Get You Back (Thomas Reid, cøzybøy, Jomie)

Blaming Me For Us

Today, I realized I've been letting myself down.

Jan 17 (Excuses)

I Smoke To Cope

Down In The Dumps (feat. Jomie)

written by Lxst Boy & A Distant Voice
produced by mrmcchickino
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by Cavasoul

-lyrics-
(Chorus: Lxst Boy)
does she remember
the way she made me laugh?
i wanna text her
but i will get nothing back
it's harder than i anticipated
feel my chest collapse
i think i need a break
but i cant relax

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
save me
take control, don't
break me
turn the pencil upside down
erase me
what did i do wrong cause now
she hates me
oh she hates me

(Chorus)

(Verse 2: A Distant Voice)
every note that i would send
was a list of the dreams that i had in my head
but i missed all my chances, i’m feeling regret
now 
i’m 
thinking of how you would smile
you lit up my world
and it would took me a while
to stop feeling red
got my heart rate a hundred and ten
and you’re making it clear
i got nothing to fear
cuz now my end is here
all these letters i wrote to myself
were they meant for me or someone else
did i do something wrong to you 
making me seem like a demon from hell

(Chorus 2x)

S T R E A M

letters2myself w/ A Distant Voice (mrmcchickino)

written by Lxst Boy
produced by spencer hunt
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy

-lyrics-
(Verse)
take me back to the old days
don't get no wiser in my old age
fall down then melt like a snowflake
I'm never fine but that's ok
yeah lay me down when I'm at peace
I cant sleep, you haunt my dreams
I'm not that fun whenever I drink
but it helps write songs so I can sing
like what, taking it back
all of the lies, I'm taking them back
what was the price of hating me back?
the look in your eyes says you don't mean that
like how did you leave like that?
taking my heart making it relapse
yell at me but I'm not your dad
so I don't really care if you hate these tracks
you never cared to listen

(Break)

(Refrain)
take my soul, I
don't care baby
break my bones, I'm
never resting
x6

i stopped caring a really, really long time ago (spencer hunt)

this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain
what have i done
i got pain in my lungs 
no space in my chest my heart confined palpitation
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
i’m wrong
for thinking that i’m the only one
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
what have i done?
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
from everything that ever did me wrong
what have i done?
everything that ever did me wrong
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain

run from everything that ever did me wrong (prod. hero)

i ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
i know that i hate myself don’t need to see the words
i remember i had blamed myself for every time she hurt herself
it happened with the first but with the second it was worse
the deeper cut 
my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
i’ll never be good enough that’s something i have learned
crazy how the coldest person left me with these burns
and then in my time to heal it’s like there’s people taking turns
just to slow down my progress
i convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
i am no exception 
broken hearts and broken promises
follow me
traumatic memories are always haunting me
don’t pick up the blame to pour it onto me
like i always do
i’m not mad at you
because i been moving on and showing gratitude
i been smoking tryna fix my shitty attitude
numbing any feeling in my body through and through
and my memories are lacking any detail so i know that it’s working
i got a woman that i love and treats me better for certain
but the anticipation of finding what’s under the surface
it fucking kills me
but more because she doesn’t deserve it

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

oh the irony
oh the irony
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
(will you die with me)
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
(that's fine with me)
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

please love me, i’m trying my hardest (prod. 4lexf)

@sorrow x @mookigang x @thebootlegboy x @ohhaven - i wrote you

There was a time
When I thought
I was dying
There was a moment
When I was about
To stop trying
I was ready for 
Things to end
One door closes
And a new life begins
But something
Made me pause
Life’s about more
There has to be a cause
A reason for being 
For being here
A moment to stop
And make things clear
That’s when I thought
What about love
The love you’ve got
You know 
That’s still inside
Did you give it away
Or was it denied
Did you love as much
As you got
Or is there still more
Maybe even a lot
Left to give
And isn’t that reason enough
For you to live
When you’ve still got love
©2025 wr heustis

Still Got Love

@akumuh x @no.cape - met your mom at a park (prod. maxokoolin)

my main ig has been hacked. new ig @imstillawakeidiot

run from everything that ever did me wrong (prod. hero)

cavasoul