You're not answering my texts now
Got me feeling stressed out
Thought that you were different
But you're just like all the rest now
I never said that I was perfect
Yeah I know I got my own shit
Told you that I'm working on it
But you're making me feel worthless
I just needed you to love me
Please don't fucking judge me
Spit right in my face and I still tell you that you're lovely
Let's pour another cup I don't want to give a fuck
All I think about is love and I think I've had enough

How many times can we pick up the pieces
How many lies does it take to believe it
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
That you're leaving
How can I forget how it felt when you loved me
How many shots till I stop feeling empty
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
So when are you leaving

We went on a heart bender
But I know that you'll push it till we break
Cut you off like I'm a bartender
But you're thirsty and I'm easily replaced
I can't be the only one who sees it
Just know I never asked you to believe in me
Your feelings changing with the seasons
So change your colors in October then you're free to leave
And I don't want to fall in love ever again, I'm too afraid
And no I won't put you above none of my friends
So you can stay away

How many times can we pick up the pieces
How many lies does it take to believe it
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
That you're leaving
How can I forget how it felt when you loved me
How many shots till I stop feeling empty
How many nights will you say that you're leaving
So when are you leaving

How Many Times (ft. Day Dreamer)

fats’e - I might call it quits (remix by CantKDyou[coldshouldersex’s friend])

original song by Hot Mulligan, I just wanted to cover it bc I really like the song

Guitar by King Theta

Shaylee, Shanel (reimagined)

produced by @hottubjohny

i'm pacing back and forth, my things are all misplaced
unaccounted for, something's gone astray
double check, i inspect
i can't explain where it went
i found a missing piece
i almost went extinct,
i couldn't make it without you
long lost friend, you were forgotten,
but now that i've found you

i'll keep you safe and sound when i'm around you
my world is spinning 'round, now that i've found you
when i'm around you…
now that i've found you…

it was lying right where i had left it; the place that i least expected
search high and low, retrace every trace
heard an echo call my name
the puzzles complete, the picture's refined. 
a piece of your heart, a treasure to find
finally, i've found the key and now that you're here with me..

lost and found (hottub johny)

lost//eyes (ft. woahsxda, swaine)

produced by me
guitars/etc by rjpasin

she walks the halls with a heavy heart
invisible to the crowd she plays her part
her smile as the tears she cries
trying to blend in but feeling denied

lost in a sea of faces
she roams alone
longing for a place that feels like home
but in silence
a whisper found its way
a gentle that led her astray
she found solace in his eyes
a beacon in her darkest hours
she saw the beauty in the flowers
he saw the beauty in her eyes
she tried to build a wall between them
the pain she carries inside
with every word he chipped away everyones lies

in his embrace she found her face
no longer silenced by the noise
he held her heart through every storm
no matter what came at them
they would always get through it
and thats the story once told 

(she walks the halls with a heavy heart
invisible to the crowd she plays her part
her smile as the tears she cries
trying to blend in but feeling denied
lost in a sea of faces
she roams alone
longing for a place that feels like home)

(piano/violin solo)

burden

losing my sight [prod. chrismarek]

belong

track 6
produced by our lord and savior @jolst
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
well i guess i should’ve seen it coming, it all had gone so wrong
but i didn’t think that this would be the reason for this song
and i know we had our differences but fuck i just can’t see
the issue here, i just don’t know why you had to leave

now its obvious,
it’s apparent to me at the least
that im losing it,
and im breaking at the seams
when its all just said and done
you fucked me over, its your loss
you’ll be wondering what happened
but there’s a reason i don’t let people in

say my name
you never meant it
i could be your romeo
but honestly, i’d probably regret it
“sorry baby”
you never said it
how could i expect you to
apologize, im so fucking pathetic

woah x4 lol

its insane to me to think that maybe i’ll get better
its hard for me to manage how i feel during this weather
every day just like the last,
my feelings for you came and passed
i lost you in the autumn leaves
i never thought you’d leave, but

now its obvious,
it’s apparent to me at the least
that im losing it,
and im breaking at the seams
when its all just said and done
you fucked me over, its your loss
you’ll be wondering what happened
but there’s a reason i don’t let people in

say my name
you never meant it
i could be your romeo
but honestly, i’d probably regret it
“sorry baby”
you never said it
how could i expect you to
apologize, im so fucking pathetic

i never asked for this

apology

apology [jolst]

i really don't like soundcloud

don't listen to my music on soundcloud: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/collidingwithmars1/the-dreamcatcher

written by colliding with mars, bearface
produced & performed by colliding with mars
artwork by colliding with mars
mixed and mastered by polearm
video shot and edited by adrelix

lyrics:
[verse]
Thank you notes came falling out your mouth
Never wished for you to see it, was never what we were about
Only color in your eyes when you look me through that blue
Now you're sinking 'cause the water risin' up around your collar
If you wish to call me over, I'd be right around the corner
I'd be in the water with ya, I'd be sinking with you
But you

[chorus]
I wanna run around I wanna feel like I am fucking dreaming 
Don’t wanna mope around and stare up at my fucking ceiling
feel like a comet and I’m ready to explode 
yeah I wanna leave a mark I wanna feel it in my bones

[verse]
I feel unappreciated but i feel I shouldn’t say a thing about it if I do it then what will happen I could be a king if I just open my mouth speak about what I should say I word and I will feel okay or will I really will I AAA

x2

I can’t be myself around you
What should I say when around you
I hate this shit I just wanna mitigate a flood from a village in danger or really anything else

THUNDERBALL FISTS

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don't listen to my music on soundcloud: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/collidingwithmars1/dont-talk-to-me-3

written & performed by colliding with mars
produced by colliding with mars
shot & edited (poorly) by colliding with mars
mixed & mastered by polearm

lyrics:

I THOUGHT THEY WERE MY FRIENDS BUT THEY DON’T TALK TO ME
DON’T TALK TO ME
MY         DON’T TALK TO ME
I WISH IT COULD BE DIFFERENT
GUESS I’M SCARY I DON’T WANNA BE
DON’T TALK TO ME
DON’T TALK TO ME

I THOUGHT THAT THEY ACCEPTED ME
I GUESS THAT I WAS WRONG
EVEN AFTER EVERYTHING CAN’T KEEP MY         CALM
I TOLD THEM THAT I’D        MYSELF
AND NO ONE SPOKE A WORD
IT’S NOT ANY DIFFERENT NOW
DON’T ACT LIKE YOU MISHEARD
YOU TOLD ME THAT I’M HOLDING BACK
I KNOW THAT YOU WERE RIGHT
ALL I EVER WANTED WAS ENOUGH TO JUST SUFFICE
BUT I KNOW I’M NOTHING 
NOT ONE PERSON TOLD ME SO
IT WASN’T IN THEIR WORDS BUT IN THEIR ACTIONS THAT HAD SHOWN ME
I GUESS I’LL ALWAYS BE AN OUTCAST
I WISH I’D GO TO THERAPY BUT I CANNOT AFFORD THAT
I GUESS I’LL ALWAYS BE AN OUTCAST 
YOU’RE FAR TOO FAMOUS FOR ME NOW AND YOU’RE NOT GONNA COME BACK

I’M SO ANXIOUS AND DEPRESSED
AND SO TIRED ALL THE TIME
IF YOU CARED ABOUT ME THEN I THINK YOU’D SIMPLY WONDER WHY

DTTMRMX

VERSION III artist | i’m also DAKOTA DOGMA

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DTTMRMX

Colliding With Mars