we look into each other's eyes,
but the colors faded,
no soul left to heal,
just a wall made of steel,
protecting what is real,
from the fantasies of romance,
you were breaking down i could see it at a glance,
now i wish id left instead of giving you a chance,

tried to move on, but the time just stops,
im forced to look at pictures that ive kept in old socks,
i always wanna walk away,
but i never do it though,
yea looks like i lost my flow,
and i got no where to go
i dont got destination
yea just holding on to dreams i keep on chasing,
got no ambitions so no wonder i cant make em,
a reality where i can go obtain them
yea im losing myself,
by the day,
by the minute,
dig a deeper and then get caught in all the divots,
i got no game plan,
im just my own man,
praying every day, but i dont think i can,

holding on to nothing (prod. 4lexf)

produced by jonah bru

-lyrics-

tell me what u thinking babygirl i wanna know what’s up
take time to get to know u, never get enough 
last night in the city oh it had me high
nighttime on the highway doing 95
maybe one day i could change ur name
but for now it’s just us in the pouring rain
baby lock the door i’m tryna tryna play ur game
i’m tryna slide over baby give me a taste 
ayy

alright alright, i’m gonna waste ur time 
sunrise moonlight, we watch the world go by
it’s honestly so obvious 
u steal my heart, i steal a kiss like
alright alright, im gonna waste ur time

what we waiting for
babe u look so beautiful ur designer on my floor
u slippin in my tshirt, u gonna leave me wanting more
slide up on my story, “baby what u doin” i’m just sitting here being bored
i need ur company 
don’t u run from me
i wanna do this right
u are my ecstasy 
i wanna settle down 
change the scenery
swear u are the one
yeah the one for me
let’s go 

alright alright, i’m gonna waste ur time 
sunrise moonlight, we watch the world go by
it’s honestly so obvious 
u steal my heart, i steal a kiss like
alright alright, im gonna waste ur time

waste your time (jonah bru)

prayers (prod. autrioly) [spotify vers.]

this is an old song, but it means a lot to me.

verse 1

last night
wasn’t my best night
my wrist looking like i got into a bear fight
i’m kinda scared 
because i really don’t feel right
i mean,
is everything supposed to be this bright? 
i might past out this time 
and i’m having flashbacks of my timeline
yo, i’m thinking that these cuts 
are way too deep
please help me,
i don’t wanna fall asleep.
and that’s when,
i heard the call on my phone
so i picked up 
because i’m all alone
and you didn’t even know 
you were just at home
so i put it to my ear and said hello
and you asked me if i was okay
then i said no.
not really today
then you told me,
you were heading my way
how did you know that i needed a save?
i’m just glad that it wasn’t too late

(hook)
do you know why i’m a mess
i’m never out of bed
it’s all inside my head
and on the stereo 
a song i listen while i bleed
i hope i never breathe
the way you look at me
you see right through my sleeves

verse 2

tell me how you do it though
girl i really wanna know
it’s not like i’m that public yo
i’m never on the radio
you treat my sleeves just like a ghost 
how do you know?
can you see my cuts?
do you watch them grow?
if it wasn’t for you
i’d be six feet deep
i’m strong now
but i once was weak
you know i’m hurting 
when we still don’t speak
your eyes froze 
from the blood in the sink
i’m sorry that i put you through this
but i promise that i’m on a new movement 
i might fall 
but i know i won’t lose it
so i thank you and look imma prove it
yeah

(hook)

sleeves (prod. haruhi) [unreleased]

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