bro omfg you are the best to ever do it bro

dis shi fye

soundcloud.com/xternalz x soundcloud.com/mental

cover art also by me

[soundcloud.com/clay0127]
i dont want it taking over
lately its been getting hard to stay sober
got nobody who can hold me any closer
i fear youll see me ending up on a poster

ive been running after shadows of a dream i had
the silhouette fading doesnt make me feel less bad
i put my faith in somebody who aint had my back
bleeding in the rain, wont even face the past

waited on this for ages and it wasnt that
the future i was so patient for, it didnt last
ive spent some time away from you and im regretting that
it hurts when i open my eyes see you aint at my pad

three thousand miles away from my only one

my words cant do it justice
these pictures aint enough
i really think youll love it
if you stay here a month

[soundcloud.com/mental]
life keeps changing but my feelings never did
i've tripped over shit
i've cried like a bitch
i've dreamt of meeting with a kiss
i keep making these mistakes im just a kid
you know how to twist
my heart into bits
and pieces of love that i still miss
things have changed a lot
last year i was afraid of us
not quite your touch but the state of love
nothing like touching and making up
nothing like running away from stuff
nothing like holding your hand and face til
we saw the sun and the moon switch their places
holes in my heart and you're the explanation
i lost my mind trying to fill up the spaces

Three Thousand Miles w/ Mental [xternalz]

soundcloud.com/xternalz

cover art by me :>
x.com/clay0127

[words]
its time 2 find a new perspective
rearrange what ive neglected
take life in another direction
the feelings strange that ive reflected
on

im seeing all this mirror imaging of myself
and im afraid i dont know how to ask for help
i wanna give you a chance to develop yourselves
but ive been selfish and im sorry for the hand that i dealt
for so long
ive been running from the damage i felt
would go on
and the mental toll itd take on my health
its so wrong
and the only one to blame is myself
im not strong
but that doesnt mean you should have to

[drown with me]
[drown with me]

too frail
feeling helpless
it doesnt matter what you say im never selfless
rewriting history wont tell you what ive dealt with
i dont wanna scare you away with all my health shit
no nightstand, the pills are in the dresser
im always fucking tucking away what makes me lesser
cant stand it, its too much pressure
my peers they got me doin all the things i said id never
now i

Drown With Me [xternalz]

@pw4prez @arid @huntyomg @remedysnuts

i cant get away from the mess that i created
replaying in my head all day n i cant take it
your touch, your smell all these things i miss ab u
fall deep in hell really start to hate myself
againn
at this point it doesnt matter 
heartrate getting faster 
tell me whenn
when ur ready for me
yk i cant be perfect

@pw4prez 
she said i cant be perfect
baby can u tell me im worth it
we in the SUV , swervin
me and rico in the cut like a surgeon
i cant do no wrong
put the pain in my palm
even when im gone, she gon be singing my songs
i cant go with u, i cant fw u 
its a remedy, when you're with me i can't lose:)

@arid
yea would u love me with ur eyes closed
reaching still not breathing
on the edge saying that u would take it slow
i dont think i wanna feel it now
all my wounds here they got deeper how
on the right hand i wanna see u now
walk another mile just to see u cowl
left it all behind like a hand me down

i cant get away from the mess that i created
replaying in my head all day n i cant take it
your touch, your smell all these things i miss ab u
fall deep in hell really start to hate myself
againn
at this point it doesnt matter 
heartrate getting faster 
tell me whenn
when ur ready for me
yk i cant be perfect

imperfect +sochi & arid (sochi x hunty)

spotify link : https://open.spotify.com/album/0EjzzcuqjSHT3x4AZqPYG8?trackId=3zWeXirZCerIUfHjJ1cE3K
@decago @afterstoryx @remedysnuts
final push ep out next ❤️❤️❤️

###

its a message from me
and i send it to you
im sick of playing pretend 
when i know all you do

it all happened so soon
swear my body cant move
i know u want the whole truth 
girl these words for you

im at the same spot girl
but these feelings so new
i have the same scars girl
i cut them in for you

let my body break apart
i been here from the start
i could be ur one servant 
and bend to who you are

let my story fall out
what remains will be a scar
i rip my throat to call out

let my corpse rot out
tell me do you care now
when im on my back
tell me do you look down

let my body feel out
tell me if you feel now
(we can only look down)

to you (decago)

me n @ilyporo heartbroke gangggg 
shoutout @decago n @yashio20k !
lyrics:

@haunted_sad
u left me here n im not sleeping
u were the one that gave my life a reason
yeah u were the one that tore my heart to pieces
i wanna sleep forever i wanted 2 jus cry
u were the one 4 me u made me feel damn alright
but when u left theres this hole in my life
left me hollow bby i jus wanted 2 die

u left me in my head with all this regret :(( 
u left this hole bby jus in my life
thought we were a harmony ? thought id be alright
told me we were forever but now ur gone
u cant take back all the words u fkn said 
u wished me a terrible life yeah im wishin i was dead
ur laughing with him but i didnt care anymore
doesnt fkn matter cause imma die anyways (ill make sure its fatal ongg w)

@ilyporo
i knew u would lie
okay its fine :/
leave me here 
let me die
lie down (in my sorrow)
bet u think u won
left ur emotions aside 
but Im pretty sure u will never be happy as u were 

i was the right one
(the only one)
even tho u manage to fool me
ur worlds blew my head like a gun
cant take it back
ur pure evil...cruelty

@haunted_sad
u cant take back all the words u said 2 me
i treated u like u were jus my family
i cared for u i gave u a fucking home.
im goin back i wish i never met her

ucanttakebackallthewordsusaid w/ilyporo (decago + yashio)

@1akura @kyoakyo
<3

lyrics:

i saw your face there
in a place it didnt belong
have you seen what you've done?
is this all enough?

dont you care about yourself?
you know you're tearing up your health
all for the attention?
oh, whats your intention now?

i dont got anything to lose now
left that in the past with you
got no more chance to tear me down
i dont care how much you're breaking down

think it through
you can't touch my heart
i left it hidden in the dark
you know its over for you
its over for you

feeling is over
i know ur so hurt
but i wont get closer
no, i wont get closer

so tell me one thing
cant you tell ur running from what you owe to yourself
you never wanted help
you never wanted help

i saw your face there
in a place it didnt belong
have you seen what you've done?
is this all enough?

dont you care about yourself?
you know you're tearing up your health
all for the attention?
oh, whats your intention now?

i dont got anything to lose now
left that in the past with you
got no more chance to tear me down
i dont care how much you're breaking down

think it through
you can't touch my heart
i left it hidden in the dark
you know its over for you
its over for you

over

over (akura + kyoa)

backseat - artemys, yuske, karson

ty for the loops!
@ecromusic
@fungeey

prod & voc me

do it- i could fall in love

seen it- see right thru ur heart
knew it- how could i move on 
you were always who you were
n i wont ever be enough

enough- ur heart- ur an angel
light the dark for me
cos no-one else would give it up for me
its all my bad
couldnt thank you enough for everything
rest your head on me again

again x4

see right thru your heart (me, fungeey, ecro)

atmosphere by @navinor, ty!!
prod and vox by me

bit of a different style this time...

-

u js wanna be right
don't know what it feels like
u js wanna be right
don't know why ur so dry
tell me its a goodbye
hope u had a good life
i dont wanna exist
tell me- am i alright?

yeah i dont wanna-
i dont wanna know u
yeah i dont wanna care anymore
ill never wish for more

im a psycho? look into the mirror
im gonna cry like how u dont see that
im a psycho? look into the mirror
im gonna cry like how u dont see that

be right (navinor, me)

jasmine ft latif

all aside (prod. fubar)

A vote for my opponent is a vote for being cool with god 1.0 (ish) and 2.0 but not any 3.0 ever again

Liars X Our way (remix)

cover: @iral-tout-le-temps
prod: @robinici

Three Thousand Miles w/ Mental [xternalz]

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